those 3 minute talks….Cree’s blog

Hey!!! (Me and Neisha 5/28/11)

What a wonderful day/week/month it has been. Today was one of my quiet days at work, don’t know if it was because I had to work on the holiday 8:30-5 or what? My coworkers always think something is wrong when I’m quiet……because I’m always laughing and talking my junk. I love them and they love me. LOL

Saturday night me and my coworkers about 20-25 total ppl went on a MIDNIGHT CRIUSE over the Detroit River on the Detroit Princess boat. We had a good time too. That’s where the photo above was taken with my daughter Neishia. My coworkers said “They finally got me out”. LOL I can be such a nerd at times, you just have to be careful of your surroundings, and I’m not into going out like I use too, I have to really trust the person who is giving the function and the atmosphere. It was nice, very nice. We had so much fun laughing, dancing and talking that we didn’t even realize that the boat had finally taken off. There were so many people on there……..we had a ball.

A few of my Sistergurls from my group called me and asked me to do a dinner or breakfast outing. On June 12, were going to dinner, and having gurl talk . And on June 26, I’m having a meeting with my Raisingurls @ Applebees. We seriously need to talk. They’re like………about what? LOL I’m not mentioning a word. Then on July 23, me and my cousin put together our 3rd “cousin gathering” to be at a neighborhood water park…….this place is NICE. My sister went down to the city of Grossepointe and did the paper work for that day, and we are excited. I enjoy planning, maybe that’s my calling. I enjoy gathering people together and being behind the scenes. But I’m always wanted “upfront” for some reason. I’m the kinda person who wants no credit, no bows, no mention, just behind the scenes and I’m good. I can’t stand attention, and too much will run me away. I enjoying being low key. But why do I ALWAYS END UP BEING THE GO TO PERSON? LOL I guess its all good, and hopefully it will take me somewhere …..and get paid for it. Hahaha

Several times last week, I saw this guy I use to kick it with. We are very good friends, normally we talk over the phone, or facebook. But lately he’s been coming up to my job, where it seems I’m spending 70% of my life. LOL As I was listening to him talk to me, I kept on thinking about the time when I begged God to let him be my husband. It was about 12 years ago. We hit if off so well, he is my baby to this day. I have mad love for him. But as he spoke, I was thinking to myself….wow……..how could I EVERRR in my life ask God to let him be my husband, he is so NOT La’Crease. He’s handsome, has a very good job, not stable ( cant make up his mind about ANYTHING) which drives me crazy. I’m still trying to figure out why I wanted to be this man’s wife. UGH!! Thats why I Love God so much because he knows whats best for us. All that time I was praying and asking God to let him be my husband, when he knew he was not the one he had for me. I have never asked God for someone to be my husband since him. I’ll let God do all that for me. Matter of fact I don’t even think about that, I do remember it being time consuming. LOL

Only one other person who I wanted to marry and that was Neisha’s dad. UGHHHHHH never in a million years. I mess with her sometimes saying “gurl I wouldn’t let your daddy tie my shoes if they needed to be tied”. She laughs. We are very cool, but Lord Jesus, what was I thinking? LOL Whoever he has for me will come for me, and I will never ever have to ask God about him.

When I was a young gurl, we lived next door to this wonderful family, and one of the gurls who lived there was named Lynn. Lynn (PHOTO ABOVE) was so sweet, she’s about 3 years older than I am. She loved me, she loved people period. When she went out with her friends, she sometimes asked if I could go. My mother loved and trusted her, so she would let me go. Lynn took care of me, she always made sure I ate, and that I was okay, that I was home at a decent time. And I never forgot about that. She took care of kids, and teenagers, she would talk to us, and she was very smart. I love Lynn so dearly. Well, yesterday was her Birthday and I left her a very sweet message, then I got to thinking what I promised myself I would do when I got older. I said that I would take care of other young gurls, and talk to them and treat them just as she treated me. AND THATS WHAT IM DOING!!!! OMG. God bought it to my remembrance yesterday. I forgot all about what I said that I was going to do when I was in position to do what she did for me. I help so many young teens, and talk to so many of them. I just want to see then make it in this world, no matter what situation they’re faced with, they can make it.

I had Neisha at 19 and turned around 3 months later and got pregnant by her dad. I didn’t tell anyone but him and even though he really didn’t want me too, he knew that I was serious, and had an abortion. I thought that people were going to talk about me and say that I’m fast. I thought that people were going to tell me how hard it was going to be with 2 children. I thought my family was going to raise the roof on me and dog me out for being “stupid”, but little did I know this would only hurt me in the long run.It was all in my MIND. My mother and father wouldnt dare let me have an abortion if they knew that, and they would have supported me. It was a trick of the enemy that had my keeping that secret that later bothered me to no end that I had killed my baby. The person I am today, I would never listen to that voice, this is my story and my issue, I would NEVER kill my baby, because I’m afraid of what others may think or say. And so this is why I enjoy talking to young gurls, because of the MANY mistakes I made. This is my life, this is who I am. I love doing this, its my passion.

Saturday night on the Detroit Princess boat…. one of my coworkers ( NINA PHOTO ABOVE) saw me and sat at our table, she started hugging me and wouldn’t let me go. Saying how much she appreciate my talks that helped her, ( caught me totally off guard). She said Cree I love you, she said all those 3 minute talks at the register really helped me, you helped me a lot to calm down, and really think about things and decisions, she said cause there were times when I was going to go off. She said I love you , and you just don’t know how much you have helped me. I was about to cry, cause it was out of the blue. I call her “mini me” because she reminds me of me when I was her age. She’s going to the Navy in August and I’m going to really miss her. I know I talk a lot to the gurls but I never knew she/others really listened……… I hoped that they did. LOL Then later she wanted to take a photo with me and she was very happy that she got a chance to say this to me. I don’t see her at all, because she works the overnight shift, so I’m happy we had that chance to talk.

Well. I’m closing for now. I have lots more to say about different things, so I may post another blog entry. Night!

La’Crease

May 27, 2011

Thank you Lord

Thank you Lord for giving me LIFE. Thank you for hand picking my family, I love and adore them dearly. No matter how many disagreements we have you always show me that you created them for me, and me for them…..and I see that. I know that. I feel that. Thank you.

Thank you for the talks we have especially on the River, my favorite place to be in your presense. You bring me joy and make me laugh. You are so funny and you know when I die I am known for always laughing. Thank you for being silly with me when you know that I’m upset about something, you always bring me back with the silly things you say to me, that only me and you know about. I love that. Thank you for taking the “worry box” out of my head, because you know I don’t worry about much at all. I use too, but you always show me that what I’m going through today, will quickly pass and another issue will be at hand, and you always talk care of that too. I love the conversations we have while Im driving, you know its where Im at peace most, and you know how to calm me down. I just love that about you. Thank you.

Thank you for my life and the lives I touch daily.

To be continued….

May 26, 2011

Oprah!!

Today I watched as Oprah broadcast her last show. It was very emotional for me. I remember being in my early 20’s watching Oprah faithfully. It was something about her shows that motivated me, she even talked like me. What I mean by that was, she would ask the guest speaker the same question that would be in my mind, that I would want to know, and that was my strong connection to her. She dared to be different, she went her own way and did her own thing. She was true to what “felt right” and that’s what I really love about her.

Seeing her surrounded on Mon and Tuesday by her favorite people, just made me cry like a baby. And if it wasn’t for her people ( STRONG TOWER STAFF) she wouldn’t even want her last show to be about her. That’s just how unselfish she is. But she knew that too many people loved her and that she had to allow them to show her just what she meant to them. Seeing her friends by her side was icing on the cake. She deserved everything . At the end she said To God be the Glory. And she meant it.

I’m going to miss Oprah and her shows, but I still have her because I watch OWN faithfully. LOL She’s such a powerful and positive person, it wouldn’t even be right if she left and never came back. In closing, I don’t feel this is goodbye, for some reason I feel another Chapter in her life is about to start. She will know what her next assignment will be.

Thank you Oprah for 25 years!!!

May 20, 2011May 20, 2011

checking in……..

Hey People!!!

Still here, just tryna figure out this thing called LIFE! Working a lot, trying to get it together so that I can see results. I haven’t been witting lately, “doing too much” I guess LOL. Planning my family gathering for July 23, and my BEST FRIEND CHARLENE asked me to do her 15th or 16th wedding anniversary. I’m so happy for them, so I gotta do some research. I figured out that I like to plan, when I sit and think about my life, I’m always the one who can put together a function. I’m very patient ( in this area) and that’s probably why I enjoy it. I’m going to look more into it. I don’t feel that I’m creative at all, but I’m good at handling business, and speaking with people who can help me get things going ( got that from my dad).

I can go on and on, but I will post later this weekend.

May 6, 2011

Have a good day!

Good Morning!!

Have a wonderful Mother’s Day Weekend, go out and see a movie. Be Blessed everyone 🙂

May 4, 2011

The stress of deadlines

Okay, so my husband is MAD @ ME!!!

We have 2 break rooms, one has a huge screen TV, lots of chairs and space with 3 refrigerators and microwaves. The other one which is closed off, and happen to fit inside of the large break room. That’s the peaceful room. I love my coworkers, but when it comes to MY LUNCH and My peace time, I don’t sit with them, I like to be alone. I bring my IPOD, and my Daily Bread book and I like to sit alone, IN THE DARK, eat lunch if I want, and just chill out. Now, most people sit in the larger room because they want to talk, watch TV or whatever. And for anybody who walks into the quiet room, they already know the light is off, and its peaceful. Well, MY HUSBAND is already in the breakroom when I walked in yesterday. He was the only one in there, he was on the phone as usual, and so I said to him, can I turn this light off? He says, I always keep the light off for you. I didn’t want to argue, so I said okay, and went to sit down. Maybe Im spoiled when it comes to having my way, but he knows this is the quiet, lights off room. I mean dang, if you want to talk on the phone, at least understand that this room is small, has a door and only sit a few people, why we gotta sit here and listen to your conversation, when you can be outside of the room with “like minded folks”? Then I realized that he always take the chair that I sit in, which irratated me to know end. I sat in another chair with my mouth poked out, and he talked on the phone and ignored me. ( LOL). When he finally got off the phone, I said to him in my nicest voice…. I said, now you know this is the quiet room, you talking on the phone all loud, you know the room is small with a door, and then you don’t want to turn the light off because you were in here first, you take the seat that I always sit in ( and you know it). I said why you wont go out there where you can talk freely and wont disturb anyone ? What I say that for. My boo, grabbed all his things, his lunch, his bag and said “Fine, Im never coming in here again”! I watched him as he went his way, I got up and went to my favorite seat, and sat there with no shame. He turned the light off and left the room. At first I wanted to say…. Ahhhhhh boo, don;t take it like that. But what I was saying was the truth. Dealing with those customers, you need a hour of peacefulness to complete PART 2 of your day.

So, later on I saw him walking and called his name……. he kept walking. LOL I didn’t feel the way I did earlier, so I was starting to feel bad. Then about 3 hours later he came back through my area, and I called his name, he turned around and said “what”? I said, boo are you mad at me still? He said yes, cause I never heard you talk to me like that? And he kept on walking. I’m saying to myself, why is it that when I tell somebody the truth, they say I hurt their feelings? How can you hurt somebody feelings on the truth? The truth is the truth. If your feelings are hurt on the truth OH WELL!!! He loves chunky bars, I may stop to get him a huge one before I start work tomorrow. 🙂

I’m so tired!!! I have sooooooooooooooooooooooo many funtions that’s coming up, and Im planning that its starting to get to me. Dealing with those custos all day, and their depressed modes, it can drain a sister, if she don’t have the word on hand. Here is a list of things coming up.

*Full load Work Schedule for the next 3 weeks

* Lunch/Dinner with my Prayer Christian Sisters on Saturday afternoon.

* MY cousin called and wants to go to the movies with her hubby, and our family for Mother’s Day ( this will be our first time hanging out….should be fun) Jumping the Broom.

