Conversations with God…..Cree’s Blog Entry

thank godDear God,

As I sat here earlier watching Creflo Dollar LIVE in Bible Study, he was saying some funny stuff about this lady who always prayed for him and LOVED to serve. Then it triggered a thought about you and I. LOL LOL I realize something. LOL LOL I cant stop laughing. I noticed that the 2-3 times I ranted in September about things in my life, and how I ask you when am I coming out of this wilderness, and why this and why that. But I noticed that every time I cried and ask you 1000 questions, I got instantly sleepy. I remember so clearly those times, in the middle of my rant, you said ” take a nap La’Crease”. It was so loud and clear… I remember standing up and walking around crying, and you said it again… “take a nap LaCrease”. But I sat back down at my desk… then all of a sudden… I GOT INSTANTLY SLEEPY… I couldn’t fight it. So I got up and laid on the couch. When I woke up.. I remember (((LOL LOL))) feeling so GOOD…. but I never pieced it together until now, that you caused sleep to come upon me ALL those TIMES. LOL LOL This is the same story for all of those times. You told me to “take a nap”. I did. lol Its amazing how Creflo’s story triggered me to think about this. I was so sleepy, that I couldn’t fight it… at all. And I can fight some sleep!!!! Now that I think about it, I probably was ON the thin line with my thoughts, anger, and questions. I was so sleepy, but I still wanted to ask you questions. Wow… that is so funny to me. I know next time….. just to go and take a nap

Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

Women in the workplace…..Cree’s Blog Entry

dramafreeSo, today I want to talk to the ladies….. men you can read this too. *smile*.

Why are women so full of gossip and jealousy? Why can’t we just go to work TO WORK… then go home to a PEACEFUL ATMOSPHERE? Because let me say this…. if you come to work as a peaceful person, trust me, your home is too. If you’re the type that’s ALWAYS in the office (((ABOUT ANYTHING))) running behind management, can’t wait for a break just to share gossip that happened… stop that!!! It looks a MESS. And please tell me why do (((some))) women do everything in their power to be SEEN. They have to talk the loudest, walk pass you 1000 times, tell everybody what they just bought, and make it known who THEY LIKE/ likes THEM in the building. The funny part is, the more I sit at the table and turn my attention to my phone, or stare in the air, the more they want me TO HEAR THEM, AND RE DIRECT MY ATTENTION TO THEM. NEVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

LOL So I say that to say….don’t give in to that type of pressure. Once you listen to one story, then you’ll be *invited* to all the gossip sessions. I don’t like that. Tell me a story… cool… but when it becomes a personal attack…I keeps it moving.

Another thing that women do….. ((((some)))) if they have a problem with a member of management or another co-worker, they will sit around a bunch of others who will listen to their story… instead of going to the person involved. Why do women do that? The people you’re telling the story too cant help you…. why even let anyone in on a situation that they HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO POWER to change? After a while the story becomes gossip filled, and full of opinions. Always go to the “root” of your problems.

I had an issue with a coworker last week, and when I went to her to address it…..she told everyone about it. Made me ANGRY… * but I did good*. If I wanted everyone to know, I would have told them first. I guess she did that because she needed someone to talk too…. but for me that’s a way to get me upset. Too many opinions, will geek up someone to say or do something they wouldn’t normally do. Anyway, yesterday was the last straw….she knew she was wrong, but still she feels “some kinda way about it”. She CRIED told everyone who would listen… so today she made some changes… and next week things should be back to normal. If I wrote out the story… YALL WOULD BE MAD!!! LOL LOL TRUST ME.

Oh well…. I just washed a load, about to chill before sleep. I’m making some chili for dinner tomorrow….haven’t had that in a long time.

