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Almost a year……. Cree’s Blog Entry

lori marry“Sometimes I feel as if I should have kept my ass on the shore” Just a thought that pops in my mind every now and then when I think about this time last year, when I was preparing to move to Georgia…..but when I think about things to come…. I laugh.

I left for Georgia on my Birthday last year Sept 3. Almost a year ago. Life has really changed for me since then. Every time I move, there is always a shift for me…. I always end up doing better than before. I think its me this time. I’m learning to completely change the way I look at things, and I want so badly to do things God’s way. I’m more quiet and try to think before I speak. My world was moving so fast. I am a different woman from who I was last year. I can see it and feel it. More humble, more of a listener and slow to speak.

I am very much at Peace, but there are still some answers I need from God. And I’m asking them daily. My finances has changed very much. Those 10 years I lived at my other place. I didn’t want for anything. I always had money, went out of town 2 and 3 times a year. Took long vacations from work. I was going to the movies * I love this* every week, going to the grocery store buying things for the house to last me for 6 months…that’s the kinda shopping I like to do. I was the loaner….. but baaaby when I say thangs has change in that area…… believe it. LOL

I haven’t been able to stock up like I do when it comes to my soap, tissue, dish washing liquid, Ajax, toothpaste and those kinds of things. I don’t go to the movies like I enjoy doing as much, not even going to dinner with friends. Things are really tight for me, and I don’t like it one bit. I keep thinking about Georgia so I know that I’m going back there, why am I not happy like I can see myself being? I have visions so deep, and I KNOW they’re going to come to pass. They ALWAYS do. I miss my concerts….* tears*.

Today, I was driving and was complaining about all of these things, then God said… think about the things you are blessed for. By the time I got half way through my thoughts of all the good he has done for me since being back, I was in tears. Sometimes we can look at everything that’s not going well, and totally forget about the BLESSINGS. I felt good all day.

I’m happy for my friend Lori of 10 plus years… she’s getting MARRIED next year… and her sister is getting MARRIED in Oct of this year. I just got my invite in the mail a few days ago….. I’m so happy for them both.  I can’t wait to see them both walk down the aisle. They are so close, and I just love their Sisterly Relationship. Talk about talks over dinner, me and Lori use to get it in!!!!!!!!!! I love when she calls me for advice, I’ve always been her gurl for that. So Congratulations to Lori and Lecia!!!! * Lori at the top… Lecia at the bottom*

lecia
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Balancing Act

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So, while I sit home in my PEACEFUL place. I’m remembering a lot of things, and asking myself how did I skip this? When your mind is not at PEACE, you miss everything. I talked with God from 9:30 until 3:00 today. I talked so much I hope people didn’t walk pass my apartment and think I was crazy. LOL He is so funny. I wish everyone could experience this PEACE.

You can, you have to go through something to get it, but you can. First you have to remove the distracters from your life. I learned that while people may be good people, and that’s fine, but you have to “clear your table”. Let me give you an example. I’m writing a book right now, and everyday I need PEACE. I can’t deal with text messages of drama, and phone calls of trash. I love helping people and sharing some God-given wisdom. They can always have my ear. But for those people who want nothing just trying to keep up with you, you gotta let them go. I CANNOT write with folks stuff on my table. AINT GON DO IT.

Writing is my passion. My mind flows when I allow GOD TO COME IN A SWEEP AWAY ALL THE “STUFF OFF THE TABLE”. I know a lot of people, and connect with people because I like to help them sort out things. But in these last 8 months I also learned to guard my space. And its okay. I use to think I was being mean, but it really is okay. My main focus right now is balance. I have learned to balance God’s time, my time, my daughter, my family and my friends. Maybe that’s why I feel so great right now, because that’s one of the main reasons why I wanted to live in Atlanta…. to get away. I didn’t know how to balance. Everywhere I went people knew me, wanted to talk talk talk, and I’m like…. I’m getting my brows done, please. It’s not a bad thing, I worked customer service for 10 years and I was very friendly, popular and I love the Lord. BUT I DIDNT KNOW HOW TO BALANCE. I’ll allow one person to talk to me for 10 hours straight without trying to cut them off. I didn’t like that. But I didn’t want to be mean either. I LOVE PEOPLE. But today, I must have my space, so that I can balance. I FEEL GREAT ABOUT THAT.

