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Interesting

Whew what a week already!!! La’Crease has much to do to get ready for this flight Thursday morning. This trip is going to be very interesting………….. hmmmmmm can’t wait to see what happens there.

  

 Anyway, my mom is excited, Neisha’s excited, and my nieces can’t stop calling me. LOL I took my 15-year-old niece to Disney World Florida when she was younger, so she’s ready for this one. I gotta stop waiting last minute to do thangs. I still havent gotten my nails done, washed, do last minute shopping or anything. Not even packed my suitcase! One thing about me tho, when I’m focused and in the process of doing my thang, ITS ALL ABOUT THAT! I won’t feel pressed, or even grouchy, I just do it.

 

I was talking to this lady a few days ago who, always come into the store . She has about 4 children, and usually I would see her with her husband. But lately she’s been coming in there with just her kids. I had just punched out, and happened to be standing in line in front of her purchasing my things, when OUT THE BLUE,  she started telling me about her husband. She said that he was using drugs, sexually assaulting THEIR kids, beating them, cursing them out, and get this, he told her that he hopes that he GAVE HER HIV. I couldn’t believe my ears, first of all for her to confine in me….. and the more she talked about it, she got louder. But this is the part that gave me the chills as I ministered to her. She said that his mother told her to leave him alone before they even had kids, because he was something else. She said his own mother doesn’t even deal with him because of how he treats her. She said that she should have left him alone when she told him that. Which instantly FORCED me to think about my own  PAST situation.

 

I was going with this guy um um um….. I loved him, but it wasnt the kinda love that I have for 2 of my other male friends. He was beginning to grow on me, he could read me well, and he respected me dearly. He loved the Lord, and knew the Bible well. But it was always something about him, that always made me standoffish in my heart. I just couldn’t give him my all for some reason. One day he came over and I had my camera out, and he went CRAZY on me for taking his photo.

TO be continued……….

 

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Friends

Thank you Lord for this day!! I know Lord, I started my day at work, quiet and not able to Minister to anyone. I was down in my Spirit and kept quiet all day. But something did go on that was funny to me.

 

 This older lady came through my line, she sense that I was down too. She was my last customer.  I turned my light off at my register to go to the rest room, when people kept lining up. I must have said… I’m closed…. I’m closed Sir….. I’m closed Maam….. about 7 times. The lady looked at me with this smile on her face. I said to her, you know………. no matter how many teeth I show while I’m smiling to the customers as I’m telling them I’m closed its still not enough. They always get mad at me. She said, you know I’m an Usher at Church, and when we tell people that a certain section is blocked off, they get an attitude. I said ummmm, one day I did question why we couldn’t sit in a certain section at my Church, and I guess the Ushers went back and told our Bishop that we give them a hard time. And when Bishop bought it up at the end of service one time, I was instantly convicted, because I was one  of them. LOL She said, Oh yeah what Church do you belong too? I said Second Ebenezer~ Bishop Vann. She said that’s where I Usher at!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL We laughed sooooooooooooooooooooo loud. We were cracking up!!! Wow, see that? LOL I Thank God for my friendliness, because I meet ALL KINDS OF PEOPLE……. DAILY!!!! What a small Testimony. God will show you who you are!

 

 

The photo above is my CRAZY cousin MONICA. I love her to pieces! We went to our family reunion in Atlanta Georgia 17 or 18 years ago. We loved it so much, we came back to Detroit and planned a trip back just to get away.  She had twins a boy and gurl, she left her kids here, and packed her personal belongings and went there with nothing. She was determined to find a better life for her and her kids. She stayed in GA, and we came back home. I kept saying to myself I really want to see her pull this off. Within a week, she found a place and a job. She loves it there. She said she will never in her life come back here to live. I am soooooooo jealous. In a good way tho. I cant wait to see her when Im in Atlanta next week. This gurl is the funniest person you ever want to meet. OMG when we are together we argue, make up and laugh!!! She’s 43 and a VIRGO just like me. LOL The debates we use to have, baaaaaaaaaaby you would have your finger on 911,  wondering if you should call the people on us. LOL We would make up and laugh. She always remind me about the time we had it out in Atlanta. I’ll never forget that!!! My cousin is crazy!!! I crack up when she tell me the story of her seeing Tyler Perry outside of a restaurant talking on his cell phone. LOL Whew, funny story!!! Only MONICA! LOL SMH!

 

 A good friend of mines emailed me tonight and this was his question to me:

  

Now This Have Nothing To Do With Me I trying to school My Baby Sister and Male Cousin. If You Meet Somebody of the Opposite Sex and Y’all exchange Numbers via The Mall, Bar, Club, Or Church and when y’all talk on the phone and they tell you off rip that they not looking for a relationship. Doesn’t that mean they are looking for a Friend With Benefits AKA a Sex Partner? Correct Me If I’m Wrong.

