Cree’s Valentines Day Care packages for the Homeless was awesome!!! We had a ball going out to the streets of downtown Detroit in search for those who are homeless.
When I started Cree’s Feeding the Homeless for Thanksgiving, I was very nervous about asking people for help, because what I wanted to do was kinda
unheard of. I had a vision to prepare the food in my own home, and then go out to the streets to FIND people who were homeless. That’s why I believe that when you establish good credit with people when doing something like this, people WILL invest time and money into you. They’re going to first think mentality about the person you are. They will examine that, and then, they will decide if they want to be apart of your vision. Gloria and I were talking yesterday about how important our mothers said that our credit would be, but being young at the time we felt it was foolish to think about credit. They were right, and not only financially, it could be your attendance at work, your history of anger, your history of good friendships, being on time when people come to pick you up, they pay attention to the time length when you borrow money from them. People really do look at that in deciding to be apart of anything that you do. And I say that to say…..how is your credit with people? Think about it.
I’m so grateful to know that so many people believe in my vision. I’ve had several people from Twitter who have never in their lives met me, take a chance and decided to donate just because they believed that I would carry the vision out and do exactly what I say I would do. I believe that what I display in my Tweets, and the LOVE I have for God, is why he laid it on their hearts to be apart of this mission. So, I send a special Thank you to my Twitter gurls ~Selena from NYC, Calandra ( from Chicago), and my #1 twin Sister Sherry (from Michigan).
This year was different than last year. Last year we didn’t serve food, but what we found out was, they were hungry. While they were happy to receive what We had last year, it was very clear that they wanted to eat. And so with knowing that, we heard the call and delivered!!!! We made a HUGE POT OF SPAGHETTI. We passed out nice size plates topped off with Sara Lee dinner rolls, Entenmann’s donuts, Faygo pops, Aquafina and Dasani bottles of water.They had gloves, hats, toothpaste, lotions, deodorant, face cloths, and toothbrush holders. Also we were able to buy 4 jackets, and one pink coat. They were so happy, and so Thankful.
The sad part about the mission was, after we had passed out care packages and everyone went their own ways to eat, we saw people eating the dinners from the alleys in the cold. They even looked happy and content. We drove around, and gave this one guy another plate. We saw people eating anywhere they can just for peace. What bought tears to my eyes was, this guy found a spot on a building steps and ate his dinner. Its so hard to see people who have no where to go, I DONT CARE HOW THEY GOT INTO THEIR SITUATION, I just know that they deserve to be treated with respect, and to be treated as a HUMAN BEING. I’m a cashier for a HUGE COMPANY, and I see daily so many ungrateful people, coming in with their money flashing all over the place making claim to whatever it is they want to buy. And not with LOVE, but with an attitude and ignorant BOLDNESS. None of this “stuff” we CLAIM is ours, it belongs to God. One day, and one day soon God is going to take from the Rich and give to the Poor. I don’t know about those who are reading this entry, but I know many folks including myself, who maybe 5-6 paychecks away from homeless. Yes, we may have family members who will take us in, but YES, that would mean that WE TOO are HOMELESS. Anytime you don’t have your own PLACE TO SLEEP…….that’s a form of HOMELESSNESS. With all of that said, its our duty to help others. No matter if you’re sitting in the break room at lunch and you clearly HEAR someone say, they don’t have any money to eat with, it is our JOBS ……YES, OUR…. JOBS to reach into our pockets and purses and make sure we do all we can to make sure that person eats. And if you’re a person with ” Good Credit”, and you dont have any money on you at the time, then you should be able to go to those people you have established a good bond with and get $5.00 for that person to eat with. That’s the purpose of establishing “good credit” no matter what area of your life that its in. You NEVER know when your child is in school and without something, you NEVER know. Do what’s right to others, and no matter who you are, God will make sure that your love ones are taken care of, ESPECIALLY if you can’t get to them in time.
