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My Sister…..Cree’s Blog Entry

sis latrTonight I was watching Oprah’s “Where are they now” as she recapped the show where her Sister Patricia realized that they were sisters, it just bought me to tears. I had seen the original episode, and also this same “Where are they now” but this one tore me up. It reminds me so much of the story about my Sister. I know I keep writing on this subject, but I had known that she was out there somewhere since I was a young gurl. And to have her on my FB page and to see her post keeps her close to my heart.

When I saw tonight how the niece and Patricia took a blood test to determine if they were family, really made me think closer about doing this when ever my Sister * I believe we are* comes back to Detroit. I cannot stop thinking about this, and tonight I just cried and cried. My grand dad * my dad’s father* was married to her Aunt Lucy…. who I use to spend lots of time together when I was a kid. I loved my Grandma Lucy * passed away a few years ago*…. who was also her FAVORITE AUNT. And all the while my dad knew where she was, and how to contact her, but since it was a big secret in the family that she was his daughter… he didn’t. How all this came about….. one day.. my Sister knocked on my dad’s door and demanded answers. Someone in her family started talking and giving my sister answers. All while growing up she looked different than her other sisters, she knew something was wrong. All it takes is one family member who knows the truth, to spark the fire. I was the first person my dad called when my Sister left his apartment that day, because he knew I would find out, and I was the one he talked about her the most with.

As I was watching Oprah… I watched how happy Patricia was JUST TO KNOW her family members. It didn’t matter that Oprah is/was famous. I’m the oldest of the 4 of us from my mom and dad… but she’s older than me. So I see her as a “Big Sister”..someone I had to be to my siblings. I’m excited about that. I can see true LOVE in her eyes, in her mannerism, the way she looks at Oprah. She is very happy to have a Big Sister. I cried for her happiness. And as for Oprah’s mom, I hope that she can move on with her guilt, because really it doesn’t matter about the past anymore. Its okay that Patricia was given up for an adoption, because everyone is going through a healing process, and all that matters is the fact that….they’re all together now. See that’s the part my dad don’t get. He doesn’t want anyone to ask questions. Well.. I’m sorry dad you have daughters that ask questions. We aren’t mad or angry with you for what happened when you were a teenager. We don’t care, all my sister want is to be accepted. Give her that.

My Sister is now running for a seat in the US Senate. I am so proud of her. As for me…. I just want to kiss her, hug her, look at her, talk to her, listen to all of her stories, and even share some. My dad still haven’t called me * almost 3 months*, and I have no desire to talk to him. I don’t like the way he is handling things with my Sister because of his fears. And since he knows how I feel, in his mind… its easier for him to find something petty to be mad at me about. Growing up when he did it …. it bothered me… now….I’m keeping it moving.

Let me go to bed…..more this week.

Be Blessed

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I want to meet my Sister…..*tears* Cree’s Blog Entry

my sisterI want to meet my sister so bad ( in above photo)…. She use to live here and I hate that I wasn’t persistent in meeting her when she was here in Detroit. I go to her FB page all the time… we favor so much. We talk on the phone, but we’ve never met.My dad had her before my mom and dad married. But the way her mom and my dad got together was sneaky as far as how their families  connected… and for years after years it was a secret to her and to us. My dad is so stubborn and wont take a blood test to give her/us CLOSURE. She aint missing nothing * with him*… yeah I said it. But me and my siblings want to meet her, and hug her and LOVE HER.
My dad lives one min from me and we haven’t spoken in almost 2 months. I just don’t get that.

