Proverbs 11 (New International Version)
and he who wins souls is wise.

Living to Learn Life Lessons
This year has been one I will never forget. Living alone with yourself…. will teach you a lot of things. The reason why I decided to share mines is because…. I believe that we all can take inventory of our lives… and when we do… we just may learn something.
I realized that God equipped me with Being a Visionary I have insight on things that others just don’t see, or understand…. and ITS OKAY. As a visionary you have to be able to think quickly and able to come up with solutions. You have to always have a plan B. I have a gift to vision the whole thing in progress before it even happens while sitting in my living room months before time. In doing this, I can see all the issues that may come up, and that is how this is able to go smoothly EVERY YEAR. THANK YOU JESUS.
First before I can even begin… I have to Thank God for giving me the gift of planning and the endurance to complete this task with my family and friends. I love you
As you all know I can write. I’m hoping to make this short and to the point….. but I don’t know. LOL
WE COOKED AND PASSED OUT 150 DINNERS THIS YEAR. Whenever we go out to pass out dinners, there are so many men and women who are so THANKFUL. I met this lady last night, who walked up to the van to get a dinner and I could feel that her heart was so heavy with “something”. So, I asked her … what’s wrong? ( yall know me) She said “I just lost my husband, and I’m just so lost”. She said that she didn’t know what to do. I began to minister to her and gave her a long loving hug. And this is what my Sis was talking about this morning. Sometimes we are a pay check away from being hungry.. and sometimes we’re a situation away. You can have the best job in the world, but if your mom dies, or your sisters, anyone who were a pillar to you… ITS SO EASY TO CHECK OUT OF THIS WORLD MENTALLY. And that has happened to this lady. Another thing that amazed me last night… was that a person could walk in front of you and never open their mouth to say “excuse me”. Someone could walk into a room and not open their mouth to those who were there before them to say “hello”…. but last night all you heard was “THANK YOU. GOD BLESS YOU. THANK YOU, WE APPRECIATE IT, THANK YOU WE LOVE YOU, THANK YOU FOR THINKING ABOUT US. *I’m about to cry typing this*
A few days ago, as I was writing down the names of all the donors I realized how many people that sent donations that didn’t live in Detroit. It made me emotional, because how is it that these people who SEVERAL have never met me… would dig in their purses and wallets to decided to help out with my vision to Feed the Homeless? Only God could touch their hearts in this way. For that I am TRULY THANKFUL AND GRATEFUL LORD. And this is why I have to send this special SHOUT OUT to the following people. Rubie of Georgia. Valerie of Arizona, Jodi * former 2959 Walmart Family* of Tennessee, Calandra of Chicago, Selena of New York, and my good friend….. Alex of Texas. Thank you all so VERY VERY VERY MUCH. * hugs and kisses*.
To Nesha my baby. Thank you for always asking me when you know Im about to get stressed ” you’re okay momma”. That challenged me to regroup, because whatever was bothering me in doing this… you made me aware of it. Thanks for your generous donations… you see first hand what it takes to put this together. Thank you so much for being my #1 stunna * gurl*. I LOVE YOU MOMMY MOMMY.
Thank you to MY COUSINS Darcella and Anderson, To Mzlena and her BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTER, My aunt wana for making chicken and dressing, and my aunt Faye for the string beans. TO my niece lash… thank you. To my #1 Walmart Family gurl in the WORLD lajuana.. when I tell you I LOVE THIS gurl….believe me! She gave me her debit card while she was working and said… here is my debit card AND NUMBER go and get what you need. So, I’m like okay.. I went and got 2 cases of pop, and returned her card. Then she said what else do you need….. tell me…. here take this card and get some MORE stuff. Wow….how do you THANK A PERSON with a heart like this? HOW? What do you say to this kind of person. Thank you Lajuana so much for your kindness. Thank you for being a friend. * don’t be jealous ruby…. *insider* I love you too boo matter of fact you were my first donor.
To my gurl Myra…. ooo myra please don’t kill me. I was running late to meet you, but you took the things to the service desk anyway. I really wanted to see you… my fault. Thank you so very much for constantly being in touch with me, when you live so far away. You came all the way from where you live to make sure I had what I needed. THANK YOU BOO. To tammy, darron lee, my Sisters Yolanda and Electria.. OMG What did I do so great in GOD eyes to have Sisters like you both? Huh.. Like for real. How did God say.. okay Imma match Cree, Na and Peedie up as sisters? I dunno the math … but IM SO GLAD HE DID. I LOVE YALL SO MUCH!! TO trya my god daughter… baaaaaaaaaaaaaaby when I tell yall this lil gurl *she’s 15* worked…. SHE WENT TO WORK!!!! My sister went in her purse and gave her some money. LOL LOL LOL LOL A special love note to Ms Karen my Walmart Manager… who always go way beyond the call of duty. This lady made 150 BROWNIES with her own money and TIME. This is not her first time either and every time she makes them… I HAVE TO FIGHT PEOPLE OFF ASKING ME CAN THEY PLEASE HAVE A BROWNIE…. and yalp I had to do it again this year. LOL Who makes 150 brownies? Who does that? THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH MS KAREN.. I JUST LOVE YOU!!!
Thank you to my gurl Nicole and her beautiful daughters. This was there first time going out with us…. and when they came in, they were like “okay what do you want us to do”. They got right to work!!!! They came to serve and that’s what they did. Looking back on it… hadn’t they came in…. it would have been a battle getting all of that stuff packed up. We put Ford to shame with our assembly line. WE DID THE THANG BABY LOL !!! THANK YOU JESUS FOR THEM ALL. Thank you to Charlene my BFF for PHYSICALLY being * hands on* to what we do. At the last min when I asked you to make some mac and cheese… you said “bring it over… I’ll do it”. I was so happy…. God knows I needed that. Sometimes I just don’t know how to ask for what I need… and people like you made it easier for me to communicate. You were working so HARD… that I couldn’t stop having laughing out burst. LOL LOL * water* I LOVE YOU SOOOOOOOOOO MUCH… THANKS for putting me in my place when I need it, cause everybody knows I CAN GET OUT OF ORDER… YOU KNOW ME BEST. LOL LOL Thank you to Ms Gloria…. My SISTER my RIDE OR DIE TILL THE WHEELS FALL OFF!!! You have been with me feeding the homeless for 5 years and 7 total runs including Valentines Day Personal items, and making sandwiches for the homeless. Every time I pick up the phone and say… Ms. gloria.. I need you… your response is…. WHEN? Yesterday when you walked in the house to start making plates… little did you know… you were the glue to my day. * tears* THANK YOU SO MUCH… AND I LOVE YOU.
To my brother in law Darren… I knew you had to work yesterday, you even came in tired. But see what you all don’t know is…. even though I love to drive and know a lot of places…. once the food is in the car… I don’t know how to physically get to all the spots we go to pass out food. Its like once the hard work is done…. I cant even think to drive anymore. So, I thank you so much for always willing to lead us to our destination. Do you know when it was over, I didn’t even know my way home.. gloria had to guide me back? LOL So when I tell you that I appreciate you…. BELIVE ME.. . Thanks for riding with me since DAY ONE OF THIS MISSION. I LOVE YOU
TO my MOMMY.. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.. It was you who called me out of the BLUE AND SAID…. THIS YEAR WE ARE FEEDING 150 PEOPLE. I said huh mommy… in my mind…..I said I cant even focus on that right now. You said… we’re going to do it this year and I’m cooking. At that point… all I felt in my Spirit was YES. Because with my mentality at that time.. I didn’t want to do anything!!!!! It was God who told you to call me up.. I don’t remember you even saying HEY ZEE AS YOU DO when you first call. Thank you so much for everything mommy. Thank you for the loving kindness you displayed… you didn’t “snap” at me that much in front of my friends, LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL TOLD YALL MY MOMMA BE SNAPPING. LOL
Thank you to all of those who wanted to help and couldn’t for whatever reason. I REALLY FELT THE LOVE FROM YOU. I saw the messages….I read the in boxes.. But that’s okay… it really is because MARCH 2014… WE ARE GOING BACK TO THE STREETS to pass out sandwiches. chips, drinks, and snacks at lunch time. For all those who want to be apart of it…. we will be doing it ONCE A MONTH. There’s always an opportunity to give and to be apart of something special. I look forward to working with different faces for 2014 as well as my “regulars”. THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH.. THANK YOU AND THANK GOD FIRST, BECAUSE HE WAS THE ONE WHO GAVE ME THE VISION!!!!!!! Alex TigerCat Moses Tammy Frazier Lashanna Thomas Neish Walk
Its been almost a whole year since I moved into my apartment. My life has changed so much. I pray more and talk to God everyday around the 5 o clock am hour. I’m more stronger as a person. I listen more, and I pay attention to everything. I love to learn people. And since I work with teens, I pay attention to their behavior, and more importantly ADULTS.
I guess this week is all about BUSINESS . I just got off the phone with a good friend who happens to live in my apartment building. He’s a young guy but today he learned real quick… BUSINESS IS BUSINESS and PLAY TIME IS PLAY TIME.
I’m feeling so much better after we had that 94 degree weather, then the next day in the 60’s. I knew it would catch me. I was sweating leaving work * no air in the schools here* and when I got outside the breeze was feeling good. The next day I was sick. I’ve been coughing so much my RIB CAGE IS SORE!!!! OOO chile. LOL Anyway… I’m fine.
I finally got a chance to talk to my VIRGO friend who caught our apartment building on fire Friday. He came to gather up some things from his apartment. Yesterday was his birthday. He had just got out of the hospital. He had burns on his neck that was visible, his hands were burnt and not sure where else. We plan to talk tonight. He was moving his things out, not sure if he’s coming back. Sometimes I feel that I should have helped him out. OOO Lawd, we use to debate about any and every ole thang. I think he liked to make up with me… I dunno. But any way, he was soooooooooooooo happy to see me when the elevator opened and it was my face he saw. He had a flat bed full of his things that were falling all over the place. People were waiting to get on the elevator, saw him struggling and wouldn’t lift a finger, until he said.. yall wanna get on, and I wanna get out, HELP ME SOMEBODY. LOL LOL LOL That’s a true Virgo…. we’re something else. They all started grabbing things to help him out. I was laughing … (((in my mind))) He said it in a nice way, it was kinda funny. He’s an only child and you can tell that he’s had assistance all of his life….his mom. Mommas Boy ((((( in my Lynn Whitfield voice from A Thin Line Between Love and Hate)))) LOL I’ll get the full story when I talk to him.
As you all know I’m working on my ANGER ISSUES… As I was watching Basketball Wives Tami called over a Life Coach to help her identify with her issues of why she doesn’t like when people put their fingers in her face. When she say.. she will pop you… please believe it. But when she learned that it comes from childhood issues….. it really amazed her. She said that her mother use to do it to her… which told me “she felt some kinda way” about it. I wonder in which way did her mom use it. It had to be in a way that made her not able to defend herself… and now that she’s grown.. she’s not dealing with the hand thing. Which takes me back to my issues of people who manipulate, bullying, talking any kind of way to others. Whewww just makes my FOREHEAD HOT. Takes me back to my dad on that. Speaking of my dad, he hasn’t talked to me in over a month. How you not talk to your daughter/child in over a month? Im so use to it… doesn’t even move me any more. Everyone in the family get along, we never ever fall out or get into it. NEVER EVER… But my dad has done so much manipulating to my mom and us when we were growing up, his guilt has caught up with him in his own mind. We are so over it… we love him, and has moved on from the past. He loves POWER… so to make himself feel as if he “still has it”…. and he knows how we all feel about being a family, having disagreements and KEEPING IT MOVING…. this is how he tends to hold on to it. My daughter told him TONIGHT… if he doesn’t call me before 9pm she is not talking to him for a month((( she was just playing.. but he doesn’t know it)))… Oh he wont be able to take that. Its funny how he LOVES the grand kids * the baby being 17* but he doesn’t get along with his kids. Now if we were low down kids, we would tell our kids NOT TO TALK TO HIM… but were not like that. Who wants their kids not to talk to their granddad? What grand kid enjoys their granddad not talking to their mom? Anyway….. to be honest I have enjoyed this month away from him… because after a week or 2, he’ll find something else to nick pick sabotaging that. SMH
Since living alone….. I see so much I have dealt with concerning people, even friends, that I’m not dealing with the mess anymore. Stuff that I ignored or didn’t care about….. has really caught up with me to see. People I shouldn’t have NEVER met. People I wish I didn’t have any memory of… yeah that bad. But my brother wired me up real good, and it won’t happen again.. TRUST THAT!!!
Be Blessed
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy
Hey…. just peeping my head in… this Michigan weather has me sick. I’m so mad about it. Was suppose to go to a Bridal Shower tomorrow, ears stopped up, nose and a little coughing… but my Cold-Eeze took care of that… just need to eat and not feel weak.Be Blessed
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy