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New Year….. New Mind!!! 2014 Crees Blog Entry

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Happy New Year!!!! New Year…. New Mind!!!
 
 
Today is the first day of the New Year. I’m excited to see what awaits me for 2014. I had to make some changes in my life, and its funny, because never in a million years would I have done this on my own, this is how I know I’m ready for the next LEVEL in my mind. I’m not playing anymore, I’ve been so serious about changing things. I even changed my Twitter name to what it was in the beginning…. GodsgurlCree.
 
 
Sometime in September 2013, I realized after work and on weekends how I spent so much time talking on the phone…………for hours. I love my friends, and I really appreciate how they trust me with they’re life lessons. Its my time. I’ve been this way for as long as I can remember. My mom use to talk to me all the time. She would take me everywhere, she said I understood things, and didn’t Judge people, and that I always told the truth. As I grew up, people would always talk to me and I love that. But now there has come a time where I have to focus on myself. I never really realize how much of my time I devoted to others. Until, when I came home from Atlanta, while others wanted to talk about THEMSELVES…. I needed to talk about my issues. That’s when I really realized that I have always made it about others, and had NEGLECTED MYSELF. It’s not anyone’s fault….. it’s not even a bad thing. I just had to “feel some kinda way” in order to see the bigger picture. I was really going through a tough time mentality, and spiritually. I mean I was REALLY going through. God got me through that time in my life.
 
 
That was the FINAL straw to me. When my Verizon phone fell for the 3rd time in a few months *I didn’t want to pay another $100.00 for a new one* plus I wasn’t able to see who was calling. I decided that since my contract was almost up that I would REALLY TEST MYSELF concerning talking on the phone all day. I got me a trac phone. THAT HAS BEEN ONE OF THE BEST DECISION I’VE MADE IN MY LIFE. LOL I DONT KNOW HOW TO BALANCE MY TIME WITH GOD/FRIENDS/FAMILY. Of course I will eventually get on another plan, but for now I need to learn balance. I laugh everyday at my new happiness of not being on the phone all day. I really don’t think no one has an idea of what I’m talking about. I HATE talking on the phone. I just HATE IT WITH EVERYTHING IN ME. When I’m on FB, none of my friends like to type out what they would say to me OVER THE PHONE… so they say when are you getting a phone? NEVER!!!! I can type all day LOL. With my minute phone… its “say what you gotta say” and lets keep it moving. LOL I still love ya… but I gotta GO! LOL
 
With all of that being said….. I spend a LOT of MY time with GOD. I’m so happy right now… I can’t stop laughing. I have never known a PEACE like this. I READ MY BIBLE, HAVE BIBLE STUDY, CHURCH, READ BOOKS, AND LISTEN TO MY GOSPEL MUSIC. I get so much done. This is THE OLD ME…. IM BACK LORD!!! He has revealed so much to me about myself, things I have missed over the years. He makes me laugh, … yesss he’s funny. If there is something you need to completely cut off…. just do it. You’re not missing anything. In the long run it will benefit you. It’s time to focus, its time to pay attention to what the voice you hear on the inside tells you, its time to do new things, think a different way. Cut off people, and things that doesn’t bring you closer to God. Trust me… you aint missing NOTHING. I leave you with this.
 
 
Let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think . Then you will know what God wants you to do Romans 12:2 NLT
 
 
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy
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Fingerpointing You………………………Crees Blog Entry

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As I sit here  thinking about the post I wrote about Dwayne Wade and Gabrielle Union.. it takes me back to my own personal relationships about cheating, and lies. The questions I had.

Every man I’ve ever given a second chance to… he cheated again. Sad thing about that.. these men are with different women now, some married and they’re still cheating. Now, there are some faithful men out there that love their wives dearly. And if they’re cheating, as long as his wife doesn’t detect it….. he’s not cheating. LOL I just wish that I could understand the thought process of a man before he thinks about doing it. What options does he weigh, what thoughts goes through his mind concerning her finding out? What would he say to her? What would be his reason that he tells her? Does he sees himself losing everything, or is that even a thought to him? Does he think about his family, or her feelings? What desire goes through his mind when he decide that its what he’s going to do anyway. What thought or feeling goes though his mind once the sexual act is over. And what drives him to do it again and again. Does he feel a sexual disconnection to his mate?

For a long time, I can remember calling over my friends every weekend just to drink and have a pity party. We dogged men coming and going. I use to date my daughters teacher when she was in preschool. Then when I started working there the following year, I found out that he was dating the teachers and the parents. * throws hands up… eyes closed* And didn’t I get into an argument with one of the ladies at the school, almost lost my job over this man? I cut dissed him ON SPOT. I made sure I went to work looking good everyday. I made him “SEXUALLY SICK” when ever he saw me. He couldn’t even function with me around. I had his mind gone. I can’t go for that type of behavior anymore. I LOVE ME. He knew he couldn’t tie my shoe if it was coming loose.

But you know…… I had to put away childish things. I couldn’t go on being angry with men because I chose cheaters. I realized that I was drawing these types of men to me. I had to change the way I looked at my relationships. I had to say NO… to the ones who didn’t fit into what I was looking for. So many times I got into relationships “just because they liked me”. These days….. I chose friendships and relationships wisely. They must have a relationship with God, they must be a person who goes to God before any family member and a friend.

Here is a song that I use to listen to when I was going through those relationships…. I love the words.. so honest and to the point.

Fonz
I don’t know what you goin thru lately
But you stressin it and it’s drivin me crazy
You wont even make love to me lately
Somebody told you they was havin my baby

Vee
I heard it all I was getting my nails done
She was braggin how your record when platinum
You were crushin on a leather couch
You were out there trickin with that chick all up in my house

Did you sleep with her
Did you sleep with him
He works at my job
She was just a friend
Saw you at the club
Well I saw you too
Fingerpointing me
Fingerpointing you

Vee
She knew it all even talked about your tattoo
Tell me how you gonna say it wasn’t bout you (wasn’t me)
Saying how you like to suck on toes
She knew all the things that you know that only I should know

Fonz
You played the role I was workin in the studio
Getting paid while you gave up the botty yo
Another brotha is getting all my time
You was out there trickin when I thought that shit was all mine all mine

Did you sleep with her
Did you sleep with him
He works at my job
She was just a friend
Saw you at the club
Well I saw you too
Fingerpointing me
Fingerpointing you
Did you sleep with her
Did you sleep with him
He works at my job
She was just a friend
Saw you at the club
Well I saw you too
Fingerpointing me
Fingerpointing you

Fonz: Your thru with me
Vee: Im thru with you
Fonz: You lied to me
Vee: Never lied to you
Fonz: Stop blamin me
Vee: Im blamin you
Fonz: Stop gamin me
Vee: Whos gamin who
Fonz: So you say your thru with me
Vee: Im thru with you
Fonz: You lied to me
Vee: Never lied to you
Both: Better ask yourself if don’t matter baby why keep goin on

Did you sleep with her
Did you sleep with him
He works at my job
She was just a friend
Saw you at the club
Well I saw you too
Fingerpointing me
Fingerpointing you
Did you sleep with her
Did you sleep with him
He works at my job
She was just a friend
Saw you at the club
Well I saw you too
Fingerpointing me
Fingerpointing you

Fonz: can’t work with you lying and creepin babe
Vee: I can’t work I can’t deal with your cheatin and leavin babe(I can’t deal)
Fonz: can’t be a fool for lovin babe
Vee: Save the drama im about to bounce babe
Cant work with you lying and creepin babe
Vee: I can’t work I can’t deal with your cheatin and leavin babe(I can’t deal)
Fonz: can’t be a fool for lovin babe
Vee: Save the drama im about to bounce babe

Did you sleep with her
Did you sleep with him
He works at my job
She was just a friend
Saw you at the club
Well I saw you too
Fingerpointing me
Fingerpointing you

Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy
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Sometimes you just gotta laugh…………Crees Blog Entry