My daughter is so mad at him because he’s so stubborn she told him that she’s not going to answer his calls because of the way he treats his daughters. But I have a sister out there who wants to be around him….. * throws hands in the air* SMH FOR WHAT? I’m so happy that I’m not stubborn. That kinda life keeps you in bondage. I’m so happy that me and my daughter are very close. Praise God…. and I will communicate, do flips and all sorts of things to keep it that way. My dad has always been this way, he use to go months and months without talking to his brother when we were coming up and all living at home. I never paid it any attention…. never knowing that one day it would be me. SMH. It pisses me off sooooo soooooooo so bad that he’s like this. How you not talk to your BROTHER FOR MONTHS AND MONTHS … then when your kids get older, you do them the same way. We all grew up in the same house, don’t you long to hear my voice, my laughter, my smile, my silly ness…. don’t you miss that? Wow… Well let me say this….. my dad has done me/us like this all of our lives, and for once in my life….. I’m so over his behavior. Once so much time has passed…. it doesn’t even bother me. He had issues with his mom. she sold him to his dad in court for $1.00 and I think he hasn’t gotten over that. If I didn’t have God in my life so deep….. I would be some where crying and depressed. He was the very one who taught me, my sisters and brother to be close…. and if NOTHINGGGGGGG else come out of this as God chose him to be my dad…. I LOVE MY SIBLINGS.. THANK YOU LORD FOR HANDPICKING THEM FOR ME!

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Four Weddings and a Beautiful Note….Cree’s Blog Entry

na prettySo, I’m watching Four Weddings… and I am horrified that I don’t have a theme for my wedding. I am so NOT creative at all… well I don’t feel as if I am. I would definitely need a wedding planner….but what would I tell her I like? Gosh that’s kinda spooky for a woman not to know what her theme would be. Guess I really never thought about it… marriage either. Maybe because I’m not in a relationship, because when you’re in one, you KNOW what you want and how you see you and your husband on your special day. 

I do know that I LOVE roses. I love GREEN.. I LOVE CAKE.. and it will NOT be a cake full of fillings and bouffant.It has to be BUTTER CREAM ICING. lol I want lots of Bridesmaids… Hmmm let’s see…. Gloria, Charlene, Sherry, Neishia, Darcella, Vikki, Shann, and Tammy oh my goodness… no room for the grooms sister/cousins.. gotta stop there. LOL And my Matron of Honor would be my Sister Yolanda.  And my Maid of Honor would be my Sister Peedie. Speaking of Yolanda… here is what she posted on my FB page (((tears))). 

Lacrease Walker, I, Yolanda Pippen, just want to say that you have had the biggest influence on my life. When we were little, I wanted to be just like you, my oldest sister. I liked the things you liked (peanut butter) and disliked the things you disliked (eggs, butter, and Oatmeal – yuk!). The most important thing that I learned from you was that attitude is everything in this world. My attitude was so poor that you had to remind me that as beautiful as I was, my bad attitude over shadowed my beauty. You reminded me that every time the lion in me reared its ugly head, I was being bitterly mean and our parents didn’t raise us that way. I am so greatful and thankful to you for teaching me how to let GOD’s Love shine through me – I Love you with all my heart big sister, and I hope you have the best birthday in the world! Happy 46th Birthday ~Na ~ (yeah I put your age – lol)   (((((((photo is my sister yolanda)))))))))))
Be Blessed
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Comment…. or disconnect? Cree’s Blog Entry

big likeAs the days go by I am reminded by God to take deep breaths as he continue to work with me on my Anger issues. I am not afraid to declare this issue of mines. As a matter of fact, it has helped me to STAY CONSCIENCE of arising situations that causes me to speak on a matter when nothing needs to be said.

This morning, I was having a moment when I wanted to comment on a post on FB that was a result of what I posted on yesterday. Instead of commenting on my post, this person made their own . I wanted so badly to comment.. but I know me… I don’t just comment…. I CAN SHUT THE WHOLE STAT DOWN….no curse words…. just TRUTH. But God asked me… “must you fight off all fools Cree”? He said now, you either continue reading and NOT COMMENT…. or totally disconnect… chose one? LOL LOL

