2010 Cree-exams (Part 1)
Happy Happy Birthday Jesus. You know people say that “We’ don’t know what day he was actually born. And I say to them, while that may be true, can you set aside “THIS” day as a day you celebrate his birth? Its not a 5 minute conversation, its a clear “yes or no”.For the last maybe 2-3 months I have been asking God to show me … ME. And its amazing how much I have really learned. Stuff I didn’t even remember because I have so much going on in my head and in my life, that I totally forgot things. For example…. I kept trying to understand why do I go all out my way to try to get people to understand things. Why do I have to keep going over stuff? Why can’t I just leave it alone. Everybody is not going to see things my way, and no matter how many times I go over a certain topic, and I’m right about it, or wrong about, people are going to see things their way and that’s all it is to it. Why is that so hard for me to understand?
I’ll tell you why…..
God bought back to my remembrance that when Neisha was in elementary school, I was working there as a teachers aide. After a few years of doing that, I was assigned to work with the school’s Special Reading Tutor. She was so nice and so caring to me and the children. One day she told me that she really liked the way I work and teach the kids, that she told me that I should go back to school so that I could teach. Either that year, or the next semester, she talked to the Principal and they gave me my own classroom. HAHA LOL I HAD FORGOTTEN ALL ABOUT THIS EXPERIENCE. My class was very private, they gave me the space to be creative, and I had my own supplies… Matter of fact I was in charge OF ALL THE SUPPLIES IN THE WHOLE SCHOOL! LOL I forgot all about this. I had my own students that I would tutor everyday. I remember so clear that after a year of tutoring the same kids, the teachers would come up to me and say….. my student is doing so well because of you. Thank you!! How do you get the children to remember? I didn’t know that it was natural for me. I’ve always wanted to be a teacher, but never look at myself as being one. So… I threw it out of my mind.
When it came to the state tests, this would help the teachers as well as the school score high. OMG…. that next year, teachers would come up to me and beg me to please take a few of their students. They BEGGED me to tutor their students. I did that for 3 years straight until I decided that it was time for me to move on. I left but went back 2 times. I hate that the school is no longer there. Neisha is now 24, I was her age when I taught years ago.
The point I was making about me always wanted to see people “get it” or understand, stems from me being a natural teacher. I FINALLY UNDERSTAND MYSELF. It would kill me to leave someone that I’ve explained something to, and they NOT get it. That explains my compassion for people, AND my heart to see people succeed. This explains the reason why I’m always trying to see the good in others, the positive, it explains why I have this desire to be around greatness, and to uplift the homeless, and the youth, the elderly. When I see children, my heart instantly goes out to them, I have to purposely make conversation. This has explained who I AM. PRAISE GOD!!! THANK YOU JESUS.
These last 6 months, I’ve been walking around wondering why am I so different? Why am I so loving and having deep conversations with doe doe birds who can’t see the big picture. And I wonder why I have the patience to go over, and ove,r and over, and over the same things with people, hoping that they’ll get it. I’m like this with everyone. My family, my friends, my coworkers, strangers, children, everyone!!! I can say now that I’m finally at that point where if you don’t get it, it may mean that I’m NOT the person who is suppose to teach it to you. I remember thinking to myself at times back then, that it comes a time, when I “sit back and watch you fall”. As bad as it hurts, I have to take my hands off you.
This explains why people call me late, early, evening to talk, ask questions and want me to break it down for them. This explains why I’m a popular person, my conversations are always full of season. This explains why people want to be around me, when sometimes I feel like crap!!! It explains why my nieces and nephews who are 20,19,18 love to listen to me talk about life. This explains why I have Favor. I didn’t know this. I am a Teacher at heart. If I had a vision to do something, YOU BETTA BELIEVE that LaCrease is going to pull it off. I have the power to put something together and have people do everything that’s asked of them, just because I have proved to be trustworthy. This explains why I had the desire to form my Ministry group Raisingurls to Women, and now a Sistergurls group. To put together gatherings, cook from my own home dinners and feed 86 Homeless people, and also to put together Valentines Day Care Packages for them. I so get it now.
Sometimes, I feel as tho Im too nice, or too giving. This end year of 2010, God is showing me everyday who I am, and who I DONT HAVE TO BE. Oh its mind blowing. But that’s a topic for the next blog……coming right up!
~next level~
Dancing Santa * love him*
Okay, why haven’t I started Christmas Shopping yet? After I leave my job, I don’t feel like looking at another line!! I’m going to give out money this year. I can’t do it. My mind can’t go through the hustle and bussle of people and their ” forgetting we had Christmas last year” selves. If you come last minute shopping 7-6-5-4-3-2-1 days before, then you should know you’re not the only person, you will meet and greet like minded people. LOL So, take a chill pill people and relax……. your turn at the registers are coming.
Here is a video of this guy who dances on the busy intersections in the summer and winter. He is so cool. He may be a little slow, but that’s okay………. he brings me joy and so many others. The news did a story on him last night and I missed it!!! He is very famous around the eastside of Detroit. He loves Chris Brown and he loves to dance. One day, I paid him to do this one dance that I love to see him do. Im so happy he made it to YOUTUBE.
I read some of the comments and a few are mean. This goes to show you, that people rather Judge than to enjoy entertainment. How many people are willing to entertain others in the cold, and heat dancing? People miss the beauty of this man. Its so sad. I Thank God for everything. I am so grateful and I look to see God in all things.
See ya!
Check him out!!!!
It’s Been You ( all the time)
I had a dream
A love dream so tender
You were with me old friend
We gave in to sweet surrender
Now I’ve held it in through October,
November
No wonder…
I never been the same since then
A love dream so tender
You were with me old friend
We gave in to sweet surrender
Now I’ve held it in through October,
November
No wonder…
I never been the same since then
I picked up my phone
A million times to call you
But I lost my nerve
Cause every time I saw you
Like a lovesick kid,
Child it was my paranoia
You’d laugh, but instead
You read these thoughts inside my head
And its you…
(Chorus:)
Its been you all the time
You’re changing my whole state of mind
It took just a minute
But now that I’m in it
Its you
Its been you all the time
Like somebody turned on a light ( shine)
You’re gonna watch me shine ( boy)
Its been you all the time
[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/its-been-you-lyrics-anita-baker.html ]
Now when you smile
The world opens up for me
You’re just my style
And this time I do believe
We’re two of a kind
How could I be so blind
My heart, its sincere
I believe I’ve wanted you for years and years
(Repeat Chorus)
Now to think you’ve always been right here
And loneliness has been my greatest fear
Until I saw the answers in your eyes
Yes I did
And at last its clear
Now I see that
You’re the only one….for me….
(Repeat Chorus til fade)
MY husband
*My best male friend Rodney and his gurlfriend Angie*
This couple came through my line today they seemed to be the perfect couple. I asked them how long have they’ve been married, and its been 5 years, but they met 14 years ago. They had chemistry out of this world, they kept playing with each other and talking “junk”. Then there are many times, I meet couples and they call each other the “B” word, and they talk to each other any old kind of way. They argue about whose gonna pay, why the other person spent so much, and then they don’t want to help put the groceries in the cart. I feel bad for those types of relationships.
I hate to see a WOMAN disrespect her man. To me that’s the worst thing you can do. Not to mention how bad it looks, especially if they’re in person. When a woman does that to her man, that means the relationship has “lost something”. Sometimes a woman can come to a place where she was dogged out so bad by him in the beginning, that now she sees weakness and opportunity to “do him in mentality”. That’s a dead-in relationship. She’ll do better walking away. Who wants to be with a man who dogged you out so bad, but now that he’s down on his luck, or sick, or depressed, jobless you want to make him feel less than a man? I know people like this.
I get the “why aren’t you married, you’re so pretty and sweet, you’ll make a man so happy. I tell people, all of this is in God’s timing. Right now, I’m learning about relationships. I watch my Sisters and their husbands and I just love their chemistry. I love their husbands and admire then deeply for taking care of my Sisters. But we all do share a laugh when I say this…….. “Imma show yall how married life is done”. LOL I love to travel. I’ll hop on a plane in a New York minute. I just hope that when I meet my husband that I won’t run him away with my honesty. I don’t like to hold anything back, and will always expect the same thing.
I remember being the most jealous person in the world. OMG!! I don’t think that I can get that way again. When you know who you are, and that you’re #1 to that person, I don’t think that I can get that way again. I don’t care who comes into the picture, if I know that I’m the “#1 stunna”, and he makes me feel that way…..then that’s what’s up! I want a husband that when were out and he’s mingling in one corner and I’m at the other, that when we come together, it wont be any suspicions. I want a husband to where when we are out and about, that we can look at each other and see that its time to go. When were visiting each others families we take turns fixing each other plates. Little stuff like that builds relationships. I love to touch and I hope my husband is touchy as well. One thing I will have to work on, * I already know* lol is spending carelessly. That does something to me. Not wanting to pay bills and putting them off .I don’t like that one bit. I’m the kind of woman who likes to pay my bills and the balance is $0.00. My tithes are paid, my light bill is $0.00 and my house phone, Internet, cable, and cell phone is paid $0.00. My fitness bill is paid $0.00 my credit card is due this week, that’s going to be $0.00. I don’t like to see shut off notices * saw to many growing up*. I promise myself to never live like that.
I can’t stand a selfish man!! I’m giving, I’ll give to my next pay day is tomorrow. LOL I love to help people and when I’m married I will make sure my husband is giving just like me ,and that we help and feed the homeless. We will visit and adopt a nursing home, and help bring Christmas to families, including mom and dad. My life is so peaceful and so happy. I just wish people would find this kinda peace, and maybe they would have happy homes. MY husband will be the head of my home, and in it we will Praise the Lord. I do have some things to work on, and that’s learn to fall back. I can work a nerve when I don’t understand something, but he’ll love me and give me the closure I need. LOL
I believe that when someone is cheating, its harder to get back in order, because when you deal with other people outside of the marriage, it means TROUBLE. If your husband has a gambling problem to me it would seem easier to work on that together, more so than a cheating husband or wife. Those 3rd party people can be HARD to get rid of. Even cause death because of jealousy. Secrets can also cause trouble and also having too many people in your circle. I learned that a long time ago, I’m not the kinda person that will pick up the phone and tell ANYBODY what’s going on with me anyway, that turns me off and I hope my husband won’t be quick to do it.
My husbands “man cave”. He must have his own area to entertain, and I will surely have mines. Football is my favorite sport, so I will be hosting my/our football dinners on Sunday!! All my gurls are gonna have to love the game too. LOL We will take care of them and see to it that the only time they leave the room will be to use the bathroom. LOL That’s how I do it!
My best friend Charlene wrote out, prayed out all the things she wanted in her husband when we were single and struggling. She got the man of her dreams!!!! They are BLESSED BEYOND THE WORD!!! I admire her, and she tells me all the time, be specific with God on what you want, and watch it come to pass. I watch all of this happen for her, and she’s always praying for my husband.
~next level~
*before you leave the house*
Lately I’ve been doing a self examination on myself and I’ve learned a lot. I sat still on situations that I wanted to react on but didn’t. I allowed all my emotions to do what it would normally do, but this time I wanted to experience it without getting upset or reacting. It was pretty hard.
A few days ago this lady came through my line as I was ringing her up I noticed that she had some good choices in CD’s. We discussed how she left some bags at K-mart some days ago, she made it clear to me that she didn’t want to leave any of her bags behind. After I totaled her out, I purposely grabbed all her bags and placed them in her cart. Not only did I do that, but I spun the carousal around several times. She left only to return 5-10 minutes later. She came up to my register and started going off on me, saying things like ” you didn’t give me my CD’s”, you let the person behind me take them! She was screaming so loud at me, she was very upset. I told her to calm down and that I remember putting them in her bag, and placing the bag in the cart. But she wasn’t having it, she was screaming at me from the top of her lungs. I said to her “maam please check your car one more time, because its not here and I know I put them in your cart”. She starts screaming for my manager , saying that she wasn’t going back to the car to look for anything, because she believes that I gave them to the person behind her. My manager finally comes over, and the lady starts screaming at her as well. She then referred her to my Assistant Manager because the lady didn’t want to hear what she had to say about calming down so that we can help her. The lady is screaming she has to go, and that she cant believe this happened to her again, and that I gave her CD’s away. Everyone in the store was watching this lady act a dayum fool! My manager Tai walks up to her and says to the lady, “look maam, calm down we’re going to find out what happened to your CD’s. She tells the lady to go back to the car, and look one more time, while she reviews the tape. The lady goes back to her car searching for the missing CD’s. At the same time my manager is reviewing the tape, and saw that not only did I put them in the bag, but I also put the bag in her cart. The lady never returned to the store. She found those CD’s and probaly felt embarrased.
Several people came up to me asking did I believe that she was lying to get scheme and get another set, so that she could get her money back. The answer is NO. This lady was too upset and angry. When someone is in doubt, normally they will come back and say, “are you sure you put my CD’s in the bag”? She didn’t, she was very upset. She really couldn’t find what she wanted so badly to have. She’d already had a bad experience with K-mart, I believe she panicked and was looking too fast for them. Once she was able to calm down, she found them. She never returned to apologize or anything. That’s cool, I just hope that she understands that she got upset for FREE.
That’s why its important to always have the armor of God around us. I pray daily before work that I bless and encourage others, because when you are a child of God, and you have Peace * like I do*, its important that we don’t fall off the podium. God sent us out into the world to be a light, and he knows sometimes is dim, but we are to keep shinning, to sing songs in our minds and to remember scriptures in our hearts when we feel weary. I take a lot daily, but you know? I know who is the head of my life. I’m going to teach my Raisingurls that in order to be able to stand against the devils schemes, you have to know who you are * before you leave the house*. You cant allow others attitude to pull out yours. You cant allow how others act, to be your way of acting. You can’t go with the flow of others, be Leaders and allow God to guide you to doing things HIS way.
~next level~
Lately….
Lately I’ve been doing a self examination on myself…….the results are in!!
SEX before MARRIAGE ( grown folks)
Here is a part of what I wrote on my Sistergurls Group Site. The subject is about having SEX before marriage. Below is my post from that thread. BE Blessed!
Ok, Im back!! Here are some things that I read before on line about this, and so I decided to copy and paste the parts that stuck out for ME. Then there are Scriptures, then my personal word.
Far too often we focus on the “recreation” aspect of sex without recognizing that there is another aspect—procreation. Sex within marriage is pleasurable, and God designed it that way. God wants men and women to enjoy sexual activity within the confines of marriage. Song of Solomon and several other Bible passages (such as Proverbs 5:19) clearly describe the pleasure of sex. However, the couple must understand that God’s intent for sex includes producing children. Thus, for a couple to engage in sex before marriage is doubly wrong—they are enjoying pleasures not intended for them, and they are taking a chance of creating a human life outside of the family structure God intended for every child.
While practicality does not determine right from wrong, if the Bible’s message on sex before marriage were obeyed, there would be far fewer sexually transmitted diseases, far fewer abortions, far fewer unwed mothers and unwanted pregnancies, and far fewer children growing up without both parents in their lives. Abstinence is God’s only policy when it comes to sex before marriage. Abstinence saves lives, protects babies, gives sexual relations the proper value, and, most importantly, honors God.
1 Corinthians 7:2 ESV But because of the temptation to sexual immorality, each man should have his own wife and each woman her own husband.
My thoughts…… Concerning the Scripture above. God is saying to avoid sexual immorality each man should have his own wife. Okay who are the ones left? The single folks. If we are having sex outside of having a HUSBAND then we face temptation of sexual immorality.
An unmarried woman or virgin is concerned about the Lord’s affairs: Her aim is to be devoted to the Lord in both body and spirit. But a married woman is concerned about the affairs of this world—how she can please her husband. 35 I am saying this for your own good, not to restrict you, but that you may live in a right way in undivided devotion to the Lord.
1 Corinthians 7
I’m a single woman. My aim is to be devoted to the Lord in BODY AND SPIRIT. Now if I’m having sex with men ( a man) who (is) are NOT my husband….. I’m devoted to HIM. He will receive my BODY AND MY SPIRIT. Where is room in that for God?
God wants MY BODY, okay but if I’m having sex with this man, why would God want to SHARE in that? He wants BOTH ….BODY AND SPIRIT. We cant say okay God, I’m going to give him my BODY (SEXUALLY), and YOU can have my Spirit. NOOOOOO, that wont work. He wants both!!! He has every right to want both!! Now, lets be real, we like to make the Scriptures work in our behalf . What if God said…. Okay just give me your Spirit, then it probably would be fair to say, ” HE DIDNT ASK FOR MY BODY SO I HAVE ALL THE RIGHT TO HAVE SEX WITHOUT A HUSBAND”. But God didn’t, he said he wanted a single woman to be devoted to HIM…BODY AND SPIRIT!
If we/you are SINGLE and doing ANYTHING outside of giving God both, BODY AND SPIRIT…..its a SIN. When it comes to this Scripture as far as I’m concerned BODY AND SPIRIT ARE TWINS. They come together as a package.
This topic is not even a 5 minute conversation. The Scripture is self explanatory. Its not magic, its not difficult, its either this or that.
I need this
I really need this for my Raisingurls May 1, 2011. Im praying and thinking about it daily.
Inside the mind of cree 