Month: January 2007

Ok, now I live in Detroit, and it rains and snow and do all kinds of thangs here. I can say that I am use to the slick, snow and ice. There is a certain why you drive, and you must pay attention to the atmosphere of other drivers in bad weather. Make sure you leave space behind them, and take your time. If you have bad weather in your city please be careful, this is so serious. And guess what? When you start sliding there is nothing you or no one can do. Hold on pray and DONT PUSH THE BREAKS!

Watch this:

Today is the day that the Lord has made, let us rejoice and be glad in it.

This message is for my friend someone who is very special to me. You know who you are, so when you read this, please take it to heart.

I appreciate you coming into my life, I love the conversations we had, I love the fact that I am special to you, and I love the time you spent with me that crazy Sunday evening on line. But I\’m missing you now. Its been almost 2 months and I haven\’t heard anything from you. I know that you are very busy……….. Lord I know. But still drop me a e-mail to let me know that you are okay. Let me know that I am special to you.

You told me the day you left my life that you are going to be busy and to not think that it was anything I said. I understand that, I do, but dang, I didn\’t know that it was going to be this hard!!! Sometimes I wish that I wasn\’t so \”noisy\” as you say, but I don\’t like to be in the dark about anything. Ain\’t gon lie, sometimes I think its easier to believe that we should have never \”connected\”.( Spiritually Speaking.)

Do you ever wonder whats going on with me? What do you really think of me, only answer that in person, when I see your eyes for myself. (*wink*)

I\’m closing for now, but I hope that you\’re reading and that I will see/talk to you soon. And you know how soon I\’m talking……so get busy with my ticket! ROFL

I know you love this song, so here it is.

\”Cree\”

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Feb 14, 2007!

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Go out and support Tyler on opening weekend!

Lacrease

This is the day that the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it. Psalm 118:24

Have you ever just felt like are not doing what you are suppose to be in your life? Its like you don\’t have any motivation and no drive. Well, that\’s how I\’ve been feeling lately. I haven\’t been up to doing anything with my gurls group. Maybe I have been selfish and have been spending too much time with myself, trying to do things and plan things for myself.

But you know what? Yesterday as I got into my sisters truck to go to dinner , so said this is a word from God. She said you better get back on track with your gurls, you have been cancelling meetings, not being focused, and since he has been blessing you financially, you haven\’t had a meeting since. And I\’m like WHAT HE TOLD YOU THAT? And she said yes. I knew he did. Cause I know my daddy. When he cant get through to my thick head, he will go through somebody who doesn\’t know that I\’m already feeling that same way. It kinda took me out of my square for a mintue cause its true. I needed that, and to regroup myself and fast!

Today I bought a book by Joyce Meyer called Woman to Woman (Candid Conversations from Me to You). I have already started on it, and it seems like a good book. I need some ump in my life right about now. My life is into these gurls…….PERIOD! And no matter what I buy and have bought in these last few months, seem as if I\’m still missing something. Still not happy. I know that I won\’t be here in this state long………….JUST AINT ME. But in the meantime, I needed some witness as to just what God is about to do through and for me. Teens are my life, if I\’m not doing things with them, I am not happy. Its like God planted this chip inside of me at birth, and I need to do things that is associated with kids. I feel so off balanced when I\’m not.

Oh……….. don\’t think Lacrease is the woman to lie in this bed for a long time, cause it aint gonna happen. I\’m in my last days on this stuff. I\’m getting up outta this bed………………………IN JESUS NAME.

Cree

AIGHT!

FOR THIS WEEKEND EDITION. I WANT YOU GUYS TO GO TO CHURCH AND GET YOUR PRAISE ON. DONT WORRY ABOUT YOUR PROBLEMS, DONT WORRY ABOUT YOUR HEALTH, DONT WORRY ABOUT YOUR MONEY, OR BILLS. DONT WORRY ABOUT YOUR JOB, YOUR HUSBAND OR YOUR FAMILY MEMBERS.

JUST SAY LORD WHATEVER YOUR WILL. LET IT BE DONE.

SAYING THIS TAKES IT OUR OF YOUR HANDS AND INTO THE LORD\’S HANDS. IM TELLING YOU, THIS IS HOW I ALWAYS MAKE IT THROUGH.

MY FAVORITE GOSPEL ARTIST EVER IS DETROIT\’S OWN KAREN CLARK-SHEARD. I LOVE THIS WOMAN. I LOVE HER! SO CHECK THIS OUT:

My daughter is now 20 and she can tell me about a few times I had companylate night. Sometimes I look back at my life and ask myself…………how could you be so stupid????????

As I get older, I realize that it was for me to learn. I had to go through it. Maybe I can help other parents from making the same mistakes I made.

I use to think that when it was time for my daughter to go to bed, it was time for COMPANY! Not thinking or caring that she may be woke or even worry about me when she lays down. She tells me that she use to worry about me when I had company, and that she couldnt go to sleep unless my company was gone. Wow. I didnt even know she was woke half the time. If you were a mother , who didnt introduce your child to the man unless you really like then, then you were like me had company when your child went to bed. Im here to tell you mom and dad, your child is listening. But while they are too embarresed to mention to you NOW while they are young, OH they will one day, and one day soon. My daugher reminds me all the time.

Another thing kids watch us do. They watch how we treat others. When we would walk by homeless people asking for money. I would always give them something. I try not to worry about what they are going to do with it, but I try to use wisdom on who to give too. So as she became a teenager she started giving them money whenever she sees them. One day we were at Walgreens and she was walking with me, and all of a sudden she walks up to a man, and give him some money. And I was like WOW!!!!!! She did it on her own. That comes from years of watching me do it, without complaing, without dissing their situation, without calling them names, but having compassion for them. Yall can never imagine the feeling that I had when I see her do this.

Days before Christmas, an ex coworker had fell on hard times and needed some money. We had never spoken on the phone before, but she called me just before Chirstmas and told me that she needed $100.00. I told her that I had $50.00 to give her and that she didnt have to pay it back. When I got off the phone, my daughter say ma who is that? I said my co worker , she said whats wrong she need some money? So I said yes. She said lets go to the bank and I will withdraw $50.00 to put with $50.00 and lets take it to her. Out the mouths of babes. My BABY SAID THAT!!!!!!!!!!!

We took her the money, and of course she was thinking it was going to be
$50.00 and it was $100.00! See as your child grows up, they watch you, they see and hear everyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyything you do, and when they get old enough to make decisons, YOU WILL BEGIN TO SEE EVERYTHING YOU TRAIN THEM TO BE.

If you are reading this. Remember your child is watching everything you say and do. Be mindful of everything when you are around them.

Do good deeds, go the the homeless shelter and feed the homeless, bring home amd care for a stray dog. ( it just may bring joy into your home)

Take a certain day off for just you and your kids. None of your gurls/boys, no male/female friends, no family members, just you and your children!!!

Play some music and dance with them. They will remember that for ever! Kids love silly stuff like that.

Plan one day for MCDONALD\’S! KIDS LOVE McDonald\’s. Me and Neisha use to do this all the time……………and still go once a week!!! Yep still do!

And finally. Come up with a TV show that you like and they like. and make sure you watch it with them EVERYWEEK!!!!!!!!!! Dont break it. Promise to watch it every week with them.

Im out for now. But remember KIDS WATCH EVERYTHING YOU DO!

CREE

Hello 360!

A few weeks this guy was in line waiting to be rung up, so when his turn came, he hands me his money, and says…….. Lacrease, I want you! So I looked up at him, smiled, and was like O OK. He read my name tag, and said that he had been checking me out. He was nice looking , but his approached threw me off. He asked me for his number and I gave it to him. I wanted to talk to him, see what is going on in his head.

He calls me, we talk. When I asked him why he was so quiet and secretive when he was in my line. he said that he use to talk to someone who I work with.

DING DING DING!