He also revealed to me another reason why I have this issue with anger. He reminded me that when we were coming up as teens, me, my brother plus 2 sisters. We had real true friends. Our porch was the one everybody came to sit at EVERYDAY. To this day we still have the same friends… all of them are still in our lives after 32-35 years… everyone is still alive. WE never talked about each other, we never turned on each other, we all loved each other and people saw that in our friendships. We didn’t fight each other AT ALL.. PERIOD…. NEVER EVER.. AT ALL. NOT ONCE. We argued and debated but we were cool everyday. And so, this mentality of how I view friends took me over into my adult years. I went to a Wrap and Wine party this past Saturday at my good friend Gloria’s house. I met 10 women… not one thing I had to say about any of them when I left. You know how when you leave a function, or gathering, and there is something to be said negative about someone… anyone…. I’m not use to that type of mentality. So, I’m like okay God.. how does this tie into me? Well, that’s one of my triggers. When people ALWAYS have negative things to say about others. I don’t like that.

Now I am silly… If I’m out to dinner with some friends, and one of them are throwing down on some food and its a silly moment.. I may say something stupid like…. OOO chile you putting that fork da WORK BABY!!! LOL But everybody knows I’m silly and will expect for me to say it. Now…… if that person is not riding home with me, and I’m with others that was there….. I may hit back on that subject, in a funny NON OFFENDING WAY. And its going to be something said that I would say to THAT person I’m speaking about. I wouldn’t DARE go call up another person and talk and bring it up. That’s childish to me, and its drama filled. But to say… oooo that dress she had on was a mess, or she know she was busting out. WE * * just don’t disrespect our friendships like that. As friends we don’t talk about each other, if we offend, we talk, debate, and kiss and make up on the spot. I don’t sit at the table with folks who I will talk about, and dog out when I’m not in their presence.

NOW, I SAY THAT TO SAY….. I am offended by the way people today just totally talk down to each other, diss, curse, and are ready to fight each other these days. We allow so many people to “geek” us up to go with the popular, that we don’t even realize that its going to hurt us in the long run. This type of disrespectful behavior gets into my soul and breaks me down. Why even be around people you have to discuss and talk about? What point is that? I’m just saying people, … we have to do better with our energy. I’m so happy that I’m learning my triggers. So let me name them…. BULLIES, PEOPLE WHO TALK ABOUT OTHERS IN A MALICE AND MALICIOUS way, people who are RUDE.. and folks who DO NOT KNOW/CARE TOO… HOW TO TALK TO ANOTHER PERSON in a respectful tone. But….. I’ve been doing soooooooooo good… yeaaaaaaaa. I’m proud of myself. Chat layta.

Be Blessed

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Somebody Prayed for Me….. Cree’s Blog Entry *continued*

As I laid on the couch last week talking to God. I asked him…… PLEASE TELL ME…. LORD, WHY AM I SO NICE? WHY CANT I JUST GO OFF AND LET THAT BE THE END OF IT? WHY DO I FORGIVE PEOPLE SO EASILY WHEN OTHERS WOULD NEVER SPEAK A WORD TO THE PEOPLE WHO HURT THEM? WHY IS IT SO EASY FOR ME TO KEEP IT MOVING AND STILL KEEP PEACE? WHY AM I SO NICE… I MAKE MYSELF SICK LORD!!!! WHY?

Again, growing up all I knew was how to LOVE. I was told by my parents I love you so much and not only that, but they showed us. My siblings and I wasn’t allowed to fight so in order to keep it moving, we had to kiss, and say to each other “I Love you”. So, now that we have all this LOVE inside us, we started experiencing people trying to make us feel bad about saying the words “I love you” in public. We thought that everybody told their family this. My sister and I are light skinned, and my brother and other sister are brown skinned. People played the color game on us, we wasn’t taught about different shades of skin so when people said it….. we were like…. we have the same parents all 4 of us…..what’s the big deal? After a while in life, I started to think we were the ones who grew up dysfunctional.

Looking back on our lives, we were very popular. Everybody in the neighborhood knew us. We were good people, with good friends, whose parents wouldn’t let us do any and everything. We had rules, and our parents didn’t play.

