Balancing Act
So, while I sit home in my PEACEFUL place. I’m remembering a lot of things, and asking myself how did I skip this? When your mind is not at PEACE, you miss everything. I talked with God from 9:30 until 3:00 today. I talked so much I hope people didn’t walk pass my apartment and think I was crazy. LOL He is so funny. I wish everyone could experience this PEACE.
You can, you have to go through something to get it, but you can. First you have to remove the distracters from your life. I learned that while people may be good people, and that’s fine, but you have to “clear your table”. Let me give you an example. I’m writing a book right now, and everyday I need PEACE. I can’t deal with text messages of drama, and phone calls of trash. I love helping people and sharing some God-given wisdom. They can always have my ear. But for those people who want nothing just trying to keep up with you, you gotta let them go. I CANNOT write with folks stuff on my table. AINT GON DO IT.
Writing is my passion. My mind flows when I allow GOD TO COME IN A SWEEP AWAY ALL THE “STUFF OFF THE TABLE”. I know a lot of people, and connect with people because I like to help them sort out things. But in these last 8 months I also learned to guard my space. And its okay. I use to think I was being mean, but it really is okay. My main focus right now is balance. I have learned to balance God’s time, my time, my daughter, my family and my friends. Maybe that’s why I feel so great right now, because that’s one of the main reasons why I wanted to live in Atlanta…. to get away. I didn’t know how to balance. Everywhere I went people knew me, wanted to talk talk talk, and I’m like…. I’m getting my brows done, please. It’s not a bad thing, I worked customer service for 10 years and I was very friendly, popular and I love the Lord. BUT I DIDNT KNOW HOW TO BALANCE. I’ll allow one person to talk to me for 10 hours straight without trying to cut them off. I didn’t like that. But I didn’t want to be mean either. I LOVE PEOPLE. But today, I must have my space, so that I can balance. I FEEL GREAT ABOUT THAT.
I’ll be back and forth on here, didn’t know I had so much in me to share for my book. I hope God is going to be proud of me, because this book is going to help a lot of people. Well, let me get some sleep, talk later.
Cree
Family Business/Janet & Paris….Cree’s Blog
Hey,
Today, I want to talk about Family Business.
I was watching the video tape of Janet and Paris. I read a few Tweets that Paris tweeted, and I wanted to somehow DELETE her account. She obviously doesn’t know how serious it is.
I’m sitting here still tripping on the fact that this “lil gal” snatched away from Janet. Some people are saying that Janet smacked her, but I didn’t see it and if she did SO WHAT!!! I have a serious PROBLEM with this little gurl going on Twitter sharing their FAMILY BUSINESS with the MEDIA. This family has always been private, and its not fair that Paris…. *this generation of kids*, come along and make what’s PRIVATE…..PUBLIC. Which makes the family…brothers and sisters how to somehow clear this up… when in the past if something comes up, they can just keep it in the family and in the end it works itself out.
This family is very FAMOUS, people LOVE to say….. “they have issues too”… YEAH OF COURSE THEY DO…….but at the same time they love to MAGNIFY it. They have to be very careful of what Paris and any other cousin, or young sibling put out there to the media. There are PEOPLE WAITING TO DISSECT what’s going on in this family, and Paris have no idea how serious this is. Its crazy for her or anybody * especially the younger generation* to come along and tear down the family name that has been in GOOD STANDING for many years. It tears me apart to see that Paris has easy access to the MEDIA that clearly has NO LOVE, to her or her family. All they want is the gossip, THE STORY….THE DRAMA. And what she clearly doesn’t realize is that no matter what she says AND LATER DELETES…….SOMEONE ALREADY has it saved in their files. I hope she learns a lesson real soon on FAMILY BUSINESS.
I am very good when it comes to children. I raised a very, very successful 25 year old daughter as a single parent. I’ve worked with them many years tutoring, by having my own Youth group Raisingurls to Women, and working in a elementary school for 7 years. If I was a family member and was in position to speak with Paris, this is what I would say…..
STANDING directly in front of her GIVING HER DIRECT EYE CONTACT: I would say……
Here’s the deal Paris… in this FAMILY *pointing to the ground*, we are very PRIVATE. We don’t get on FB, Twitter, BLOGS, and we don’t discuss or ANSWER QUESTIONS to the MEDIA at all about what goes on IN THIS FAMILY. I understand that people are going to ALWAYS ask you questions, AND THATS GOING TO HAPPEN FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE…..but WE don’t do THAT HERE. We are a family that’s PRIVATE…. and we handle our family business amongst our selves.
At this point, she’s going to NOT REALLY gasp how serious this is, because she really doesn’t know the effect her dad and family has had on many people all over the world. I would say to her……I know there are a lot of things you don’t understand……*and that’s fine* but you have to understand that the MEDIA has NO LOVE for anyone of us during this time of all our lives. I would tell her, you have to be careful of EVERYONE…. THIS IS YOUR LIFE NOW ….and especially while you are growing older. I would tell her this FAMILY has a lot of EXPERIENCE on the MEDIA and how they report things, how they twist things, and how they SEE THINGS. AND LASTLY….. I would say to her, if you ever in your life as long as you LIVE snatch away from ME……its GON BE ON …..AND POPPIN. Do you understand ME? Then I would ask if she had any questions…. and whether she likes it or NOT… I WOULD MAKE SURE she gives me *we give each other* a HUG AND A KISS.
I know people, and I study people…..guess it comes from my gift from God to UNDERSTAND OUR YOUTH probably more than MANY adults. I say this….. if they don’t stop this little gurl now, while she is at the age where she can learn and gasp just how serious THIS IS…..She can be the one who grows up write a “TELL ALL BOOK” and cause so much damage to this family name. She knows a lot and if she ever get a hold or even understand JUST HOW MUCH POWER SHE HAS…. she can either build it up, or tear it down. Somebody has to step in and talk to this gurl. She is only feeling normal in emotions…..but they need to show her how to control them and not to take to FB, Twitter or any Media outlet, because people are being PAID to get the goods on this family and others.
I hope this was/is a lesson for us all. Especially ME.
Be Blessed
Cree
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy
“POSITIVE ENERGY”…..CREES BLOG ENTRY
Growing up…. MY parents were married and had 4 children. I am the oldest of the 4. My parents told us they LOVED us everyday. We got hugs everyday. We got kisses everyday. WE got whopping’s when we needed them. LOL We were showered with LOVE. We were taught not to FIST fight each other, we could only express ourselves through discussion. We couldn’t get personal, we had to STAY on the SUBJECT. No going below the belt. We went to Church and we learned about Jesus. I was on the punishment all the time for sneaking in the peanut butter, and that’s when I started reading my bible every day. It was amazing that I somehow understood the King James Version.
Last week, my mom walked up to me….. she held me by my face slowly, and she kissed me on the forehead, she kissed me on both my cheeks, on my nose, on my chin, then she kissed me on my lips. I was in HEAVEN even at the age of 44. THANK YOU JESUS. My MOMMA KNOWSSSSSSSS that when I was a little gurl, I LOVED when she kissed me like that. I JUST MELTED. She knows that this calms any storm that I’m going through. She knows this. I love how personal she make her LOVE for me. She also had her special way of showing LOVE to my sisters and brother in the way THAT THEY UNDERSTAND.
When I left home to start life on my own at 22…. I found out quickly that NOT everyone knew LOVE as I had experienced it. I found out that all parents didn’t take their kids out to dinner, or for rides, or tucked them in and told them bedtime stories. I thought that all parents told their kids everyday that they LOVED them. I thought that everybody hugged and kissed when they saw each other, and walked into peoples home. I thought that everybody said ” I love you” as they left to go their own way. I thought that if you’re at home, and company over you don’t have to put your money or belongings up because you’re at home. I thought that when you get into a jam that you can call your family….. and get help.
My personality draws a lot of people to me. I didn’t know then….what I know now, but they were drawn to the LOVE that I displayed to them. God had wonderful people in my life who are still here today. So, here I was this “magnet” OF “POSITIVE ENERGY” attracting all of these people to me. ALL the LOVE that was inside of ME ….. I was doing my best, but what I found myself doing was …….stressing myself out trying to GIVE PEOPLE some of what I was feeling. Love was seeping out of my pours….. that my family/parents put there. It was all I knew. In my 20’s some took it and ran me over . Still for the life of me I wondered, was I the only one going through this?
One day me and my Siblings were having our talks at dinner in my home. And we started talking about how they experienced the SAME THING. Our personal friends say that we’re SOOOOOOOO nice. We laugh and say……. they don’t get to see that other side. LOL And I say that to say…. we are NICE…but we do bark… we just bark in LOVE. All of us are cut throat HONEST… we will tell you the truth and not hold back ANYTHING….but its all in LOVE.
Here I am 44 years old, trying to understand and ADJUST to the issues that goes on in the world that I NEVER knew exist inside of what I was taught by my parents. All I know is LOVE… to walk into a room and smile, give out hugs, give out blessings, and compliments. God is teaching me that no matter what I see outside of what I learned at HOME…… be true to MYSELF. I’m Blessed. I know what some people in the world was never taught… I know how to LOVE.
When we were in our teens, we didn’t have to hide our money when company came over, we had “like minded” friends. But when I got on my own in my 20’s and started working, and meeting new people. I would keep my belongings around, but I found out real quick that people will come into your home and steal your things.That was foreign to me. My Sisters and I had boyfriends growing up, but we never looked or took each other boyfriends. So, when I moved out, I was carefree and kept my boyfriends around my friends, next thing I knew….they hooked up. I was devastated. I didn’t learn how to deal with these types of issues because My Sisters and I, never crossed that line. We never had to deal with those types of issues. I would go to my friends house, walk in and hug their mom, and hug the rest of the family, and they would look at me like……..”where they do that at”…..all you do is say hi to the person you come to see….. and that’s it. And there were times when I went to my parents like……. why other people don’t hug and kiss like we do?
In my life time… my “magnet” of LOVE that was taught by both my parents…… has pulled in Rapist, Molesters, Killers, … and the list goes on. BUT GOD HAS BEEN THERE FOR ME. LET ME TELL YOU. He knows my heart better than myself, and he has really umbrella me from a lot of mess. He knows of the LOVE that pours out of me, and he knows people see it. And so he has always protected me from many issues. I can’t help that I’m this way… this is all I know. I REFUSE to step outside of who I am… to FIT in with how “the world” works. I’ll DIE FIRST. I am NOOOOO WAY… NO KINDA WAY PERFECT…. just because I know how to LOVE and show LOVE…. but I am special….. and it takes SPECIAL FRIENDS, SPECIAL PEOPLE, AND A FUTURE SPECIAL HUSBAND * if the Lord say the same* to be in my CIRCLE. And finally after understanding that I am different…… I LOVE CREE.
But before I close…… I must say this.With all that I have learned…… I am a VERY POWERFUL WOMAN….. MORE IN THE NEXT BLOG ENTRY.
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy
Somebody Prayed for Me….. Cree’s Blog Entry *continued*
As I laid on the couch last week talking to God. I asked him…… PLEASE TELL ME…. LORD, WHY AM I SO NICE? WHY CANT I JUST GO OFF AND LET THAT BE THE END OF IT? WHY DO I FORGIVE PEOPLE SO EASILY WHEN OTHERS WOULD NEVER SPEAK A WORD TO THE PEOPLE WHO HURT THEM? WHY IS IT SO EASY FOR ME TO KEEP IT MOVING AND STILL KEEP PEACE? WHY AM I SO NICE… I MAKE MYSELF SICK LORD!!!! WHY?
Again, growing up all I knew was how to LOVE. I was told by my parents I love you so much and not only that, but they showed us. My siblings and I wasn’t allowed to fight so in order to keep it moving, we had to kiss, and say to each other “I Love you”. So, now that we have all this LOVE inside us, we started experiencing people trying to make us feel bad about saying the words “I love you” in public. We thought that everybody told their family this. My sister and I are light skinned, and my brother and other sister are brown skinned. People played the color game on us, we wasn’t taught about different shades of skin so when people said it….. we were like…. we have the same parents all 4 of us…..what’s the big deal? After a while in life, I started to think we were the ones who grew up dysfunctional.
Looking back on our lives, we were very popular. Everybody in the neighborhood knew us. We were good people, with good friends, whose parents wouldn’t let us do any and everything. We had rules, and our parents didn’t play.
Going back to my last post. When my friend who slept with my daughters father when I was in my early 20’s did that to me. I was devastated, because I never knew people betrayed others like that. My aunts didn’t do it to their sisters, my dad is/was CLOSE TO BOTH OF HIS BROTHERS… my parents didn’t do that to each other, so here I am learning something I never saw first hand or experienced, and I had to learn forgiveness through this selfish act. *Wooosa Cree* After it was all said and done, even though I was an angry person before this happened, it humbled me, and I learned FORGIVENESS. PRAISE GOD 🙂
One day I was with my best friend Charlene, and I had seen my Mother. I gave her a hug and a kiss on her lip, and my friend was like WOW, you kiss your momma on the lips? And I’m like yeah…. don’t you? She was like No…. we just say Hi. My mother kept telling me she LOVED me, and I said it to her as well. My friend had never seen or experienced this. That’s how my family is…. this is all WE KNOW. This is how we grew up. When we go to each other’s house, only thing ANYBODY will be saying as they are reaching to HUG AND give a KISS is……. I LOVE YOU!!! We don’t just walk into each others house without hugs and kisses AND START A CONVERSATION. THAT’S DISREPECTFUL LOL LOL My daughter is 25 and my nieces are 21 and 17, my nephews are 18 and 21. WE all KISS ON THE LIPS. That’s how we are. And I came to the conclusion that THIS IS HOW WE LOVE EACH OTHER!!!! MY FAMILY. We don’t steal from each other, we don’t misuse each other, we don’t take advantage of each other..we never slept with each other men….. BUT WE LOVE TO ARGUE AND DEBATE!!! LOL LOL One day I’m going to VIDEO RECORD one of our debates when my sisters and brother get together at my house or theirs. Babbbbbby YOU WILL BE SCARED A FIGHT IS GOING TO BREAK OUT. LOL But what we learned is that…. growing up we couldn’t FIGHT PHYSICALLY, so we had to learn to ARGUE… we had to use words. We NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER GET PERSONAL. We stay on the subject and go at it for hours. IM THE OLDEST so I always WIN….* SIKE* You do not want to challenge me in a debate and I know I’m right. LOL LOL I did record one of our debates… maybe I’ll find it.
Going back to my previous blog entry….After I learned FORGIVENESS I started looking and loving people through the eyes of God. When people would say something or do something to me, I didn’t take it to heart… LIKE THE NEXT PERSON would. Because I know that hurt people, hurt people. And I had so much LOVE for others, that it was starting to seep through my pores. People saw it. It was like having on white pants, and people issues ,and their issues with me was seen on my pants. I attracted people who wanted to use me, or talked to me sideways. Not only did I tell people that I LOVED THEM…. but I showed it. And that’s when I learned that most people didn’t grow up with those words TAUGHT and SHOWN to them…. like I was. To tell someone you LOVE them in 2012 is like saying….. when I get my check I’m going to give you all of it. They don’t believe that. I didn’t grow up like that… and at one of our sit down gatherings, My Siblings and I learned that in our own personal lives, we all have struggles with the same issues. WOW .
I always said that its 2 ways to LOVE someone. Through the eyes of God, and an Earthly way to LOVE. To Love people in an earthly way is to…. be nice, but when they get out of order, you go back to your “childish ways” and handle it. Through the eyes of God is to be humble and communicative when two don’t see eye to eye. BE patient and let the other speak. Listen, and ask God to help you understand the issue at hand. That’s who I try to be, and so far is has worked for me.
So, I asked God why am I so friendly? Why when people do me wrong, I’ll still speak to them and be polite? When in my mind I want to ignore them and pretend their not even born? He said to me as I laid on my couch last week….. your mother PRAY AND PRAY AND PRAYED for the day that she would see you kind. She prayed that your anger would turn to LOVE as she taught you. He said it brings joy to her heart to see you happy and smiling without being mean and angry all the time. He said somebody PRAYED for you.
