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First of all I want to say thanks to everyone for stopping by to see about Credog only to find that I have been MIA! Its just been one of those days, turning into two of those days, then a few of them days, turning into almost a week of “them days” lol But I’m blessed!
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You know how when you pay ALL of your bills and you got gas in the car to last you, then you do this and pay that, and you look up and you’re like “dang I dont have a dime to my name……..again? Then you start looking at your pattern of spending realizing that you are terrible in that department? Then you realize that you need this and then you have your wants, and you can’t get them.
Well, that is what caused me to break down. I stop tithing and Im sooooooo upset about that, ever since then I got in trouble. Trouble so deep that I never want to see or get in again. Today I am out of the hole! Thank you Jesus! Lord, I don’t want to go to that place again.
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Now, Im not a person who gets depressed easily at all. It takes a WHOLE lot to build up for me to get to that place. I may feel down, or have something on my mind, but for the last 5 days or so, I have been feeling real real funky. And when I get into that place, Im quiet at home, I don’t answer the phone, and I like to be alone. I know its a spirit and its very transferable. You know how you can be in a good mood and then the next thing you know, those around you feel that same way, just because YOU are happy? Well, I know that if you are feeling funky, and if people know this about you, you can easily find yourself irritated, snappy and could transfer it to the next person. And I would neverrrrrrrr want to do that to anyone. So that’s why I let you know………boo Im feeling real foul right now, and Im just chilling! After I finish going through, Im better than before.
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I went to work one day last week, to find that customers left a comment about me in the drop box. Its a “tell us how we are doing” questionnaires and they had some strong comments about me and my work performance. They said that I was friendly, always smiling, cheerful, pleasant, reliable and that I work as if I really enjoy my work. That was over the time clock so that everyone could see. I was happy………..aint gon lie. Cause its like Lord, being what you ask me to do is a hard job, but its do able. WE are called to be a light in the world, and I try to do just that.
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The bible says  14“You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. 15 Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. 16 In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven. Matthew 5 (New International Version)
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Yesterday, I think it was my worst day. I was real quiet. Went to work from 4-10:30 and made the best of it. Wondering when am I coming out of this funk. My daughter bless her heart took me to Dairy Queen Friday night hoping to help, and it did. She kept asking me “ma you aight’? Need me to do something for you, need some “more” money? Im like naw boo, at this point, its not about money, its about me.Â
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 I was at my register ringing up on a normal busy Saturday afternoon. When Im standing there making the best of how I was feeling, when it was the turn of this young white gurl about 26. I rung her up and told her the total. She said this is a credit. She swiped her card, then she starred at the screen and asked me her total again. So Im like its $40.( something I dont remember), but I told her the total. And she was still looking puzzled. So I said ma’am the Scent Stories alone was $25.00 (just to try to get her to see that why her total was that high). She signs her name and out of the blue, she says to me……………..” I just ask you for the total, I DIDN’T ASK YOU ALL THAT OTHER SHIT”!
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MESSED MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE UPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP! Do yall hear me?
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My heart started beating as if some drums inside me came alive. I looked at her with this look of EVIL AND ANGER. I hear God in one ear saying ” don’t let her knock you out of your square Lacrease”. Then I hear Satan in the other ear saying “Knock her f*****a** out. Then I hear God say, Lacrease its only a test, ( being depressed and pushed to the limit), don’t let the enemy win.” Then I hear Satan say you gon let her say that to you ON this day, when you are trying to be nice? Then I hear God say Lacrease you will lose your job, AND you will have to pay the consequences of your actions” Then I hear Satan saying pick that B
****up by the neck, with your bare hand, and throw her into the parking lot.” All of these was going through my mind within seconds. It was like my life flashed before me. Thats how ANGRY I WAS!!!! And I was faced with making a decision RIGHT there on the spot.
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Of all days, this happened to me. That’s what makes this testimony so awesome. See Satan knew how I was feeling inside, he knew I was a time bomb ready to explode.  And that’s why I find it easy to understand why he would say “pick her up with your bare hands and throw her across the parking lot.” He wants to see my fail. This gurl have no idea that she was being used to knock me out of my sqaure. I had so much mess build up inside me that Satan easily tried to make me an easy target for jail time, separation from God, and job lost. This was a time in my life where I had to pull out all the scriptures I read in the bible and apply them. This was a time when my character was being tested. This was my time to see for myself who I really am.
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I still had to give her the receipt. As all these things flashed before making a final decision. I went through many emotions. Had she knew how I was feeling, and still trying to be nice at the same time, I believe that she would never had said that to me. That’s what I love about God!!!! See this situation couldnt have worked or showed me who I was, because she knew that she couldnt get away with saying that to me if we were out in public. The risk of her losing feeling in her whole right side of her face would have been in jeopardy ( just playing). So this cause my hands were behind my back……meaning I was at work and we all know you cant say what you want to say to the customers.
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After going back and forth in my mind as to what I should say to her, I instantly started sweating, my blood was warm, of all days she had stepped into the Lions Den. Thinking about everything that the bible had taught me about how to treat others, no matter how the flesh wanted to say something different. I said to her GOD BLESS YOU, GOD BLESS YOU, GOD BLESS YOU. She laughed a sarcastic laugh as if to say ……..yeah you betta not say nothing…….I passed her the receipt and she left.
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As I said hello to the next customer, tears wanted to fall so bad from my eye pocket, but I had to think of this scripture Philippians 4 (New International Version) 8Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you
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And I had peace. I cant explainnnnnnnn the feeling that came over me. I can remember yesterday 3 times when I was about to cry thinking about it. Its good to know God FOR YOURSELF! Boy do I still have sooooooooooooooo much to learn about God. So to those who havent started on that relationship with him. You betta get busy. I aint playing, theres too much to learn to NOT be covered.
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So since you read my testimony, have you ever been in a situation similar when you had to make a spiritually decision versus a worldly decision and you made the right choice to defuse it?
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Lacrease
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Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy
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Inside the mind of cree 