Going back to my last post. When my friend who slept with my daughters father when I was in my early 20’s did that to me. I was devastated, because I never knew people betrayed others like that. My aunts didn’t do it to their sisters, my dad is/was CLOSE TO BOTH OF HIS BROTHERS… my parents didn’t do that to each other, so here I am learning something I never saw first hand or experienced, and I had to learn forgiveness through this selfish act. *Wooosa Cree* After it was all said and done, even though I was an angry person before this happened, it humbled me, and I learned FORGIVENESS. PRAISE GOD 🙂

One day I was with my best friend Charlene, and I had seen my Mother. I gave her a hug and a kiss on her lip, and my friend was like WOW, you kiss your momma on the lips? And I’m like yeah…. don’t you? She was like No…. we just say Hi. My mother kept telling me she LOVED me, and I said it to her as well. My friend had never seen or experienced this. That’s how my family is…. this is all WE KNOW. This is how we grew up. When we go to each other’s house, only thing ANYBODY will be saying as they are reaching to HUG AND give a KISS is……. I LOVE YOU!!! We don’t just walk into each others house without hugs and kisses AND START A CONVERSATION. THAT’S DISREPECTFUL LOL LOL My daughter is 25 and my nieces are 21 and 17, my nephews are 18 and 21. WE all KISS ON THE LIPS. That’s how we are. And I came to the conclusion that THIS IS HOW WE LOVE EACH OTHER!!!! MY FAMILY. We don’t steal from each other, we don’t misuse each other, we don’t take advantage of each other..we never slept with each other men….. BUT WE LOVE TO ARGUE AND DEBATE!!! LOL LOL One day I’m going to VIDEO RECORD one of our debates when my sisters and brother get together at my house or theirs. Babbbbbby YOU WILL BE SCARED A FIGHT IS GOING TO BREAK OUT. LOL But what we learned is that…. growing up we couldn’t FIGHT PHYSICALLY, so we had to learn to ARGUE… we had to use words. We NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER GET PERSONAL. We stay on the subject and go at it for hours. IM THE OLDEST so I always WIN….* SIKE* You do not want to challenge me in a debate and I know I’m right. LOL LOL I did record one of our debates… maybe I’ll find it.

Going back to my previous blog entry….After I learned FORGIVENESS I started looking and loving people through the eyes of God. When people would say something or do something to me, I didn’t take it to heart… LIKE THE NEXT PERSON would. Because I know that hurt people, hurt people. And I had so much LOVE for others, that it was starting to seep through my pores. People saw it. It was like having on white pants, and people issues ,and their issues with me was seen on my pants. I attracted people who wanted to use me, or talked to me sideways. Not only did I tell people that I LOVED THEM…. but I showed it. And that’s when I learned that most people didn’t grow up with those words TAUGHT and SHOWN to them…. like I was. To tell someone you LOVE them in 2012 is like saying….. when I get my check I’m going to give you all of it. They don’t believe that. I didn’t grow up like that… and at one of our sit down gatherings, My Siblings and I learned that in our own personal lives, we all have struggles with the same issues. WOW .

I always said that its 2 ways to LOVE someone. Through the eyes of God, and an Earthly way to LOVE. To Love people in an earthly way is to…. be nice, but when they get out of order, you go back to your “childish ways” and handle it. Through the eyes of God is to be humble and communicative when two don’t see eye to eye. BE patient and let the other speak. Listen, and ask God to help you understand the issue at hand. That’s who I try to be, and so far is has worked for me.

So, I asked God why am I so friendly? Why when people do me wrong, I’ll still speak to them and be polite? When in my mind I want to ignore them and pretend their not even born? He said to me as I laid on my couch last week….. your mother PRAY AND PRAY AND PRAYED for the day that she would see you kind. She prayed that your anger would turn to LOVE as she taught you. He said it brings joy to her heart to see you happy and smiling without being mean and angry all the time. He said somebody PRAYED for you.