Be Blessed

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Oh Lawd its a Fire…..Cree’s Blog Entry

buildingSo, yesterday morning I was just getting in from running an errand before I went to work….sat down at my computer and the FIRE ALARM in my building went off. I said “Oh Lord its a fire”…. this alarm was different than when the fire Marshall come out and do safety sweeps… if you are ever so concerned about YOUR LIFE…. you knew this was real. The security team came over the PA system LOUD AND CLEAR NO MUMBLE JUMBLE WORDS……. and said “please do NOT use the elevator use the stairways”…. you aint gotta tell me twice.. especially not about a FIRE. I just cant die that way Lord. So, I’m already fully dressed, I grabbed my car keys, my credit cards and I hot tailed down the stairs so fast, you would have thought I was in training for a marathon. Fire? I don’t play that. LOL

We’re all running down the stairs, I smelled the smoke but I kept it “running” lol. Once we got outside… I felt so bad for the elderly people who had to walk down the 22 flight of stairs. And its funny because when I first moved in the building, I wanted to be on the higher floors for the Detroit River/Canada View. I was a little disappointed that I forgot to request the higher floors, ….. but baaaaaaaby after what I witnessed yesterday…. 7th floor is FINE WITH CREE. LOL I’m good!

It was about 9:35 am when it all happened. After I got outside it was FREEZING especially living blocks away from the River….so I went and sat in my van. As I’m watching the firemen enter the building, you didn’t see fire or smoke coming from any of the apartments. Next thing I see and hear is windows breaking out. I looked up and counted the floors, and GUESS WHO APARTMENT IT WAS? Remember this story… https://lacreasewalker.com/2013/07/04/virgo-men-are-something-different-crees-blog-entry-virgo/ It was my friend I was writing about in my blog. It started in his bedroom… now I know he has an oxygen tank because he had pneumonia. Next thing I see is EMS taking him out on a stretcher, and to the hospital. I know my crazy Virgo friend gave them HELL!!! He was looking okay, it was probably his breathing. I’ve been trying to call him, but his phone ringer is turned off. I hope he’s okay. Even though all we do is argue…. we had fun and I want so badly to see him right now.

Here’s what I did * laughing*.. ..(((my nosey self))) when I got off work, instead of going to my floor, I went straight to the 9th floor to see how his apartment looked…..if I could. When I got off the elevator his door was WIDE OPEN… they were letting the smoke air out… AND IT SMELLED HORRIBLE . I can’t stand the smell of fire… I almost had to leave. I didn’t go in his apartment, but it was surreal seeing a burnt apartment up close and personal. He had so many clothes and shoes… that it was CRAZY. I have never seen a man with so many clothes and shoes. As I stood in the doorway and looked into his apartment, it was clear that this fire didn’t start in the kitchen… it started in his bedroom. I told him about that smoking and I hope he wasn’t smoking with his tank in that room. It was burned REAL BAD in his room. I heard someone in the back and called his name, but the building crews were in there and so I left.

This morning I wasn’t feeling well so I went to the convenience store on the first floor to get some headache medicine… when a young white gurl on the elevator started talking about the fire. I was saying they did a wonderful job in getting us all out… then she says to me.. Well I only heard on siren. I looked at her and said “one siren”? I said gurl how many do you need to hear before you KNOW its a FIRE? I guess she thought I was going to side with her…. I can’t there were too many sirens going off, not only that but a member of security announced several times, many times, lots of times to evacuate the building. So when I started asking her questions like.. even when you heard the first siren why did you hesitate? She didn’t want to talk about it anymore. She wanted me to AMEN the fact that she said she heard only one siren…. and my reply (((((IN MY MIND AND ON MY FACE…. WAS))))).. if you didn’t hear all those warnings…. you just didn’t give a DAYUM. I aint mad at cha….. BUT AS FAR AS FOR MEEEEEEEEEE….. I’m hitting the stairs BOO. LOL I looked at her as if to say gurl.. I be dog gone if I stand here and hold a conversation with you while you talk crazy…. and I NOT ASK YOU QUESTIONS based on this stupid story you’re trying to share….gurlbye. LOL

Thank God everybody got out safe and everything is alright!!! Amen

Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

Detroit Lions Sunday!!!

GREENSSWatching The Detroit Lions play against Minnesota. Football is my FAVORITE SPORT. I’m watching the game frying some chicken, made my corn bread and collard greens. I have to watch the game alone sometimes… cause I be nutting up!!! LOL I be screaming, hollering, hitting and beating on thangs, cussing, laughing, mad, STANDING UP, SITTING DOWN, TALKING JUNK. LOL I think I’ll get put out of a sports bar because I holler so LOUD!!!! LOL LOL

I’ll write tonight!!!