My car broke down Saturday RIGHT AFTER WORK, so I called Gloria and told her, and she said no problem ” we can go in my car”. That next day I was telling another friend Margarette, and she said that since she have a truck ……she’ll drive. The very day of the mission, another friend came over after work unexpectedly with a truck as well, she TRAILED ALONE and helped. See how God take care of us? He knows our hearts and he knows what we need and he always come through RIGHT ON TIME. I notice and look at all of that, and I can NEVER say Thank you Jesus enough. Thank you Lord, Thank you!
I want to say Thank you for all of those who helped out, and to those who wanted to help. THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH AND GOD BLESS YOU ALL!
PLEASE READ THE SCRIPTURE BELOW……VERY POWERFUL
The Sheep and the Goats ~ MATTHEW 25: 31-46
31 “When the Son of Man comes in his glory, and all the angels with him, he will sit on his glorious throne. 32 All the nations will be gathered before him, and he will separate the people one from another as a shepherd separates the sheep from the goats. 33 He will put the sheep on his right and the goats on his left. 34 “Then the King will say to those on his right, ‘Come, you who are blessed by my Father; take your inheritance, the kingdom prepared for you since the creation of the world. 35 For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, 36 I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.’
37 “Then the righteous will answer him, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? 38 When did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or needing clothes and clothe you? 39 When did we see you sick or in prison and go to visit you?’
40 “The King will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me.’
41 “Then he will say to those on his left, ‘Depart from me, you who are cursed, into the eternal fire prepared for the devil and his angels. 42 For I was hungry and you gave me nothing to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me nothing to drink, 43 I was a stranger and you did not invite me in, I needed clothes and you did not clothe me, I was sick and in prison and you did not look after me.’
44 “They also will answer, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry or thirsty or a stranger or needing clothes or sick or in prison, and did not help you?’
45 “He will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not do for me.’
46 “Then they will go away to eternal punishment, but the righteous to eternal life.”
Lord, last week was a very trying week. You showed me just how strong I am. Never knew I had that in me. It amazes me that in the midst of what I was going through, you REMINDED me of your word, and most importantly the words I said to you, when * things were good*. I had to remember those words and use them in my time. And I laugh, I laugh Lord because you make me laugh even through all that I went through. I am stronger than I thought I was, and by showing me that……. is all I needed to see.
The things that you tell me in advance, sometimes I feel like I can’t handle them, but I CAN, its just that I don’t like to see some of it come to past. But you know what Lord, truth is the truth and it will always stand. I Love you for looking out for me, and for the LOVE you show me.
You know my prayers, I have turned it all over to you, I am not thinking or worrying about anything, what ever is your WILL ……….. let it be done. I can doing other things, while you work behind the scenes for me.
Lord, just please show me how to handle the things you tell me in advance. Sometimes I don’t always know how to deal with it when it come to pass. I’m use to you telling me so much, but I don’t always handle the situation/issue/blessing the right way. Sometimes I blow up, sometimes, I’m quiet, sometimes I do even want to talk to the person anymore, and sometimes I handle it properly. For someone to have so much information ahead of time, you would think by now I would have them down pack, but I don’t.
For example today. You told me something and it came to past, and I kinda feel bad. Going to bed, feel like crying. I love you Lord, we’ll talk later.
Wow, where do I start? First Thank you Lord for showing me so much Love, not only to me, but my family. I see everything that you’ve done, we all see it and we Thank you so very much.
Thank you for the laughs and smiles, and mostly the questions you answer for me. I’m starting to understand that I’m a right now person, I want to know things now, when they’re going to happen, how things will happen, who are involved, where, when, what time, what day, but you Lord, by reading the Bible daily, I see so clear that you do things when you get good and ready, and your time is NOT LA’CREASE’S TIME. LOL. I have to laugh at myself because you will not be moved by my 1000 questions of when and why LOL…..and I Love that about you. This teaches me to be patient and in doing so, I’m learning a lot about myself. So Thank you Lord.
