A story that will warm your heart…. Crees Blog Entry
GOT A STORY TO SHARE : FROM MY FACEBOOK FRIEND CYNTHIA….. SUCH A WONDERFUL STORY
Hubby and I went to Olive Garden to have dinner..as we were sitting there waiting to be seated this little girl came and sit down beside us. I would say she was about 7 years old. She kept looking and then she was staring..I smiled at her and she smiles back. Then she said, ” Do you both live together?” I said, ” yes, We are married” So she kept staring and then I said, ” Have you ever seen a black and white couple together?’ She shook her head no. Then she said, ” Do you have any kids together?” I said,” No, but he was married before me and he had a wife, she died and went to heaven and they had kids, and now their kids have small children so we are grandparents.” She said, ” Why couldn’t you have any kids together.” I said, ” We got to old!” I smiled and she started laughing..I continued talking to her and I said,” So that’s ok right?” She shook her head yes and smiled.Then I asked her, ” Do you have any black friends at school?” She said ” No. I don’t have any.’ I asked what school did she got to. She told she is at a new school this year and she was telling me about her old school. So she just kept smiling at me and staring at me. I asked her , ‘What’s your name?” She said, ” Riley.” I said ” nice to meet you Riley, I’m Cynthia and his name is John.” She got up and stood up and looked up at John smiling and looked back at me smiling..So next to us where her parents, as I thought they were her parents , come to find out it was her adopted grandparents..and I told them our conversation and the grandmother said Both girls had been not around alot of people..but I did commended to the grandmother, that she was very polite and was very curious..she spoke so pleasant and she was very friendly. The grandfather looked a little unpleasant at first when I began telling the story and I think he thought I was going to be upset and then when the grandmother and I started laughing and smiling about it..John and I saw he was a little bit more relaxed and he started smiling bigger as I continue telling what this little girl asked John and I . I told the grandmother, despite her not being around any Black people..I felt like she wanted to learn and this is a step towards learning and getting to know other people from different races..She smiled and said ” Thank you for being so nice to her.” I told her, ” I really enjoyed my conversation with Riley and I hope she has learned something from our short conversation.” I told the grandmother, ” Thank you for helping to raise such a smart and polite little child.” I said to Riley as she was sitting down, ” I’m your first Black friend.” She smiled really big. Her grandmother told her, ” Riley, you met your first Black friend tonight.” She nodded her head and smiled. We said our good byes and Riley waved at me as we were called to our seating. I know some people would find it uncomfortable with the lady saying that but I didn’t..maybe it opened up something to them they had not ever had to approach. I don’t know.
I hope Riley spreads her love for people her whole life and I hope she helps someone else understand that we may all be of different race but we are all the same through and through.
As I sit here and type this, I have this warm fuzzy feeling in my heart and I’m a bit choked up with tears..I hope Riley has a happy life and embrace everyone no matter what color skin they have. I’m so happy that I was the first Black person that touched her life as I may never see her again. But I will always remember that sweet little face of hers. — feeling wonderful.
Secrets, Facebook, Millionaire, and Anger Issues….Cree’s Blog Entry
I’m very proud of myself….. I’ve been doing really good with my ANGER issues. I’m working so, so hard to just learn to fall back, and not speak a word, especially when its not important. I learned that my issue is not having an attitude in the morning, or when I walk into a room… mine come in on STUPID ISH. For example. I was driving the other night from a movie, and there was a Detroit Tigers game that had just let out, and while WE had the GREEN light, people were still walking across the street like THEY HAD THE RIGHT AWAY. Okay, so I’m cool with it, then after while, people just kept on coming and “we” who had the right away….. was like okay nah…. we about to start driving… it is a green light for us. As I’m inching in letting the people know… this light is not going to stay green forever, I’m about to start driving.. this white dude… staring at me like… “YOU BETTA NOT HIT ME”… Lawd…. why did I have to see that look on his face? AND ITS MY TURN TO DRIVE THROUGH THE GREEN LIGHT!!!! I just started praying, I was about to lay on the horn for 30 minutes… LOL I just let God talk me out of it. This is the kinds of things I go through with being Angry. I NEVER fall out with family or friends… never have attitudes, never act funny to people… its other people and their ignorance that sends me over the top. But I’ve been doing good for the last 2 weeks or so. Trying not to have “ANGER stories to tell”. Trying to get up to ZERO STORIES.