So, I\’m like OK.

He told me that he was at work on his last break, and that he works from 5 in the morning until 1 in the afternoon. So I\’m like okayyyyyyy. So what do you do after that? He says well I go home and go to bed. I said, so do you have a gurlfriend? And he says yes. But let me run down my life to you Lacrease. So I\’m like OK ( oh boy here we go). He says. I have a gurlfriend, and we live together. I work from 5 am to 1 pm. My curfew is 11 o clock. Why I ask him. Because that\’s what we agreed too. So he says, I want you, and I\’m laying down everything for you in the beginning, so there wont be any misunderstandings. Now me, I holding the phone like…………he got me sooooooooooo messed up……………….and its okay, because he don\’t know me.

So

He goes into how he can come over and we could start seeing each other, and I\’m holding the phone like, keep on talking because this is your last conversation.

Today, I comes out of the lady\’s room, and there he was going into the men\’s room. He was looking nice and all. And it was my time to talk to him face to face. I cant stand talking on the phone all the time, because you cant really look at the person in the eye, and feel the body language like you can in person.

I said look, you have a gurlfriend. I\’m 39 years old and I want a man of my own. Then he says well, Lacrease I want you. I said what if I get into a friendship with you and you cant take it any further? He said well that\’s why I\’m telling you all about me ahead of time. So that told me that he has no plans on leaving his gurlfriend, and that he wanted me to be his \”friend\” on the side.

When I talking to someone. I have steps that I go into that takes no more than 5 minutes. Its not a long conversation, it don\’t take up too much time. and this is how I laid it down to him.

I said to him:

A. I\’m single, your not

B. you want to have sex with me,

C. You cant stay over late to play games, or go to my family events.

D. We can\’t go for a late movie, because you have a curfew that\’s at 11.

E. You feel that if I ever become to attached, that you would have to REMIND me that YOU laid down the truth about yourself in the beginning.

So after telling him this. all he said was Lacrease you have a choice. I SAID I KNOW I DO! I don\’t want to see you. Then he stares at me and say Lacrease I gotta have you. CREEPY! ( like I ain\’t said nothing)

Ladies don\’t you wonder what it is about you that makes men feel that they can say and do anything to you? Men feel that if they tell you the truth in the beginning they have the same chance a man with no woman has. And its not true. If the man told the truth in the beginning. GOOD That\’s what he\’s suppose to do. But I also have the choice to accept or deny his ONE SIDED relationship/friendship.

All I have to say to him is: Maybe when I as 19. even 24, maybe 29, probably 31, heck sorta 33, but 39 NAW!

In the meantime…….I\’m single and loving The Lord!

Crease

Hey,

Its a new year!! And the first thing I need to do is learn how to deal with adults.

When I get to my register, the first thing I say to my self is………..Lacrease be humble. Learn to think before you speak, hold back on the sarcasm and just let things roll off your back. Then I pray and promise God that I will just be good. I\’m always in a cheerful mood. I would say 97% of the time. And I swear people sense it and want to knock me out my square. I ask myself over and over and over again, how do you let these people take you down the same \”street\” day after day after day? And the answer is…………..I just don\’t know.

When I get home and think about my day, I realize that the smallest things irritates me. When it comes to kids, and other folks, I will come around put their bags in their carts, have patience with them when they take a long time digging in their purse or pockets. Then here come the people from my age group. They act like they aint never worked a credit card in their lives. This one lady came through my line and said \”do I press English or Spanish\’? I said If you speak Spanish press Spanish. She laughed a little bit and press English. DUMMY!

Yall please pray for me. I went down to part time, and that\’s the best thing I could do for myself, and as long as I know I don\’t have to work a long day, I can get through the day.

Until……………………………..