I gotta write about these 3 middle aged white ladies, who came through my line yesterday. When they first walked up, I felt in my Spirit that they were something else. When you invite God to live inside of you, you carry him with you where ever you go. If I come in contact with some bad spirits God inside me will do these “flips”. I can feel him , and then I see why. I know that these people are in the area because I get a bad feeling.
So me, being Cree, smiled and said “Hello”. They all spoke with dryness.The one lady asked me did she have to take her case of water out of the cart “because it was too heavy”. I smiled and said “No ma’am” I got you, even if I have to come around. See, when people with spirits like them, I have to make sure that I’M EXTRA NICE, because when I know that I have done all I can, to make these 2-3 minutes with them as pleasant as possible, then I know its not me. So the other lady with her ‘smart mouth’ gon say… well yea, I guess you could come around the scanner IS wireless. I looked up at her, gave her the eye as if to say, STRIKE ONE. After I scanned the water, the lady had 25-30~ 2 liter Mountain Dews and Pepsi’s. Instead of her putting the bottles on the counter so that I can scan them, she chose to just tell me how many of each flavor she had. Which was cool, because a lot of the customers do that. Okay, but after I scanned them all, the customer look to me as if to say……I need these in bags. And my look at her is……okay if you want them in a bag, stop being lazy and set them on the belt instead of calling off how many you have. So when the lady realized that she may need bags, after I mentioned it, she grabbed some bags to pack later. She paid and stood there waiting for the other 2 ladies.
I’m ringing up the elder of them both. Very nice lady too, she was very old but you can tell that she needed help with her transaction. After I rung her up, they decided that they would let her exchange the money with me, I guess so that she could do her own thing. Some ladies who are older still like to do things. Well, as I was giving her the change, the one lady LOOKS AT ME REAL FUNNY and says….. ‘make sure you count your change mom”. I looked at her, and all I could say is “Jesus”….and I walked away ( I didn’t have any more customers at the register, whch gave me private time to take and spit that mess out). Both of the ladies ( not the elderly) were so ignorant, and it was so obvious that they didn’t care. After I said Jesus, and walked away from my register to “regroup”. The one lady said excuse me ma’am, excuse me. I didn’t hear her, but my coworker called my name and I turned around. I noticed that the lady wanted me. I walked towards her and started smiling again because, I want to be out of the clear of “having an attitude”, I made sure she saw all of my teeth. I walked up to her and said yes ma’am…. she said did I offend you when I told my mother to count her change? I looked at her as if to say…..”you know the hell you did”. But I wanted to see where she was coming from and said “No why did you say that”? She said “Oh I just thought that you were offended because I told my mom ( the lady was 1000 years old) to count her change. She know dongone well, her momma wasn’t in her right mind to count her $1.21 change. I said oh no, I’m good, you didn’t offend me. She wanted to say because when I was walking away you called out “Jesus” name. And I felt that I was being rude, and it was for me. I wanted to say “ma’am its not even about the money, or the wireless scanner, OR THE POPS NEEDING BAGS”, its about you and your sister’s WHOLE DEMEANOR”. It’s clear that they both were prejudice.
My thing is this, if you felt you were being rude ( she was) then you must do this all the time. This is not new to you, but she felt convicted in her heart, when she heard the name of JESUS!!! Now I would have been wrong if I told her that the God in me did FLIPS AND CARTWHEELS WHEN THEY ALL WALKED UP!!! But that would have been going to far ( and I do sometimes). SMH …these people crazy!!!
People and their mess dont phase me anymore. I have a good life, family, good friends, its hard to shake me as where you could years ago. Im not moved by their unhappyness. I’m good, if people want to act a fool, thats cool with me. I DO HAVE A CLOWN SUIT, but I chose not to WEAR IT especially dealing with people who are only in my life for a few mintues. This year, Im trying to change the way I think and look at things, there will be challenges, thats cool too. Im going to always walk away smiling because I feel good!! And on that note, my Sister is about to pull up, and then we are going to swing by our other Sister house to get her. We are going out to dinner……. MY TREAT!! Let me go before she blow my cellphone up!!