I was sitting up thinking about how if we had Facebook back in the day when I was in my 20’s…. what would MY stats be? LOL LOL LOL Baaaaaby… it would probably read…”Had a party last night at my house, and when the morning came, my sister friend was laying in the drive way sleep”. ” One of my boos was ova, he wasn’t talking about nothing, so when the phone rang and it was my other boo, I pretended to have a headache and made home boy leave.” LOL On my way to Watts Club Mozambique *male dancers* to see my baby Ace Lee” “Got my gurls ova, we bout to talk ish over spades and down 1800, absolute, and Henny”. ” Walked up in the club looking good, banging body, hair laid, and all the men looking at me.” LOL Thank God, we didn’t have that mess, I can save some of my drama and foolishness LOL LOL for the world to see. HAHAHAHAHA… those kids can have it… I only use it to uplift. I think that’s why I can relate to so many people, is because I know and remember the person I use to be, and so when I see young people behaving the same way…. I don’t JUDGE them. I try to help them. I have a lot of young gurls from my old job, and they listens to me. They have to have their day where they’re foolish, so when I speak to them I try to let them see another light of it. The sooner you come out of your foolishness, the sooner you can get on with God’s plan for your life.
I watched about 4 Secret Millionaire episodes this past week, and they were so good….. had me crying like a baby. If I ever got rich or have a husband who is, I’m going to spend his money giving it away. I will volunteer for the rest of my life to helping teens, women, and the elderly. So many of our young people need help. One day I had group meetings with students at work, and I was so shocked to hear how many kids who have foster parents. Even the grandmothers are either dead, or can’t be there for them. I think a lot of people from my generation were on drugs, and sexually abused. It was so many rapes going on in my days of being a teen, and some of these women never recovered. Everything is a dang ole secret now a days… PISSES ME OFF. I HATE SECRETS. HATE THEM WITH A PASSION. These grandmothers raising their grand kids with all this LOVE, they should have shown their daughters when they were growing up. Now the daughter lost her way, and the grandmother is not telling the whole story to anyone or the grand kids about why her daughter cant MENTALLY raise her own kids. The daughter has been raped, molested, exposed to drugs, didn’t have a father at home, was left to find food for her siblings…. all kinds of stuff. I’ve seen it first hand… and after all these years.. it angers me to know this story about my friend. Anyway…. let me get off this subject.
Be Blessed
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy
Almost a year……. Cree’s Blog Entry
“Sometimes I feel as if I should have kept my ass on the shore” Just a thought that pops in my mind every now and then when I think about this time last year, when I was preparing to move to Georgia…..but when I think about things to come…. I laugh.
I left for Georgia on my Birthday last year Sept 3. Almost a year ago. Life has really changed for me since then. Every time I move, there is always a shift for me…. I always end up doing better than before. I think its me this time. I’m learning to completely change the way I look at things, and I want so badly to do things God’s way. I’m more quiet and try to think before I speak. My world was moving so fast. I am a different woman from who I was last year. I can see it and feel it. More humble, more of a listener and slow to speak.
I am very much at Peace, but there are still some answers I need from God. And I’m asking them daily. My finances has changed very much. Those 10 years I lived at my other place. I didn’t want for anything. I always had money, went out of town 2 and 3 times a year. Took long vacations from work. I was going to the movies * I love this* every week, going to the grocery store buying things for the house to last me for 6 months…that’s the kinda shopping I like to do. I was the loaner….. but baaaby when I say thangs has change in that area…… believe it. LOL
I haven’t been able to stock up like I do when it comes to my soap, tissue, dish washing liquid, Ajax, toothpaste and those kinds of things. I don’t go to the movies like I enjoy doing as much, not even going to dinner with friends. Things are really tight for me, and I don’t like it one bit. I keep thinking about Georgia so I know that I’m going back there, why am I not happy like I can see myself being? I have visions so deep, and I KNOW they’re going to come to pass. They ALWAYS do. I miss my concerts….* tears*.