Siblings: My 2nd oldest Sister Na,  Baby Sister Peedie,  3rd child only Brother Bobby, and ME~Cree

 

 

 

 

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Cree’s Blog….. EVERYBODY COMFORTABLE

I was watching Oprah’s Life Class tonight and I’ll tell you. Iyanla is the best thing since Gayle. I am so happy that things went the way they did back when Iyanla left. Because it makes their friendship that much stronger. I KNEW HER OWN SHOW WAS COMING….. I KNEW IT 🙂 I KNEW IT…. I KNEW IT… From the day that interview ended when she was on Oprah’s Show talking about what happened between them. Iyanla just wasn’t ready back then, and even through Oprah was grooming her, she still didn’t get it. Like Oprah said… I was giving you my podium, my stage…how could you not know I was setting you up for success? That was a Aha Moment for me. But the time is now…… Oprah has had her on Life Class last year, and this year as well….and I’m so happy that she will have her own show, and I will be FRONT AND CENTER. She’s going to do very well. See how things happen? And the chemistry of their friendship between them is wonderful. Oprah was talking so much about God when it first came on, she has really opened up, and I know who God sent to help on that. And I’m happy about it. I wonder if Gayle gets jealous? LOL She probably calls Oprah as soon as she get in the house after taping LIFE CLASS, and want to know everything her and Iyanla talked about. Hahaha. Let me stop I’m the only one whose jealous like that.

Today was a good day at work…. again so much Love from my co-workers, they really missed me those 11 days I was on vacation. Lately, I’ve been practicing going back to the way I use to be when it comes to my Communication. I’m not asking anyone any questions, I’m not answering any. There use to be a time when I was so secretive that if you wanted to know something about me, you would have to sneak in my room and get my journal/diary to find out anything. Now since I’ve gotten older , I like to ask so many questions. Remember I was a kid who get all low grades in school, because I was afraid to ask questions. I had to drop out of High School, and complete a GED. I’ve come a long way…and went to dang ole far. …. LOL

Yesterday me and some coworkers got together for our monthly outing, and somehow I always end up being the person who calls everybody and “REMIND” their grown a####, that we’re hooking up. I didn’t lift a finger yesterday. When I got to work at 9 am this morning….. 1000 people asking me * like its my function* why you didn’t call me? And I said……. yall grown butts knew. I’m not calling people NO MORE communicating anything, if you really wanted to go.. YOU’D BE THERE!!! Last year I was appointed to help get our family reunion together because I like to plan and I plan well. I did the family dinner at Apple bees, then at my sisters house, then a park. This year, they’re like……Zee, are you doing the family reunion for 2012? Nope….. not this year.. I’m getting ready to move and its all about me. They have watched and saw how I did it, its time for somebody else to step up.If I don’t do it…… it won’t get done….and that’s fine with me. Its a whole lot of us and everybody PULLED THEIR WEIGHT AND MORE….. but again its about Communication. Nobody wants to do it. I’m not doing that anymore. I’m doing my own thang staying in my own lane……just like I use to be. I’m not mad at anyone, I’m just really taking a look around my life and seeing that I HAVE MADE EVERYBODY COMFORTABLE…. My Sister came over yesterday and she said “I MISSED US * THE 3 OF US SISTERS* GOING OUT TO DINNER…. TALKING, LAUGHING… I said well … plan something! Lets go to dinner this weekend. She said okay….. but watch….. she expects me to call her and my other sister and remind them. They expect for me to COME UP WITH A RESTAURANT….. WHAT TIME…. WHO PICKING UP WHO…. WHO ALL ELSE WANT TO GO….#GURLBYE… LOL I’M NOT DOING THAT…. I’M NOT!!! LOL * I LOVE THEM* Yes, I want to go, and I plan to go. Its that I’m the oldest and everybody expect for me to be on top of everything….. maybe I do put myself out there that way. I love to plan, I love to gather, I love to travel… I am the oldest.. but I’m tired now…. I’m thinking about MYSELF.