I’ll be back and forth on here, didn’t know I had so much in me to share for my book. I hope God is going to be proud of me, because this book is going to help a lot of people. Well, let me get some sleep, talk later.

Cree

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As I sat on the couch *continue* Cree’s Blog

I started realizing that I spend too much time on the lives of other people. And let me say this………… THESE ARE ALL GOOD PEOPLE. But its about ME now. I’m the one moving to Atlanta, about to live my dreams out. I shouldn’t be trying to fit in time for other people…. I’ve done that for many years now.

As I sat on the couch, and laid in bed for 3 weeks, I started seeing many things. Things that if I was still working I would have looked over ……easily. Things about people that bother me. I have some blame in this too. I allowed people to treat me a certain way…. not because I don’t care…… but its because of FEAR of me going back to ME…. the old ME. The selfish ME. The don’t give a F*** ME. The nonchalant ME… The “WHATEVA…ME. The “If I don’t see ya…. then I don’t LOVE ya”…ME. I can’t seem to find a medium. I’m either turned OFF by someone, or TURN ON. Turned off meaning…we could be in the same room for hours, I’ll speak, but after that I will never allow my eyes to lay eyes your way again. TURNED ON meaning…… I can tell you how much I appreciate you, give you my honest opinion about something, show you love in my own special way.

I just don’t know how to find that balance. Right now in my life… I’m TURNED OFF BY A LOT OF PEOPLE. In these last weeks, people have showed me their ass time and time again… day after day. Everyday I pray and said Lord….. please. please. please. please, please don’t let me go back to my old attitude. I JUST WANNA SCREAM…. LET ME BE ME!!!!! I don’t want to be selfish with my self …. SECRETIVE AND NONTRANSPARENT. I just need to find that balance, where I say… a little of YOU in my life… and little of YOU in my life… a little of YOU in my life… AND A LOT OF LACREASE … IN MY LIFE LOL.

I hate being this way………. I HATE IT… BUT I’VE GOT TO DO IT… I HAVE TOO..

I’m not going talk about this any deeper…. I’m just doing what I have to do…. That’s all.

Cree

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Creflo, Atlanta,Gerald Levert

What a week this has been. WOW LOL I guess I’ll never know how God has the patience to deal with his kids….. I know for a fact that I’m a handful all by myself……so can you imagine what the rest of the world is like? LOL

I don’t like to Celebrity Blog but this one I have to discuss. Creflo Dollar.

If you know me, you know I LOVE ME SOME CREFLO DOLLAR. When I was in Atlanta I went to his Mega Church…… World Changers International. But this past Sunday I kinda looked at him in a different light. Not bad….. oh no… not at all. The things he said really made my eye brows go up past the beginning of my hair line……..yeah way up there. A lot of times he will go off and go into something personal and at times its funny and easy to follow. But this PAST week 6/3/12 he started talking about Churches and how they only have a few members and they have a nerve to call themselves INTERNATIONAL…. and the audience laughed. Then he started talking more about the Churches , but this time he just kept on talking negative, and I’m going from laughing to “did he just say that”? I was asking myself why is he nutting up and talking badly about other folks Church? Then he said something that just took me over, I had to close out of his site…… my ears couldn’t hear it anymore. I was embarrassed to see him go on like that….. because he was way out of Character. I felt bad for him.