Today, I was driving and was complaining about all of these things, then God said… think about the things you are blessed for. By the time I got half way through my thoughts of all the good he has done for me since being back, I was in tears. Sometimes we can look at everything that’s not going well, and totally forget about the BLESSINGS. I felt good all day.
I’m happy for my friend Lori of 10 plus years… she’s getting MARRIED next year… and her sister is getting MARRIED in Oct of this year. I just got my invite in the mail a few days ago….. I’m so happy for them both. I can’t wait to see them both walk down the aisle. They are so close, and I just love their Sisterly Relationship. Talk about talks over dinner, me and Lori use to get it in!!!!!!!!!! I love when she calls me for advice, I’ve always been her gurl for that. So Congratulations to Lori and Lecia!!!! * Lori at the top… Lecia at the bottom*
Be Blessed
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy
Behind the Scenes~ Your child at school.. *Parents must read* Crees Blog Entry
Behind the Scenes~ Your Kids at School
When Neisha was growing up… it use to irritate me so bad the NUMBER OF TIMES I had to tell her that when she leaves from spending the night out, to make sure she pack up all her clothes and personal things. She would ALWAYS come home without SOMETHING. For the life of me, I couldn’t understand why she wasn’t “getting it” after the first 10 times of me yelling.
What I realized is THAT….. Its a must YOU TELL your KIDS THE SAME THING OVER, AND OVER, AND OVER, AND OVER, AND OVER, AND OVER until you are BLUE in the face. Kids just don’t get it hearing it once. I GET THAT NOW. It’s okay….it really is.
I have to tell the same kids over and over and over… “go to your class” “Stop playing in the hall”… “leave that gurl alone” “pick up your mess”. “pull your pants up”, “stop cussing”, “throw your tray away”, “stop playing so much”. And at one point I said God.. why do I have to tell the same kids the same thing over and over and over again? He said to me…. how many times do I STILL have to tell you….. to slow down, be patient, take your time, listen, make sure the door is locked, get gas before you go to work, make sure you have your keys, put your license back in your wallet before you lose it, turn your head lights off, make sure the stove is off before leaving the house. I can go on and on. I just smiled when I heard all these things that I CONSTANTLY need to be told to do.
The BIG PICTURE is this….. No matter how tired you get of telling your kids something over and over and over again…. understand you just may have too. We are people and its in us to be told something OVER AND OVER AGAIN. Also know there maybe something’s, that you’re only willing to tell your child only once. One thing Neisha knew I wasn’t going to repeat myself was, when, I told her to come here. She always came right away, because she knew that was something I didn’t want to tell her twice about. I can hear you saying to your kids “clean up your room” wash your plate out when you finish eating, pickup your clothes behind you, wash your hands, take this garbage out, do your homework, do your chores, be in by curfew. I realized that WE’RE ALL WIRED UP to be told over, and over, and over, and over again to do the thing we know to do.
Guess what? The same things you’re telling your kids at home …. when they come to school the next day…. ITS MY TURN. #idontmindatall
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy
“Behind the Scenes~ what’s going on at your childs School” CREES BLOG ENTRY
Its no secret… I LOVE KIDS. I love listening to them talk, I love the way they express themselves, I adore the way they hear things, how innocent they are when they feel that “their truth” is THE TRUTH. LOL I know that one of my gifts from God is working with them, and being their voice…. because I truly UNDERSTAND them….whether I agree with them or NOT.
There are a lot of things that kids, hear, do, see and BE when they’re in school, and not around their parents. They can have straight A’s and all 1’s in citizenship, but THAT IS ONLY ONE PART OF WHO YOUR CHILD REALLY IS. Education and CHARACTER are 2 different things. Your child can be well EDUCATED but have ABSOLUTELY no sense of direction, understanding AND WHO THEY ARE.
Understand that even though your child may act like they don’t hear you…. THEY DO. When I’m talking to them, the first thing they say is ” My momma always told me……….”. So trust me they hear you.
