So, while I sit home in my PEACEFUL place. I’m remembering a lot of things, and asking myself how did I skip this? When your mind is not at PEACE, you miss everything. I talked with God from 9:30 until 3:00 today. I talked so much I hope people didn’t walk pass my apartment and think I was crazy. LOL He is so funny. I wish everyone could experience this PEACE.
You can, you have to go through something to get it, but you can. First you have to remove the distracters from your life. I learned that while people may be good people, and that’s fine, but you have to “clear your table”. Let me give you an example. I’m writing a book right now, and everyday I need PEACE. I can’t deal with text messages of drama, and phone calls of trash. I love helping people and sharing some God-given wisdom. They can always have my ear. But for those people who want nothing just trying to keep up with you, you gotta let them go. I CANNOT write with folks stuff on my table. AINT GON DO IT.
Writing is my passion. My mind flows when I allow GOD TO COME IN A SWEEP AWAY ALL THE “STUFF OFF THE TABLE”. I know a lot of people, and connect with people because I like to help them sort out things. But in these last 8 months I also learned to guard my space. And its okay. I use to think I was being mean, but it really is okay. My main focus right now is balance. I have learned to balance God’s time, my time, my daughter, my family and my friends. Maybe that’s why I feel so great right now, because that’s one of the main reasons why I wanted to live in Atlanta…. to get away. I didn’t know how to balance. Everywhere I went people knew me, wanted to talk talk talk, and I’m like…. I’m getting my brows done, please. It’s not a bad thing, I worked customer service for 10 years and I was very friendly, popular and I love the Lord. BUT I DIDNT KNOW HOW TO BALANCE. I’ll allow one person to talk to me for 10 hours straight without trying to cut them off. I didn’t like that. But I didn’t want to be mean either. I LOVE PEOPLE. But today, I must have my space, so that I can balance. I FEEL GREAT ABOUT THAT.
I’ll be back and forth on here, didn’t know I had so much in me to share for my book. I hope God is going to be proud of me, because this book is going to help a lot of people. Well, let me get some sleep, talk later.
Cree
Okay sooooo, BEYONCE tickets went so fast, and I refuse to sit way up at the top to see the show. Was online at 10:00 am. My friend bought 6 tickets and paid $1500.00. Good Seats too. So I’m happy for her. Well, I did go to the last Destiny Childs concert, so I did get to see Ms. Queen B do her thang. So, if there is another show… I’m there. Waiting for the announcement.
In other news…….
I am feeling good today. So peaceful in my apartment. Gosh, everybody should experience living alone. I never dreamed of this PEACE. LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL I spend hours and hours and hours writing my book. I feel good and got a lot done. LOL I learned somethings about myself tonight. I couldn’t stop laughing.
Well let me share a little. When we were growing up the 4 of us weren’t allowed to fight, we had to argue it out, afterwards we had to kiss and make up. Well, as I moved out and started my own life, I realized that I would get into it with my friends all the time and they would hang up on me and be angry for days. But see I was raised, have an argument, kiss and make up. Well I learned quickly that my friends wasn’t raised that way. If you said something or did them wrong, they wouldn’t talk to you for a while. God showed me that I wasn’t the Princess I thought I was. My weapon was my mouth, not only can I whip up a sentence on paper that can have you angry at me, but with my facial expression and my non curse word sentence, I can knit together a sentence deep enough to make you wanna pick me up and throw me out of the house. So, I had to learn to watch what I say to people. Wow, its deep. I love when God show me MEEEEEEEEEEEEE. LOL LOL
Alight everybody let me go back to my place of PEACE… Its bedtime. Oh I love my life. Thank you Jesus.
Its been a while!!! Wow, so much as happened in these last 8 months. I’m in a good place. I can’t believe that I have my own apartment. Wow yes. Living alone seem so funny. My daughter is living in her downtown apartment, and I live directly around the corner from her. LOL It’s so funny, again, I didn’t see any of this coming. When I leave out of my apartment I will be at hers in 1 0r 2 minutes.
What I’m really loving about downtown living is that, when I look out of my apartment, I don’t see other houses or kids playing outside, I see buildings, and courthouses, music halls and baseball stadiums. I love it!!! Cant wait till the fire works. Living here, I can cook when I get ready, I don’t have to ask anyone if they’re hungary, whats for dinner, are we going out? What to buy at the grocery store. LOL LOL Cant stop laughing because this is the life that I never thought about. My daughter was no problem growing up, we could have lived together for ever and I wouldn’t have thought one thing about it. We are both so much alike and get alone perfect. We are born on the same day, 19 years apart, same hospital, she was born at 1:43 am Sep 3, and I was born 1:40 am both in HUTZEL HOSPITAL IN DETROIT. My mom was in labor with me for 3 days and I was in labor with my daughter for 3 days. So funny!!!
