Whats up my Family!!!

What a roller coaster 2 days this has been. Yall are NOT ready for this  I’m about to talk about. Goodness. Whew!! 🙂

I’m apart of MAXWELL’S  Fan Forum and those ladies are ABOUT THEIR BUSINESS!!! Let me say this. When it comes to supporting MAXWELL gossiping free on the site, never allowed to discuss his personal life, and flying/driving state to state to see him perform, know that they are some ride or dies for real!!! Which tells a lot about who THEY ARE in their personal lives.  I love that about this group. They really love the man and the music.

Okay, I have been putting aside money for his concert here in Detroit for Sep 26, because I knew tickets would go on sale right after the arena was announced. When ticket dates was announced I went to my bank on Wednesday 8/12/09 and deposited $176.00. I came home checked on line like I always do and $198.00 was in there. Cool! Tickets didn’t go on sale until yesterday.  So, I had one day till presale date.  Well guess what? I had to work 9-1. Here I am at work trying to figure out what I’m going to do when tickets go on sale @ 10:00 am. Well yall don’t know but I’m a straight up HUSTLA!! Yep. When I set my mind to do something, I always do it, it happens for me. God hears me and he listens to me. I so appreciate his love. So, I went in and asked my boss can I take a early break @ 10:00 she said yea…… just let me know when that time come. Straight!!! Im  thinking I’m bout to buy my tickets  and get a good seat while I’m at work. Hahaha. @ 10:00a.m. my boss was walking up to me saying, go ahead and take your break. Yesss! Went outside set on the bench  had to put on my *Don’t ask me nothing…… yeah I work here, but I’m busy and on  my PHONE and on my PERSONAL time LOOK* and started calling Ticketmaster. Do yall know I spent all my break time tryna talk to this voice automated lady getting really peed-off! After being 5 minutes late to my  area, I zoned out pretty much for the rest of the 3 hours left at work. Flew home- got on line to purchase my ticket but some how I wanted to check with the others. So,  I called one of the ladies from the MAXWELL FANFORUM to see had she gotten hers. She was a little nervous about getting hers because we weren’t sure about the seating. So we called on 3 way to TICKETMASTER to ask question. Well, after we speaking with him we understood what he was saying, but one of the ladies that also purchased tickets was told  something different and so now we weren’t sure at all about anything. We decided to just wait for a few. We stayed on TICKETMASTER  tryna search for good seats. Oh before I go any further, did I tell how much ticket prices were? We’ll get to that later. lol

After a while we decided to talk later and if one wanted to purchase tickets to call the other. We were in contact through Twitter, but we still were miserable because we were scared to wait another minute even though we knew what seats and section we wanted. So we hooked up on the phone again about 3 hours later. We both went to TICKETMASTER and realized that we were looking at seats Section F1  row 6 seats 13-14 AND THE SAME TIME!!!! OH GOD was this a sign? Was this a sign to get the tickets so that we could at least sit together? Even tho were going to be 6 rows back from the stage. ( THAT’S FAR AWAY WHEN YOU’RE A MAXWELL FAN). I was the one who kept saying lets do it, lets get them, lets push the BUY BUTTON HOLLERING OVER THE PHONE YESTERDAY. So she was like lets do it? Lets do it? I’m like yessssssssss lets do it!! So at the same time we click purchased. All of a sudden mines said: Not approved * something like that* error in processing. So I’m sitting here like……..this is some kinda mistake… why is my Credit Card not accepting my order. I can hear my gurl on the phone saying. Ok Cree mines went through. She hears me getting loud like WTH is going on. When I told her what was going on and that I couldn’t explain why my card was rejected I know she couldn’t help but to wonder if she would be sitting by herself, when she could have gotten a good seat up front. I zoned out tryna figure out what THE HELL HAD HAPPENED…something came to me saying……check your account on line. I had checked it the day my noney was deposited everything was cool. I logged out of TICKETMASTER and looked at my account and to my horror it said that I had $22.00. I was HORRIFIED! My head instantly started pounding. I had a headache so bad I felt like my head was going to make a tiny split in the middle of my forehead with puss and blood seeping through. My head was banging so bad I had to take 3 ADVILS AT ONE TIME to get it to stop hurting. I clicked over on the 3 way and called my bank. It was 4:38 and my branch was  CLOSED!!! Customer service did answer and connect me to the branch that I opened my account with years ago, but directly down the street from my branch was the branch I went to deposit my money. I explain to the manager that I came in on Wednesday and deposited $176.00 and I didn’t see in posted in my account, but the first day it was there. He looked in his system and didn’t show a sign of my paper work. Talking about heated. Only God know what I was going through about that. He asked me did I have my slip, and I told HIM YES IT WAS IN MY HAND. He told me to check and make sure it went in the correct account. I told him yes it did, this is my account. He said that it went anything he could do because they were closed but to go to that branch it happened and talk with someone there. We hung up and it was nothing I could do. She had her ticket, and it was NO GUARENTEE  that the very next day we would sit together. That’s the part that bothered me. See I was going to the concert NO MATTER WHAT!!! THAT WAS A DONE DEAL, but it was a matter of sitting together at this point. And plus she got her ticket and she was feeling bad about what happened. It was a mess. I had to take a 2 hour nap to make the headache go away. I had never in my life felt this bad.