When Tyler Perry tickets went on sale for “Madea Gets Job”… my Sister came over 3 years later * sarcastic* and said we got to get tickets to see Madea….. I didn’t open my mouth…… * blank stare*. Finally I said GUUUUURL… those tickets went on sale 2 weeks ago. I have my ticket for 2 NIGHTS. She said dang……… why you didn’t tell me? I said gurl   you know I don’t wait 10 weeks to buy his tickets and you know how fast seats sell. I said I’m tired of waiting for 50 people to get their money ready. She was mad….hehe but she’ll be alright. I have a Credit Card ON DECK… for my concerts, plays, my trips, my hotel and my rental cars…. I DON’T PLAY THAT!!! When I told her that I was sitting in the Orchestra Pit both days, she almost passed out. LOL LOL #Gurlbye… see people be playing and I feel I allowed the buffoonery to be apart of my life, when I do things off script of who I am.

I remember one time Tyler Perry came to town for Madea’s Family Reunion.. I collected the money as always….. after collecting money for 13-17 people and 2000 days later * not a really 2000*…. TICKETS WENT ON SALE…. WE sat in row RRR…. I SAID NEVA AGAIN!!!! If you have your money ready the day of, WE CAN ROLL….if you have your money any time after that….. its a WRAP …. I’m out with or without you!!! I’m not sitting in ROW ZZZZZZZ123456789 NEAR THE CEILING….#GURLYOUGOTMEMESSEDUP. LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL

When Mary J came to the Fox I sat 3rd row ORCHESTRA PIT.. when Gerald Levert came I sat ORCHESTRA PIT FIRST ROW…. When MAXWELL came TO DETROIT….I sat 4th row FROM THE STAGE… when Anita Baker came to Detroit 7 YEARS STRAIGHT….. I SAT 1ST ROW.. ORCHESTRA PIT …AND 3RD ROW from the stage. I got tired of missing out on what’s good for ME… waiting and phone calling everybody….trying to be nice and include others. Those days are over.

When we went to see Tyler Perry’s Good Deeds…. we went 22 deep. I told everybody get your ticket early… they LEARNED… LOL But when For Colored Girls Came out IN 2010, I gathered my gurls up and it was 32 of us all together. I told them get YOUR TICKETS EARLY… CAUSE TYLER PERRY SELLS OUT…. the people outside of the 32 were calling me from the movie before it started….. Cree, do you have any extra tickets…. they SOLD OUT? I said Nope.. the extra ones I bought, people bought from me. Waiting until the last minute when it comes to SOMETHING CREE put together…..will get you missed out. So about 6 of my people outside of the 32 had to go to another movie house, but most waited for the next showing.

Watching Oprah and Iyanla tonight…. triggered these thoughts. Hmmmm :0

I needed this 🙂

I’m staying in MY OWN LANE…

SEE YA 🙂

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Cree’s Blog Entry…..NO MATTER WHAT.

I shared a little of this story… but I didn’t go into MY FEELINGS about it. But every since I was in my early teens my dad told ME.. * I’m the oldest* that he had another daughter. I was excited…. for one I LOVE people, and for some reason, it felt good to know that I REALLY WASNT the oldest *she’s 4 years older than me*. This story is different for me, because while my dad shared it with me when I was younger, I started having visions of what she looked like, what her personality was like, what kinda person she was, did we favor. And it stuck with me for years and years and years. As I got older, my dad would tell me “don’t go looking for her, you don’t know if her mother told her something different”. Even though I wanted to go against what he said, I knew it was true. I use to get my dad alone and ask him so many questions about her, that he wished he had never told me. LOL I couldn’t help it….. now looking back on it, it probably made him feel uncomfortable. I would think about her day in and day out… all the time.

 

Still to this day….since I finally got a chance to talk to her over the phone, I still wonder if she’s my sister. With all the information that she has, she believe that my Uncle through marriage of my dad’s Sister that we are cousins. I think differently. We have set up dates to meet, but it hasn’t happened yet. I’m kinda nervous…. because I will know from the moment I see her,hug her, and talk to her. And if I feel that she’s my Sister, a part of me will feel cheated……and I know that I will express my feelings.