But anyway…. I am enjoying this LIFE!!! Every Saturday my Sisters want me to come over their houses to be with them and their hubby’s. And on Sunday I cook at Nesha’s with her, we have so much fun. Mon-Fri- I am writing and staying focus to complete this book. So I’m happy about that. Well back to writing, about to drink some cold water, and snack on these cashews. Be Blessed Because I’m smiling and happy.
OH YEA….. 10:00 AM TOMORROW IM BUYING MY MRS CARTER SHOW TICKETS TO SEE MY GURL/DAUGHTER BEYONCE!!!!! CANT WAIT!!!! JULY 20 ITS GOING DOWN!!
More and more I’m seeing …….. and you say what? #whengodtellsmeiknowboo
Just checking in. Everything is going well for me….. Im really happy right now. Been spending lots of time with my family, thats always good. Being more of a listener than anything else. Be back lata!!!
Wow, so much is going through my mind, so much has happened, so much to do, and much to put in order. HAHAHAHAHA Wow LaCrease!!!
Its something how you want so badly for things to turn out one way, but God the creator has plans for things to turn out another way. I have really learned somethings about myself in these last 7 months… some good and some not so good.
I realize that I let stuff build up. I try to give people chances, man they just won’t do right. But I Thank God for this banister/railing that walks besides me on the right and the left. It keeps me from NUTTING UP and getting out of Character. This year, I must figure out why I allow build ups. I guess I hope that people act right and do right by me and others, but maybe they just don’t know how too. Then when I “go there” I question God about my anger and wonder if its allowed.
But there is one thing about me giving these people chances to do right by me…… I really don’t care if I speak or see them again. Some would argue … yeah you do care, but I’m so afraid I DONT. I feel bad that I don’t care, but wonder why I want to give chances…. ANYWAY…. those things will be explored and answered.
I’m looking forward to a great year!!!
Happy New Year!!!
I have truly been through a lot in 2012… but as it ends…. God sure does have a way to let me know things are going to be just fine.
I’m excited about the new things he will do this year. I refuse to drive , all my life I like to be in control. I’m going to do things a little different this year, I’m going to let God do the driving.
I’m going to FOCUS on a few things, and I’m not fighting anyone, any feelings, or things that are NOT my battle. I can’t do it. Why should I have too when he said that he would do it? That’s crazy!!! LOL
I plan to get more into my Bible and have the personal relationship I’m use to enjoying with Jesus. That makes me feel good. Just thinking
about it.
Be Blessed
Cree
Merry Christmas to you all!!! Take time out to Thank God for all the blessings in your life.
A New Year is coming…… and I am going to start this year off very humble. Waiting on God and not trying to do my own thing, waiting for that APPOINTED TIME…
At some point you get tired of doing things your way…. I’m have a few projects on my plate in my own space, and I want to really FOCUS. 2013 IS A NEW DAY FOR ME. The whole year is a DAY.
Be Blessed
After watching the last episode of RHOA… I come to the conclusion that Kenya is not down right mean….. I just think she needs more attention than the next woman.
I felt bad for her as she did her “Gone with the wind” twirl. I’m starting to believe deep down in my soul that all she wants is to be LOVED. I feel that she can really come off funny acting if she was around other women who have less than her, and not as attractive. Kenya is use to walking in a room and seeing husbands, boyfriends, fiancee, and everybody else winking, flirting, giving her all this attention while trying to get with her at the same time. Her norm is being around women who husbands and boyfriends desire her. But with these RHOA…. none of them are on her level as far as being married, they all have want she wants the most. Marriage and children. Walking into a room and getting attention is not what is happening with this group of women…. they aren’t having it, and the husbands aren’t either. With these women she has to bark loud, and make “scary” exits to make up for the attention she’s use to receiving.
I can just imagine how insecure she can make a “plain Jane” woman with no self-esteem feel around her husband. That’s power for Kenya, she’s use to having it. I wonder what her younger days were like, I wonder how many married or committed men she “snatched up” from someone in a relationship.
For me, the bigger picture is that she gets some kind of help. I hope that she can come to understand that she is a beautiful woman, she doesn’t have to do anything extra to try to make or prove a point to anyone. All she has to do is walk into a room and just be a woman. She doesn’t have to tell everyone she won Miss USA… let people wonder who you are, let them say to you…. you look familiar… have I seen you someplace before? To me a woman doesn’t have to make a lot of noise when you make an entrance. Just be a woman. Be yourself.
I really hope that Kenya saw herself in a new light this season of RHOA. I hope that she can learn from her behavior, and say to herself…… I have to do better, I will do better.
Inside the mind of cree 