So with that said…. since I work at a High School here in Detroit that goes to school ALL YEAR ROUND this year being its first year… YES ….all year round. I have decided that I would keep ALL OF MY PARENTS AND GUARDIANS up on how our children think, act and tips on what can be done so that our children can grow up to be Successful PRODUCTIVE Adults. Many parents have NO IDEA the influence that is taking hold of our children when they’re not around. I DO.. AND I SEE IT.
So join me every Tuesday and Thursday on my BLOG page for “Behind the Scenes~ at School”. I’m going to post TIPS, QUESTIONNAIRES, IDEAS, HOT TOPICS, and lots of other goodies. It’s going to be very good, and very informative.
Photo is of Kimberly on of my students.
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy
Men…Women…. CONTROL = POWER
This is the sign that hangs over the toilet in the bathroom connected to the kitchen area in the High School that I work in. Even though I do not work in the kitchen, I often use this bathroom because it’s in the area that I do work. Pay attention to the word “OUR”.
One day last week, all the workers were gone home for the day except for me and one of the kitchen workers. I was sitting in the washroom area checking my emails when one of the kitchen workers told me that I couldn’t sit in that area. As I was leaving, I asked her did she mind me using the bathroom which was connected to the washroom I was sitting in. She said to me.. ” yeah, you can use it, but you have to ask my boss if you can use it again”. I said to her okay and went to use it. When I came out of the bathroom, I went to her and I said… “is it a problem for me and others who don’t work back here to use this bathroom”? She said… ” well you have to ask my boss”. I said asked your boss? For it to even be a issue and question, it must had been discussed in the past. She said.. No, just ask my boss tomorrow. I said I WILL! I was SO MAD!!!
I went home and thought about it… I said I’m not asking anybody anything!! I’ll just go to the bathroom up the hall for now on. In my mind I’m saying ” I don’t have time for that petty stuff. Asking people can I use “their” bathroom is TIME CONSUMING, AND TOO MUCH ENERGY. I refuse to put my mind in minor stuff like that. I can’t.
The very next day, as soon as soon as I came into work that day “her boss” came to me, * I KNEW the lady was going to tell it before I did anyway, had I decided* she said Sunshine * they call me sunshine because they say I bring the sun to work everyday.* She said ****** told me that you asked about using the bathroom, she said I don’t know why she act like that, anybody can use that bathroom, this bathroom is not ours. I said okay… Thank you and explained that I wasn’t going to mention it to her. She said you and anyone can use it.
So, I said okay. This lady is trying to make a big deal out of nothing. I have watched her tell TEACHERS WE CLOSED UP FOR THE DAY… being real mean to them. If they came into the lunch room and ask for a plate she tells them NO… we aren’t allowed to give them out. If they ask for a .50 water and have money, if its in the refrigerator and she’s in one of her moods, she’ll tell them NO. Its so awful how she talks and treats people. She’s not the boss, but she’s been there a while, and there are so many people upset with her. She has to catch the bus from work and the kids pick with her at the bus stop, throwing stuff at her and talking smart. She’ll come to work the next day talking about it. She’s SO SO SO SO MEAN TO THE STUDENTS. … they made her cry at the bus stop. I sat up and thought about how everyday she come in MEAN and tell us about all the things NOT GOING her way in her life.
I knew that when I saw her and looked her dead in the eye the next day, that she was going to have that “funny as” look on her face. For one, she doesn’t know me well, and don’t know which way I’m coming from. I looked at her SMILED and said GOOD MORNING *her name*. She was shocked, she don’t know the GOD in me saves her and others from my past ways. Because I KNOW…. had this been a back in the day incident I would terrorize her with my mean looks … LIKE SHE DOES THE STAFF AND STUDENTS. I don’t like that at all. But here’s what I found out about her, just by studying her behavior.
At home she has ABSOLUTELY no POWER……that’s another story. When she comes to work, she grabs her position and she HOLDS ON TO IT. When a student ask for a simple carton of milk, she tells them NO… and that’s a POWER MOVE for her. She has the YES OR NO in her possession, and she loves the reaction she gets from her NO’S. She, like many people, who feel that they are losing control…. enjoys having the say so to things they normally wouldn’t have POWER and CONTROL over. This is her time to have POWER. She enjoys and lives for this moment for people to get mad and upset with her * and not care* because she, in HER MIND is making sure nobody gets anything extra, make sure all the plates are going to the students only and not teachers and their private needs, if the kitchen is closed she proudly says NO. Thing is, she has the POWER to give these things. And she knows it. Anything and everything in that KITCHEN BELONGS TO THOSE STUDENTS, MATTER OF FACT EVERYTHING IN THE SCHOOL BELONGS TO THE STUDENTS!!!