When I talk to people, I always use the words Sis, Boo, Sweety, Baby, Princess and all of those words of endearment. But when we chat on FB or over the phone, I want to say Sis so badly.. because I’m use to saying it to people, BUT this is different. I really feel that she is my Sister.When you are told as a kid that you have a sibling out there, and you are interesting in meeting them, over the years you start to think about this person, you start to wonder about this person, and you have this longing desire to meet this person. You build this LOVE inside of you automatically. I have this LOVE for her as MY SISTER and it won’t go away, and I have told her this, she was very happy considering everything that has happened in her life, that she is accepted NO MATTER WHAT. I go to her FB page and look at her photos all the time, she reminds me of me so much. She loves people, and know lots of them just as myself. Today at work, I got a text…. and for the first time it was FROM HER!!!! I didn’t know, until I went into the bathroom to see who was texting me. I WAS SO HAPPY AND SO GEEKED!!! We have had lots of long long long conversations, very DEEP … but if I could just see her face to face. Lord, please help me to control my thoughts and what come out of my mouth WHEN I DO. I’m so direct, but I don’t want to come off as….. YOU’RE MY SISTER AND THAT’S FINAL!!!! LOL Even though I tell her this all the time, in all seriousness…. this is a sensitive ISSUE…. and I will bridle my tongue. LOL LOL LORD HELP ME ON THAT DAY 🙂

BE BLESSED

CREE

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The day before Thanksgiving

Hey, 

 Sorry I havent been writing that much lately. I had a little bit on my mind. The day before Thanksgiving me and my Sister kinda fell out. I love my Sister dearly, and I hate the fact that I got really, really, really upset with her. To the fact where, when it was time for ALL of my family members to come over to my house on Thanksgiving, I left and went to the movies to see 2 shows. I didnt even want to be home when she came over. I never did this before, my parents were really shocked and disappointed with me a little. They did have a good time without me, which is good.

 What happened was the day before when I made dinner for 50 people with my feeding the homeless dinners, my sister was over, and after we had made the plates and were waiting to pass them out, she wanted one of my sectional plates that we had left over for the homeless project. Everyone knows how I feel about things that has been donated to me. I put them up and use them for the next year. All of these things are donated to me, and I want all of it to go to just that. I had plenty of things this year and some were left over, next year I plan to feed 75-100 people .

Well after we had made all 50 plates instead of my sister asking for a plate thats in my cabinet to use she insisted on using one of the donated plates. She was going over to my dad’s house and she needed a plate. I tried explaining to her, I will ACOMMONDATE  you with a plate, but NOT one of the plates that were donated. She didnt want to hear that, she figured that since I didnt use all of them, that she could have one. My issue is this, if I tell you naw boo, Im not going to let you have one of the donated plates because I dont see that its fair to those donated, why not take from the cabinet? Why do we have to argue in front of others who are here helping me? Why? You are my sister you should respect what Im doing and just got another plate. A BETTER ONE AT THAT!!! What really made me angry is I started thinking about all the things that I would go out and by for my gurls group and she would ask for the chips, or the juice and candy I have for them. She looks at it as if I can buy more, and were not going to * miss* what she ate. That just took me over the edge thinking about it. She in my opinion doesnt respect my stuff. She feels that I can replace the stuff, and that I wouldnt miss it. She dont get the whole point. I truly believe that if someone gifted me with $12,000 for my gurls group, and she was facing foreclose she would feel that I should LOAN her the money so that she can keep her house. Thats how she is. But Im not that way. Donated things are donated things. I just dont feel right mismanaged things that Im in charge of. We have talked since this, she came over to get something, but at the same time we havent talked about this. Things will fall in place, it’s just that she needs to respect my things. When she come over she can get anything she wants from me. Dont ask me anything just get it * as far as going in my fridge, and things like that.* My nieces and nephews too, this is their house as well. They already know. Just please pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee when it comes to my gurls group food, goodies, money, and my homeless people things, DONT ASK ME FOR IT, PERIOD AT ALL. LOL I love my baby Sister with her spolied self! God bless

Well, Im off to bed. Good Night!

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