This man came through my line Sunday with 1000 items in the 12 items or less lane. I said sir ( black man) this line is for people with 12 items or less. He gon say…….please just ring me up ( as if to say shut up) so I start ringing steady talking my talk. Then here comes his wife outta know where ( still don\’t know where she came from) looking at me like you arguing with my husssssband. So I looks at her, so she says to her husband \”whats going on baby\”. I said this line is for 12 items or less, people are waiting behind you. Then she gon say well, I do 12 and he\’ll do 12. So by then my face is telling a story like all I want to do is hurry up and get them outta my lane!! So I says just put them all up here, and I\’ll ring them at the same time. ( saying to myself….. Since yall aint getting out the line). So she says to her husband…….aint nobody gon disrespect me in front of my kids. So I looked at her, she looked at me. He call himself trying to calm her down. I\’m saying to myself, gurl ………………I will beat you like a drum……………..and it will be for ALL the customers who got on my nerves!! So as they are leaving she gives me this one real real real mean look for the rode……….I guess ( lol). And I look at her back, (SEE PHOTO ABOVE) Then she says ( while walking and talking ) NEXT TIME DONT DISRESPECT MY HUSBAND WITH YOUR WALMART WORKING A**.

Ok stop right there!

Now she know and I know that she was talking to my Walmart smock/jacket. There is no wayyyyyyyy she would have said that to me, if I wasn\’t working. No way!!!!!!! When you are working people will say anything to you, because they know that you will think twice before you go off on them. She knows Im under submission! She knows it!

I went off. I couldn\’t shut up. We went head up. And thank goodness my manager wasn\’t around, even though I didn\’t curse.

So now 360. I need you to be completely honest with me. How do I get through this? I pray and all, and no matter what, a customer seem to have sooooooooo much power over me. All I want to do is have a smooth day at work, things in my life is so good, but as soon as I get to work………………people knock me out of my square, and I don\’t know what to do anymore. I will be 40 this year, and folks think Im in my 20\’s or early 30\’s. You can\’t win for losing. No matter how fair I try to be and how honest, people dont want you telling them the truth. They want to do things their way. And that dont sit right with me. Im a person who likes to follow the rules. I like to look out for the next person. I cant stand me, me, me, me, me people. Do I care to deeply? Do I take it to far? Whattttttttt tell me!

How do you get over this. Any advice? Please help me. Please.

Cree

Hey,

Well, its the weekend and I\’m sitting here thinking about what I would be doing if I was still in my 20\’s. I can remember rounding up the crew. Gloria, Quetta, Valerie, Michelle, Yolanda, Peedie, Lynn, Ree, Shaun and countless others. We would go see the male dancers at least 3 times a week, or if we weren\’t doing that we would be playing cards, drinking.The next night we would do the same thing this time hitting the night clubs. One morning I woke up and my landlord was standing over me! My door was open and not locked. Lord, thank you for saving my life!

Here it sit 39 years old, thinking about how many times God has bought me out of pure MESS! How he saved my life one night, running out of a night club with some friends, only to get to the car and realize that the guy me and my friend Ree rode with, was in the building fighting, and we couldn\’t get in the car. Well, we were bent down at the car dodging bullets, when one came flying over our heads. It was so loud and so terrifying, that didn\’t stop us, I\’m sure next week we were back in the clubs. I just can\’t believe that my foolishness lasted so long. What kind of life was I living?

I remember one time we were riding 4 deep, when we got into it with some gurls who was leaving the strip club while we were leaving. The driver of our car was so angry with the gurls, that we \”geeked\” her up to chase the gurls down. Well, we ended up on the freeway with them, side by side arguing , we wanted to fight. So we came to a complete stop on the freeway , got out of our cars and walked up to their windows. OMG! How ignant! I still can\’t believe that we did this. I still sit and think about how stupid we were. We could have got killed by other motorist coming behind us. I learned that when you carry that \”spirit of \” I don\’t give a dayum\”. those are the kinds of things you find yourself in.

But when God comes into your life, and say that\’s enough my child. When he gets you by yourself, when your gurls aint around, when you family aint around, when your co workers aint around, when you kids aint around, when your husband/wife aint around. ITS YOU AND HIM. You better be ready to give up anything that is not of him. He told me Lacrease its time out for that foolishness. Its a wrap!