Siblings: My 2nd oldest Sister Na, Baby Sister Peedie, 3rd child only Brother Bobby, and ME~Cree
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Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy
I love my SIBLINGS :) Cree’s Blog
Thank you Lord for such a wonderful day with myfamily!!! My mom told me to gather all her kids to go to dinner today for her
Birthday. She had one request that she didn’t want a gift this year, she wanted
money. And so it was done. We had a great time, we laughed and talked, got a
chance to catch up in each other lives, which was so good. We all work and its
kinda hard together sometimes. These are the times when we need to cherish time
being together. I know that we all must go, and when we start to leave here, I
want to be able to say that we had a great time and that we loved each other.
As, I was telling a friend today who is at odds with her sister, that GOD
handpicked our sisters and brothers out of everyone in the world, we need to
show him some respect and LOVE THEM to the best of our ability. Even if you
don’t get alone with that sibling, do whatever you can to make things work. I
know its hard, me and my brother get into it all the time, we argue, and debate
all the time, but I love him and even if he irritates me to know end, we still
make up. Is it hard? Yes, LOL its hard because you know each person is grown
and have the power to walk out and go home to our safe domain. But the sad part
is, you will think about them all day, all night, and its even sadder if you can
go home and NOT think about them. It takes work. In my family we all have VERY,
VERY, VERY strong personalities, and when we get together and have debates, its
like HOT FIYAH…. We cut loose. We don’t get personal, we stay on the subject
and after we finish, we kiss and make up. It gets hot in the kitchen for those
who haven’t seen us in action. MY Sister Na…. she’s the “know it all”. I’ll
say it was 80 degrees yesterday, and she’ll tell you, it was 81…. that would
be because the weather man said it before she left work, her car don’t lie, her
friend said it, and she knows the weather man personally.LOL MY brother Bobby he’s
the Marine, “motor mouth” is what we call him, because he never shuts up! He can argue about a car filling up at $40.00, when the next person
will say its $35.00. If you can debate with him for 20 hours, he can go STRAIGHTÂ for
40 more. LOL MY baby sister Peedie…. she’s the baby, she can take on all of
us AT THE SAME TIME, she loves being the opposite of what we are saying. We can say the classroom
should be no more than 25 kids, she’ll say it should be 40. And will debate that
in her loudest voice, until you say…… okay Peedie you WIN! And me……..
Ms. Cree, if I ask my siblings what they would say about me, that would say I
think I know everything, but never want to take advice. They would say that I
get loud, and get real mad when we debate, they would say that I’m bossy and
want everything my way. They would say, I’m always trying to be the boss of
everybody. LOL And that I talk loud to get my point across and make faces to go with it. That I never want to be wrong. Hahahaha You put all those personalities together, and you will have the 4th
of July. LOL But in the end, we hug and kiss, because we LOVE EACH OTHER DEARLY,
we have to make up because we don’t ever want to leave each other bitter and
upset. Thank you Lord, for handpicking my siblings. Thank you.
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Vents, truths, and personal thangs….
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I know its been a minute since I’ve written. I’m 43 years old and I’m still tryna figure out this thing called LIFE. LOL
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This past Saturday 2/26, me and my cousin Gus planned for all the cousins to get together and go out to dinner. We never, ever, ever, ever get a chance to see or talk to each other. But since FB, we all have really drawn close. So we all met at Applebees for dinner, it was 34 of us! Praise God!!!! I sat at a table of 10 with my sisters and other cousins, all of a sudden my sister and cousin started talking about how I use to do them back in the day ( lol), how I wouldn’t want to be bothered with them, and when they came over my house, I wouldn’t answer my door for them and they knew I was there. I remember that time so clear. They had just left for a minute, and I made up in my mind that when they come I wouldn’t open the door. These 2 heffas TOOK THE DOOR off the hinges and came in. LOL They were thinking something had happened in that short time, I didn’t feel like being bothered ( don’t know why at the time). They were MADDDDDD AT ME! LOL Thing is, I feel so bad for treating them like that, and whenever we get together, they always bring it up. OOOOOOO that burns me up. LOL They have plenty of stories on me, I was a MEAN, HONERY SOMETHING, SOMETHING back in the day. Matter of fact, a whole lot of my friends have stories on me, and I am so not like that now, that I hate to hear those old stories. They seem eager to tell ALL that THEY REMEMBER. Now, I do have some funny ones with my friend Gloria, but those were less than 10 years ago. My sister and my cousin stories go wayyyyy back. I wish I knew how to deal with it, more so than “look crazy” in the face when its bought up. I’m really laid back now that I’m in my 40’s, I just don’t wanna hear that mess LOL. I noticed though, people LOVE to bring back old memories, especially if it will make you cringe, while they look like “good fellas”. They say your past will stare you in the face. Boy, I tell you. LOL