I’m sitting here reading my Bible tonight, and came across a few interesting examples of how serious God is about forgiving others. This is one of the reasons why I love reading the stories in the bible because you get to see how God is and how he interacted with REAL PEOPLE from the Bible. The stories are REAL, and not only that, its written in words that WE ALL can understand. All you have to do is VISION it in your head, or do what I do, with each word I read, I “video tape it” and make up people to play the parts.
I want you all to read the Scriptures below and actually visualize it in your mind. God is VERY SERIOUS about forgiving others. Someone can do something so wrong in our minds, and that’s fine, BUT GOD MAKES IT CLEAR, that you can go to work, play with your family and pets, go out to dinner with your friends, make love to your husbands and wives, cook dinner, and enjoy all the good things in LIFE. BUT FORGIVING, is something God takes seriously. So read this and be VERY AFRAID if you have not forgiven someone. THIS IS NOT FOR YOU, if you can/will/and have NO problems doing so, but for others, READ AND TAKE THIS AS A WARNING.
The Parable of the Unmerciful Servant
21 Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, “Lord, how many times shall I forgive someone who sins against me? Up to seven times?” 22 Jesus answered, “I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times.[a]
23 “Therefore, the kingdom of heaven is like a king who wanted to settle accounts with his servants. 24 As he began the settlement, a man who owed him ten thousand bags of gold[b] was brought to him. 25 Since he was not able to pay, the master ordered that he and his wife and his children and all that he had be sold to repay the debt.
26 “The servant fell on his knees before him. ‘Be patient with me,’ he begged, ‘and I will pay back everything.’ 27 The servant’s master took pity on him, canceled the debt and let him go.
28 “But when that servant went out, he found one of his fellow servants who owed him a hundred silver coins.[c] He grabbed him and began to choke him. ‘Pay back what you owe me!’ he demanded.
29 “His fellow servant fell to his knees and begged him, ‘Be patient with me, and I will pay you back.’
30 “But he refused. Instead, he went off and had the man thrown into prison until he could pay the debt. 31 When the other servants saw what had happened, they were greatly distressed and went and told their master everything that had happened.
32 “Then the master called the servant in. ‘You wicked servant,’ he said, ‘I canceled all that debt of yours because you begged me to. 33 Shouldn’t you have had mercy on your fellow servant just as I had on you?’ 34 In anger his master handed him over to the jailers to be tortured, until he should pay back all he owed.
35 “This is how my heavenly Father will treat each of you unless you forgive a brother or sister from your heart.”
Matthew 18:21-35
This Scripture is saying……DONT WORRY ABOUT IT , I got you BOO, you dont have to pay me anything. I understand that you don’t have it, I’ll have mercy on you and cancel your debt. You, and your family go home, its taken care of.
Then that same man , go out, see someone who OWES HIM money, and demand he pay it. So the other guy finds out and says…. Ummmm excuse me… but how are you gonna snatch homeboy up cause he owe you money, but you were the same one BEGGING ME to give you more time? How bout I snatch you up, TORTURE YOU, ANDDDD send you to JAIL JUST LIKE YOU SENT HIM!!! Now how bout that!
This guy came through my line today he had so many bottles of dishwashing liquid at least 10-15, so many bottles of baby oil, many bottles of mouth wash and toothpaste. Whatever he bought he had at least 6 or more of it. As I’m ringing him up, I wanted to ask him questions about why he was buying so many of one item. So, yall know the Cree in me asked. I said sir…….. there is a root to everything……..what motivates you to buy many of the same things. I locked eyes with him, and he said, I grew up in a foster home, going house to house, he said I was troubled. I went 2 weeks without food one time, and we always ran out of stuff for the house. He said when I was a teen, I got in a lot of trouble, and I promised myself that when I get myself together my kids would have the best. He kinda shocked me when he spoke, he was a middle aged Africa man. He said that he wanted to make sure he didn’t run out of anything ever. He didn’t want his kids to ever see that kinda life and to never run out of anything. His story was so touching. He was so nice to share his testimony with me. I never knew that was going to come out of him. He has grandchildren now and he don’t ever want them to want for anything because of what he went through as a child. Is that a wow or what?