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I always hear this slide across the floor that seems as if  the man who lives over me is moving furniture around. So, everyday I sat here and tried to figure out who changes their furniture around everyday……. all day????? I kept trying to think of what in the world is this person moving around? I thought about every thing.
This one day last week… I couldn’t take it anymore, so I went upstairs to the next floor and knocked on his door. I had to fix my face to be friendly, because I didn’t want him to detect that I had an attitude * which I did in my mind*. After knocking on his door a few times, he answered ……and  that’s when I  said…. Heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy how are you? I live directly under you, and I keep hearing this sliding across the floor like somebody is moving furniture or something. He says with a nice smile and friendly face…. No… I’m not moving. So, I gets a peep around his house as I stayed in the doorway in the hall.Then I REALIZED THAT THIS CLOWN ANSWERED THE DOOR SITTING IN A CHAIR * who does that*?. I looked down at the chair and it had 4 WHEELS ON IT…. I SAID DO YOU SCOOT AROUND IN THAT CHAIR * MY OUTSPOKEN SELF* HE was like OH YEAHHHHHH… it must be this chair. I looked at him like BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOY…. if you don’t get your chubby butt up and stop scooting around … I’mma choke YOU!!!!!!! He had nerves to be  using one of those chairs you would see  in offices . He doesn’t get up to walk… this fool scoots all day. I said um ummmmmmmmm… there is no carpet on these floors boo, that noise is irritating… He got my hint… we’re good now. * smh* LOL LOL Its funny now , but it wasn’t last week.
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy
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Spending time….Crees Blog Entry

ImageSpending some time with my daughter. About to lay it down. Take care of each other people, and surround yourself with positive people. Patiently waiting for the Lord.

 

Be Blessed

 

 

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In 2013….. I Learned…….Crees Blog Entry

stankfacecreeThis year has been one I will never forget. Living alone with yourself…. will teach you a lot of things. The reason why I decided to share mines is because…. I believe that we all can take inventory of our lives… and when we do… we just may learn something.
I learned that I LOVE PRANKS. Even though I would never prank anyone. I realize that I go to youtube when I need to laugh, and when I need to smile just before going to bed. I’ve subscribed to several PRANK sites…. this is something that I realized I did. Wow. I asked myself… what is it that you get out of it? I LOVE to see people’s reaction. I love FACIAL EXPRESSIONS… they’re so funny to me.
I learned that its okay to enjoy being alone. I learned that I’m not the kind of person who calls up people and tell them my problems. I let God work things out, and that way I’m able to tell the story in TRUTH and in FULL. when I’m ready.
I learned that I have control of things that Angers me. For example, when the drive thru lady rolled her eyes so hard at me, all I could see is the white part in her eyes when I asked her for ketchup. I learned this year that I have total control of how I will react to ANY SITUATION, and that I was the one who really had the POWER. I always thought I had POWER AND CONTROL when I “told her off”…. but this year I LEARNED that the one who can laugh through it all…. is the one who has the POWER and SELF CONTROL.*pops my collar*
I learned that I don’t have to be “CONNECTED” to anyone. MEANING… if I’m cool with 2 people and they have issues with each other….. THATS THEIR PROBLEM TO WORK OUT!!!!! I’m free from DRAMA with my own SISTERS… I consider myself free from DRAMA with ANYBODY ELSE. I will not engage in ANY conversations pertaining to the other… PERIOD… AT ALL. I am my own person, I do what I want to do, I’m not connected to anyone. I do my own thang.
I learned this year… that I have always been the listener. My life has changed so much this year… sometimes I didn’t know if I was coming or going. In being the listener all the time….. I realized this year I didn’t have a listener for myself. Even though I’m good with that….. I realized and LEARNED that when I let all my talkers…..talk…. that I didn’t make them listeners. LOL But God had my back. And its all good.
I learned this year that my dad is who he is and that’s FINAL. I learned that whenever he got mad at me, that I was always afraid that he would be mad for a long time, and that’s why I always made up with him first. I went over 3 months before calling him * he had no plans to call me first* that was my first time going that long. I learned that its OKAY… that this is who HE is….. and for me to Boss Up… and accept it. I learned this year, that he can go months even years without talking to me.
I learned this year that I spent a lot of time holding people’s hand…. too long. I refuse to go any longer putting band-aids, and green rubbing alcohol on folks…. they gotta go to God.. JUST LIKE ME. I learned that I spend TOO MUCH TIME…. ( it’s okay to spend some time) on folks who don’t want to “get it”. I can’t use extra energy for that any more. I have to attend to me. I learned that I have neglected myself in so many ways. Those days are over.. and brighter days are coming.
Be Blessed
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy
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People will show you who they are…….Crees Blog Entry