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A story that will warm your heart…. Crees Blog Entry

GOT A STORY TO SHARE : FROM MY FACEBOOK FRIEND CYNTHIA….. SUCH A WONDERFUL STORY

CYN AND JOHNHubby and I went to Olive Garden to have dinner..as we were sitting there waiting to be seated this little girl came and sit down beside us. I would say she was about 7 years old. She kept looking and then she was staring..I smiled at her and she smiles back. Then she said, ” Do you both live together?” I said, ” yes, We are married” So she kept staring and then I said, ” Have you ever seen a black and white couple together?’ She shook her head no. Then she said, ” Do you have any kids together?” I said,” No, but he was married before me and he had a wife, she died and went to heaven and they had kids, and now their kids have small children so we are grandparents.” She said, ” Why couldn’t you have any kids together.” I said, ” We got to old!” I smiled and she started laughing..I continued talking to her and I said,” So that’s ok right?” She shook her head yes and smiled.Then I asked her, ” Do you have any black friends at school?” She said ” No. I don’t have any.’ I asked what school did she got to. She told she is at a new school this year and she was telling me about her old school. So she just kept smiling at me and staring at me. I asked her , ‘What’s your name?” She said, ” Riley.” I said ” nice to meet you Riley, I’m Cynthia and his name is John.” She got up and stood up and looked up at John smiling and looked back at me smiling..So next to us where her parents, as I thought they were her parents , come to find out it was her adopted grandparents..and I told them our conversation and the grandmother said Both girls had been not around alot of people..but I did commended to the grandmother, that she was very polite and was very curious..she spoke so pleasant and she was very friendly. The grandfather looked a little unpleasant at first when I began telling the story and I think he thought I was going to be upset and then when the grandmother and I started laughing and smiling about it..John and I saw he was a little bit more relaxed and he started smiling bigger as I continue telling what this little girl asked John and I . I told the grandmother, despite her not being around any Black people..I felt like she wanted to learn and this is a step towards learning and getting to know other people from different races..She smiled and said ” Thank you for being so nice to her.” I told her, ” I really enjoyed my conversation with Riley and I hope she has learned something from our short conversation.” I told the grandmother, ” Thank you for helping to raise such a smart and polite little child.” I said to Riley as she was sitting down, ” I’m your first Black friend.” She smiled really big. Her grandmother told her, ” Riley, you met your first Black friend tonight.” She nodded her head and smiled. We said our good byes and Riley waved at me as we were called to our seating. I know some people would find it uncomfortable with the lady saying that but I didn’t..maybe it opened up something to them they had not ever had to approach. I don’t know.

I hope Riley spreads her love for people her whole life and I hope she helps someone else understand that we may all be of different race but we are all the same through and through.

As I sit here and type this, I have this warm fuzzy feeling in my heart and I’m a bit choked up with tears..I hope Riley has a happy life and embrace everyone no matter what color skin they have. I’m so happy that I was the first Black person that touched her life as I may never see her again. But I will always remember that sweet little face of hers. — feeling wonderful.

My Virgo Friend, Married Men….Cree’s Blog Entry

creefaceI was just going through the papers in my file cabinet and I wrote a love story about 15 years ago. I’m reading it now and its so interesting how I came up with it. I realized that in my story I used so many things that was real life to me at that time. For instance my family and friends, things that happened that I totally forgot was added in the story. Different people I knew… I even forgot about them. LOL So as a writer, I see and know for my self that a lot of movies, and books people write have something to do with their own personal experiences, people they know, places and events that actually happened. Wow…. so it inspired me to start another LOVE STORY as I type this. It just flows out of my head… yeah I’m such a nerd while everyone is out enjoying the summer, I find myself reading and writing all day, just as I did as a child. Well, at least I have that option… I can jump in my van and go anywhere I want….. but this… I CHOOSE.