My first question was……….why did this happen God. What is it that you want me to see?  I know him, I know its something he wants me to PERSONALLY GET. What I dunno. How bout I can’t even thing at this point. All I want to do is go to this BANK AT 9:00AM, AND TALK TO THESE PEOPLE ABOUT MY MONEY!!! THEN I want to sit next to my gurl because we wanted to have fun together. How can we get that moment back? I mean how can we buy tickets off line, a day apart and still sit together? First of all I’m no where near a baller. but I live good, I have a nice place, and my bills are  $0.00 at this point. Gas, lights, cable bill, cell phone bills, food everything is good in my life. No worries , no money problems or anything. That excludes that, so good must be trying to tell me something else.

That day about 8:00pm I went to pick up Neisha from school. I was in the car and I started praying to God saying please, please please God let me get that seat again that I had when my CC was denied. I said Lord, I feel bad for what happened and leaving my gurl out there to sit alone, and would you please block that ONE SEAT for me, and don’t let anyone else see it on line to purchase it. I said Lord let that seat be for me and only me okay? After I said that prayer a peace came ova me. I was in heavy traffic and praying my butt off.

Went home, didn’t want to do anything but go to bed. My sister came over * I love my Sisters like CRAZY*when she left I hit it!! Couldn’t even sleep thinking about me marching in that bank and telling them to RUN MY 176. I woke up @ 6:30 what kinda stuff is that? I had enough sleep, I needed to get to this bank.lol I laid there till 7:00am. Got up and something*God* told me to check my bank account. I looked at it and THERE WAS MY LOOT!!! LOL MY MONEY WAS IN DA HOUSE!!! I went straight to TICKETMASTER!!! I typed in the pass code, then the ticket amount, and how many I wanted. When it came up……guess what TICKET it was? YEP, IT WAS THAT SAME TICKET THAT I WAS DENIED ON. LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL FUNNY!! I CLICKED PURCHASE AND IT WENT THROUGH. I called my gurl ! 7:08 something like that, this morning. I had to call her and tell her that I got that same seat back that I prayed for, even though it was the next day over 12 hours later. lolllllll

So, now since I have my ticket right here with me. We both went on line today and they have some front row seats available. Now I’m kinda mad about that cause maybe God was telling me to hold out like we had planned too. Cause the seats and section we want we think they’re going to release those tomorrow for the  GENERAL PUBLIC . See we have passcodes for the presale. There are ladies on the FANFORUM who lives in Toronto andthey have better seats than we have. Trust me 6 rows back is NOT good when you are use to be in 1st and 2nd row at your favorite perfomers concert. Did I tell you how much these tickets cost? Ill be back to that.

So, now In thinking and I know she is too. Should we sell these tickets and buy single tickets so that we could be closer? I feel so DUMB because I can’t get this thought out of my mind. I am grateful Lord knows I am that I could even afford to go to this concert. And at the same time, its like I can do better with these seats and for some reason I want too. I really think I’m going to give Neisha my ticket and when check day come buy me another one. Dayummmmmmmmmmmmmm i feel stupid right now!! I’m just a woman who wants the best, I’m sorry. I think high like that. Many thoughts are going through my mind, and many I haven’t even talked about. I’m really thinking about doing this for real.

Aiight DRUM ROLL are you ready for the PRICE OF THESE MAXWELL TICKETS IN DETROIT AT JOE LOUIS ARENA, SAT, SEPTEMBER 26, 2009? LOOK BELOW AT MY PAPER TICKET.

Yep, $200.00! Only MAXWELL, TYLER PERRY AND ANITA BAKER  can get money out of me like that. Whew Thank you Jesus.

Lacrease

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Hey People!!!

Today was a hot one here in Detroit, it was 94 plus degrees not including the heat index. I cancelled my gurls meeting today :(. We would have been miserable up in here, that all agreed. The air was on, but still it was to hot to even be outside. I went to the grocery store and bought some salads, watermelon, and cherries. Its to dogone hot to be eating anything else. Plus I’m trying to lose weight.

Lately, older ladies have been coming up to me talking about weight. Saying your so pretty, but you need to lose some weight, saying they use to be the same way, and they know how I’m feeling. I’m very approachable so coming up to me and just starting a conversation like this is not new. I accepted and received all the information those ladies have given me. I’m watching what I eat, and I’m thinking about what I’m going to put in my mouth. I’m feeling so full of water, I hate this feeling.

Anyway……

I love when  Neisha and I have our talks. We always talk about the importance of taking care of Business, and how serious you have to be when you’re doing it. My mother is out on Medical,  because she had to have surgery on her knee. My mother is very sweet, very easy going. The thing about my mom is when she is taking care of her business she has to get to this boiling point before she sometimes get her business taking care of. She’ll let them tell her……call back tomorrow, or come back later, or we’ll call you, and all this other stuff. While we were growing up she would be this way, BUT when she got tired of the run a round she GOT HER BUSINESS TAKEN CARE OF, and she did it talking to MANAGERS, OWNERS,  STATE OFFICIALS, I mean my momma NEVER had to curse, she never had to get loud, she never had to threatened anyone. All she did was spoke to people in higher positions, with a good attitude and a firm voice. But now that my mom is older, she is more laid back and more so into letting things go.

Last week I took my mom to her job to pick up a copy of the bank records of the check her job issued to her that was sent to the wrong address. They told her at the job that since they had issued the check out, she had to have it investigated by the police and to file a report.My mom got in the car and when I asked her about how did they still have her old address on the check, she couldn’t really explain how they didn’t have the new one, when they mailed out her check the week it got stolen and cashed. So I went in the building with Neisha and asked to speak to * Nancy*. Once talking to her, other people where in the office with her listening. These are all older white ladies who have been with the company of years. As I’m talking to Nancy, some other lady jumped in the conversation, which was cool because she was trying to get me to understand that when my mom changed her address a year ago she should have checked to see if it actually went through. She picks up her check every 2 weeks so it wasn’t a big deal * to her*, but since she had  this surgery she had them to mail it for her. Anyway……. I wasn’t understanding how they HAVE HER NEW ADDRESS NOW, but didn’t have it then when she needed them to mail it off. They couldn’t answer my questions, so I proceeded to leave, when Neisha said ma……here is the lady that was suppose to change her address. So, I stopped her and talked to her. She walked with me back to the office of the ladies I just left. By this time it was a man standing there talking to them. The lady walked into the office and started talking to those other ladies and they looked at me as if  to say……………… didn’t we already have this conversation? I’m looking at them, and they are looking at me. I said to them……….. look I’m here to get understanding, not to finger point, or demand another check. I said I need to understand why her new address is in THIS LADIES SYSTEM, and NOT in yours which should all be connected. Just as I said that, this older white man was standing there, and JUMPS HIS ASS  into  conversation. I said ummmmmmmm excuse me……. Sir who are you, and how are you doing? He said HI, I’M THE GENERAL MANAGER  of this building and such and such and such and such. I said SIR, one sec, I’m talking to HER, I’m trying to get an understanding of a situation. Right then, he knew I wasn’t nothing to be played with. I looked him dead in the eye as to say, I don’t care of your own 15 blocks of this stretch of land were standing on,  OR 10 CITIES IN THE UNITED STATES…………. I’m not talking to you and you’re not going to INTERRUPT OUR CONVERSATION TO TAKE UP FOR THESE LADIES I’M TALKING TOO, NOT REALIZING THAT I’M TRYING TO UNDERSTAND SOMETHING, MORE SO THAN HAVING A COMPLAINT AGAINST THEM. When he saw my eye contact and saw that I was being polite and professional, he backed down, and he didn’t say another word to me. : ROLLING MY EYES:

So, I left, went back to the car and we decided to go to the Police Station to fill out a stolen check report. When we got there and were called to the desk, after a long series of questions, the officer asks us for the name of the person who gave her a copy of the bank record. My mom didn’t know her last name, so the officer gave her permission * we are not allow to use cell phones in the police department* to call her job and asked the lady for her name and phone number. Bless my mom-ma’s heart she’s so sweet, but when she got on the phone she was talking to nice and so humble. But I see in dealing with them and watching how they all jump in the conversation double teaming and stuff, you have to boss up your game with them. You can’t pussyfoot around with them. My mom calls and ask for Maria, and they ask the famous questions, WHOSE CALLING * UGH I HATE THAT* my mom says this is * such and such* and I need to know Maria’s last name. Then the person on the other end says…… Well she’s gone out to lunch. and my sweet momma says………….OH OK……… WELL SHE’S AT LUNCH ILL CALL BACK LATER. I SAID UT UNNNNNN MOMMA let me see this phone. My momma hands me the phone. I said HELLO,  this is Lacrease Walker the daughter of Janell, I said I need the first and last name of Maria, she says in her smart  voice……. I told the other lady that she’s out to lunch. I said were at the POLICE DEPARTMENT AND we need MARIA’S FIRST AND LAST NAME. She was like okay, okay, um um hold on, ILL GO GET HER. Maria came to the phone and gave up all her information. What pissed me off about everything is, when I was in the office they all wanted to jump in on the conversation and clear their name of what happened, send me to the police department just to get it out of their hands, then when we get their NO ONE WANTS TO ANSWER QUESTIONS, until I say I’m at the police station. Nobody knows nothing, nobody wants to give out information, but as soon as you say, THE POLICE WANTS TO KNOW THIS INFORMATION,  they turn state Ev!

When we got home and had out late night talks, Neisha was like momma I want to be just like you when it comes to take care of business. I told her to NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER RESORT to cursing. If those people aren’t giving you answers GO HIGHER. Never sit up and go back and forth with people who can’t help you. Thats time consuming and stupid.

Just had to share that……….so many people don’t know how to talk to others to get the answers they need. They get mad and then the fighting begins. Stick with real questions, talk to people who have answers, LISTEN TO WHAT THEY HAVE TO SAY, and then ask questions. No need to get angry.

God night I’m sleepy. Its 3:05 am and tomorrow I’m getting up @ 10:00 am to go to the movies to see GI Joe. I’m doing a solo because people say the movie is TOOOOOOO LONG. Oh well gotta go along.

Lacrease

Tyler is the last one on my list to meet. And when we do meet we are going to become friends. I mean real real real good friends, watch and see. I can feel it, deep down in my soul. Remember I said it first, right here on this blog. Lacrease and Tyler Perry and going to be very close friends for life~

January 1, 2006

Kisses to you Goodnight 🙂 I’ll post tomorrow. To my special friend. I miss you. Please get in touch with me. I miss talking with you.

Hey Hey!

Guess what? I’m back to work tomorrow! Goodness I didn’t want this mini vacation to end. I promise I want to call in tomorrow, but you know I’m on a personal mission and I’m about to save some money. I was telling my Sister in the hotel a few days ago, that I try not to complain I just do the dayum thang.  I don’t want to do many things, and  go out of my way, but I found that if you JUST DO IT, and not focus on how much you don’t want to do it……its so much easier.

We had to cancel the trip to Cedarpoint this year. Its all good tho. So on Sept 12, we are all going to the movies to see Tyler Perry’s I can do bad all by myself, then to dinner to discuss. I’m excited about that. In the last meeting I told them and they were excited about that. Since we have money left over from Cedarpointe, I’m going to pay for the tickets to get in from that account and  all they will need is popcorn/snack money. Who doesn’t love Madea? 🙂 So, when I go back to work tomorrow I’m going to request that day off.

I was on Twitter yesterday when Gayle King posted a interview she did with Tyler about the Philly 65. They had me laughing…Tyler did anyway. Ill get back to that. But I am so proud of Tyler for stepping up and sending those kids to Disney World. See that’s why I love and admire Tyler. Sending them to Disney will be something they will never forget, and I LOVED how he quizzed them about the black and white issue. He raised a question to them that is very very very important. Because they need to know that  this is something that happened but NOT to hold it against ALL WHITE PEOPLE. He let them know that it was a PERSONS JUDGEMENT, not a race judgement, AND that needed to be perfectly clear to those children. And the best part about it is, THEY HEARD IT OUT OF TYLER’S MOUTH. What ever they heard, or believed about the incident, Tyler was the last person to get to them. And I love it!!! I cried when I read his one line blog on his message board. Because this is my area……….children. They are my life!!! If I didn’t have to work and had it like that……. all my time would go to them. I know I have only a High School degree, but what God has given me about Raisingurls and raising children period, can’t be bought or sold. Its God given inside of me. Its so deep, and so serious, and soooooooooo spiritual. The things that he tells me ahead of time blows my mind. The only issue I’m having with this is, that I get overwhelmed when it happens. Sometimes my flesh takes over and I get emotional and TOO ATTACHED TO THE SITUATION. I’m going to give 4 examples.

1. God can say to me……La’Crease when you get to work tomorrow, you’ll be called to the office and they will tell you the new rules since you’vee been on vacation. He’ll say don’t get all excited and loud * my voice carries* at what you are hearing, JUST LISTEN. lol Now, I’ll go to work, get called to the office, hear what they have to say, and yep, before I know it, I’m getting loud in my thoughts or opinions about it. Not disrespectful * No way*. And then a BELL WILL GO OFF IN MY HEAD that God already told me this the day before. And I’ll just laugh!!! Sometimes I’ll be tripping on my self  for the way things turn out for me.
2. Just this weekend, I bought my niece * 18* and my daughter tickets to see Anita Baker at the last minute, so that they could go with me and my sister from the hotel we rented near the venue. Well God TOLD ME to ask my niece first if she wanted to go before I bought the tickets. But MEEEEE saying to myself No God, she’ll want to go. I’m paying for her, she doesn’t have to worry about anything. I called her and told her but her voice sound funny, didn’t pay it any mind. This past Friday we checked into out hotels and went to our rooms. While we were about to get dressed, she said auntie…… I said huh? She said would you be mad if I didn’t want to go to the concert? I said WHYYYYYYYYYY you don’t want to go we are going to have some fun. She said I love Anita Baker I’m just tired. So I convinced her to go, but the point I’m making is…….. God always tells me things ahead of time. Had I listened….. I wouldn’t have to beg her to go. I smile , these are just lessons.
3. God can say to me Lacrease…….. this customer that’s coming up this person is going to need a lot of patience’s deal with this person with extra care. When he says stuff like that. I always have to give eye contact to this person * dunno why lol* and no sooner than I do, here comes to part where I  AM SURELY TESTED! The hard part is KNOWING already that this person needs that extra patience, but why do they seem to drag it on and on and on and on and on and on and on? lol They have NO CLUE that God already told me a head of time. Imma be honest a lot of times I fall short. But the beauty of this is, I’m hearing from God more and more and so I’m doing so much better in listening and following him.
4. My nephew * 18 years old* went to jail a few days ago for expired plates. His gurlfriend ripped up his license in an argument and so when they stopped him he didn’t have them, plus driving with no insurance. Now peep this. God already told ME that he was going to end up in jail, for one he thinks he can talk anybody out of anything. He loves to run the streets, and he has toooooo many friends and he doesn’t know from one day to the next what kinda trouble they are in WITH OTHER PEOPLE. I told him that if they see him and want to kill them, guess whose gonna get it too? Yep……. YOU HOMEBOY! So every time he comes over, I preach, teach, talk and walk his ears off with God, Knowledge and Wisdom. I will get my nieces, nephews , my daughter, AND THEIR FRIENDS on my couch, feed them snacks and walk to them till they are BLUE IN THE FACE!!! LOL They already know me. Anyway… when God told me that he was going to be end and out of jail, I figure the more I talk to him, it would keep him out. Today I was riding on the freeway I thought about him being locked up, and just started thinking deep and getting upset about it. There is no reason why he should be there. He wants to do what he wants to do, and think that there are no consequences behind his actions. God said OK LACREASE * I love the way he says my name* you think about this for a few more seconds…………. and then SHUT IT OUT OF YOUR MIN D!!! LOL This was today. I said okay Lord. DONE DEAL!! I thought about it for a few more seconds and then I let it go! God said LaCrease I had you to talk to him all the times you did not so that you can STOP AND PREVENT HIM FROM GOING TO JAIL, but so that when he’s really ready to LISTEN AND FOLLOW WHAT YOU ARE SAYING, he will already have it in his MEMORY. HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA  GOD, DADDY, LORD DON’T YOU JUST LOVE HIM!!!! I got that instantly. I was feeling good at that point. All I could do is give it up. So I can’t worry about my nephewm yes I will pray for him that goes without saying, but not worry. I know that God is doing something through him. And get this. He is 18 years old, and he hears from God!!!! The stories he tells us, OMG it amazes me how close this young boy who loooooooves to run the streets is with God. Amazing!