 

 He asked the right person because this is what I have to say about it. If you meet someone and they tell you off rip that they are not looking for a relationship …… NO, that doesn’t mean that they want to have Sex. Everyone doesn’t have Sex on their minds just because they desire a friendship of the opposite sex. Friendships comes in many different seasons. Spiritual, dinner dates, good conversation, advice, lessons. It could mean that you want that person to talk with. Why do people always have to read more into something when it’s not there? That pisses me off to NO END!!! Just last week, I was walking to the time clock when my coworkers dad, hemed me up ( blocked me between a cart) in the toys department and touched me below. Now I know you’re saying, danggggg what did she do to deserve that? That comes from me being nice, and trying to say NO, in a nice way. So when I NUTTED up on him for doing that, he had this stupid look on his face. I ask myself all the time, what kinda vibes do I send people for them to do/ and treat me the way they do? Then when I cut them off ( don’t talk to them anymore), or blink out on them, they say I’m crazy!! I can touch on this subject all day. I live it! If somebody say they love you as a brother/sister/friend TAKE THAT FOR FACE VALUE!!!

 

 

I’m almost ready for my trip to Atlanta! I’m so slow in packing. When I get married my husband is really gonna be on me for that. LOL Im last minute sometimes, I think better for some reason. I’m good under pressure, so good!!! I have the weather programmed on my computer for Buckhead, and its going to be 95-98 degrees when we touch down. Oh Lawddddddd, that’s too much for me. There can’t be any issues with the air in our rental truck. Whew, we don’t have it that hot here in Detroit at all. I told Tameka Raymond, that I was going to visit her Boutique. I like her. She takes a lot from the media, but she’s doing her thang, and I’m proud of her for hanging in there for everything that she’s been through.

 

Well, Im closing for now. Oh, yeah. I have already started my Ministry!!! Yea. Wont say much for now, but its going to be FIYAH!!! PRAISE GOD!

 

Cree

 

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“Aint no Mountain”

 Sitting here thinking……….. Listening to Rick James…. When Love is gone. Deep song, many don’t know anything about it. Deep….

 

I’ve had plenty and many days to clear my head. But one thing leaves me ANGRY.  And I’m carrying it from one day to the next, and I don’t like the way its making me feel. I know that I’m going to have to go to a deep  place to shake this feeling. I have too, it’s the  only way its going to work for me.

 

 

Here is one of my FAVORITE YOUTUBE VIDEOS EVER!!!  SEE/FEEL THE CHEMISTRY. OOOOOOO WEEEEEEEE SMH 😉

 

I would love to see Taraji P. Henson play her in a  movie!!! Love it!

 

 

 

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Imagine Me 10 ( Moving On)

Today was a good day. Thank you Jesus for such a wonderful day. All week on-line ( except Wednesday) I’ve been watching LIVE on-line TD Jakes and his guest speakers each night. The first night was Bishop Paul Morton, Sheryl Brady, TD Jakes, and Noel Jones. Talking about fiyah! OO weeee. I watched all but Sheryl. I was at my nieces Graduation Ceremony. Last Sunday, my Pastor spoke on the same lines as Sheryl did. I hate I didn’t get to see all of her sermon. I’ve been doing good on my Tithing….. I’m happy that I have been doing the right thing just as God told me. It will be 2 months come next Thursday. FAITHFULLY!

 

I went back down to the  River yesterday………. Ah, it was so peaceful.

 

Cree

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Imagine Me 9 (I’m lost without you)

Praise God for another day!!!! Hugs and kisses to you Jesus!

 

Today was a very good day.  I made up my mind that it was time to dry all my tears, collect lessons learned, and move on to what I’m here to do. This time in my life, it was one of the biggest lessons that lead to many other things that God has for me. I can’t cry anymore, its time to work. I may not get something right off all the time, but the urgency in the message forced me to Seek God. I’m very grateful for everything.

 

I surrender to God everything. I’m tired of walking around in the Wilderness. I come to realize just what God has been telling me for as long as I can remember, I can’t get attached to anyone. I’m to be moving at all times. Yesterday my best male friend called me, and he was telling me about whats going on with him and his girlfriend. I listened, Ministered to him, and I heard God say…….. okay Lacrease cut it short. Cause see I’ll stay on the phone with him, and then our conversation will end up all over the place. I’m learning to keep it pushing. Its hard when you’re friendly and don’t mind talking while holding their hand. As I’m learning to “keep in moving”, I can use my energy to reach others. I love talking to people, but I’m learning it has to be Ministry Minded only. I can no longer stop and chill, I have to keep rolling. I talk with so  many different people, on so many different things, and it can drain me sometimes, so the idle chat……must stop. I have to accept the fact, that I can’t go with the flow of everyone else. I always knew this tho. Maybe that’s why I have the best sisters in the world!!! Yea!!! LOL. 

 

 Anyway, it’s almost time to fly  to Atlanta!!! Next Thursday morning, I’m outta here!! I gotta hit me a Jazz Club when I get there. I wanna hear me some Live music, with some grown folks ONLY! I’m not ready for the heat, but thinking about it, its hot here in Detroit. I guess I’ll be aiight. I’m mostly excited about my mom seeing Atlanta, for the first time. I’m trying to get her to move there with me. I’ll see how she feels about it when she gets there. hehehe. I’ve been wanting to move there for 17-18 years. Can’t wait to see how this plays out. I’m also waiting to see what Blessings will flow for me.

