Entry for February 18, 2006

Hey Yall,
 
          Today was a cool day. I was supposed to go to work at 4 but end up going at 7. I didn\’t feel like going and being bothered with those folks today. But when I finally went, time went so fast it didn\’t make no sense. Next thing Crease knew it was break time. See that\’s what I\’m talking about.
 
Came home, and my sister peedie came over to pick up some banana pudding and took it to my dad\’s house. She was telling me and my momma that she let my nephews go to the movies with their cousins. Its freezing cold outside its 8 degrees probably less than that. They got dropped off at their cousins, but caught the bus from there. She was waiting on them to call her so that she can pick them up from the cousins house. She said she started to follow her first mind and just take them and pick them up. But they wanted to ride the bus. My thang is this: Its so dayum cold outside, I didn\’t want to get out of my car to come in the house. And when I turned the key, I got mad cause it didn\’t open fast enough. So I know those kids was froze at that bus stop. Greg is 15 and Gary is 12. I dont care if they had on 5 hats, 6 pairs of socks, 4 coats, and 9 pair of pants. Its cold as hell out there.
 
She started having regrets of letting them go once she really realize how cold it was. They had cell phones on them, but they didn\’t call not once to say……..\”pick a son up ma\”. Me and my sister started talking about raising boys and raising gurls. She feels that its harder to raise boys than gurls, because of the gangs, and the clothes, the pressure to keep up. When it comes to making decisions about her kids, sometimes I don\’t feel as through she makes them wisely. But then we get into real real real real real bad debates about it. What I learned about my sister is, she raised her kids different from the way I raised my one child. She feels that its okay to let kids know why this and that. I don\’t. I feel that if I say \”No……. that means no.\” Maybe I will give you an explanation, maybe the hell I wont. And if Im telling you something you don\’t want to hear, there wont be any \”after talk.\” To me the conversation has ended. And if you say something after I say \”shut up\” your face will be swollen in 1 minute.
 
Growing up at home my sister was the baby out of 4. She\’s the kind of person who has to go through things to see what\’s really right. I don\’t. You can tell me one time, and that\’s it. I get the hint. She likes the chances. She likes to see \”what happens.\” So now that her son is 15 he does her the same way. And she hates it!!!! She understands it tho, while Im standing there looking like………… dayummmmmmmm didn\’t she say shut up?
 
Now all that is cool with me if she raises her kids that way. I don\’t neverrrrrrr have anything to say about how a person raise their child. And I learned that through her. I had to take a step back when it comes to that. Because when you get into going back and forth with situations and kids, you can make the parent/sister/friend/cousin/coworker not even talk to you about things concerning THEIR kids anymore. You will hear everything through the \”grapevine\” about your nieces or nephews. I learned that my sister will shut down on me and talk about everything but her kids just to keep me out of the conversation if I get to cocky about her kids. Tonight while we were talking about HER kids, I can feel myself getting a little more involved in her business with her kids, so I bagged down. Look at it this way, why get into it over hers? I can make a valid point all day, but if Im not reaching her with the words Im using then I need to use wisdom and shut it down. Those are her kids.
 
The solution to situations like these are to, ask God for wisdom when discussing family situations that really is not your business. But if you want to be apart of the discussion and decision making don\’t make the person upset till they want to hang up on you, or not talk to you for a while. Me and my sister got into it plenty of times over stuff like this. But tonight I held my peace, and everything worked itself out.
 
Im on my way to bed going to the movies tomorrow.
 
God Bless
Lacrease
 
 
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

Tyler Perry…………..and Lacrease

Hey,
 
 
  Did you know blogging can become addictive? Im starting to think about it daily. I went to the book store today to get the new Essence with Tyler Perry in front. Ahhhhhh reading this story just took me to another level…………………….right on the spot. I have so much love and respect for this man. He has been through a lot of abuse. How many men are willing to admit or even discuss the fact that they’ve been beaten and abused? Maybe thats why he is so interesting, because he is willing to share his story no matter what anyone things of him. As far as he is concerned he is straight up Ministry Minded and all he wants is for others to “get it”.
 
 
Tyler talks about one beating • “I remember when I was 17, I did something that ticked him off—something minor,” he says. “My father grabbed me, threw me to the floor, and stomped me…. Those were really sad times. There were times when I felt I wasn’t going to make it. It was nothing but the grace of God that helped me make it through.” (Page 120)
 
 
I am still working on my next project for this summer. I want to be out and about doing thangs. I use to be so out going and so into people, just having fun. Its like Ive picked up weight and dont want to do nothing. Nahhhh not this year. Im camping out for spring this year. Im going to start walking like I use to do, and drink my slim fast shakes.
 
 
 
You know I sit here and look at my old photos of me and your gurl Crease was so fionne okay? But back then I was considered “fat” or a “big gurl” and Im so mad cause I allow those words to effect me. Now Im wayyyyyy bigger than those photos and I look back at them and I was the “bomb”. Thats why you have to feel good about yourself, listening to people’s thoughts and opinions ON YOURSELF” will have you messed up.
 
 
Tomorrow is Wednesday and Im going to start this “weight loss” thing over again. Without talking about it too much, I will post my daily intake of food and water.
 
 
Well, Im out for tonight. God bless you all! Cant wait to meet you all face to face in heaven.
 
 
Lacrease
 
 
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

Who am I?

 
 
Hey,
 
     Today was a good day! Praise God.
 
 
When Im working so many things run through my mind, I just wish that I could stop what Im doing to write down all my thoughts. Some are funny, but most are true to life.
 
 
I know when I mention my customers its always something they do to irrate me. But today Im going to focus on the funny side of them. Today this lady was in my line taking forever to write her check, she was fiddling in her purse, just not having no sense of the fact that there are about 14 customers in MY line waiting to get rung up behind her. So after so long, I had to look back at the others to see what their facial expression was like. OMG! Those people had faces of stone! They were so mad at this lady. And me being the silly person I am, I bust out laughing. I couldn\’t help it. It was so hilarious. This lady was an older woman too. But the lady behind her was even older……………..like in her late 60\’s. She kept looking at me as if to say……….dang what is the hold up.???So I hunched my shoulders as if to say, \”Im sorry maam\”. So she looked at the woman from the back and made this loud HUHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH noise. I thought I was going to pass out! It was so funny!
 
 
Any hoo……….. These last couple of days I have been seeing guys that I use to date or liked. This guy came through my line (I was looking cute too)
 
 
 
 
and I was like okay dang, dont I know you? And he was like yeah Dial Fincher,( my first cousin)  Michelle Harris,( one of my best friends since  we were 6 years old)  Lacrease, and I was like yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhha. Whats your name? He said James Arnold! I went crazy. Whewwwwwww he was looking good too. I went to Elementary with this cat. But he\’s a  BIG DOG now…………..babay! lolllll He had his son with him, but he also had on a wedding band. So umm your gurl Crease dont do the married thing, But he kept saying I know where you are now. I know where you are. His mom is doing good. I remember her too.
 
 
Then…….. my love came into the store. The only man I really love in this world outside my family to this day. I love Neisha\’s dad but I love this man more. I wont say his name. But dont you know when I got home, his name and number was sitting on my desk for me to call. I was still at work. I smiled.
 
 
Tonight I was talking to one of my friends over the phone for what seem like 40 days. And after wards I was sitting here thinking about how people can drain you with their negative vibes. If you are seriously dealing with someone who has a spirit of UGH, they can drain you. And don\’t let that person be in the flesh, AGHHHHH that could really rub off on you.
 
 
Some people feel that whenever they are going through, that you are supposed to yield to everything in your life and cater to them. You can be with your friend for 3 days straight while they are going through, return home to take care of your own home front, and that same friend will \”act funny\” cause you didn\’t pack up your house and stay with them until \”they\” got over it. I know I have been there. I don\’t operate like that. I am a woman who knows what God can do if you call out on him. Im not going to \”baby a friend\” cause she wants to hold on, challenge, \”fix\” and \”work on\” a situation that has God\’s name on it, cause she dont want to give it to him. Im sorry but Lacrease gives all her problems to God. I dont hold on to them, and I don\’t have pity parities. Now I will cry for you and with you if you lose your dog, if your cat is sick, if your car is down, but big things, unlacreaseable things…………………..I dont touch. And I expect you not to call yourself dissing me or distance yourself from me either because I am not your Hostess in your pity party boo.. Cause when I get fed up, and I will forget you like you were never born.
 
 
 
Tonight I bought My number #! Gospel Artist, Karen Clark-Sheard CD. Its nice too. I have to listen to it tomorrow when I get a chance. This weekend Im going to the movies to see When A Stranger Calls. I cant stand scary movies, but Neisha wants to see it. Then again I may go see something else while her and her cousins go to see that movie.
 
 
Well, its time for me to start on another project. I dont know what\’s next. I need to get started on this Teen\’s Group Session I want to do this summer. I just need to get my head right and focus on me. Lacrease!
I find myself so preoccupied with others and whats going on with them. But you know one day, its going to be about Lacrease. I am going to have the  husband, the step kids, the Lawyer daughter, the brand new truck I want, the beautiful house with the 5 plus bedrooms and 4 bathrooms. I want my husband to be so in love with God that he puts me on hold …………………..okay! ( In a funny way) I want to quit my job at Walmart so bad and work with Teens. Thats who I am. There is so much going on inside their heads, and I want to be the one who cracks their skulls (with love) to find out what\’s really going on.OKAY??? You may say Im asking too much, and I know problems go along with this \”dream\”, but we have a Father who is rich and is able to fill my heart with my desires. I know he will, IF it lines up with his will. And if it does. Ill take it!
 
 
Good night my good people!
 
 
 
\”I am happy and content because I think I am \”~~ Alain Rene Lesage
 
 
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

Entry for February 12, 2006

Hey whats up?

 

 You know Im sitting here thinking about people and how we are sometimes. Last night at work. This lady came through my line ( blk) it was so crowded OMG I thought 10:30 wasnt never going to come. Well, she was putting her things up on the belt, when she all of a sudden ask me \” Do yall take American Express Travelers Checks\” I was like huh cause I didnt hear her. She got real loud and real real real real mean and said YEAHA YALL DO, NEVER MIND I DONT FEEL LIKE REPEATING MYSELF, YALL TAKE EM YALL TAKE EM NEVER MIND KEEP RINGING!!!!!. So I looked ……………I was outdone  how she was talking and acting towards ME. So as Im ringing her up, Im saying to myself. Do I know this heffa? I mean did I make her mad one day and she remembered and I don\’t. Cause there was no reason at all for her to go off on me like that, unless she knew me. So once I went back and forth in my mind figuring out what the heck she said. I said oh yeah we take those. She was like EXCUSE ME HUHHHH? I looked at her ghetto azz and was like ( TO MY SELF) ……… Lacrease dont say nothing to this ignant azz ghetto chicken ninny. So once I got myself together cause customers was looking at me like danggggggggggg she went off on that cashier. I had to regroup. Then she asked me for my pen so that she can fill out the check. That heffa lucky it was sitting on the register, cause I was going to say………….I DONT HAVE ONE !

 

So Im ringing her up, she trying to talk all nice. Im looking like dont say nothing to me at all. Then she turns around and begin talking to these 2 ladies who was her daughters who are grown  in line watiing to get rung up. Then guess who appears before I was even finish with the lady? My relieve person!  It was time for my lunch. Thank God! I was so happy to see her it didnt make no sense. I did not want to ring up her ghetto looking daughters!

 

My point is this? Its funny how she treated me and if she was to go right outside, get in her car start in up and it catch fire. If I was outside on my break and saw it all. I would be crying more than her kids. I would be on my cell phone calling the EMS, FIRE DEPARTMENT,  POLICE, MANGERS and everybody else. I am very sensitive  when it comes to people being hurt and abused. Anything that hurts people. She talked to me any kind of way because she knew I was on the clock and was at risk of losing my job. See how people do you?