I sat at my computer and God said, Creflo needs to be humbled… and then I heard God say he is about to show him something and the whole world is going to know about it. NEVER IN A MILLION YEARS DID I THINK IT WOULD BE LESS THAN A WEEK BEFORE HE DID IT. See, I know God… you can’t have all of these followers * and they belong to God* and feed them YOUR GARBAGE… YOUR OPINION… YOUR PERSONAL THOUGHTS….you can’t do it. I knew he was going to be in NATION WIDE TROUBLE with GOD. I KNEW IT… I KNEW IT…. I KNEW IT….

I knew that he wouldn’t be in the kinda trouble where something happens and ONLY his family and close friends knows about it. Or his behind the scenes Church family…… I knew that he would be in trouble TROUBLE. He needs to really humble himself, because he was really off the hook in last Sundays Service. Gosh….. and no one could stop it. He couldn’t stop himself at a certain point. The sad part is….. the REAL issue isn’t about what happened with his daughter, its about humbling himself. I hope he gets it, because this is serious. He always make fun of the noises that Pastors make when they are at the end of their sermon, and his congregation laughs. My Pastor makes that noise, and I don’t find it funny when you LEAVE SCRIPTURE and talk about what other PASTORS do. I can’t feel that. Its a DISRESPECT to any man of God, who do their best to get God’s word out to people who understand this way of teaching. I grew up with it, I understand it. Just because you seat 30,000 people doesn’t give you a right to talk about how another Pastor preach to his flock.

Again, I say….. what happened between him and his daughter IS HIS BUSINESS….. this is all about HUMBLENESS.

In other news…….

Its so hard trying to find an apartment in Atlanta while living here in Detroit. I will hop in my car and check out a place in seconds. I’m such a go getter when it comes to certain things….. I love that about myself. I want this bad… I feel like I’m over loading my mind thinking about it all day ….everyday. I may have to take another trip there soon for paper work. Spending all this extra money is killing me. Lord, please HELP ME. Sometimes I wonder if I had went 19 years ago when I took my cousin * who still lives there* what would I be doing now, and would I love it? I’m sure!!!! LOL Being a step closer excites me.

Gerald Levert’s Birthday is coming up next month and as I was pulling into my drive way yesterday coming home from work… his song DJ Don’t came on, and I was bumping it….till I thought about the fact that he is no longer here with us. I just burst out crying my eyes were so red. Afterwards I was saying to myself…..where did that come from? I MISS HIM SO MUCH. I’m so happy and Blessed that God let me meet him and take so many photos with him before he passed on. God knew that he was going to die, and he knew that I would be just devastated if he passed on without me meeting him. I remember that night so clear, he held a private party and my gurl Pat won 2 tickets and she invited me. It was so private, we had him all to ourselves. All we wanted were photos and good conversation…..that’s all. And he gave it to us. He loved his fans… not only did he tell us.. but he showed it in and at all his gatherings JUST FOR HIS FANS. I miss him dearly.

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Cree’s Blog…….God-given gifts

I went back to work today since being off March 12, I had a great time in Atlanta with Neisha, but I was also so happy to see my co-workers. I LOVE my co-workers, I have never had a problem with anyone, and that’s what make my job that much easier. If I can get past the customers then I’m GOOD 🙂 LOL They were so HAPPY to see me, giving me lots of hugs and welcome backs……that just made my day. I hate attention…. but when I walked into the building LOVE WAS BEFORE ME…..and it made me feel so good. I just LOVE my Boss, we had a lot to talk about, she’s a Christian too, and we speak God’s language. She was happy to see me. My other Boss is also good people, and every month about 6-7 of us get together and go to a different restaurant to chat and have dinner, well at our last meeting, they all decided to wait until I got back from Georgia to have our gurls day.((((hugs to them))))) So tomorrow we’re going to dinner about 5 pm in Downtown Detroit. I’m excited to be with them again.

This is what I LOVE about my Bosses…… we can go to dinner, go out of town, go to a Barbecue, go out to a gathering, and still the NEXT DAY AT WORK….there is NO favoritism. My Bosses will still put me/us on a register that we don’t like LOL LOL LOL ….. AND I LOVE THAT ABOUT THEM…. At work its BUSINESS, and outside of work…. its play. My Bosses keep it real, 100% ALL OF THE TIME…. I’m older than them all, and I still call them Ms.( name).