 

Hmmmmmm. Lakers won Ughh……  Congratulations to them! I’m sleepy, so I’m off to bed!! More tomorrow.

 

Cree

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Imagine Me 7

 

Praise God for another day!!!

 

I was off today, went to the grocery store, took care of all my last minute business for my trip to Atlanta next week. Everything was going good.

 

Tonight, as I was perming my hair, Neisha came in the bathroom to talk to me. We talked about that Saturday morning that lead to all of this. She said that she was sleep, and that God woke her up out of her sleep, and told her to go in my office and see about me. I remember so clear when she came in here, she had this * momma what are you doing look on her face*, and when she went to ask me, I threw up my finger and said ONE MINUTE  Neisha. She said what ever I was doing, she knew it wasnt right. So, she pulled out her Ipod, and read all my emails, coming in and going out. She didn’t talk to me that whole day, but I was too “blind” to notice or  even care. She was soooo mad at me. Tonight is the night she could actually talk about it. And the bad part about all of this, she saw all of it coming. Everything she said would happen….  HAPPENED.  Why am I just realizing this?

 

  

I’m just so embarrassed, and so depressed right now.

 

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Imagine Me 6 (My Story )

 

Thank you Jesus for a great day!! Thank you Lord, Thank you!!!

 

  Even though , there are still questions I have in my mind. Don’t know WHEN they will get answered. But I’m going to write them in email, and hopefully soon I will. Today, I was thinking about so many things concerning both of my Ministries and I truly believe that everything that happened, was for a reason. I can live with that, I am  listening and  have stepped back from EVERYONE.

 

 I’m getting it together.

 

 

 Cree

 

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Imagine Me 5 ( My Story)

 

 

Praise God for a new day. Thank you Jesus for loving me. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!

 I woke up this morning looking RUFF! Eyes, face, just everything out-of-place for me. But that’s alright, that’s alright, this is the Wilderness, and its suppose to be this way.

Today, I decided that I was going to put on some clothes and  get my nails and brows done. My nail tech wasnt in, but his wife did my brows. That’s a start to getting myself back together.

 

 

My dad called and asked me if I could take him to the grocery store. I know too that was God.  We never got alone all while I was growing up, and once I got older and wasnt in his home, it kinda got easy to the point that I didn’t want to see him as often. Me and my dad are so much alike, seems like the older he gets the BETTER we get alone. I was happy to be in his presence today. Oh goodness. I’m about to cry ……

 

 

He went into the grocery store, but I sat in the car. I listened to my “breakthrough” songs, My Story, and Imagine Me. When I looked over and saw this  couple about to cross the street with their 2 young children. As they approached the curb, the dad reached down and picked up his son. He was a big boy, but still his dad picked him up. As they got to the other side, I was looking to see if he would put him down, because he was out of harms way. But he didn’t…… he kept him on his hip and disappeared down the block. Thats how God is with me/us. He picks us up and carries us, and even when he COULD put us down because we are out of harms way…….. he still carries us……. I bust out crying. I couldn’t stop crying today as I sat in the car thinking about this whole thing. I’m so blessed! Thank you Jesus!

 

 

Ever since I was a young gurl, I knew I was different. I knew it. But I didn’t know in what way. I use to spend whole Summers on the punishment, upstairs in my HOT bedroom.  While all the other kids were outside playing, I was in my room. Thats where I learned about God . I would read the bible day in and day out.  I would pray for Wisdom, Knowledge, and Understanding everyday. Ahhh, bless my young heart! Not knowing what came with it. I was never popular in High School. When I started working, people would always come to me for advice. I would cook, and invite my gurls over and we would have gurls night, and chat about our issues. They loved that. No matter if you were my friend or not, if you were wrong I would tell you, and I think thats what people loved about me.

 

 

But as I got in my 20’s people would start to drain me. Wanting to be over my house all day and night just to talk. If my phone wasnt ringing, and my couch wasnt full, I was somewhere talking to someone trying to help them get their lives in order. All while they were all draining me Spiritually.

 

 

  

God keep telling me all through my years of living,….. La’Crease where you are going………… everybody can’t ride. I understand you are nice, you are kind, but everybody can’t ride in the same car as you. Okay, I’m about to cry again……. I never understood that. To this day, I keep hearing it. I still hear it. Where am I going? I so want to know. I know that I am supposed to pass through the lives of others, but not to sit there to long. I get caught up in their lives and have to do this and that with them. All of that is okay, but I can’t sit too long. I find myself getting idle and that’s not good. I made up my mind to ride solo. God has my undivided attention this way at all times. People drain me, and I am on the move again. I have to be. I don’t want another whopping like this one. LOL Before all this. I had just written a blog entry on this called Geesh. All of this is Confirmation for me.

 

 

I’m going back to the Detroit River on Tuesday ( my off day). And I want all God has for me. I want to hear everything. I just can’t believe how much I have learned just by “clearing my mind”.

 

Lord, Im feeling something in my stomach right now. Just as I wrote “clearing my mind”. Make this clear to me. What is this? Wow this is deep. Gotta go. OMG!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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