 

I would forget allllllllllll that mess she was talking in the store, and be focused on her life. Helping her Sometimes I wish that I didnt feel that way. Sometimes I wish that I could jsut be mean and be like yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhha WITCH thats what you get! Naw run tell dat! But its no way I can be like that in my heart. No part of me would feel that way. No No No! Im about  leading people to Christ. She could never do anything to me as far as mentally to make me want to see her lay down there and die.

So think about the next time you talk to someone any kind of way. Think about that person may be the one who have to call 911 to save your life. Will they call? Or will they fake it? Which are you?

 

Lacrease

 
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

Me. Me, Me~~ Finally thinking about myself!

Hey Peeps!
 
         I know I know I know its been a while. I haven\’t been up to writing lately. Seems as if I had to do some Lacrease, me, me me, me thinking.
 
As Jill Scott say in her song: If I multiply 2 times 2 is it really, really 4 me
La [x6]
And if I add 5 to get 9 minus 8 that just leaves me
Me [x8]
So many times I define my pride
Through somebody else\’s eyes (La da da, la da)
Then I looked inside and found my own stride,
I found the lasting love for me
If I\’m searching for my spirituality
Passionately I must begin with me

There\’s just me…
One is the magic number [x2]

 
See, so I had to do some math and I am here with a verdict. I realize that I need to have activities lined up in my life in order to make it through the things that I have to do……………….anyway. You feel me? Im saying. I hate to go to work, but I have to do it. So what I do now instead of getting up daily going through the motions of life as if I am only here to do that. I plan things that I love to do with myself and others.
 
For example: I got up and went to see every last movie out that I wanted to see. Queen Latifah, Final Destination (very good) Big Momma\’s House, and Something New. Sure did. I didn\’t plan any of it. I just decided that this year I am doing things. I have a car, a nice home, and a decent job. Why live my life working and paying bills? Why get up and go through the same motions of life with no future plans?
 
But see, now Im starting to look into the future of my life. So I went on line and booked me 3 nights and 4 days into a very very nice hotel that is 45 minutes away from my house. Joyce Meyers is coming and I will be there to see her July 13-15. Anddddd I rented myself a car for Thursday-Monday. Then I went to work and put in my 2 weeks vacation for July 13-26! Yep! Im going to do a solo that weekend and Im going to enjoy myself. Im excited for the simple fact that I have plans. See I like to travel. I cant do all that sitting up in somebody\’s house playing cards and all that stuff. I use to do that 6 times a week when I was in my early 20\’s. We\’d drink, play loud loud music, talk smack over the card table, and really have fun. 
 
But now……………Its too hot to be in the house, Im ready to be out and about.
 
My gurl Charlene called me and asked me to go to Sue St. Marie? ( whateva that chicks name) for Mother\’s Day weekend. Im like yesssss, let me add this to my to do list this year. My mother wants to go and its really cheap too. Im excited about it, and Im so there. Next Feb me and my family are going back to Disney World. We go every 2 years, and I cant wait to go this time. It was so hot the last times, we stayed in the house we rented for a week. But we had soooooooo much fun OMG!
 
I just wanted to get back into the writing game with this blog, this week we are going to really get into some topics of life. So watch out!
 
Lacrease

 
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

Entry for February 12, 2006

Every 2 weeks I like to write down the things I have to take care of, and all the bills I have to pay. And as I do them, I cross them out feeling another thing has been accomplished on my list. ( What a good feeling).
 
Before the new year started I promised myself that I would tithe like I am supposed to with every check. I felt tired of robbing God out of tithes and offerings.
 
 8 “Will a man rob God? Yet you rob me.
      “But you ask, ‘How do we rob you?’
      “In tithes and offerings. 9 You are under a curse—the whole nation of you—because you are robbing me. 10 Bring the whole tithe into the storehouse, that there may be food in my house. Test me in this,” says the LORD Almighty,
“and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that you will not have room enough for it.
 Malachi 3 (New International Version)
 
I hear people saying all the time “after I paid my tithes this or that” and I’d say to myself man that’s what I need to be doing. I’m tired of giving God “what’s left” after paying my bills.
 