Earlier today I was just sitting here thinking about how my Raisingurls from the first Season are doing. I see many of them and they have graduated from High School, in College and a few have children now. They still call me for advice, and today my niece came over, she has a job now, and she was telling me that my group has helped her out so much as far as working with the public, her attitude, and how to be a young lady at all times. She gave me a big hug and it really touched me. Sometimes I felt it went in one ear and out of another * while in the sessions*, but today she could have told me everything I said. It amazed me how much she remembered and how she uses those tools I taught in her life today. When I was in Atlanta looking at apartments, the school bus came up in the gated community and dropped the children off, and when I saw all of those kids getting off the bus, I was saying to Neisha ….. ALL OF THESE KIDS ARE GOING TO KNOW ME!!! LOL LOL My eyes lit up like a Christmas Tree. I was so happy to see that kids live in the community. I love kids, and I have even thought about adopting 1 or 2 of them. When I was there, I went to see The Covenant house of Georgia and took photos. I hope to work there someday, or even 2 other Foundations… as long as I’m working with kids. Out of all the things I can do or learn to do in this life, especially with my personality…. God has called me to do this work . This is my calling. I am reading this book, and this is what it says: God-given gifts are the skills a person performs without formal training. Although training and education may help to perfect our skills, they are readily recognized prior to the training.

 

When I get to Atlanta…..there is NO stopping me….

Cree

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I’m tired….

So…. I’m home from Atlanta. I had a wonderful time. I have a lot to be Thankful for. LOTSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS 🙂

Anyway…… I noticed that Georgia folks drive differently than we Michiganders. We have a need for speed….and here’s why? We have only 3 lanes on I-94, our rodes are really only busy when we have concerts or its rush hour. We are VERY IMPATIENT people. We don’t like to wait, we have to go now…and that’s funny. Because I LOVE TO DRIVE…..I can drive for hours and hours and hours, give me 3 Ipods * I have 3* and its ON. But in Georgia, the rodes are so BUSY, that they don’t have enough space to pick up speed. They are always bumper to bumper, and when they need to switch lanes….THEY SWITCH LANES. LOL LOL LOL LOL They rarely turn on their blinkers, if they see opportunity to get over, they will take it. They will get over in the tightest spots, but do that here in Detroit…… that is considered DISRESPECTFUL to the HIGHEST POWER. At first I was like “WTH…. dat nicka didn’t even put his blinkers on….. he just got ova”. LOL After a while, I just started getting ova too…..but I  used my blinkers. Detroit people will have a hard time driving in the ATL traffic, we get upset and will find it hard to deal . To me it seems as if they’re use to it there. Here, it takes no time to find yourself doing 80-85 on the highway….. and all that sudden switching lanes they do there, they can neverrrrrr get away with it here. We will chase you down, and mean mug you. LOL

I see now why the people in Georgia can NEVER drive in SNOW. They have too many hills and those people will KILL THEMSELVES . LOL They hit the breaks hard whenever they went up or down a hill. LOL LOL LOL Woo, so funny. Now add snow and ice to the rodes, man I see why they call a STATE  EMERGENCY when they get a inch of snow… some of those people drive ways were like hills. I will NEVER drive up or down that baby…. I’ll walk. If it snows that is pure ICE…. I wonder how many people try to drive anyway?How could you stop? That was scary just thinking about it. LOL Its a trip that we are that different, but we are all people and God loves us.

I’m tired…. talked with my sistergurl from Virginia today…. Quetta. I wanted to see my ATL friends and family. San, Big San, Tasha, Ms Betty, Monica,TEARSA TEARSA TEARSA * <—mygurl*, Rubie, and JOANN…..But I didn’t want to turn it into a family/friend trip… that’s later. Business called…. and so it was.