Now that explains why I pay my bills off every month. I don’t like to pay on my bills . When I was growing up we had our lights, gas, water and phone cut off all the time, many of them at the same time. I hated that. I couldn’t have friends over much, couldn’t talk on the phone or anything. Can you imagine that as a teen… NO PHONE? LOL I made a promise to myself that I would pay my bills when I got grown and guess you know I’m the Queen of paying my bills. I want my bills to be $0.00 every month. Its like I’m obsessed with that. I don’t want my utilities to get turned off at all. I don’t want to see shut off notices. And that’s why I heard God so clearly when he had my lights, gas, phone, cable and car turned off in my home over 10 years ago when he wanted to talk to me. I didn’t have the money to pay it. He wanted to speak to me and he did, he knows how to get my attention.
Now I know why my mother stayed with my daddy years beyond her loving him. She wanted to leave him, but she stayed married because she didn’t want her kids raised without their father as she did. Her dad was stabbed and killed by his gurlfriend when I was no older than 3. She was devastated and made sure that we would grow up and know our dad for ourselves. And we did.
I wonder what Neisha will do more of. when she is done with school and start her family. Whatever it is, its all good. Thank you Jesus for allowing me to meet this man today, and for realizing some own personal ways of why I do the things I do.
My question to you…… What do you do more of, that you missed out on when you were growing up? Something to think about huh?
I Just finished interviewing my lovely daughter Nesha!!! I’ve been trying to get this interview for the longest and she finally did it for me today. A few of the questions I caught her off guard ( haha). I feel that you should sit down and chat with your kids just to see where their head is at that time. Questions forces you to think. I may do this with my Raisingurls this summer…..hmmm. Well, here is the interview.
5 When Jesus had entered Capernaum, a centurion came to him, asking for help. 6 “Lord,” he said, “my servant lies at home paralyzed, suffering terribly.” 7 Jesus said to him, “Shall I come and heal him?”
8 The centurion replied, “Lord, I do not deserve to have you come under my roof. But just say the word, and my servant will be healed. 9 For I myself am a man under authority, with soldiers under me. I tell this one, ‘Go,’ and he goes; and that one, ‘Come,’ and he comes. I say to my servant, ‘Do this,’ and he does it.”
10 When Jesus heard this, he was amazed and said to those following him, “Truly I tell you, I have not found anyone in Israel with such great faith. 11 I say to you that many will come from the east and the west, and will take their places at the feast with Abraham, Isaac and Jacob in the kingdom of heaven. 12 But the subjects of the kingdom will be thrown outside, into the darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.”
13 Then Jesus said to the centurion, “Go! Let it be done just as you believed it would.” And his servant was healed at that very hour.
Tell me that you all got that?
Here this man who goes to Jesus, he says Jesus look…..my servant is paralyzed and he needs to be healed. He knows that Jesus is going to say… okay, I’ll go there to your place to heal him,so he says to Jesus…. I do not deserve to have you come under my roof. He said BUT just SAY THE WORD. JUST SAY THE WORD. JUST SAY THE WORD,, JUST SAY THE WORD, JUST SAY THE WORD, JUST SAY THE WORD, JUST SAY THE WORD.
That’s deep in the streets!!!
Now let me go deeper. This man had MAD FAITH.His servants did what he told them to do. In my “mental video” of this story I can see that the man faith came in the area of his servants obeying him making things happen. So to me he expected Jesus to not only be able to heal his servant, but to make it happen from where he was. It wasn’t a doubt in his mind that Jesus could do it, as a matter of fact he didn’t even want or need for Jesus to go to his house and heal this person. He just wanted him to “Say the word” and he KNEW it was a done deal. And you can bet that’s probably the way he is with his servants, a man who does what he says, and expect what he needs done, it will get done.