Well, the first of the month rolled around, and guess what? Something came up. I had to pay a speeding ticket I had gotten back in Oct. The Sec of State sent me a letter saying that my license was suspended as of Jan 5, 2006. I was shocked, but in order for my licenses to be reinstated I had to pay $242.40. When I received that mail it was Jan 7, 2006. I was driving around with suspended licenses.
 
That following day by it being on my mind so tough. I had to go and pay it. I got up, called my job and told them that I was going to be late because I had business to take care of. I went paid my  ticket and extra fees and my licenses was reinstated.
 
Later on I started thinking about how I didn’t have any money left to tithe. For some reason I didn’t feel bad because “something had came up………God will understand.” So I dismissed it, and promised to start off fresh the following month in Feb 2006.
 
Well, Feb (2006) rolled around I had gotten my check and was checking off all the things that I had to do. For tithing I had down $150.00 to make up for January and part of Feb. After I finished checking off things, and looking at my money. I crossed out the 1 and decided that I was going to give God $50.00. Yep, sure did. I had done everything on the list and that was my final decision. God gets $50.00.
 
The very next day as my check sheet was sitting in front of me, I had on my coat about to go to work. My close friend Shaun called me from Chicago. She is like one of my best friends. She lived here in Detroit 4 years ago, for 14 years. She called me and  her voice sound different. First thing out of her mouth was Lacrease what are you doing? And I said about to go to work I have my coat on and everything. She said I am too, she said God told me to call you, she said I didn’t want to do it, because I don’t understand, but he keep getting on me about it.
 
I said okay Shaun what is it……………………. tell me. She said God said that money you are supposed to give to him, she said do it. I said HUH? I knew instantly what she was talking about.But I wanted her to keep going, cause I couldnt believe what I was hearing. She said God said  try him. She said it don’t make sense to me, because this message is for you, She said Im just telling you what he told me to tell you. He said tell her to give it to me. I stood there frozen on the phone, cause I knew what she was talking about. I neverrrrrrrr told her about my list, or even that there was a list. That’s something I do every week. We neverrrrr talked about my tithes, offerings or anything. That’s how I knew it was God telling her that.
 
He knew that I had scratched him down to $50.00 instead of $150.00. SHE NEVERRRRRRR KNEW. She said I don’t even want to know what he is talking about, she said and I have to go to work, and I will talk to you later. I hung up the phone and wanted to shake out of my coat. But I had to laugh cause God knows how to reach me and through the right people.
 
God didn’t have to tell me anything else. I grabbed $150.00 and I paid my tithes. I sent them to my Church that SAME DAY.
 
Not only did I pay my tithes but I sent an offering with it.   That couldn’t wait until Sunday. Cause my thing is you have to know it was God, she didn’t know anything about that. I dont even want to know my penalty of ignoring that. I was obedient quick fast and in a serious hurry.
 
Next week its pay day again. I know the enemy is going to come at me with something else to try to keep me from doing what’s right. Im praying (pray with me) that I continue to do what is right. I will keep you all updated.
 
Your Sister in Christ
Lacrease
 
 
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

Entry for January 16, 2006

Hey,

 Whats up out there? Whats going on? Well this weekened has been a very exciting one for me, kinda busy, I have a pounding headache round bout now, but Im still here. Thanks to God. A special Hello to KD for always reading, and for being the best blogger out there! Simpalicious for being a true friend. Always ready to listen. Thank You.

Tomorrow is back to work, I had 3 days off. I swear Im going in tomorrow and Im putting in for a week leave of absence. I just need a brake, too bad its not vacation time I would take my 2 weeks and be out, and then start on my personal hours lollll. Im so serious. I need to get away.