Alright, I’m tired….. got lots of Business to take care of tomorrow as well. Be Blessed..

Cree

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So Blessed :)

So Blessed…… so Blessed 🙂 God is surely the head of my life 🙂 Loving Atlanta at this moment.

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Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

Seems like the closer I get to my breakthrough the more attacked I am. I’m just shaking my head right now at everything that is coming up against me. If I wasn’t strong and knew God the way I do, I’ll be somewhere crying. But I’m the baddest chick ( Spiritually speaking) and I’m not breaking down. I’m about to push through some doors, people I talk too everyday don’t have a clue about what’s going down with me. Some stuff you just can’t share. And by me being a giving and sharing person, I know….. I’m going to have to make people understand that *YOU THINK YOU KNOW ME… BUT YOU HAVE NO IDEA*. And they’re going to feel *left behind*. Not because of me, but because of themselves.

Everybody knows * Pheadra Parks voice* that I love to plan gatherings. And also, I’m invited to a lot of them. Most of the people I go with are coworkers. Yesterday my coworker * MY BOSS* called me and asked me to go with her and some others. I’m not the type of person that’s gonna call up my friends, to go with me. I don’t do that. Its not my function and to me its rude to invite others. I don’t hang out often but when I do….. we have a good time. I love to laugh and have fun. It was a big thing on my FB page that I didn’t invite a few others. Well its not my function, I WAS INVITED…. okay you may know all of the people who were there, but still ITS NOT LACREASE’S FUNCTION. My thing is this, I always do the planning. Why don’t someone else plan the gatherings, why do they always wait on me? Its easy… I’ll show them how to do it. Anywayyyyyyyy I’m so done with that!!!!

Then today….. Lord help me. I was ringing up customers still in the zone from many things last week. The guy who raped me when I was a 18 year old virgin came through my line today with his wife, who is also my friend. MY heart wasn’t beating fast like it did a time before he came through my line. But I found my self being weird… looking at his fingers that he stuck so far up in me, I thought I was going to die. He’s so tall and strong, it just made me think about that night he left me bleeding. *SMH* Anyway… as they were leaving, he said to me something like …I still wonder if she’s my daughter and want a test. That irritated the HELL OUT OF ME. Every time he see me he says that. I met Neisha’s dad shortly after that happened to me. I was crazy about him. And it may sound foolish now, but I had sex with him, so that the guy who raped me wouldn’t be the last person. I got pregnant 3 months later, so when the guy who raped me found out I was pregnant, he bugged me and bugged me and still to this day…. KEEP F***ING BUGGING ME ABOUT IT. NOOOOOO SHE IS NOT YOUR CHILD! THANK GOD!!

SO, now I want Peace to continue to live in me, I want to do what I have to do to make my moves and take care of my business, doing what I love to do…. and that’s working with Teens.

In the meantime I have to keep PRESSING MY WAY…..my time is COMING 2012

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Photos, vents, and ATL….Cree’s Blog

 
 
Happy Friday!!!
 
I was so tired today. Been working lots of hours. I went Atlanta Apartment Shopping yesterday and lost my mind.LOL I am starting on one room at a time, and I bought so much stuff for my bathroom. So many beautiful colorful towels, and face towels. I bought soap to last 6 months, bathroom cleaners to last 9 months. I need to buy a few more things for that room, and then I’m moving on to the next room. I want to buy comforters, I can catch them on sale soon when the seasons change. I want to buy at least 2 more flat screen TV’s. I’m not a TV person, but I love how they dress up a room. I bought a dinette set which is nice, ppl telling me I shouldn’t take a lot of stuff with me, its gonna be hard to decide whats going to stay. WE have at least over 300 books in this house, gotta find a spot for them. When I move to Atlanta I don’t plan to buy anything when I get there, just focus on bills and learning to regroup myself. I’m a person who believes in paying bills $0.00 not having balances. I use to do that back in my 20’s pay on this, pay on that, next thing I knew I had shut off notices. Naw, aint trying to see those days anymore. LOL Shopping was really fun.
 