People with little or no faith will want Jesus to come to their house. No way would they believe that he could/will heal their servant without PHYSICALLY being there. They want to know how long its going to be before he finish with the people before him, what time, what all do THEY need to do. I can see it now. They would be trying to give Jesus directions to their house to make sure he knows the way ( little or no faith). Which would mean, they wouldn’t believe that he could make it. LOL Yall know its true.
You have to really be careful with what you ask for. God is always looking to see if you trust him. I know he told me something years ago, and I was too blind to see that what he said would happen, I AM NOW already living in it. And even though it hasn’t came full circle, I some how keep sabotaging it. I don’t exercise enough patience. But NEXT time around, I’m going to be ready. I already know and I already see it. I don’t have the desire to rush it, to keep talking about it, keep thinking about it, or keep trying to get it to come faster. In my mind its “whateva wheneva” God says. And that I’m standing on.
My question to you…. Do you have enough Faith to believe that God will do what he says he will do for you?
Before I go any further, make sure you check out the previous blog entry…. God talks to La’Crease. Where do I begin? So much has happened, good and spooky. Well, let me start off with Ted Williams!!! My new hero. When I tell you that I cried when I saw this man’s story……please believe me. I cried like a baby. I admire, Love and adore this man. I Thanked God so much for his break thru and I prayed even more for God to station good people in his life to help him and not harm him. I prayed that God watches over him, and make sure that he doesn’t relapse from all the sudden fame. I’m sure it can be very over whelming at times. He said that before he didn’t have God in his life, he didn’t Praise him, didn’t acknowledge him at all, he said this time is different. He has God in his life and this time he is Thanking him for everything. His mother is 90 years old and looks good!!! I’m so glad that God granted him his wish for them to see each other, and she sees all the attention and offers that he is receiving. But I will say this….. his mother is a STRAIGHT UP MOMMA!!! LOL She don’t mind the cameras and fame, but she let him know in so many words, you have done this before ,and that you can only SHOW me you are serious this time. She didn’t care about cameras following them around or the endorsements. She wants her son to get his life together and stay that way. When she passes on, she wants to know that he is on his feet and is stable. I love that about her, at first I was like dang………she sure is acting “funny”, but see she knows her son, we don’t. She has seen him up and down, and before she eats any “cake and ice cream” she wants to be perfectly sure that he is going to be just fine. I’m so proud of him. I feel like one of my Homeless friends made it! Yes!!!
Last week as I was ringing up customers, the guy who raped me when I was 17 walked up to me and spoke. I said hello to him, and he asked me how was my mom and dad. He was humbled, I didn’t act funny or anything. When he was done shopping, he got in my line. I planned how I was going to say to him ” do you remember raping me”? I wanted to ask him this so badly, his wife ( a old friend of ours) was with him but she was still in the store shopping. My line was long, after a while I looked back and he was in another line. Maybe it wasn’t meant for me to ask him. I dunno if I could’ve said it once we were face to face, but I felt like I could. Of course I would have said it low, but then again it wasn’t the right time. Its just something that “I wanted to ask”. I love God, because he always told me that I would see him in Walmart. He prepared me for this. Both times I saw him, it was there. How “father-daughter” is that? I know that I want to ask him this question, its not like he’s a stranger he knows my whole family and I know his. Its a question that I really really want to know. Even if he can’t answer it, at least I will put it in the front of his thoughts.
Everyday I’m thinking about moving to Atlanta!!! Oh my God its on my mind so deep. I know that I will become a residence, its just a matter of when God is going to release me from this city. I’ve been wanting to live there since Neisha was at least 4 , 20 years ago. I feel like a foreigner in another country there. I want to drive around the state and get to know new places. That’s what excites me the most, getting to know Georgia for myself. And its funny because I have no desire to go any place else and do that. I knew that Georgia would be my home 20 years ago, I don’t know what work is there for me, but its coming. I’ve been doing what God told me to do, and whenever he say its time to move, I will be making that move. The last time I was there, I found a nice place to stay. I know a lot about Buckhead, Sandy Springs, and Dunwoody. I love to drive, so when I was there in June, that’s all I did ALL DAY. I wore my momma out, she said take me back to the hotel. LOL We did, and soon as she got in the room, me and Neisha took off for the beautiful night life downtown Peachtree. I even found me a Krispy Kreme donut house. LOL
May 1, is when My Raisingurls meetings start back up!!! So many parents have asked if their daughters can be apart. I do have a limit and I have to make sure everything runs smoothly. I’m really looking forward to seeing the gurls and meeting new ones. So much to plan, so much to discuss, so much to learn, so much to do.
Its that time again to feed the HOMELESS and pass out Valentines Care Packages!!! If you are reading this and would like to donate, my pay pal email address is neshacrese@aol.com . Thank you!
Well, Im closing for now, gotta post one of my teachings in the next blog entry.
Lord Thank you for another day. Lately I’ve had a lot of time to reflect on my life since May of last year with the things that made me “Seek first the Kingdom of God”. You told me to do one thing…… and that’s watch what I say. I didn’t understand what you meant, because my intent is to never hurt anyone’s feelings. But that wasn’t what you were trying to tell me. And for the last few months, you have really shown me what you meant. It’s so deep, and just to think that sometimes I talk so much * not bad* that I never knew that people take my words to heart, to be truth, to the ends. And if my words are not clear, it can go south and that would be the end.
For the past month or so, I have been going to work being quiet, just doing my work and leaving the building. My boss came up to me and she said, ‘ I know you don’t like such and such, but I have good news, she will be such and such such and such. I looked at her and GOD SAID DONT SAY ONE WORD…. and I’m saying to myself God let me defend myself, BECAUSE I DIDNT SAY THAT!!! He said, be quiet and listen. After she told me “the big news” she told me NOT to tell anyone * she knows that I wont*, I said okay and she walked away. I stood there doing my work, saying to myself, I DIDNT TELL HER THAT!! Then God said, LaCrease you may not have said you didn’t like her, but in a conversation you come off strong, and since you didn’t make yourself clear, its out there, that you don’t like/care for this person. Oh, that killed me to let her leave me and she believed that I said that. God said to me La’Crease your words have power, and when people talk to you, they listen, you have to be careful of your words, your facial expression, and your body language. Can you imagine how hard that is for me?
Lately, I’ve been wanting to post my comments on certain things, and I hear God loud and clear, DO NOT RESPOND TO THAT POST!!!! Oh it gets me. I don’t respond either. Same with Facebook. I have been knowing these 2 sisters for over 25 years, and they aren’t talking to each other, I posted something on my board about forgiveness, and one sister responded, and then the other, then the first one responded after hers, then the mother comes and respond. They set my post OFF!!! The sister is mad at the mother and her 4 sisters. I DID NOT KNOW THAT. So the one sister THINKS that I knew this and posted on the topic * I haven’t talked to her since Christmas*, and so she decides to set off my page, thinking I KNEW that SHE wasn’t talking to her WHOLE FAMILY. SMH.Then the sister I’m close to, sends me a private message saying that God used me to post that message, because she knew that I didn’t know this was going on, and that she glad it was posted because she knew God lead me. I feel bad for what’s going on in their family, but I came to the conclusion that I won’t let the fact that I am FRIENDS with people, stop me from posting what’s in my heart, and what God leads me to post. Again, I wanted to post and say something to the one sister, but GOD SAID NO!
Sometimes, when I’m expressing myself, things come out that are true but at the same time, I feel that I share too much. And you know how people gossip and can’t wait to tell something? Well, that’s not me, I tell to much of what’s good. That’s what God is telling me. I get excited and start talking, and these last few months God has really muffled my mouth, and when I’m quiet I get to see the whole conversation without me adding anything to it. And I like that.