blueskiesIts been almost a whole year since I moved into my apartment. My life has changed so much. I pray more and talk to God everyday around the 5 o clock am hour. I’m more stronger as a person. I listen more, and I pay attention to everything. I love to learn people. And since I work with teens, I pay attention to their behavior, and more importantly ADULTS.

I was listening to Steve Harvey one day and was so upset the way he was rushing, and fast talking his callers. The way he talks to LISTENERS is so disrespectful. But when a celebrity calls in… he talks to them as if they can find out secrets about him and expose them. He talked to them with respect and as a person on HIS level. One day it was so bad… I had to turn the station.. it killed me to hear him talk to another person in that way. Which takes me to another situation. I’m always the one who likes to defend a person, but now I sit back and pay attention to what is being said…. I don’t open my mouth. And I always find out the person who I’m always defending… is the one who is “doing the most”. When God told me that he was God and I didn’t have to defend anybody anymore….. I rest. I just sit back and watch it go down. Legs crossed…. arms folded. And in THAT ORDER.

People will show you who they are. They will mistreat you * in their own little way*, while trying their best to be up in somebody else face… who they feel is more “influential ” than THEMselves. I’m so glad I am who I am. A person of influence… with NOTHING TO PROVE IN THIS WORLD.. TO OTHERS, FOLKS AT MY JOB, TO MY FAMILY OR FRIENDS. I AM FREE.

I just hate when people treat others differently just because they feel that they’re not on their level. It could be success, or pay scale, living arrangements, or anything. People pick debates just to not hold a conversation with them. They want to purposely feel “some kinda” way for you, just so that they don’t have to be bothered. But its all good…. BECAUSE I see the fall that’s ahead…..* and I have no POWER to stop it*
Be Blessed

 Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy
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Do not lay up for yourselves treasures on earth……Crees Blog Entry

our presSometimes I just sit and wonder how did we come to a place where all we think about is material things. Don’t get me wrong there is nothing wrong with having a nice place, a car that gives you no problems, and money to pay off your bills. If you’re going to tell a story….tell the story. Braggers are the worst. Now, I have to sit here and hear someone go through something that they missed all because of GREED.When you chase after money, and “stuff” you miss out on LOVE. When you chase POWER AND CONTROL… you miss out on LOVE. And those are the PEOPLE CONSTANTLY reminding others with this MESS…..”I can’t trust nobody” Well before you realized what your money can buy, you should have known that LOVE is going to out last your material things……and NO… you cant trust everybody! Material things can burn up in a fire…. LOVE CANT. Pray and ask God if you can get back the LOVE you lost…. and next time boo…..remember this Scripture Matthew 6:19-21 ESV /“Do not lay up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy and where thieves break in and steal, but lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

It puzzles me sometimes how I prayed to work with children and even though I’m not making near as much as I’m worth… I enjoy going to work everyday. But what I didn’t expect is to work with a few women who makes the atmosphere very uncomfortable. I just knew those days were over when I left Walmart. Maybe this is why I’m taking it so hard…. I thought working with adults was over and that I can only focus on the children. Its a shame when OLDER women are still so childish and immature. I’m very good at ignoring people, but when you have to communicate and it doesn’t happen….. its terrible. This really makes me want to start my own Non Profit Organization… I need team leaders and players. People who are there for the children. People who care for them, and not sit up and say ” I don’t care what they do”. I just have a HUGE problem with people who take jobs that are not really into it…. especially when it comes to caring for other peoples kids.