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Since, I can remember I am the one who will/can plan, movie outings, game night, restaurant day, house gatherings, pool night, you name it. I’m not creative at all. I cant match a pair of pants with a shirt, LOL but Imma bad sister when it comes to details of the gathering, day, keeping in touch with people through emails, phone and in person. I will gather a strong person to help me and then I carry out whatever it is to be done. I write down everything I need and expect from people involved, I am VERY serious about details. But I have one problem…. there is always someone CLOSE to you who seem to always want to change YOUR plans on YOUR EVENT. Now don’t get me wrong, I don’t mind when someone says…… well what about this, and what about that? That’s fine, but don’t GET THE HELL MADD CAUSE IM NOT DOING IT YOUR WAY!!! That’s why I’m the visionary. If you want to put together a function, then do it. Ill be there, I will help you, I wont confuse you with how LaCrease would do it. Everybody want to be the “plant manager” on your function but they expect for you to “have a seat” when your at their function. And that’s one thing about me, I know how to take a back seat. I LOVE to be invited to a function and all I have to do is show up, SIT MY CHUBBY BUTT DOWN and get my laugh on!! LOL You aint said nothing but a word boo. I don’t want to manage nothing I’m invited too. I wanna sit, sip and chill! * blank state*…..(then smile.)
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I’m about to get real serious right now. I had a lot on my mind when I was doing to Valentines Day Care Packages for the homeless, and I really wasn’t doing all that I know I could do. So, I put the money aside and said Lord, okay help me to buy the things that’s on the list. Finally, I went and bought enough spaghetti strings and meat for 30 ppl to have nice size plates. When it came time to cook it my family and friends were saying that 1 1/2 HUGE packs of meat was enough. But I kept saying…. naw I don’t think so. Am I really over doing it? They agreed. But came time to serve, we ran out of food and had to make the rest of the hamburger. I wasn’t mad or anything at all, its just that I asked God to help me with the specifics of HOW MUCH TO BUY AND MAKE, cause he KNOWS I hate to NOT have enough. Then turn around listen to others and have to end up making more. That kinda bothered me because I know God told me to make them both, and so my good friend Gloria grabbed the spatula and started making the rest of the spaghetti for me while I rest (((hugs)))). I learned to follow the Lord on my plans. Im not listening to anyone anymore about how I go about my functions. They are successful because the vision is clear, and when I start to listen to others and allow others to change the plans, then I get frustrated. That ended Valentines Day.
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This past Saturday we were out at our family function things were moving smooth. Family was coming in the door, we had room for 32 ppl, 2 sat at the bar. Then out of the blue walking in the door this person close to me, comes to me saying, since we all cant sit together we can go to my house. I said gurl naw, we are here and this is where we will stay……… tension was in the air. Who cared!! I didn’t. Flash back to Valentines Day…… I’m straight. This is my view, okay its 18 ppl here now, so we just up and leave, go to your house and say FORGET the other 16 people who are on the way in a MICHIGAN SNOW STORM……. In the words of Sheree from* Atlanta’s Housewife*…. I don’t thank so.
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So right now in my life, I’m learning to stick with the vision. If others want to plan a function that’s cool, DO YOUR OWN THANG, but as for me, I’m doing things my way. Now, me and my cousin are about to plan a huge gathering at my Sisters home April 16. 2011. Her basement alone can hold 1 million ppl seem like. LOL And it has a fire place, so you know its huge!!! Gotta decide on a few things, then we are planning a family picnic for the summer. But first, MY GURLS GROUP RAISINGURLS TO WOMEN starts May 1, 2011. I’m so excited about that. My babies, some new, some old will all meet up again. Gotta go straight in teacher mode for this one. We have lots of work to do. So right now, my hands are tied, I don’t even see myself slowing down. God is teaching me a lot of things about people, and how things work. Its scary aint gonna lie, so many different emotions. Somebody gotta do it…….. God chose me.
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