I remember a long time ago I was standing in my kitchen washing dishes and I said God I want A BEST FRIEND and he saod loud and clear. …… I am your best friend. I said NOOOOOOO not like that, I want somebody “down here”. LOL And the devil from hell appeared in my life and thats what I called my BF until I came to my senses. lol Now I understand why my circle is so small now. My personality doesnt calls for me to be around everyone, and sitting on everybody’s couch, riding in everybody’s car, drinking in everybody’s bar. God has me on another street, and @ 41 I fianally understand that. I GET IT! I thought that Im so friendly and *nice* that Im suppose to be cool with everyone. With each person who comes into my life, Im there for a reason and a season, not to make friends, and not to be there long. To minister, and to keep it moving. I have 2 good friends and one  met a year ago in ATL, and one Ive been knowing for 19 years. Everyday Im learning something.

I was suppose to write about Tyler Perry tonight, but Im sleepy and have to go to work @ 8am. Sorry Tyler 🙂

Night!

 

 

Hey,

I’m home!!! First before I get into this entry, I gotta Thank God for such a wonderful weekend I really had a great time with my Anita Baker family. I met a lot of great people, so many of our Fan members came out from all over the world!! Canada, NY, NJ, ATL, Virginia, Maryland * Detroit was in the house, Texas, and the list goes on. There were over 50 of us total who knew each other from the 2 fan sites. Anita had a lot of love out in the audience Friday night and I think she knows it. We took lots of photos…….ugh I had taking them but I did anyway. My sister , neice and Neisha went to the concert with me. We are already planning our next trip next year, and since Detroit is her home town we will continue to get together in this city. Im excited!!!

For the weekend I rented a 2009 Mazda 5 and I love it. I have to take it back in the morning. As a matter of fact in a few mintues we are about to go for a ride  .

Well alright be back later with more.

 

 

 

Back!!! Just took a ride downtown wooooe its jammed packed  on the riverfront. It was some kinda festival going on. Cars were parked everywhere.

I’m rambling right now. You know how something is on your mind but you really cant pinpoint it? Thats how Im feeling right now, maybe its a mixture of things, I dunno. I guess I know a few of them. You know how God tells you something a head of time and when it comes to past, you just look at the thing and smile, cry, wonder, or whatever. Thats what I go through daily. I listen to God, sometimes I get the creeps and what he reveals to me about people. I see so much before it happens. If I was in my early 20’s I wouldnt be able to handle this. No way! LOL Im happy that Im finally listening to him, and is able to sit on the sidelines and watch it go down. What Im saying is nothing bad, its just that its the way it is and I can chose to watch it, or cry about it. And Im tired of crying and whinning about what God shows me. Im so glad that he runs it by me first before it happens and when it comes to pass, its like I smile and laugh, cause no one can take this credit. Sometimes it could get real heavy, but Im not complaining. I wonder am I crazy, why am I so different sometimes. I’m a very different person, not saying that everyone is NOT also different, but I know I am. So many times I try to give advice on what I know * not really noticing that it was God telling me* and when it come to pass, if its something of a personal warning I’ll feel bad for them when it happens. But Im also learning that I have to keep it moving because I already knew the out come. I don’t have the time to sit/stand and pat backs. I have to keep it moving. God has me on that right now. No time for turning around to see what that last blow caused this person. There was a warning. I can chose to watch the disapointments on faces, or encourage them to KEEP IT MOVING. No one is dying or hurt, there are just things we have to watch, learn, and move it right along.