Today I was talking to my friend Charlene of 18 years. She’s a Leo, we’ve had some good times and we’ve had some bad times, but out of all my old friends, she is the one I love most. I love them all, but she is the purest, the rarest any one you could find. I really love my friend. If we don’t talk for 4 weeks, we can always jump back into the same grove of our friendships.

 

I say that to say, if you have some boot leg, jealous, insecure, who cant be a friend to the people in their lives before they met you, then you need to clean out your closet and get rid of them. Its time out for that mess.  And on that note, Im feeling good and ready to move on into what God has called me to do.

Lacrease

 

 
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

People get on my nerves!

Hello Blog! ( are you a person?)
 
    Well today was not a good day! People irrated me, and get on my nerves. I am not a nice person today and I can admit that. I chose to be alone right now, because what I am feeling could spread. My daughter saw it in my eyes and my body expression when I came through the door. I cant shake it and I don’t think I want to shake it. Im in one of those funks where I want to stay here for a minute. Sounds familiar. Sometimes I like to write from these places to let out my feelings, and I know that others go through and feel the same way at one point and time of their lives.
 
It stared today at work with all these different rules. I work for Walmart and I cannot stand different rules to apply for that day, or the way management feels. I am a person who finds out what works for the system and use that. But at work its a new rule everyday, makes me know that I am working with unstable people. I have come to admire and accept change in anything, but my job……………………………..they get on my nerves.
 
Today Im working the 12 items or less lane. Keep in mind the counter is tiny, no belt to pull the groceries down or nothing. And thats cool because………………………………..its made for 12 items or less right? Well, Im ringing up people and I look in my line and there are people standing there with goo gobbs of groceries, and Im like “Ahmmmmmmmmmm excuse me maam but ahmmmmmmmmmmmm this is 12 items or less”. And she says “Oh I didnt know that”. So my coworker who is working the lane over from me, says “Oh Debbie took the stickers off all the 12 items or less lanes down here. Im like what??? that’s why all these people in this lane with all these items and the people that are use to using these outer registers are down here staring at me like “dang aint she gon say something to these people”. So I looks at the sign for myself and yelp, its gone. Our store manager removed the signs. So Im pissed. People are staring at me, people are getting into it with each other because they are ready to leave.
 
So for those who knows me………………I dont talk to the other cashiers or run my mouth about things, so I went straight to the Debbie and said “May I talk to you for a minute are you busy?” She reads my facial expression and stops in her tracks, and says No im not busy go head.” So I say Debbie did you take the 12 items or less sticker down from those lanes down there? She says yes, because blah blah blah and yada, yada, yada. So Im looking at her like hurry up and finish so I can say my little bit. So I say well Debbie, its hard to work that lane when people are use to that as being 12 items or less, and people are getting in that lane with 2 baskets full of stuff and there is no room with only 3 bag spinners. I said and on top of that people are staring at me like “hurry up”! I have to go and get an extra basket to put that stuff in, and while Im ringing the 3 bags are filled up, and instead of the customer getting a basket and putting that in the cart, she is steady trying to put groceries on that little as counter. I WAS SO IRRATED! So she goes into all this stuff I dont understand, cause I look at it like this. Im the cashier, you are the manager, dont sit your ass in your office with all these MAN MADE ON THE SPOT rules that don’t apply to you, BUT to me the person who has to deal with the customers. I feel if she took that sign down that was there since the store opened 5 years ago, and she just been here 5 months (if that much) then you are trying to say something different from what was on that sign. Right? If she agreed to that sign, then she wouldn’t have taken it down. Anyway she saw how I wasnt feeling her. I have learned to make UGLY faces before I open my mouth and say something foul. Then she says do you understand? And Im like NOPE. She wanted me to get it so bad, but I wasnt feeling her, and the way my face was looking told her to just stop talking, cause Im never going to understand her decision, especially if she aint the one working that lane.
 