So, I made friends with my Virgo friend who lives in the building. I guess he seen that yeah… I was nice…yeah I did share a lot…. and yeah I have teeth too…. that bite. I can tell he missed me. I missed his crazy self too. Whew that man knows he love to debate…. and strong minded whew…. but I’m a VIRGO too…. and I can go just as hard. But that’s not who I want to be. He called me, and we talked. He told me that he found him two housekeepers who come cook and clean for him…. Yeaaaaa…. cause <SHE> aint the one. I understand that he needed it, and that’s all good….. but I’m NOT <HER>…… at all. I’m trying to do <ME>…. my daughter is grown, living on her own.. and making good money for herself.

So, I have this other friend….I met him about 10 years ago. We dated, at first I liked him, but I just wasn’t attracted to him. When I like a man, I like to visualize being with him… not so much as sexual. But when he’s not around… I like to think about him, and try to remember his scent, his kisses. With this guy I just wasn’t feeling him in this way. He really liked me, and I liked him as a friend and so it didn’t work out. We were never sexually involved, we did communicate a lot, but I wasn’t feeling him that way. Well one day after several years had passed, when I was working at Walmart, he came through my line and looked at me REAL MEAN and said…..” I’m getting married” then walked OUT. LOL I was like OKKKKKKK. * laughs a little*. Aint gon lie… did leave me feeling some kinda way. Not so much as…. dang… I wish it was me…. but I wonder what was behind him telling me about it this way?

I was happy for him, but then after several years, he started calling me wanting to talk about how he and his wife separated. I listened to him, we were friends and I was happy for him. When someone is not your type, and you cant see yourself with them….I feel its okay to talk every now and then, as long as the conversation never becomes sexual. He introduced me to her, and we were cool. One day he came up to my job, when he saw me, I guess he had flash backs I don’t know. He’s about 6’5. as I reached up to hug him, he grabbed both of my booty cheeks and squeezed them. I was sooooooooooooooooo mad, and sooooooooo embarrassed. He kept apologized 1000 times saying he was sorry, and that he couldn’t help it. OMG I was ON FIRE!!! At my job? A Virgo? He’s married? That’s one thang you don’t do….. is embarrass a VIRGO. I said to him… its going to be a LONG time before you see me again… I hope your hands are happy boo.

I made good on that promise. YEARS AND YEARS LATER.. LOL One day recently he text me out of the blue. He tells me that he and his wife is fine and that they are together… and you know me…. I’m happy for him. Very good. Praise God. The conversation is going so good…. then he sends several photos of himself wrapped in a towel. Disrespectful to the 100th power. I came to the conclusion that we can’t be friends at all period. He doesn’t know how to act. He cant help it.. okay I get it. But you will not DISRESPECT your WIFE…. and dam sure not ME. I never responded. He kept apologizing as he always does.

The point I’m TRYING to make is………. women stop settling for these types of men. Don’t let these kinds of men creep into your household, and make you apart of him. A person who has a WIFE… family, and you on the side. I realize that as long as I’m his “friend” I am apart of his BS…. mentally speaking. And I don’t even like him like that….. I KNOW better than this. Then last week, he got on Facebook, showing photos of him and his wife plus kids at Universal Studios. Which he has EVERY RIGHT to do. Married women do the same thing…. always keeping that “friend” on the side… yea she may really be JUST a friend…. but when it because a sexual conversation… someone took it to another level. LEAVE THAT ALONE!

Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

Secrets, Facebook, Millionaire, and Anger Issues….Cree’s Blog Entry

excuse meI’m very proud of myself….. I’ve been doing really good with my ANGER issues. I’m working so, so hard to just learn to fall back, and not speak a word, especially when its not important. I learned that my issue is not having an attitude in the morning, or when I walk into a room… mine come in on STUPID ISH. For example. I was driving the other night from a movie, and there was a Detroit Tigers game that had just let out, and while WE had the GREEN light, people were still walking across the street like THEY HAD THE RIGHT AWAY. Okay, so I’m cool with it, then after while, people just kept on coming and “we” who had the right away….. was like okay nah…. we about to start driving… it is a green light for us. As I’m inching in letting the people know… this light is not going to stay green forever, I’m about to start driving.. this white dude… staring at me like… “YOU BETTA NOT HIT ME”… Lawd…. why did I have to see that look on his face? AND ITS MY TURN TO DRIVE THROUGH THE GREEN LIGHT!!!! I just started praying, I was about to lay on the horn for 30 minutes… LOL I just let God talk me out of it. This is the kinds of things I go through with being Angry. I NEVER fall out with family or friends… never have attitudes, never act funny to people… its other people and their ignorance that sends me over the top. But I’ve been doing good for the last 2 weeks or so. Trying not to have “ANGER stories to tell”. Trying to get up to ZERO STORIES.