Ba back later

 

♥  Hey ♥

From yesterdays saved unfinished draft…. 

Just finished my assignments and lessons for tomorrow’s meeting with my Raisingurls. I don’t know why I’m so last minute, but I always do my BEST work when under pressure. That kinda bothers me. LOL But oh well!!!

I’m leaving Friday to stay at the hotel with my Anita Baker friends who are flying in on Thursday and some are driving in that same day. I’ll be staying at the hotel with them the whole weekend because we have a lot of activities lined up. In the MC for the festivities and goodness I’m so nervous. Some feel since I have  this personality I will be good for this, but I’m so nervous. That’s the only thing that keeps me from really hurrying this weekend along.

Thank you Jesus for such a wonderful day. I learned a lot today about myself and my willingness to help others. But you know what? I learned that everybody don’t want help. You can pick somebody up and spin them around, and tell them for that day your feet don’t have to touch the ground, but deep down inside of that person they WANT TOO. And you know……….that’s what I learned. I’m not taking anything to heart anymore. I only care for the fact that I tried and I did my part, did what I can do, and if the other person is not willing ….it won’t happen. And today I learned that its OKAY. It really is. Im at peace knowing that.

Our meeting was GRAND today. My gurls left knowing one thing….and I’ll be back to that. Every 2 weeks I pick up 3-4 sometimes 5 gurls for our meeting. Some of the  gurls parents doesn’t have cars and they have to be picked up. I don’t have anyone helping me at this point, so I have to do everything by myself. Which is okay . But Im finding that when I pick up those gurls, some are still in Church service after 3pm, some are not ready and a few of them stay kinda far from me. So what I’ll do now is, instead of calling them to see if they’re coming, Ill wait for them to call me. Im finding that the ones who really have this group on their minds are those gurls who call me the day before and the day of. And the ones I have to call up, hunt down, wake up………..are the ones who will say days after * auntie* we had a meeting on Sunday? I have cut that short today. No more of hunting down members. They’re members who don’t have rides want to be here, and the ones who have transportation wants to * do them*. Thats fine, because today I realize that people only do what they want to do. It hurts me to my heart to want to help them so bad, but they chose to want to do other things. The sad part about this is, these kids parents are close to ME. So from this day on, I won’t spend any more weeks * since April* calling and asking, and almost begging kids to remember our meeting dates, when the ones who want to be here ARE HERE!!! Another thing I noticed too. The kids who are in Church, and the kids who parents are  concerned with their whereabouts at all time are the ones who come every meet. I noticed that today.

Today we had some very good interesting conversation. Im so good last minute. I came up with 11 questions last night for discussion today, and WE learned a lot. One of the questions were, how do you feel about your step dad/mom? One of my gurls said that long ago before she was born *11 now* her dad’s gurlfriend and mother got into a fight. Well she feels that her step mom is nice but she is still carrying in her heart the fact that they fought. She also feels that her mom and dad should be married and not him married to another person.  She also said that she treats her step mom nice, but she knows that her step mother has to work a little harder to get her to participate in activities. So this is what I did. In order to make her see that she has to move on from the past of her mom and step mom fighting before she was born, I gave her A,B,C, and D scenarios.

• Understand that this fight happened over 11 years ago, before she was born

• Her stepmom  and MOM are cool now

• Her step mom treats her and her sister will love and respect

• Her step mother can tell * she doesn’t believe it* that she asks funny towards her

I told her now based on all of that what LETTER are you having a problem with? She looked at me and said…….. I just wish my dad and mom could be married so that we can be one big happy family!!! Wow wow wow!! After we all finished this topic…… she smiled and said that she stop acting funny towards her step mom and that she now understand that her mom and dad are friends and they have both moved on. We all saw on her face that she really got it!!! Im so happy right now. 

I really hate that we have to cancel our Cedarpointe trip. Many of the gurls parents just didn’t have the money. I’m thinking that we should have planned this trip for next year. We were just trying to bond and get to know each other . So when next year come they will be ready and this time they will be more excited, and well bonded.

Well, Im off to bed gotta take my mom to take care of her business, and then my best-friend are going to get our Anita Baker shirts made. Thanks for reading.

Lacrease