The point I’m making…. give up the POWER people. Listen, what really do you own? There are people who have money, fame, friends, but there is always an area where they can’t control. If a man have all these things, and can’t have the woman he wants, he will try everything in his POWER to get her. A person who wants POWER will do anything to make sure things go their way. Even if they have to kill, steal, be mean and manipulate the situations. When you give up POWER to things you want to control, it may seem like you are losing control of your life. Having POWER only makes you grip tighter to things you don’t need to hold on to anyway. Let it go.
Last month was Teachers Appreciation week. A few kitchen workers were the FIRST ONES going in the food area grabbing a plate to eat * but do them so wrong* before the teachers even knew the food was there. The principal came in and said…… “someone ( another teacher) make sure the teachers eat first, this is for them.” Some people got offended. My thing is this….it’s for the TEACHERS… people got mad hahaha this wasn’t their function to CONTROL THIS TIME. I sat there with my legs crossed and said to myself…. THANK YOU LORD FOR MY TRUCK being outside, and for having a credit card FULL OF MONEY, and cash in my purse to go and buy MY OWN FOOD when I get off. Thank you Lord for having my own, to where there are angry people and mad people in here….. I AM FULL OF JOY for what you already done for me. At the end of the day, the TEACHERS didn’t eat all the FOOD AND THEY THREW IT IN THE GARBAGE!!!!! Kitchen workers wasn’t allowed to eat it~ POWER ….the teachers didn’t want it, POWER….SMH THE GARBAGE ATE GOOD THAT DAY. 😦 🙂
PRAISE GOD…. I HAVE MY OWN!!!!
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy
Never use SUGAR on the TRUTH….Cree’s Blog Entry
Whew, where do I start. Lord, I must Thank you for keeping me sane, and for standing near me when I was about to lose it.
I’m a busy woman. I have a lot going on in my life, and it involves communicating with a LOT OF PEOPLE. Over the years I had to cut my circle down to only those friends who are on my level mentality and spiritually. I’m a person who doesn’t use SUGAR on the TRUTH. And finally in my life, FINALLY….FINALLY…I have learned that I can be me, even if I have to be brutality honest with someone, and not lose sleep over it. I’m a person who keeps an open mind to everything. I’m always willing to listen and learn. That’s my first attraction I have to others. I’m a listener.
Today, this lady ( about my age or a little younger) came through my line with her daughter who had to have been about 24. She looked at me and with this sarcastic and FUNKY TONE and said “Hello, how are you”. The way she said it made me look up. I looked her dead in the eye and said ” Hello, I’m fine. So, I guess she realized that I knew that she was being funny. Just so happened that I was training this new guy, and as I stood there waiting on her to give me the money for her items. I noticed that she was taking a very long time. That’s when her daughter let out this loud and obnoxious laugh. I knew then, that this daughter knew her mother was acting a fool. I looked at the lady to see what was taking her so long, and I said to myself, she’s doing this on purpose. The guy that I was training noticed it, and so to “kill time” he started asking me some training questions. Afterwards, I turned to the lady to see if she was ready to hand me the money ( people in my line was staring at her like she was crazy). She was taking her own sweet time, purposely trying to set me off. So, after about 2 minutes of her digging slowly in her wallet, I knew for a fact what she was doing, and decided that since I had to wait on her, I TURN MY BODY COMPLETELY TO my trainee and communicated to him somethings about the job, OH SHE DIDNT LIKE THAT……she wanted me to LOOK AT HER, AND WAIT FOR HER. She clearly had me messed up….. I WISH I WOULD!!! Me and the trainee started talking about the different things, and when she realized that SHE WAS ON HER TIME, and that I WAS GETTING PAID and that I HAD ALL DAY……. BUT SHE DIDNT. She decided that she wanted to give me the money. Instead of her saying “maam here you go”. She screams and says ” HEREEEEEEEEEEEEE YOU GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! I turned around and looked at her…… then when I went to get the money out of her hand, she had it so close to her breast that I had to reach out to get it, she didn’t want to stretch her arms out across the belt to give it to me, she wanted me to reach for it. I DID…… as I did it, I told my trainee this RIGHT IN FRONT OF THEM BOTH…… Remember …. YOU SET THE ATMOSPHERE IN YOUR LINE. YOU ARE THE LEADER…….ALWAYS SMILE AND BE NICE TO PEOPLE NO MATTER WHAT. She didn’t like that at all, I hand her the change and told her to have a nice day.