I have come to the conclusion that I have rules in my house, in my car, in my office, in my room. That store is her store. She has her own rules, you can either deal with her rules, or leave the premises. I understand that to the fullest. Everyone have rules as the owner or person in charge of any situation. So, what saying that, if Debbie wants to keep the signs down, thats cool with Lacrease. I cant do anything about it. I even told her that I wasnt trying to change her mind on it, but that I wanted to understand the motivation behind her decision. Im not a person who wants to change a persons mind, but if it in any way effects Lacrease, I want to know the motivation, even if I dont understand it. But the bottom line is we all have rules that we must follow. There is no reason to get bent out of shape about it. Thats why we must always pray for understand, wisdom and knowledge. So for now on……………… Lacrease will not be working from that register again. I feel that if I have to scan the items, put them in only 3 bags, go and find another cart to put those bagged items in as the customer fills the counter up, then I have to go back and start scanning, put 3 more bags into the cart and repeat this routine over and over and over with the same customers, than I rather you put me at a register with a long belt, and 8 bag racks. Lets stop playing! I dont have time for that mess.
 
((((( Deep Breathe))))))
 
Then this woman came through my line and asked me how many batteries does this thing take? Am Im like maam I dont know you have to look at the box! Thats just deep to me, you sit here buy this stuff, and right on the box it will tell you all the things you need, especially batteries. It was just amazing how people expect for you to know about all the items you ring up. Then this kills me they say. ……………… “Maam I left my bag…………. YOU didnt give it to me!!!!!!! And you know me. I said “Maam…..NO YOU LEFT YOUR BAGS………. YOU DIDNT PICK THEM UP!!!. You paid your money and walked out without your grocerys. I always say, I grab my grocerys when I shop!!! And I say it in a way where they laugh. Whats the use in saying something and they dont receive it? I am sarcastic, but I say it in a way where you understand where Im coming from. Cause you just aint gonna blame me for YOU leaving your groceries. But do you know when you say that to them, they get mad???? They rather blame you. Thats just deep. Just admit that you forgot your dayum bag.
 
Thennnnnn this gurl come through my line taking forever. I am a fast cashier. I ring fast, and I pay attention to everything I ring up. Every now and then I may not hear the beep and ring 2 times, but I always catch it. But this gurl got on my nerves so bad, till I rung her stuff up so fast it made her head spin.
 
 She wanted to ramble through her items in the basket, and there are 50 people in line behind her. Im like gurllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll if you don’t hurry yo ass up!!!!!!!!
 
Then she wanted to talk to me, as if I am Amening her behavior. And you know me………..nothing saying a word, not responding, no eye contact, and face looking ugly. I cant sit up and talk with someone who is taking their time as if to say……..its my time, forget all yall, its my money, my merchandise. NO! You cant do that in my line, you can’t act like you’re the only person who needs ringing up, you cant act like its just me, you and your stuff. NO, you will not treat my customers like that. Then when she realized how I never responded to her “game” she decided to take a looooooooong time getting her items off the bag turner. So you all know me by now, I grabbed a whole stack of bags, and rung up the people behind her. Then she just wont go away. She asks me if I can page her daughter to the front. Im saying to myself…………..she just wont be done.  I never looked at her, but I ask my coworker if she could page her daughter for her, because I didn’t have a phone at my register.
 
Whew people can work my nerves sometimes. But you know as I look back on my day, I know 90% of my bad day was me. I am sooooooo friendly, I love kids, people, but today I was off the hook. Now in my good day, I wouldn’t have a story to tell because I handle everything in a positive way, even if they make me mad, I can always see light in the situation. But today…………………………it was not a good day for Lacrease.
 
 
 
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

Take my breathe away ~~Sound track from Top gun

Hello Everyone out there?
 
 Well, guess what my friend called last night. I talked to him briefly, but made it my business to return his call today. I left him a message, but maybe an hour later afterward he called but never listened to it. So that told me that he was thinking about calling before he even knew there was a message waiting. Well, anyway we talked and had a good conversation about school, and his experience of living below his means. He is a very professional person and loves to dress. So IM saying to myself. I am a plan Jane gurl who is not into being “sharp” but being clean is my thing. As long as my clothes are clean, I don’t care. So after we talked about clothes, we talked about colleges and how neighborhoods that he grew up in that he would never want to raise his children. He said that it was hard for him growing up, and that it was also hard for him in school (college as well). We had a really good conversation today. So we started talking about the things we like, so I said to him well, when you are done I too want to share what my likes and dislikes are. I guess I caught him completely off guard to make him say, okayyyy you go first. lollllllll Im laughing cause I threw him completely off.
 
