Take my breathe away ~~Sound track from Top gun
January 06, 2006
Pearls of Wisdom
January 03, 2006
Thank you Lord for another day. Another day for having my arms, legs, feet, hands, lips, teeth, toes etc. Thank you I see what you have done for me and I appreciate it.
Where do I start? Men be cracking me up. Let me just say that. This evening I let this guy who I met at my job ( a customer) come over to visit me. He is very tall 6’7 thick, dark, handsome brother who graduated from Central Michigan University with a BA. I mean this guy has got it going on. I am an addict for tall men okay?? Tyler Perry where are you? For real tho. I love a man with a big stomach, goatee, and pretty teeth. I tell my friends all the time, when I get a man and he his a big stomach, if he lose his stomach IM DISSING HIM! Flat out. He gots to roll up out! ( Not for real, but its something that he must have)
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N. E. WAYSSSSSSSSSSS ( rolling my eyes) I let him come over, and by him being so tall and dark and thick, his whole atmosphere just did something to me when he walked through that door smelling so good. He didnt know it, but I did. Well, we sat down and watch the Pistons beat Orlando………we are 25-4 YEAHHHHHHHA YEAHHHHHHHA.
So we sat there watched the game he cracked some nuts and we talked and laughed a little bit. Well, before he came over last night we were having a conversation about his ex gurlfriend who upped and left him 2 years ago, and recently she called him from NY and said that she wanted to see him and talk to him. He let her come here last week and he bought her to my job and I met her. She wants to rekindle the relationship but he is skeptical because she up and left him for another man. Well, we talked about that subject for a long time last night. She will be back next month maybe for good. Well, tonight that was on my mind. I am attracted to him and all, but I cannot put my self in a situation where I know that he wants to get back with her, so the best thing for me to do is be his friend and not to take it any further.
When he came over tonight, it seemed to me that he wanted to have sex. So my thing is okay, what is it about me that you feel that you can initiate this? I mean I didn’t sit near you, I didn’t touch you, what is it about me that makes you feel that you can say okay WHATS UP? I just dont get that, and he just dont know that turned me off. It dont take much to turn CREDOG off especially in the early stages of a friendship. He gave me his number a long time ago, and I wanted to call him but I didnt. I like him and everything , but he cant be coming on me like that.
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Do men respect women who sleep with them in the first night? Do they try women to see where their head is at? I cant wait to see what happens next. This is why Im forming a teens group to talk to young gurls about everyyyyyyyyythang their moms can’t. I mean for real, cause had that me back in the day and he was over, it would have been on and poppin for real. There would have been no way I would have said NO~ TO A MAN WHO FITS THE PERFECTÂ DESCRIPTION OF MY DREAM HUSBAND. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO WAYYYYYYYYÂ he WOULD HAVE LEFT WITH A PART OF ME. roflllll
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But Lorddddddddddddddd, whewwwwwww had it been for what Ive been through. For the wisdom and knowledge you have blessed me with, your daughter would have been good as got. tonight. FOR REAL.!!!!!!!!!
OK YALL I GOTTA GO THINK. THIS IS NOT A GOOD NIGHT FOR ME IN THIS DEPARTMENT. Im not having regrets at all, but its just that fact that this brother is fine, good conversation, good job, everything going on.
Oh did I mention that he is 26 and Im……………….well 38???
SEE YA LATER
CREASE
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Madea’s family reunion~ Feb 24, 06
There’s nothing broken that can’t be fixed with love.Â
This February, you’re invited.
January 01, 2006
Thank you Lord, for letting me see another year! Thank you Lord, you are on my side. Â
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 I know I didn\’t go to Church tonight, but I did spend New Year\’s with my family. We went over to Darah\’s beautiful lovely home. Oh Lord Jesus I have seen what you can do for me through her home tonight. Lord, Lord, Lord. What a blessing! See that\’s what Im talking about. You keep on showing me all these beautiful things that prayer can bring. Things that I would love and enjoy. Tomorrow I am getting up and Im doing some cleaning in my house. I Thank you for my house, its beautiful too. I know I can stand to be more creative, and Im going to work on that. But Thanks for giving me that ump I needed by seeing her home. Â
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 Work was okay tonight. I went in from 4-8 we closed at 8. Some employees were saying that we had to stay a little after 8 to get the customers out of the store. Guess you know I was at the time clock at 8:01. I feel that if Im schedule till 8, then I leave at 8. I don\’t care how many people are in the store. I had plans, and I made sure I got to them too. If the store managers made sure their jobs were done ,then we can get out of the store at 8. But when you have so many \”plant managers\” pointing their fingers, and supervising, not help getting the job done, then I feel that\’s their fault. I did what I came to do, and then I was out! Â
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- The first thing I want to work on for this year. Is my tithing. This is very serious to me. God will get his off top, first, its going to be counted just as I do my light and gas bill, my rent and phone. I know its going to be challenging in the beginning, but its okay, cause I have to do it. I have too. I have too.
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- Secondly, I have to join a weight support group. I am going to WW on Tuesday, to see what\’s up with a meeting and a plan. This is very important to me.
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- Finally, I want to be more mindful of the small things in life. Such as calling a friend/returning phone calls, sending and remembering family and friends BD\’s and being creative in what I do for them. This is something I have to do for myself. I want to be mindful in keeping a clean car, and neat atmosphere in my computer room and desk areas, bed room and entire house. I will be more mindful in those things this year.
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 Last night I had a dream that I met Tyler Perry. He was so sweet, he looked different, but had that same personality. I even asked him did he know Pearls of Wisdom from his message board, and he was like yesssssss, which one are you? I said Im Lacrease. He hugged me and I was so geeked. Then I asked him was this his name *** from the message board and he bust out laughing, saying yessssss thats me. I was so geeked. So somehow Phyllis came in the room, and I whispered in her ear (I was talking loud tho, I remember that) I said Phyllis he said that is his initials, and email address. We laughed and that was it. I pray that I meet him this year. I met Anita Baker, and Gerald Levert last year 2005, and took pictures with them both! Yes both, and now Tyler is the last one on my list to meet. And when we do meet we are going to become friends. I mean real real real good friends, watch and see. I can feel it, deep down in my soul. Remember I said it first, right here on this blog. Lacrease and Tyler Perry and going to be very close friends for life~! Â
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 Well, Im closing for now, I want to wish everyone a very Happy New Year, and if you haven\’t already, please find God. He is so nice and so friendly, he wants to build a relationship with you. So please if you are reading this blog, remember that from me, to make this year the year you bond with him.
 God Bless You
Lacrease~ P.O.W. ( Pearls of Wisdom)
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 \”I use to say to my parents all the time, I can\’t wait till I get grown and move out. I felt that I could do anything I wanted. Then when I got grown, I started making wrong decisions, and bad choices. Then one day I will never forget Lord, what you said……… Lacrease, you are grown, but you still have to answer to me.\”
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What goes around………………..yelp you guessed it……………..comes around!
Today, I have got to say God has been good to me. See I try to learn lessons from the situation that I find myself in. And then I just laugh at God ( in a good way) cause he is always behind something that concerns me. That’s why I love him so much. When I say he looks after me……………… I mean that. He loves me, and the more he loves me, the more I love me. And the more I want what’s best for me, and so does he.
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At work, I was the door greeter for the night. And before I started working in Walmart, I would go in Circuit City, Kmart, and act a straight fool on the door greeter if they ask for my receipt. I would put on my clown suit at the register, and cut up when it was time to leave out of the store.
But tonight I…………………. was the door greeter.
This black guy well dressed, older maybe in his 50’s with his wife and some other guy, was leaving the building as I said to him…may I see your receipt please? I can tell from the look on his wife face, that her husband was about to nut up on me. She was reading me and I was reading her, but I was focused on him because he had the receipt so I ………looked at him like “run dat receipt”. He got sooooooooo upset, OMGGGGG he looked at me and wanted to go off, but instead of going off he said “you cant see what’s in my bags if Im stealing, you still can’t see what I got if I show you the receipt.” In just that little time he made me mad.
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So before anything flared up…………….. God told me to sing. I broke out with my famous one word song…………………..JEEEEEEEEEESUSSSSSSSSS! He looked at me like I was crazy, ……..like where did that come from??? They all looked at me, and I said its better for me to sing Jesssssssssus then to let my flesh rise up. Do you know THAT MAN turned around and looked at me like I was one of his kids, who had just talked back to him? So I was looking at him like yeah I said it………… I started singing again Jeeeesusssssssssss. He stared at me, and then walked out of the door.
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I had to walk away, because see God knows what calms me down. Thats why you have to have a relationship with God these days. Because Lacrease wanted to get with him, but God who lives inside of me don’t want me to be disrespectful. He dont want me saying anything I want. I had to walk away and say God help me, please God, I even asked him why he dont let me get with some of these people that say what they want to me. Why can’t I get them Lord? Please just let me get them one good time? But after about 2 mintues he brings me back down to reality that it just aint go happen. And once he let me cool down today, I laughed cause its so funny to me. Cause you know its God when you let him calm you down and you cant even see him. I dont always need to go to somebody and need calming down, cause God will be like..you need me Crease? You need to talk? You need some time out? lollll
But you know it goes to show you how you cant treat people any ole way. You have to be mindful that one day its them, but tomorrow it can be you~ My Pastor Edgar Vann
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Matthew 26:41 (King James Version)
41Watch and pray, that ye enter not into temptation: the spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.
Lacrease
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A Wonderful Change!
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    Went to work today, got off early, wasnt feeling to well, went to bed and now Im up all night! lol Im off tomorrow so thats cool. Im happy about it.
I am so ready for this new year. I am ready to tithe seriously. I know its going to be hard at first, but I am going to do it. I feel the easiest thing to do is count it in with my bills biweekly. Im going to look at it as a regualr bill. I feel I can pay my bills and not get shut offs, then I know I can pay my tithes.