 
 
I can have a conversation with someone and say “the sky is so blue today” and that person can later tell someone “me and Cree were talking today and she said the sky is so blue today”. That 2nd person will come to me and say….yeah such and such told me that you said earlier that “the sky is so blue”. And I sit there like “Are you serious”………did you just repeat something that is really nothing. Just because Cree said it, its now TRUE and a big deal. That burns me up. This lady son came up to my job, and her son was very handsome, so I told her. she went right to another associate and told her what I said, and then added, that’s why I don’t want him up here, I don’t need nobody looking at him like that, he’s a baby. First of all, That was a compliment for YOU, LOL not for me a 44 year old, against your 18 year old, OMG!!! Are you serious, serious? That’s what I go through every now and then. But I’m good, guess its the God in me they see.
 
I was going through my photos of friends that I’ve known for ever, and family who I would like to post. I love them all.
 
Be Blessed Everyone 🙂
 
The photo at the top is my GOOD FRIEND/SISTER Lisa Logan and her daughter ( My God daughter) Erika! Me and Lisa use to have soooooooo much fun. OMG. WHEW!! When I say I love that crazy gurl, I love her. She loves me too 🙂
 
 My crazzyyyyyyyyy COUSIN MONICA. She called me the other night ( She lives in Georgia), before I could say HEYYY BOOOOOO. She said gurl, you aint gon beleive this. GUESS WHO IS OVA HERE? Im like who? She said Tyler Perry!!!!! WE laughed, and laughed and laughed! She wish!!! She loves Tyler Perry. She was at a resturant one day and he was standing outside on the phone, her crazy self walked up to him while he was on the phone and tried to hold a conversation with him… LOL of course about his work. Anyway….she’s a Virgo too, she knows we dont like to be interupted while talking on the phone. I love this photo of her, she looks SO PRETTY!! I LOVE YOU MONICA! ( The photo below is also her)
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
My Coworkers at a WHITE PARTY!!! I LOVE THIS PHOTO OF THEM
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I had a wonderful time in Atlanta

Thank you Lord for such a beautiful day here in Detroit. I think I’m going down to the River in the morning and talk with you.

  

Everytime I come home from Atlanta, I am so humbled. Everyone is asking me am I okay. Yes, I am. I feel good, but quiet. My mother and daughter probably feel I’m sad because they know I didn’t want to leave. But I’m actually good. I didn’t want to leave. I felt I was to take them to the airport and go home to my apartment. LOL My mother is already asking me to plan the next trip back there. I just don’t think I could keep planning to go there and not stay there. It’s like putting myself through torture. Neisha wants to live there, her mind is set. I took her to see some apartments and she loved them. She’s young and she is NOT afraid of change. Something I was at her age. She’s like ma, when we get home we are gonna come up with a plan so that we can finally leave Detroit. She said I went there just to see what you LOVED so much about it, and now I see. I took them everywhere!!! I drove from early morning to midnight. I LOVE to drive, so that was nothing, we drove around for so many hours. We spent a lot of money too. But we did, and saw everything more than once. I wore them out!!!! LOL That was my plan to let them enjoy everything, that will be available to me when I live there. LOL

  

So much is going through my mind.

 

  

God has been so good to me on this trip. So many blessings……..it would be as if I’m bragging. I’ll keep them to myself….. or personal emails. ( Smile you). All took place on this one trip.

  

I did a lot of talking to God on this trip. I would be in the bathroom and start talking to God. My momma was like gurl……….. you aight in there? LOL I zoned out. LOL Even walking to the hotel garage, I would take longer  getting the truck talking to God. Thanking him for the small things. Just to be able to go on this trip, to be able to use my mind, and body. God is so deep.

 

 

  

I’m  just chilling right now, thinking. probably a little too much right now. Its time to put things in motion.

 

  

  

Cree

 

    

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