I was sitting up thinking about how if we had Facebook back in the day when I was in my 20’s…. what would MY stats be? LOL LOL LOL Baaaaaby… it would probably read…”Had a party last night at my house, and when the morning came, my sister friend was laying in the drive way sleep”. ” One of my boos was ova, he wasn’t talking about nothing, so when the phone rang and it was my other boo, I pretended to have a headache and made home boy leave.” LOL On my way to Watts Club Mozambique *male dancers* to see my baby Ace Lee” “Got my gurls ova, we bout to talk ish over spades and down 1800, absolute, and Henny”. ” Walked up in the club looking good, banging body, hair laid, and all the men looking at me.”  LOL Thank God, we didn’t have that mess, I can save some of my drama and foolishness LOL LOL for the world to see. HAHAHAHAHA… those kids can have it… I only use it to uplift. I think that’s why I can relate to so many people, is because I know and remember the person I use to be, and so when I see young people behaving the same way…. I don’t JUDGE them. I try to help them. I have a lot of young gurls from my old job, and they listens to me. They have to have their day where they’re foolish, so when I speak to them I try to let them see another light of it. The sooner you come out of your foolishness, the sooner you can get on with God’s plan for your life.

I watched about 4 Secret Millionaire episodes this past week, and they were so good….. had me crying like a baby. If I ever got rich or have a husband who is, I’m going to spend his money giving it away. I will volunteer for the rest of my life to helping teens, women, and the elderly. So many of our young people need help. One day I had group meetings with students at work, and I was so shocked to hear how many kids who have foster parents. Even the grandmothers are either dead, or can’t be there for them. I think a lot of people from my generation were on drugs, and sexually abused. It was so many rapes going on in my days of being a teen, and some of these women never recovered. Everything is a dang ole secret now a days… PISSES ME OFF. I HATE SECRETS. HATE THEM WITH A PASSION. These grandmothers raising their grand kids with all this LOVE, they should have shown their daughters when they were growing up. Now the daughter lost her way, and the grandmother is not telling the whole story to anyone or the grand kids about why her daughter cant MENTALLY raise her own kids. The daughter has been raped, molested, exposed to drugs, didn’t have a father at home, was left to find food for her siblings…. all kinds of stuff. I’ve seen it first hand… and after all these years.. it angers me to know this story about my friend. Anyway…. let me get off this subject.

Be Blessed

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Proud of ME……Cree’s Blog Entry

note to breatheWow, I’m writing another day. So proud of myself, learning to be consistent in things. I had a great planned day. I had a headache earlier, just going through something’s right now. After watching TD Jakes “In the mix” sermon 8/18/2013….. God gave me answers to what happened to me on Friday of last week. Nothing bad, but it happened and there is nothing I can do about it.

Anywayyyyyyy… LOL I was watching the Season Premiere of Basketball Wives tonight. As I was listening to Evelyn tell her story about her and Chad, I couldn’t help but think about her ANGER issues. How quick she was to throw a glass in someone’s face, how she smacked folks, and threw drinks. She is what I called a Basketball Wives Bully. And I’m not in NO WAY saying that she got what she DESERVED when she was head butted by her husband. No, no, no, way am I saying that. But I am saying that you get what you put out there. The part that she seem not to get is that it came back to her with a MAN…. HER HUSBAND whom she had only been married to a little over a month. This wasn’t even a PRIVATE matter, it was PUBLIC one….. everyone heard about her story. Worst than anything she has ever done to anyone. She said that she felt that everyone was saying that she got what she deserved. Can you imagine all the people she’s fell out with, laughing, talking, and happy to see her this way? Oh……..this is pay back for many people.