 

I have a lot on my mind… nothing bad… just “stuff” LOL So, I’m going to bed. Good Night and Be Blessed.

Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy
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Business is Business… Don’t forget it…Crees Blog Entry

lilcreeI guess this week is all about BUSINESS . I just got off the phone with a good friend who happens to live in my apartment building. He’s a young guy but today he learned real quick… BUSINESS IS BUSINESS and PLAY TIME IS PLAY TIME.
I always see him down stairs talking with members of management and I always thought that was bad. Because if one day you need something taken care of, they will put you on the LAST TO DO LIST. because they feel you would “understand”. But I knew that one day it was going to be a problem somewhere down the line.
Well, yesterday someone stole a part off his car that was parked in the gated lot. He was pretty upset about it and when he went to management, they told him they wasn’t going to pay for it and that was the end of that. I told my friend the reason why you’re taking it so hard is because A. you thought that since you hang with them and know them, that when it came to business they would take care of it. I told him, when it comes to members of management…..you have to be about your business. You can’t sit in the office with them, or run down there telling them everything that’s going on. Being familiar, and smiling with them. I learned that myself years ago. So when its time for business with these people, and you’re talking face to face in a very low tone with direct eye contact…. THEY KNOW YOU’RE SERIOUS.
Living here where there are many people coming and going because of the hospitals, businesses, sports arenas and bars. I learned to SPEAK… and keep it moving. I don’t sit and stand around in the lobby, or hang out in the office or anything. I’m very serious when it comes to taking care of business, and I don’t want anyone to “FEEL” they know me so well, that they can talk to me sideways, or tell me “No” or “I’ll get back to you” just because we talk outside of the office. My friends always wonder how do you always get what you want? Its because I don’t play…. meaning I keep business business and play time play time.
For some reason when management is in their “personal playtime” mood, they want everyone to be apart of their “fun and cool” side. And many people fall for it, but then as soon as its the next week when the manager has went back to his” business side”… people that he wanted so badly to impress by showing himself ” human” cant deal with it. That’s one of the BIGGEST ISSUES with employees today.
Be Blessed
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy
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Money can’t buy you everythang… LADY….Crees Blog Entry

kid to saveHeeeeey,

Its been a minute but ………IM HERE!!!!

I didn’t know why then, but ever since I was a young gurl I’ve always studied the behavior of people. I believe I did it because people would make me SO UPSET by the way they treated others. Instead of getting upset, I decided to STUDY why people did the things they did. This has also helped me to understand the thought process of a child. It is GOD GIVEN trust me, no school could ever teach me what God gave to me naturally. In having this gift it has helped me to understand what people go through, and how they come to the conclusion they do in life. With that said…. read this story.

This lady I work with she’s about 57 and has everything you can think of. She and her husband owns a night club, MANY rental properties, car wash, hair salon* aint no telling what else* they both drive nice trucks and have one grown son with a wife and family. I love this lady, and I truly don’t believe that she knows half the stuff she says that MAKES THE OTHERS want to scratch the chalk board non stop. LOL I have to write about her, because there are many others out there just like her. Its sad… so sad.. but hopefully this will make you ask yourself….Am I this woman?

My coworker wants EVERYTHING MONEY CANT BUY. Instead of her saying to herself…. Okay… I can buy that on my own, so I won’t take it… she will anyway. She says she does it because.. SHE PAYS TAXES AND HAVE A RIGHT TO get things free. Every month there is this fruit truck and many other things on it, that if you pull up, sign your name while they load up your car… its yours free. The school we work at is in a poor neighborhood and many people drive up and get these things because they need them. She asked me why aren’t you going to get a food box? I told her let people who need it get it, we don’t need it. I said there may be times in life when we may need it, and then you wont feel bad about having to get it. If she has to ever be in this position to have to get these things… I BET SHE WONT EVEN GET THEM.. BECAUSE SHE’S TOO PROUD. When you brag about things you have, and then they’re taken away from you… you feel bad about having to have to get it. But to take from those people who can’t afford it IS A DAYUM SHAME. That bothers me so bad. Then I ask her… what do you do what that stuff, because you don’t need it…. she says… “I give it to my son for my grandsons” *smh*