Weight Watchers sent me an invite to rejoin! Is that confirmation or what? I can pay $19.00 on my first visit and meeting before Feb. Or I can pay $169.00 for 16 weeks. I have to go up there to see what really is going on as far as how as that goes. I am so serious about this. Like I said I am going out of town, I am hoping to meet Tyler Perry , and I have to be looking good. ROFL. So RIGHT NOW thats whats on my heart.
I need to start budging my money better. Im too old to blow money the way I do. My daughter can save and spend money so wisely. She didnt get it from me. I am so proud of her too. She needs to show me for real. For Christmas I got $150.00 and ask me how much is left? I dont even want to talk about it. lolllll Lord, help me. I do have over $75.00 so Im going to really use that wisely.
Im going to get off this blog and get started on some serious ministry for real. Its about to be new year and I need to get it together. Im excited about the things that I am going to be doing. So let me get started on my research.
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God Bless You All
Crease
Tired
Christmas was great this year. Went over to my sisters house with all my family, we had dinner we exchanged gifts at my house, and had so much fun being together.
That was yesterday. This morning Im feeling depressed. Guess you cant have all good days. I was reading some of the stories on pandora’s site and it just make me think about me when I was 17 years old. I have thoughts of him coming through my line when he gets out of jail and smiling at me, trying to be my friend as if nothing happened. Im so dumb sometimes. All I want to do is be nice, but something inside me keeps my guards up. I feel as if Im running sometimes, and Im tired. I want to let me guard down and live. Be happy.
Went over to Gloria’s for Christmas her cousin was there, he like me years ago. We made eye contact tonight, perfect conversation. Being a Lions ticket season holder for 15 years and offering me to go with him next season, for some reason I wanted to say okay and really mean it. Got up to fix me a plate, for some reason I wanted to reach over and kiss him, felt that he needed a kiss as we talked. For some reason it felt right, it felt as he was there to “save me”. His conversations soothe me, the talk of football my favorite sport made me feel connected. Got up to make me a plate, he hinted that he wanted some too. I asked him did he want me to make him a plate, I did. And it felt good, like we were together. Felt like right. Felt like I was “a wife” not necessarily “his wife” but I had a wifish feeling.Handed it to him, and after wards handed him some foil to wrap some take home food. For a while now, never have I wanted to be of help to a man, unless he was MY man. But it was something different about him, maybe it was me. Yeah it was me. Does it matter that he is about 15 years older than I. Naw it didn’t matter, because it felt good tonight, felt like right. As I left I rub his back, nice stomach, nice dressed, nice house, he’s a mason may I add, owns his own boat, takes many trips, single, with grown kids. He don’t have a clue to how his presence made me feel like “more than a woman”. he have no idea that’s what I needed today. So I say thank you. I’ll see you again.
When will the day come for me to show “them” how its done. To fix my husbands plate, and watching his appreciation on his face. When will he come sweep me off my feet and say………….lets take a trip for 2 weeks to Florida. Lets fly to Vegas. Lets book a cruise. Look what I have bought you. Wear this for me. I know that time will come. But how much longer will I have to watch my sisters and their husband/boyfriend play and whisper to each other. How long will I have to look across the table and see them peaking on the lips, stopping only because they feel guilty. When will I stop feeling funny when I’m the only person who is not with someone? When will I be able to climb in the passenger seat, while my husband drive me to and fro? When can I say “ok gurl let me call you back my husband is here”? I hate hearing, so who is your friend? When will the time come when my husband calls me, and tells everyone in the back ground Shhhh be quiet my wife is on the phone! Will I ever hear ……..Im hungry what u cook? Guess only God knows. For now, guess Ill work on me. Work on this body of mines. These thoughts of mines too.
Im closing for now, feeling depressed a little, tired of holidays feeling empty. Tired of this computer. Tired, just tired.
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2006 COME ON IN!
As Ice Cube say………today was a good day.
Today was a good day at work. Time went fast, lunch went slow, and guess what? We didnt even get our last break.
Its cool through, cause the customers were not acting up today. I didnt work the 12 items or less lane either. The store was tore up. Lord, I am so glad that I get to go home at 10:30 and not stay till 11:00. The last customers were out of the store at 10:40 and the store closes at 10:00 thats how busy we were. I wasnt even tired, just ready to GO! I needed to get home and be in a new atmsophere.
Thisguy came through my line with his gurlfriend, yesterday he was inthere and kept staring at me until I said hello. He is fione too. Lord Jesus he looks GOULD ( like could). He came through my line today and said you was down there yesterday wasnt you. And Im like yelp, saying to myself, Nick you know I was. He was fine.
Im excited about the new year, Im going to start with some changes for my self. Neisha is in school making a career for herself. She got 2 A\’s and a B on her final grades. She is going to school Spring Semester taking 4 classes. I am so proud of her. She is going to get her Degree in Science. So with all that being said, its time for me…….Ms. Lacrease. Its time for me to start focusing on me. Its time for me to get back in Church, to increase my prayer life, tithe every 2 weeks and give offerings, and to stop dressing likea grandma and start looking \”cute\”. Im tired of my same ole grandma gyms shoes, and my grandma pants, my grand ma outfits period. I also need to learn discipline over my eating and unconscous spending on things that are not necsessary.
I will continue tomorrow .
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