 
I told him first of all I don’t like when a guy come off in the beginning as wanting to have sex. I said Im not into that. I said first of all before I have sex with you (if any) I need to know if you can be a friend! I said that is free you can get that anywhere, and by me knowing that, it just aint happening! He was like okay I see, I understand.
 
 
Later on I was talking to my sister and I was telling her about my friend. And I said you know how you go to a new job, and you have to wait a year for vacation time? I said if we start treating these men like our bodies are like vacation time, then they would know how the procedure works. They wouldn’t ask for sex. I said, they ask for your body like they have been on the job for a year. If you cant walk up in a job and get vacation time cause you haven’t put up any time, then you sho cant get my body for the same reasons. You can’t even get holiday pay inside 90 days, what the hell have you done to feel as if you deserve my body? I mean for real!!!
 
 
You don’t just go asking your boss for a raise? Its just like that with my body, you have to earn that. And it aint by talking on the phone everyday either, its by marriage. Its be being together, its by trusting God, its by spending time together, its by being patience with each other, its a combination of things, but in the beginning you dont have it like that boo. And if you understand that early in our friendship, then we will get along just fine.
 
Lacrease
 
 
 
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

January 06, 2006

Hello Blog! (((((lol)))))
 
   Where do I begin? First of all Thank you Lord for this day, for waking me up anyway when the sleep was good this morning. And a special Thank you for waking me up at 11:30 like I needed so that I could take care of some business. Then today I read a message from someone special, Lord Thank you boooooooo. I love you!
 
Work was cool today. My friend didn’t call me today nor has he called me yesterday. Yesssssssss.That means I don’t have to tell you “No” cause it means you finally got the hint. You are one less person that I have to be bothered with.
 
That same day he came into the store, this guy I knew from back in the day came in. We looked at each other and had a short conversation. As Im talking Im looking at him like UGHHHHH, I was intimate with him once and the person I am today just want to take back that night. I mean I just want to walk up to him and say give me  back “my loving”
 
I say that to say, that we as women have sex with these men, and they sooooooo dont deserve to have our bodies like that. I mean what have they done to feel as if they deserve my loving? What have you done SIR to make yourself feel that you can ask me for this? For real tho. And I know that its important to you that you get it because we have different organs, and you grave what I have. So why do we just give up what’s precious to us to them, for you to feel as if you deserve this?
 
That’s why no matter how good this man look, how good he makes you feel, how much money he have. You should keep yourself out of situations where you will be tempted. I have had my days back then when I was “off the hook” sorta speak. And I regret giving my body to these men. But I can’t take it away, but baby you betsta believe that they gets nothing today! I asked God for forgiveness, and have moved on. So when men come on me like that, they don’t know my struggle, and how it just aint happening.
 
Women make sure that when you are in the company of temptation, keep yourself away from atmosphere’s that sex may creep up on you. We must keep on praying for that man God has for us. See, if you are digging a guy, and you are not sexually involved with him, and if he ask you for your body, and you dont give in, but you also noticed that he is still around. That’s a sign to really get to know him. And Im telling you being around him without having sex will build something up so mentally and loving it will feel unreal. I know! And to this day when we see each other out spirits connect. And it feels good because we never went there.
 
Did I mention that my old friend back in the day I was talking about early in this conversation CAME BACK IN THE STORE TONIGHT? UGHHHHHHH STARING AT ME!!!! UGHHHHHH
 
Try it!
 
Well that’s my word for today. God Bless you all and I will be off the chain on this weekend, Im off Sunday and Monday. So expect more for me. I enjoy this too.
 
Lacrease
 
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