A few weeks ago, my coworker was telling me about someone she knew who was gunned down, and the more she told the story I was saying to myself, this story sound familiar. When she got to the name of the person, I knew I had heard the story before. Just before I was about to say ” I knew him”, God said DONT SAY A WORD!!! I listened to that whole conversation without saying a word of how I knew this person, or anything. And God is not trying to keep me from communicating , I KNOW THIS, he is trying to get me to understand that its okay to not comment on everything, to NOT feel obligated to do so, to sometimes JUST LISTEN, to be able to let a conversation pass my ears and not have anything to say about it. Because ( MY) LACREASE words has power. I am a person with Integrity and Character and people seem to remember everyyyyyyyyyyything that I say. And a lot of what I say is misunderstood, and if I don’t know that it’s NOT CLEAR TO THAT PERSON, then I wont know to “fix it” I don’t have time to go back and correct all my conversations.
One day this lady bought some CD’s and when she got to her car, she couldn’t find them. So she came back into the store and accused me of giving them to the person who was behind her, because she can’t find them in her bags. I told the lady to go back out to the car and look one more time, she went off on me, saying she wasn’t going to do that, and that she knew that it wasn’t in there. So my manager comes over and tries to calm the lady down, this makes her even madder and at this point she’s going off on me. I’m getting pissed because I know those CD’s were in her bag because I walked around and put them in her cart. Then the store manager tries to calm her down, and at this point I’m really on fire. They tell her to go back and look in the car while they review the tape, make a long story short, the lady never returned. She FOUND THE CD’S. I’m upset, but I have customers so I have to be the Leader that I am, and take care of my business, I wasn’t that moved by her.
Later on that day I post on my FB, Thank God for the armor and prayer this morning for work, because this lady went off on me so bad. Didn’t I get to work the next morning, and the person who handled the case yesterday comes up to me and says: LaCrease that lady must have really bothered you yesterday, I read your post. I looked at her and GOD SAID DONT SAY A WORD…. I wanted to say, you missed the whole point of the post. The point of the post was that I PRAYED FIRST, I PUT ON THE ARMOR OF GOD.That prayer slowed down my anger. She was so focused on what happened that she missed that. But I did say, just because I smile everyday doesn’t mean things don’t bother me. I said I have bad days too, can I please have this 1% of complaint? I said now I would be wrong, If I complained to you the 99% of stories telling of how people get on my nerves. I said let me have my 1%! Whew……….
Then I go through the issue of knowing something and not saying anything about it. LOL A few days ago a friend was telling me something, and I knew about it, but I didn’t say anything I just listened, well just so happened the person who told me came and joined in, LOL and while I’m sitting there quiet, the person who told me said. Cree I shared this story with you……… and the person who was telling me said WHY DIDNT YOU TELL ME YOU KNEW? LOL I said because it was your story. LOL Had I said……. Oh such and such already shared it with me, then you probably would be looking crazy. Like how you know? LOL
So, yes this is where God has me at this time in my life. And you know God knows what’s best for me, he’s teaching me something, and the funny part is, ITS DAILY. Everyday I have to be quiet about something. LOL A person like me who is big on communication, this really shuts me DOWN!!!
In closing of this blog entry…… I will post this Scripture.
Do not let your adorning be external—the braiding of hair and the putting on of gold jewelry, or the clothing you wear— but let your adorning be the hidden person of the heart with the imperishable beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which in God’s sight is very precious.
I know its been a minute since I’ve written. So, so, so, so, much has made me happy since then. Let me say this, get somewhere and just begin to Praise God for all that he has done for you. Sit down and think back on stuff you had forgotten about and Thank him. I do that a lot when I’m lying in the bed, I just love how he brings back to remembrance things I have forgotten.
I will take the time to Thank all the wonderful people who read my blogs here @ wordpress, and take the time to write me, call me, send me DM’s and texts. I didn’t realize how much I really inspire people through my writings. God has really shown me a lot over the last 8 months. And I promise to blog more. I promise to make more time, because really I have a lot to say. I’m going to work on balancing my time, even if I have to schedule things in my planner. So again, I Thank you all, and you will hear more from me in 2011.
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