In today’s Blog entry I want to explain why at the end of my post I write, I AM La’Crease and I don’t have to do anything else. After thinking about it deeply, well…… read it for yourself.
For as long as I can remember I’ve always been a person that’s very protective over the ones closes to me. I’m the kind of person who LOVES EVERYBODY. I’ve never been the one to play favoritism with my friends or family, and I’ve always kept it real. But I noticed that I was doing too much. Thinking too much, talking to much, just DOING TO MUCH. I had to find out what is it that makes me do what I do? I’m the oldest of 4 and I’m working on learning to STOP having a OVER protective Spirit. Now, its okay too have a Protective Spirit, but not OVERLY protective. In order to get it under control, I had to disconnect the phone calls with people EVERYDAY. I was one who could talk on the phone all day, everyday. Thing was, I was the one doing the listening. I realize that a lot of people come to me because of my motherly personality, the Godly advice I give, and for the fact that I treat everyone the same. I try to be the same person everyday. But I realize that I was doing too much. I realize that I over do it to make people COMFORTABLE… when they’re really just fine. I found out that I AM La’Crease and I don’t have to do anything else.
For example: If I’m at my mothers house, I will ask her 100 times if she’s okay? Does she need me to go to the store, does she needs to run errands, if she needs me to do anything. Even if she says no, I’ll ask one last time before I leave. I can talk to a friend about an issue, I have to keep checking up on that person, texting and making sure everything is okay. But I found out that… everything IS OKAY… I don’t have to do all of that. Its OKAY.. I have to tell myself that its okay, everything is fine, I don’t have to do anything else. We are GOD’S KIDS…. Why am I doing extra work? LOL I’m always asking people “Are you Okay boo?” I’m always genuinely concerned.. but shoooooooooooooooooo after years and years and years…. I’m wore out from that. I have gotten to the point, where I don’t want to waste a lot of MY time “catering” to folks when THEY’RE NOT EVEN ASKING FOR ME TOO. Its me that has taken this too far. Everyone is okay, except me, who is trying to make sure they are. LOL Now, I can sit back and really enjoy my life, without feeling that I have to take on others burdens or constantly ask or wonder if my loved ones are okay… GOD HAS THEIR BACK… THEY ARE JUST FINE….
SO…I say…. I AM La’Crease, and I don’t have to do anything else. Because I DON’T!