#GURLBYE
My point….. I’m trying to understand what is the purpose of coming into MY LIFE, and trying to add me to the ” I’m mad at her list”. Okay and…….. she and her daughter will have something to talk about in the car, then maybe tell a few others just to have a conversation. What is the point? Is this your job for today? Did you really punch Satan’s time clock today? You could have called off you know?
I have a million things to do, I have so many phone calls to return, I have to meet folks to do things for me concerning the homeless. I have money from paypal waiting to go into my account, and still I haven’t done that yet. I have money to take to my bank, people at work coming up to me with merchandise for the Homeless, I had ( I went) my great nieces BD party to go to this evening. I have to get off work and find gifts for the baby. I have so many things to do, and here comes this lady doing whatever she can to transfer her GARBAGE to me. I’m not even upset, my question is………where does this come from? I’m finding this to happen all the time. A lot I can ignore, but lately its been bad.
There is so much in this world that can be discussed to get done. So many people hungry and homeless. Don’t come barking at me…..cause this VIRGO will pull out her CANINES. Meaningless conversations kills me. I’m not about to debate or argue with anyone, either you like it or you don’t, you either will or you won’t. Conversations these days should be quick and to the point when you know what you’re going to do. I’m not about to spend 40 minutes on a topic when a person mind is already made up, Chose one and move on. Its either A or B. * blank stare*
I’m a teacher at heart. When I speak its to teach and to learn . I’m not a person who puts sugar on the truth. I carry salt in my purse NOT sugar. This lady came through my line, and she didn’t want to lift a finger. I had a lot to ring up and ask her in my nicest voice ( showing all my teeth).. “Maam, can you do me a favor and start loading your bags in your cart, so that I can have space and continue to ring?” She said ” I didn’t know I came here to work”! In my mind I laughed a little, cause I’m saying to myself…… These are YOUR items…… HELP ME HELP YOU!!!! What is wrong with that, most people will say OMG , IM SORRY….. LET ME GRAB THESE BAGS!!! Then these are the same people who will get older and want/need a person to help them, BUT when they were in position to HELP THEMSELVES they wouldn’t. These are the kind of people who feel others owe them something. SMH. I feel really bad for a lot of people. People who think others OWE THEM ARE THE WORST PEOPLE!!!
In other NEWS……. Its almost time to go and pass out dinners to the Homeless for Thanksgiving. We do this Wednesday Nov 23, 2011. We are feeding 90-100 people and I’m very excited. This year we had so many people to donate, that I didn’t get a chance to let my FB friends be apart of it. So many people sent me messages asking why didn’t I post it. I feel bad in a way, but usually my out of town friends help, and my Walmart family. They filled the need, my issue is always space in the trucks and cars. It takes a lot of space to hold 90 dinners with 3 deserts and 3 drinks. I need a truck. I hope that I can come up with some money to get me one next year before I move to Atlanta. I really need this. All I do is pray about it, so hopefully something with give soon.
Im closing for now. Remember people NO ONE OWES YOU ANYTHING!!! Do for yourself while your CAN…… cause one day you/me/we are going to get OLD, and that’s when you really cant do for yourself. Then you will feel good about receiving the help. But come on now, stop thinking someone owe you something while you are young. do what you can. Also, stop the meaningless conversations……..MAN, ITS TIRESOME AND IGNORANT. Either you like it or not, either its Yes or No, Holding a conversation about a subject you have already made your mind up on is MEANINGLESS!!!
GOD LOVES YOU!
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