Huge Problem/Weight Loss Update/Know your worth…. (((((Blog)))))

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Wow, can you believe that its July 1 already?

Time is really flying. Reminds me how people are doing any and everything these days. No respect for human life, no respect for each other and no respect for themselves. If one person can get an “Amen” from the person or people they respect most, no matter how bad it is…. its okay with them. They befriend “like minded” people, and go out to celebrate it. Reminds me of the days in the bible when Noah was building the ark, and everyone was doing their own thing. I have a HUGE PROBLEM with people calling WRONG…RIGHT. Now I see why God said to confess your sins. Anything you believed you’ve sinned about, you’ll confess and be covered. But anything you feel is right, and ITS WRONG ((( and you know its wrong)))… and don’t confess… its not covered under that umbrella.

In other news.. I’ve been walking.. tomorrow makes my 4th day. I love to walk. My back yard is actually a park. Its huge too. So every morning, I will go out and walk around the huge circle… as time go by.. I’ll walk it several times. I have a short term goal to meet by next weekend. I’m doing my thang…bout to kill em in my dress next month!!!

Saw my sweety today…. ahhh he looks so sexy when he’s working and not even noticing my presence .. I love it. And when he does….. * melts me*

I love a man who communicates and expresses how he feels… good or bad.. Not run away, hide, avoid questions, and has a arrogant Spirit. I don’t come from that type of environment to deal with all those ‘ISSUES”… that’s really what they are. So, I say that to say ladies, Women….. my Sistergurls… know your worth. Know already what you will and will not put up with. If there’s anything on your list of “will not accept” and you clearly see it happening to you……cut if off. I let things go to far.. but I have NO PROBLEMS WALKING AWAY. I LOVE ME.. I LOVE ME… I LOVE ME.. I LOVE ME. I LOVE MEEEEEE.

Be Blessed

 

Listen to yourself and in that quietude you might hear the voice of God. – Dr. Maya Angelou

Ms. Cree a Wedding /Events Planner? ((((((((Blog))))))))

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Hey Yall ( In the voice of CCain68—-Youtube)

For a while now I’ve been thinking about going back to school this fall to become a Therapist . I’m a great listener, give wisdom advice, and to top that off, I’m very private when it comes to other people’s business. As I’m thinking about that. I vision myself sitting in a room listening to my clients. But then out of the blue…. I remembered that I was to go to the web site of a photographer to see photos of a wedding I went to last Sunday of my friends Diane and Ommunad. While viewing them something just clicked in my head. I mean it hit me hard. Very hard. HAMMER HARD… A light bulb went off. I heard sirens, bells and WHISTLES in my head. …….To become a Wedding/Event Planner.

It just makes so much sense. I have the patience to deal and work with different personalities from working 10 years at Walmart * smile*, I love making business calls, and making things happen. I love to meet in person to have all my questions answered and direct communication taken care of. I know how to market myself , on social sites, and in person. I have the gift to console. And the biggest thing I thought about…..I have planned so many events… that THIS MAKES EVEN MORE SENSE TO BECOME A WEDDING/EVENT PLANNER. WHY DIDNT I THINK OF THIS BEFORE? I’m laughing so loud right now!!! HAHAHAHAHA

Now I know why every time a birthday comes up or something that cause for a celebration… people always call me to plan it. I’m just thinking they call me because I love doing it.. .But somewhere in these people minds…. they must feel that I’m good at it. Wow. I never looked at it like that.

I started thinking about the time when I was in my 20’s I’d throw backyard parties for our neighborhood. I became so known for throwing them, that people off the street would ask me… when is the next time you’re throwing another party? After doing that in the summer. I remember planning a coming home party for my brother in the Marines. As time went on, I threw gurl talk parties in my apartment all the time. They were so popular, I would throw them out of the blue all year. We’d eat, talk, laughing, drink and have a good time. Wow, now I know my fascination with  cameras.

