Finding my purpose in life.
What is my calling? What are my gifts?
As I sat long and hard about this, having to go back and remember things in my childhood, I can say that it was quite fun. I was amazed at how much I realized that the things that I’m good at today, started a LONG TIME AGO. God had already put these things inside of me, and all this time it was growing. These are the things that I have remembered growing up. I hope that you do this exercise as well.
The Lord- I can remember being on punishments in my room reading the Bible and becoming fascinated with God and all the things that was recorded. It was then at around 13 or 14 when I built a relationship with him and started hearing his voice loud and clear. He spoke to me all the time, telling me things before they would happen. I remember feeling so special everyday, like we were the only ones in the world. Being in my room all the time with no one to talk to, he filled that void. I remember reading about how wise Solomon was, and how I wanted to have wisdom someday. So everyday I would pray, and pray, and pray, and pray, and pray about it. Its so funny thinking back on those days being so young and wanting to have wisdom but I was serious. I truly know for a fact that he has Blessed me with Wisdom and Discernment.
Love- I grew up with a very loving family. We’re even closer in our adult life. My parents planted in us over and over again, that family is not suppose to fight. We could argue and debate, but when its over, we had to hug, kiss and make up right there on the spot in front of everyone. We hated that. Never knowing that it would play a huge part of who I am today. I’m not a person who holds grudges or is revengeful. When I was 17 I was raped and became very angry and hateful. But as time went on, God was there in my heart to restored the Love I had for people. The Love I have also caused me to connect to people that I had no business connecting with, and still till this day, I struggle with that because of the way I grew up. Love causes me to open my heart to the things that we go through as children of God. I believe with all my heart that the Love my parents taught me to have with my siblings, goes hand in hand with my calling. These are important things that I need to complete my purpose in life.
Writing and Reading- Growing up, I would be in my room or in the corner somewhere reading, and writing down my thoughts. I love to visualize things and bring them to life with my way of thinking. I always had a way of making people see things in a different light with my examples. I always get the reaction of ” I never looked at it that way”. I remember whatever I was reading, I had to pause and visualize it in my mind for several minutes . I would read a story and put faces and personalities to the story to bring it to life. My siblings and friends use to always talk about me, as they were outside playing. It bothered me when they did that, because no one understood me. In my 20’s I wrote a love story based on thoughts in my mind about how I would meet my husband. I realized recently that the reason why I hate talking over the phone is because I enjoy writing down my thoughts more. Recently I got serious about writing a book about my testimony within the last 2 years. Even though its hard to revisit many things about it, these important Life Lessons we all can learn from.
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Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy