THANKS FOR THE LOVE/BLOG

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Hey Family!!!

Just stopped by to show some love!!! Thanks for always stopping by to view my page. Feels good to know people are reading, and I hope to spread some of this LOVE ..God gave me with you.

I’ll be back later on this week to catch up!!! Remember FAMILY IS EVERYTHING!

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A Phone Call I Had To Make/ BLOG

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Last Monday I called my daughter’s dad and told him how much I loved the fact that he and Neisha are so  close. He has 2 kids, Neisha the oldest, and a son 15, by his now separated wife. I never thought a day would exist to see them as close as they are. She loves that man, and he loves her. They are BEST FRIENDS. She told me that she has 2 Best Friends as her parents.

 I’m so happy about the amount of time they spend together, they go out of town together, they go to dinner and lunch all the time, he even goes to her job just to take her lunch. I told her that when she was younger and we’d get into it, he had to have prayed to God that one day he wouldn’t have to communicate with me in order to be close to her. LOL LOL That when she was old enough, he could build his own relationship with her. And that’s exactly what happened. He told me that he loved me and that he is so proud of the way that I raised her. I told him I loved him too, and that I was so happy that he is the Father of my only child.

One thing that’s for sure, and we both tell her all the time. Whatever you do.. make sure you marry a decent man who loves and respect you. A man who doesn’t fight, or mental abuse you, because you know your dad loves you with everything in him, and he will NOT tolerate anything less.

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I wrote this to say… sometimes you have to make a phone call to those who are important, to tell them how you love and appreciate them. Things change, and people change. If anything ever happen to me or him, we both know that we LOVE each other and that whatever happened in the past between us is over and done with.

Thank you Jesus for LOVE AND UNDERSTANDING. 🙂

I AM La’Crease

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Offended turned Correction………..Crees Blog Entry

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I remember when I first started going to my Church, Second Ebenezer. I would sit in the back because I was new and didn’t want to be seen or heard. I never imagined myself sitting in the front rows, to me it seemed as if you were there longer…. that was YOUR spot. At my Church you could “come as you are” and that was one of the main reasons for me joining at that time in my life. I didn’t have a wide selection of dress clothes, and the little I had, I could mix them up with dress pants, and jeans.

 

As time went on I became comfortable, and started sitting in the first 5 rows every Sunday. One day I wore a dressy skort. It was my favorite outfit. But one of the older ladies of the church came over to me and placed a lap scarf over my legs with a smile, and walked away. I WAS SO OFFENDED. Not to mention EMBARRASSED. In order for her to come over to place the scarf over MY leg, SHE must have felt that my skort was too short. Boy was I on fire in that service.

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After service, I never mentioned it, I just went home. But it stayed on my mind. I couldn’t shake the feeling that she did that. I knew that if I called and told several of my friends what had happened, they would tell me that she was out of order, that she was wrong, that I shouldn’t go back there again, that I should have confronted her about it. But I’m not the type of person who will call my Sisters or Friends and say… “Let me tell you what this lady did to me “. I go to God… all the time. Because what I found out in doing that is…..friends will tell me what seem right to THEM. Maybe a few of them would ask to see the skort, and say…. yeah maybe that is too short. We tend to ask people just to hear “their opinion” when in reality, our mind is already made it that we were “offended”. There’s nothing else to be said, nothing to be discussed. I felt offended…. and that’s final.

 

It stayed on my MIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIND…. yes it did. Every time I went to Church and saw that woman… it was on my mind. I never got an answer from God at that time when I felt that way. But he surely reminded me of it when it was my time to “get it”. As time went on ( been there for 20 years now) I started to build my wardrobe. For some reason I didn’t want to wear jeans any more. My mentality had changed in the way I dressed. I was very conscience of the way this woman of God carried herself. I cared about the way I dressed in the house of the Lord. I knew better, and I did better. I would see women coming in church with their cleavage showing, with short dresses and skirts. And I remember thinking…. wow.. people come to the house of the Lord…. any old kinda way. THEN, God bought back to MY remembrance, of when I was wearing my short skort…. I didn’t think it was too short. But as you leave the MILK… and start eating solid food… you see things totally different than you did before. God had answered my question. I had every reason to be offended… when I didn’t know any better. When I knew better, and dressed better, and respected the way I felt about myself….. I understood. That lady wasn’t trying to hurt my feelings or offend me ….. she helped me. I would never in my life wear that skort again. Never ever. It was so short. I wouldn’t even wear it outside. I’m not a person who care if someone likes my shoes or boots. My clothes or anything that I wear. BUT I DO CARE if someone says… your dress, skirt or skort is too short. As a woman of God.. that would be something , that I TAKE CARE OF ON THE SPOT … EVEN IF I FELT DIFFERENTLY. I don’t want men staring at me, or coming on to me because of the way I dress. I don’t want my breast hanging out, or cleavage showing. I don’t want my behind showing, and I want to be covered up.

 

What I learned in this Life Lesson that I’ll never forget is that… there are some things in the house of the Lord that YOU JUST DONT DO when you know better. IF……. you know better. Ask God to show you if you’re wrong about being “offended”. I was use to dressing the way ” I wanted” and felt that I was in the house of the Lord. I came to hear the word not to be judged. No one had any BUSINESS to correct the way I dressed.

 

Seasoned Christians know better. Babes in Christ….. will have to learn.

New Living Translation 1 Corinthians 3:2
I had to feed you with milk, not with solid food, because you weren’t ready for anything stronger. And you still aren’t ready,

*photo with friends is the skort I wore to Church*
*photo above is how I looked at the lady when she places the scarf over my legs*

 

Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

Fingerpointing You………………………Crees Blog Entry

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As I sit here  thinking about the post I wrote about Dwayne Wade and Gabrielle Union.. it takes me back to my own personal relationships about cheating, and lies. The questions I had.

Every man I’ve ever given a second chance to… he cheated again. Sad thing about that.. these men are with different women now, some married and they’re still cheating. Now, there are some faithful men out there that love their wives dearly. And if they’re cheating, as long as his wife doesn’t detect it….. he’s not cheating. LOL I just wish that I could understand the thought process of a man before he thinks about doing it. What options does he weigh, what thoughts goes through his mind concerning her finding out? What would he say to her? What would be his reason that he tells her? Does he sees himself losing everything, or is that even a thought to him? Does he think about his family, or her feelings? What desire goes through his mind when he decide that its what he’s going to do anyway. What thought or feeling goes though his mind once the sexual act is over. And what drives him to do it again and again. Does he feel a sexual disconnection to his mate?

For a long time, I can remember calling over my friends every weekend just to drink and have a pity party. We dogged men coming and going. I use to date my daughters teacher when she was in preschool. Then when I started working there the following year, I found out that he was dating the teachers and the parents. * throws hands up… eyes closed* And didn’t I get into an argument with one of the ladies at the school, almost lost my job over this man? I cut dissed him ON SPOT. I made sure I went to work looking good everyday. I made him “SEXUALLY SICK” when ever he saw me. He couldn’t even function with me around. I had his mind gone. I can’t go for that type of behavior anymore. I LOVE ME. He knew he couldn’t tie my shoe if it was coming loose.

But you know…… I had to put away childish things. I couldn’t go on being angry with men because I chose cheaters. I realized that I was drawing these types of men to me. I had to change the way I looked at my relationships. I had to say NO… to the ones who didn’t fit into what I was looking for. So many times I got into relationships “just because they liked me”. These days….. I chose friendships and relationships wisely. They must have a relationship with God, they must be a person who goes to God before any family member and a friend.

Here is a song that I use to listen to when I was going through those relationships…. I love the words.. so honest and to the point.

Fonz
I don’t know what you goin thru lately
But you stressin it and it’s drivin me crazy
You wont even make love to me lately
Somebody told you they was havin my baby

Vee
I heard it all I was getting my nails done
She was braggin how your record when platinum
You were crushin on a leather couch
You were out there trickin with that chick all up in my house

Did you sleep with her
Did you sleep with him
He works at my job
She was just a friend
Saw you at the club
Well I saw you too
Fingerpointing me
Fingerpointing you

Vee
She knew it all even talked about your tattoo
Tell me how you gonna say it wasn’t bout you (wasn’t me)
Saying how you like to suck on toes
She knew all the things that you know that only I should know

Fonz
You played the role I was workin in the studio
Getting paid while you gave up the botty yo
Another brotha is getting all my time
You was out there trickin when I thought that shit was all mine all mine

Did you sleep with her
Did you sleep with him
He works at my job
She was just a friend
Saw you at the club
Well I saw you too
Fingerpointing me
Fingerpointing you
Did you sleep with her
Did you sleep with him
He works at my job
She was just a friend
Saw you at the club
Well I saw you too
Fingerpointing me
Fingerpointing you

Fonz: Your thru with me
Vee: Im thru with you
Fonz: You lied to me
Vee: Never lied to you
Fonz: Stop blamin me
Vee: Im blamin you
Fonz: Stop gamin me
Vee: Whos gamin who
Fonz: So you say your thru with me
Vee: Im thru with you
Fonz: You lied to me
Vee: Never lied to you
Both: Better ask yourself if don’t matter baby why keep goin on

Did you sleep with her
Did you sleep with him
He works at my job
She was just a friend
Saw you at the club
Well I saw you too
Fingerpointing me
Fingerpointing you
Did you sleep with her
Did you sleep with him
He works at my job
She was just a friend
Saw you at the club
Well I saw you too
Fingerpointing me
Fingerpointing you

Fonz: can’t work with you lying and creepin babe
Vee: I can’t work I can’t deal with your cheatin and leavin babe(I can’t deal)
Fonz: can’t be a fool for lovin babe
Vee: Save the drama im about to bounce babe
Cant work with you lying and creepin babe
Vee: I can’t work I can’t deal with your cheatin and leavin babe(I can’t deal)
Fonz: can’t be a fool for lovin babe
Vee: Save the drama im about to bounce babe

Did you sleep with her
Did you sleep with him
He works at my job
She was just a friend
Saw you at the club
Well I saw you too
Fingerpointing me
Fingerpointing you

Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

My biggest Aha Moment ….Cree’s Blog 2

~continue~I was tripping on how much fun I had being up in the air. Since then I have been on a plane a total of 8 times. My fear of fly is over.

Angela and Vanessa our co-leader taught us so much. I wish I knew and believed those things they were teaching us. I couldn’t comprehend it. I didn’t know anything about Leading, I wasnt popular in school, I hadn’t done a thing to make them see  what they saw. They knew it, and again when it came down to the workshops and exercises, I kept everything, because for some reason I had a feeling that I would  someday comprehend everything that they taught. One of the 4 nights we were in Chicago, and we had a day at the spa ( full body) we got in bed, and about 3 something in the morning, they BARGED in our  hotel rooms told us to SHUT UP, don’t talk, and to put on these army uniforms that they had given us with our names on it, and after we did it we were to line up outside of our rooms and not say a word. We all were looking like WTH!!!!!!!!!!!? But we were too scared to talk, we knew they weren’t going to hurt us, that NEVER came to mind, we just didn’t know what to expect. After we lined up, they had us walk a straight line outside, we had to do these exercises. One was, someone had to stand on top of the ladder, and after she fell forward we had to catch her and not let her hit the ground. OMG we were so nervous, and cold. We had just gotten out of the shower and then out into the air. We were so sleepy and so outdone, we didn’t understand why this was happening. WE dropped someone OMG, and boy were we in trouble, LOL She/they taught us that we are 1, and if 1 fall, WE ALL FALL. It was a really good lesson to learn. I have applied this same exercise to my Raisingurl group. I’m going to be honest. I didn’t understand and HATED doing that exercise… but I got the meaning of it. SHM right now, IM SO GRATEFUL they taught us that. I have 4 groups and it has really taught me discipline. She was raising us up and we didn’t even know it. One night while we were in New Jersey, she told us to put on these uniforms, we had to carry 2 jugs of water in a back pack on our backs, and hold an egg. They lead us out of the apartment ( Queen Latifah stayed there too) and into the subways, we were told that we couldn’t drop the egg, and that if someone was getting tired of holding the egg, that we as a group need to help them and carry if for them until they regained their strenght to make it to the finish line. Of course I was one of the bigger gurls and a Sista was TIIIIIIED. I cracked my egg, my legs were so sore and tired. WE all were tired because we never knew when the walk through New York and New Jersey was going to end. LOL We caught so many trains, people were looking and staring at us, at some point we didn’t care, all we wanted to do was get back to the hotel and sleep. We talked all through the night, through  Times Square, it was about 8 of us total. We walked about 4-6 hours. Chick was tied!!! They made us walk THE BROOKLYN BRIDGE, YEP I WALKED THE WHOLE BRIDGE!!!! I didn’t know if I should quit and leave, plus go home, or listen to “you can make it La’Crease” from everybody.  And to this day. I LOVE WALKING. LOVE IT! LOVE IT. LOVE IT!!! When we got back to the apartment, we stretched out, nobody talked, we were tired!!! We learned so much, she talked, we sang songs, we cried, laughed. Then the next day, she took us shopping in New York. The pain was gone, I bought so many purses, my suitcase was heavy. I will never forget all the things they taught us.

 I remember one day while in New Jersey, we were in Church, and I sat next to Angela, when it held hands, I could feel the anointing in her hands. I will never in my life forget that as long as I live . The power of God went through her hands and I felt it. It was very powerful, out of all the people hands I hold in Church I never felt an anointing like that. That told me a lot about her. She was so good to us, I really feel bad about the things that went down, and also how it was time for her to move on from AIMSK.  I wish I had done more assignments, did all the things she asked me to do without fear of failing to do the task the way she asked. I wish that I took Ministry more seriously than I did. I wish I had really understood the workshops she held to ask the right questions. But you know she did what God told her to do, she planted the seed.  Had I known the person that I  would be today, I would have done more to listen, to understand, to learn. She and Smokie Norful are very good friends, they belong to the same Church, but when he got his own Church, he asked her to come with him and she and her husband did, and I never got a chance to see her preach there on some of the days he had to be away. I miss her. She taught us so much to go on with our lives. Tomorrow, I’m going to share some of the things she taught us and how it has helped me to become the woman  I am today. ~to be continued~

My biggest Aha Moment … Cree’s Blog Part 1

I was up late a few nights ago thinking about how I came to this place
in my life. I always knew that God wanted me to do something special in a way that it would reach hurting people because I knew that I could communicate well. So, in order to do that I had to go back in my mind and think of a place where it all began.

In 2002 I joined this online Ministry. I enjoyed reading the messages,
and love the support, and I really love the Leader of the group. She would give us homework to do and deadlines, we had on line chats, over the phone chats, it was really something different. As time went on, I knew it was just what I needed in my life, people to hold me accountable for Holy Living. As time went by I was one of the regulars, one of the ones who actually had behind the scenes things to do, and work that she had assigned. But I noticed I started questioning……dang why I gotta do this boring stuff? So, one day she asked me “Lacrease why haven’t you been doing the task that I’ve ask you to do”. My reply was… because I was busy working, and cooking, and woo, woo, woo. There were several of us NOT doing what she asked. As time went on, she asked me and several others to help her plan a Women’s Gathering in Chicago. I felt ( we all felt) that she was a great Leader and that since most of us didn’t live in Chicago she could do a greater job. She came down hard on us for that. We learned so much from her and how she does things, and how in order she did it. She was raising us up to be Leaders and most or none of us felt that we were. I didn’t. Every day she was teaching us how to do things in order, and to work behind the scenes, and to Lead. All, I knew was it felt good and it felt right.

I remember one day just before Oprah went off air, I was watching Iyanla Vanzant on her show, and while she was telling her side of the story, I kept saying to myself this gurl know she lying, she knew Oprah was trying to help her. But then she said something that “made ME get it”. She said “I hadnt struggled hard enough for it, I couldnt evenreceive it”. That was when I finally got it about all the things our Leader in AIMSK was teaching me. She allowed me to Lead many things. I received lots of responses on EVERYTHING I DID, but I thought “she wanted my work”. It wasnt that, …..she knew I was a Leader, and that she “training me up to be one”. I just couldnt receive it. Wow, what a Aha moment that was for me.

During this 2nd Women’s Conference, our Ministry Leader Angela wanted us to come to Chicago. We had workshops to attend, we had lots of entertainment, and we had transportation to everything. We even went to the Navy Pier and got on a midnight cruise on the The Odyssey . She and her Co-Leader Vanessa really made sure that this Conference was successful. It was beautiful and I’m very grateful for that. WE all were.

In Feb 2003 , she wanted The Conference Planning Committee to come to her HOME in Chicago ( what a home too) for a “Time to Relax”. I was selected as one of the 8.What a wonderful time in the Lord we had, cant even explain that one. We stayed in her home for that night and talked about God, she gave us assignments, we had prayer and worship. We ate fruits, she took us to this restaurant that was off the water somewhere, it was beautiful and very very very expensive. She took us to this hotel and we all had a full day pamper in the Spa. I had a wonderful time.

The last 2 times I went to Chicago, I rode the greyhound. Everyone was
flying in except me. I didn’t like it but I had to do it because I was scared to fly. When Angela called me and told me that she wanted/needed for me to fly to New York for our A.L.I.T.E. PROGRAM … I was scared! She said “Look you have got to get over that fear of flying”……God did not give you a Spirit of Fear, what if God wanted you to fly all over the county to Minister, what are you gonna do…….. go greyhound? LOL She said La’ Crease you can’t go on living that way. She said if I need you to fly here, or anywhere to be at a Conference or meeting you’ve got to get there quicker than greyhound. She told me to find a quiet spot in my house and that she was going to pray for me over the phone. So,
I found a quiet place in the bathroom, and she began to pray for me. Instantly I felt the Fear of flying leave my body. It was UNREAL!!! If you know me, you know I would never in my life get on a plane. I had this urgent desire to fly, it was so unreal to me, I told her that I’ll be there in New Jersey. Still to this day I’m not sure if she REALLY believed me. But maybe she did because she/husband
bought, and sent me a e-ticket that NIGHT to fly to New York to the La Guardia Airport. She told me that a man would be there waiting with my name on a paper, and that he would DRIVE me to New Jersey. Everything happened just as God said it would. I was so excited about flying, that when we landed in New York, I was mad because the flight wasn’t longer. LOL 

To be continued tomorrow