I still went out from time to time. Drinking ( I hated the taste of all of it, but I enjoyed the feeling of being high). All of a sudden I stopped. I can\’t do it anymore. I can\’t sit up and play cards, drinking and passing out. I can\’t have company sitting up IN MY HOUSE to the wee hours of the night. And I aint going over to your house either. I got tired of going out, and hanging out. That\’s not designed for me any more. I had to regroup.

I believe that it was meant for me to go through that process. Now I can look back and know where I\’ve been and where I am now. I can\’t stop anyone from going out, but I can post the dangers of a night out in the club atmosphere.

• When you get tipsy you leave your life in the hands of someone else.
• You don\’t know who is handling your drinks. You are not always aware of who is watching you, and who wants to see you trip out.
• Its possible that you can go home, or even have sex with someone who you don\’t even know, and if you do know them……………….would you have still make that same choice if you were sober?
• You set yourself up for ANYTHING that can/will happen that night. If someone cracks a bottle over your head, or your friends, that may be the last time you go out. You may even have to dodge bullets.

I dare you to go out one day, no drinks and sit up and watch the atmosphere, watch how people start the night off with no alcohol, to being tore up. Watch how a couple could be so loving when they first walk in and then by 1:30 they are ready to fight. Pay attention to the young gurl who is with her friends, and how she will see her boyfriend there with another woman, and watch her trip out on him, until he is ready to beat her head in. Watch the crew of guys who come in to dance, seek attention , get drunk, and get in the face of someones girfriend, watch how her boyfriend will be ready to fight his whole crew, just because he feels disrespected. Pay attention to the DJ and how he gets tired of all the drunks bumping into his DJ table. Watch as the night goes on he becomes impatient with them. Then…… go out side to your car, just to find that someone has broken your car window and stolen your radio. Or even worse your car is gone!!!!!

I have one scripture to sum this OLD life of mines up.

1 Corinthians 13:11 (New International Version)

11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me.

CREE

Ok family, I need to talk for a minute.

Lets say you meet this guy/gurl and they are cool, attractive , have good personality a job. You like this person, but its something about them, but you just cant place your finger on it yet. So you keep talking to them over the phone, seeing them in person.

Then……………you find out what it is about them.

You see that they are a person who go out of their way to do things for people. They will offer to take you home, they will offer to give you money, they will offer to buy you lunch, they will offer information to you, they will run to the store for you wayyyyyyy cross town. They will help you out on a bill, they will cook for you. They are willing to do all these things at the drop of a hat.

But then…………………………..

One day they ask you, can you go the to store and pick up some bread for them, you cant right now because you are sitting with your grandma until a family member comes to relieve you. They ask you for $29.00 but you are short $4.00 to buy the groceries you HAVE to pick up in a few hours, and you can\’t give it to them. They ask you to bring them some greens to work , but you don\’t have any left. Then their back ache and they need you to rub them down. They run of out cigarettes and they need you to bring them some, they have a headache, with no Advil, they want you to go get that too.

Have anyone ever been trying to get to know somebody like this? A person who will out the blue volunteer their services, so that when they need you to do something for them, they would have all this extra credit built up? How could someone spend their whole life purposely doing for others, just so when hard times fall on them, they can throw up in your face, all they\’ve done for you? How can someone date, someone like this? You will find yourself spending your whole life owing them trying to playing catch up from all the things they did for you. And Lord forbids if they see that they are slipping and haven\’t been doing much for you. That\’s when the catch up game begins. They feel that they have to start doing more for you!! Then when you don\’t break your neck getting to this person so that you could \”do\” for them, they start whining who they can and can\’t depend on. Blaming you for not being there. Questioning your sincerity in the relationship/friendship. Throwing up in your face, how much they have done for you.

So my question to you? Have you ever dated a person like this? Or are you this person? If you are this person, please explain the motivation behind your behavior. What would you do if you met a person like this, who you have been trying to get to know and love?