*Home repairs on Tuesday

*Raisingurl Meetings

*Sistergurl Talk over Breakfast ( Country Buffet)

* Our Cousin dinner Gathering at the Park ( June 19)

* Trip to Chicago

* Vacation Days coming up in June or July

* Gotta start planning our cousin trip for a cruise next year

* And gotta take lots and lots and lots of phone calls daily

Whew……….so if you all don’t see me, you know Im sooooo busy. Im so tired right now, phone started ringing early this morning. I gotta come up with menus and cancel things, BUT I LOVE IT!!! I LOVE THE STRESS OF DEADLINES, AND PHONE CALLS, AND SCRATCHED OFF COMPLETED TASKS!!!

I WANT TO BE IN ATLANTA SO DEARLY RIGHT NOW, I THINK ABOUT IT ALL DAY. ALL DAY. ALLLLLLLLLL DAY. LOL

OKAY Im sleep and tripping. Night 🙂

May 2, 2011

“got me messed up”

Yesterday was one of those days…………I thought the customers were going to push cree over tha edge. LOL

I don’t understand people sometimes, I’m trying to figure out how can you clown on a cashier because your bad azz son or daughter wont do what YOU say? Don’t try to take it out on me because THISGURLCREEAINTHAVINGIT!! No way!!! Yesterday this boy he had to be about 8 or 9 years old * white* acting a dayum fool on his momma in MY line. She was trying to unload the cart, and he kept pushing it the opposite way, and for a minute she didn’t realize he was doing it. I mean you can see him clearly doing it, but it was something where you were like “dang is he making this cart go another way”. So once we both realized she started saying ” LET THE CART GO”!!! “LET THECART GO”! He was looking mean and saying NO, it looked as if he was mad because she told him no about getting something, and he wanted her and the cart to go back to what he wanted. This little boy would not stop. I stopped and looked at him SO MEAN, AND SO SCARY, you would have thought he was MY son. I made this noise so he could look at me, and when he finally did, my facial expression scared the next 10 years outta him. ( ROFL). His momma never looked up ( good). He stopped what he was doing too. So, I guess she was mad, and when it came time for her to pay, she had kinda like a attitude, and now I’m looking at her like ” Ohnickayougotmemessedup” if you think you’re gonna make me pay for HIS BAD ASS BEHAVIOUR. She picked up on my facial expression and body language ……LIKE A FAST LEARNER. I raised my child, if you let your child do what the hell they want to do, say what they hell they want, act like the hell they want, …….I CANT DO NOTHING ABOUT IT, but I be DAYUM, if you mistreat me because you’re being mistreated. I’m not paying for NOTHING, these bad ass kids are doing to THEIR parents. Then the parents look at me, like I stole their lunch money.

The truth is… I Love kids. I enjoy talking to them and going to their world. When kids are in my line with their parents, I’m always talking to them about school, what they want to do when they graduate. I talk to them about the things they like to do with their friends. They are a magnet to me and I enjoy being in their presence. I’m the one who rides down the street totally ignore the parents and wave at the kids. LOL I think that if adults talk to kids more and treat them like they are people even though they’re young, they will grow up to respect us more.

My niece is 15 and she wants a tattoo very badly. My sister told her that when she turns 18 that she was grown and she could do it if she wants. My niece keeps asking “what’s the difference when I graduate at 17 in June, but turn 18 in Nov”? She told her that she would consider her grown. No matter what answer my sister give my niece, its not good enough. And I asked my sister, why do you keep HOLDING this conversation with her, when you already told her how you feel? I said when you keep going over a situation with a child, rather they understand or not, they will CONTINUE TO talk about it, because they feel its HOPE somewhere down the line.That is crazy to me. We can talk about it for a minute or 2 but my answer is still NOT UNTIL you turn 18. Parents stop negotiating with these kids. You are the “manager”, you are the BOSS. They will have their time soon enough to be in charge and if you don’t train them well, you will find yourself MAKING DISCISIONS FOR THEM.

Month: May 2011