There is this counselor who dress very nice and every time my coworker sees her, she has to ALWAYS look at what she has on. One day she had on a nice blouse… I told her how pretty it was, don’t you know my coworker ASKED HER where she got it from, and then went out that SAME DAY and bought it? She came to work and talked about it nonstop. and I’m looking at her like are you serious? Friday, our security team ordered some wings from Coney island. My coworker was eating something she had just bought in from a restaurant. When she found out they were ordering food she asked them why didn’t yall ask me to order, they said they didn’t think about it and it would have not been a problem… she turned to me and said…. I’m going up stairs and getting one of those wings as soon as its delivered. And so I said to her…. why would you want a wing ding… she said because they didn’t ask me. WOW WOW WOW. She wants everything HER money cant buy at the time. I never met anyone like this.

We have these carrying cases for your books. And when the kids play games and win, they get it free as a prize. Well she ask one of the teachers can she have one, so they gave it to her. THEN SHE WANTED ANOTHER ONE FOR HER GRANDSON. This is so unreal to me. She can’t sit anything out. She has to have everything that’s not for sale. She asked me for mines, I TOLD HER NO, and I don’t even want mines. We have many different things going on at school, and when someone pulled out the schools camera…. she kept talking about how hers is just like it. It was a long nose Nokia. Now she’s going to bring hers to school. I’m looking at her like gurllllllllllllllllll this is not that serious. The others are fed up with her…. but to me… she’s interesting.

But this is the biggest. The women and men who works in the kitchen often times take home food before it goes bad. And since it can’t be heated or re cooked, they’ll give it away, take it home, or throw it out. She feels that SINCE SHE AND HER HUSBAND PAY MORE TAXES THAN EVERYONE ELSE, THAT …. she’s entitled to have the privileges of taking home food like the kitchen workers. The nerve of her. What they do in the kitchen has nothing to do with her. And what burns her up so bad, is that they ALWAYS ask me what do I WANT? They tell me “Sunshine you don’t have to pay for anything, if you want something TELL ME”. She gets SO mad, and ask what about me? She don’t get that nobody likes when she sit up and brag, when she want some of everything everybody has because she cant buy it. When they call me PRIVATELY in the kitchen…. she watches me like a hawk. She wants to know what they said to me, what are they giving me… then when I come out with something she doesn’t EAT.. she’ll say… I DON’T EAT THAT MESS. But when I come out with something good and she wants it… she’ll say… I’m going back there to see if they have any thing left… I WANT SOME TOO. Her facial expression is ANGRY…. just because they didn’t ask her for anything. Then she’ll pout if she sees all of them eating together and they not offer her FREE LUNCH. One day I bought several kids some candy bars for helping me out….. when one of the students didn’t come to school, she asked me could she have the SNICKER. It killed her that I bought candy bars for the students and not have one for her. IT KILLED HER TO SEE ME PASSING THEM OUT. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW!!!

I came to the conclusion just by listening to her and not dismissing her behavior. She loves her life, but she’s very ungrateful. She loves to brag, and if someone says that something is nice and pretty… she’ll make sure to run out and get it…..and tell you about it in the morning. She won’t admit how blessed she is until someone shows up and have something she can’t buy….. NO MATTER WHAT. She brags about what she has, and she TRIES HER BEST TO gets things that CANT BE BOUGHT OR SOLD.

Are you this person? Just because something is free doesn’t mean you have to be apart of it, especially if you don’t need it. Save it for those who do. Let people see what you have… DONT BRING IT UP… Keep some things to yourself…. everybody don’t have to know your business just because its true. New Living Translation
Get wisdom; develop good judgment. Don’t forget my words or turn away from them. Proverbs 4:5

Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy
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