I hope that she sees the bigger picture here. She cried a lot, and I really felt bad for her. But she has to understand what she did to others ** terrorized* folks, she got back in a different FORM. That’s what she wasn’t expecting. You can’t go around bullying people, and think you’re going to go off and live this happy RICH LAVISH life. If she doesn’t get the bigger picture…..she’s going to find herself angrier, and in more trouble than this time. I really hope that her friends, and her time with Iyanla has helped….. we shall see. I’m routing for ya gurl.

I know I need to be in bed….. I need to take my mom to see The Butler…. she doesn’t know I’ve already seen it…. I don’t think I could tell her.

Another day and I’m doing good with my ANGER ISSUES. I’m working hard to get passed this one. I’m conscience of my thought pattern on what triggers me. I have to share this real quick funny story. When I was on my 3rd day of this, (((God is my teacher))) my daughter wanted Subway before she went home, and just next door was Jets Pizza.

I ordered pizza but stayed in the van until 15 minutes was up. Well after she got her subway, I somehow missed when she walked over to Jets to see if my pizza was ready. So after 15 minutes , I walked in and there she was. She had paid for my food and everything. When I asked her was it ready, she said No. I was shocked because it was well over 20 minutes. I went to the counter and asked the lady was a pizza for Walker ready? She looked over at the one pizza that was “waiting for its owner”, and said No….. just a few more minutes. So, I’m like okay…. before I turned around to chat with my daughter….I heard God loud and clear when he said …..”LaCrease that’s your pizza up there.” I looked over there and said in my mind ” No God, she said it wasn’t mine. LOL He said yes… that’s your pizza. I knew I heard his voice… I kept saying… No, the lady said it wasn’t ready. I knew it was, but I just didn’t want to believe it, because I could feel my heat gauge moving….. I’m about to RAISE THE ROOF! My daughter didn’t know what I was thinking, but my facial expression had totally change, she thought I was getting mad because it was taking so long. She said momma, I’m going back to the van and started smiling like…..OH BOY.

So, I’m standing there at the counter, when the lady calls 2 other people and my food was ordered before theirs. I said ummmmmm excuse me (((( in my business voice))))) to the same lady WHO TOLD ME NO MY PIZZA WASNT READY……I see that their pizza is ready…. can you please check to see if that pizza up there is mines. She said sure, went back and picked up the same pizza SHE TOLD ME NO to…. when she read the paper, and looked up at me…. I knew it WAS mines…she said ” Maam I am so sorry”. We can make you another one. I just stared at her a good 2 minutes between her handling me the pizza, and me actually grabbing it to leave. I was so MADD.

As I’m walking to the van… God is asking me…. Why are you mad? I said because my pizza was up there ALL THAT TIME. He said… but didn’t I tell you that was your pizza the moment you walked in? I said yess… but.. He said then why are you SO ANGRY? Do you think she did it on purpose? I said no… because she doesn’t know me. This was only a few weeks ago, I enjoy the questions God ask me to get to my reasons…. and when I do… its not even worth being angry. I went home and tore that pizza up!!! LOL I think that he likes to sit back with his arms crossed watching to see what I’m going to do. I was proud of myself, I felt him looking over my shoulders. Whew the test I’ve had…..its worth it, because I no longer want to be this way… NO MORE!!!! NO MORE… NO MORE NO MORE!!! ((((smiling)))) And I’m going to write about it every week to keep me on track.

My Birthday is coming up Sep 3…. I’ll be 46. Yes!

Be Blessed

COLOSSIANS 3:2-Set your minds on things that are above, not on things that are on earth.

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Boys to Men * MY Life Lesson* (blog entry)

lady 2.5 secondsSo, here I am 45 living alone for the first time in my life. Meeting new people, and really getting to know myself in ways I never thought to be. I have a daughter, who is my only child, and for the first time in my life working with boys and gurls * teens* I’m getting a glimpse of what its like to deal with boys.

 

I know this sounds “crazy”…. but this is my journey and my personal LIFE LESSON that I’m learning.

 

I remember so clearly telling my sister as she raised my nephews Greg and Gary, that she needs to say NO and stick to it! But she would always tell me… gurls are different than boys. I can’t explain it, And I would say…. that may be, but don’t let them talk you into doing something, when you told them NO!!! She couldn’t get me to understand, and that’s because I didn’t have a SON of my own.

 

Working at a High School has really taught me something’s about myself. I am really a softee. LOL Dealing with gurls is SO much different than dealing with boys. I can tell a gurl, come on lets keep it moving, get to class. She will turn to me and have something smart to say, roll her eyes, and laugh with her gurls, all in one minute. I can tell a boy the same thing, he will smile, try to explain why he’s in the hall way and say… Okay Ms. Walker I’m going to class. He’ll see me later, and talk to me like he’s my SON. But when I see that gurl, she will hold a grudge for dear life!!! LOL This really shocks me, because I raised a gurl and I didn’t have this kind of reaction at all. Even when I started my gurls group Raisingurls to Women. Thing is…. I DONT CARE!!!

 

But here is the big picture of this story. Since being on my own, I have met several men. Maybe 2, I liked, one better than the other. A few days ago, I was downstairs in the business area, which the door is closed to make it private. One of the guys who work here in the building * we’re good friends, he’s one of the 2* came in to talk with me. We chatted for a good while, he kept looking at my lips, but I didn’t really pay it any attention. As he got up to leave *with his TALL THICK SELF*… he reached down *caught me totally off guard* and kissed my lips. I was so shocked! He knew I didn’t like that, and I wondered where did that come from, but at the same time, I can tell that he was happy. It was a ride or die moment for him, and he didn’t care what I thought about it, who was looking, and also for the fact that he was WORKING… he did what he always wanted to do.

 

So yesterday when I saw him, I asked him why did he do that? He said that he couldn’t help it. While I was asking him, it hit me. I have never raised a boy, but I now understand that MEN/BOYS will try us women. They want to see just how far they can go. They test us all the time to see what they can get away with. That’s their nature. They were raised by women, and with that said….that is how they FIRST learned what they can and can’t get away with. WOW WOW WOW!!! And when I bought this up to him, he said YES!!!! That’s how we do, we want to see just how far we can go with you. Everything is a TEST to them.

 

Gosh, what he say that for!!! LOL Looking back at the boys in school, I see that since I never raised a son, they probably can sense that I have a soft spot for them. I even let them have their way, when I shouldn’t. Wow, I learned a lot this past weekend. I can tell a gurl No, she will go on by her business with an attitude, but if I tell a boy No, he will sit there and beg me until I say yes!! Wow. And that’s the same way my nephews now 20 and 22 are. They did my sister the same way. I didn’t get it then. Come to think of it, my nephews did me that way too!!! LOL LOL I love them so much, they can still get anything from me.

 

Okay… so now I know how boys/men think when it comes to getting their way on ANSWERS, QUESTIONS, AND OTHER THINGS…. I’m going to have to “MOTHER-UP” on them and be TOUGH. *smile* TRUST me… I know how!!!

 

Be Blessed

 

 

 

Out of Character

sleepcree1.jpgWow, so much is going through my mind, so much has happened, so much to do, and much to put in order. HAHAHAHAHA Wow LaCrease!!!

Its something how you want so badly for things to turn out one way, but God the creator has plans for things to turn out another way. I have really learned somethings about myself in these last 7 months… some good and some not so good.

I realize that I let stuff build up. I try to give people chances, man they just won’t do right. But I Thank God for this banister/railing that walks besides me on the right and the left. It keeps me from NUTTING UP and getting out of Character. This year, I must figure out why I allow build ups. I guess I hope that people act right and do right by me and others, but maybe they just don’t know how too. Then when I “go there” I question God about my anger and wonder if its allowed.

But there is one thing about me giving these people chances to do right by me…… I really don’t care if I speak or see them again. Some would argue … yeah you do care, but I’m so afraid I DONT. I feel bad that I don’t care, but wonder why I want to give chances…. ANYWAY…. those things will be explored and answered.

I’m looking forward to a great year!!!

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