I also planned and spoke at my A Virtuous Woman Dinner Gathering that was more on a Spiritual Level, I had close to 50 guest with gifts and a lovely dinner. Several times( about 8 times) I gathered my family and friends on Thursday Nights to the premiere of a Tyler Perry movie.  I always gathered 15 or more to the midnight showing . Even when people had to work the next morning…. I knew how to get them to come out. When that went well…. I planned For Colored Girls Movie and Dinner on a Saturday afternoon and dinner  at Ruby Tuesday… I had a turn out of 32 women at the same movie theater… at the same time. I started my own Youth group called Raisingurls to Women, and also Sistergurls, which was over 100 people in attendance combined. For over a period of 5 years.

In 2008 I started Cree’s feeding the Homeless for Thanksgiving. Every year on that Wednesday before we  pass out dinners. This year 2014 will be our 6th year . I enjoy putting together a menu, plan and a vision to complete it. We also put together Valentines Gift Bags for the homeless and pass them out on that day. I’ve also put together sandwiches and dinners in the summer that we pass out to the Homeless as well.

As I’m typing I’m thinking of more events I put together. I’m apart of Anita Baker and Maxwell Fan sites.. and when they came to Detroit in the past… I helped schedule events for our out of town guest. I was also the Mistress of Ceremonies for the Anita Baker Crew…. yes it was nice!!! I also put together with my cousin Gus, our FAMILY DINNERS AND FAMILY REUNION GATHERING with so much food, fun and love . LOL LOL Wow I forgot all about this. I also helped my BFF Gloria put together her mom and her kids mom birthday party program book…which was very elegant. I’m laughing so hard right now…. LOL LOL I almost forgot.. I WAS THE WEDDING COORDINATOR/PLANNER for my brothers Wedding. OMG. He ask me to do it, because I loved to plan. I’ve never done a wedding before and it was challenging. I bought a book to help me plan and I also looked to the Internet for help. Looking back I left out a few things, but you better believe I KNOW WHAT THEY ARE NOW!!! I forgot all about that. Thank you Jesus for answering my prayers and showing me what I know I CAN DO…. Now its time to do the work * in my Iyanla voice*

For the life of me.. I can’t understand how I didn’t know that this is what I want to do. It has crossed my mind many years ago, but today after looking at those photos, its very clear to me…. that this is who I am. My communication skills, business, marketing, close attention to details … research, writing and planning skills. And guess what? I STILL GET TO BE A THERAPIST/Counselors TO ALL THE PEOPLE INVOLVED WITH THE WEDDING/EVENTS. YEAAA #WINNING

Okay … yall I have work to do!!! Lots of research, classes , and seminars in my area.

Be Blessed!

Listen to yourself and in that quietude you might hear the voice of God. – Dr. Maya Angelou

 

 

LOVE is not a POWER STRUGGLE ……(((((BLOG)))))

 

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Hey

I had a wonderful last few days. Sometimes you just gotta make moves in order to feel good about yourself or a certain situation. There is nothing wrong with it either.

There’s this guy that I’ve been feeling for a long time that I get to see daily. I pay attention to consistency in a man. This person is the same every time I see him. He always have a pleasantness about him that I just love. He doesn’t even have to say much, he’s a doer. He’s one of those type of guys that enjoys to cook and have family barbecues at his house, family or a park. I always admire that in a man. When he speaks I listen, he’s so interesting, so helpful. So sweet, so honest and truthful.

These days some MEN are motivated by having MONEY, BIGGER AND “BETTER”. Some will never enjoy life in a family way, because they’re too busy either chasing MONEY…. OR/AND OOOOS AND AHHH’S. Sad part is, many of them don’t know how to LOVE. They’ve never experienced real love, because they’re so busy trying to impress people. Real love is displayed by dinners, seeing each other, walks on the beach, good mornings and good nights. Spending time taking rides together, small talk between being busy. Communication, agreements, compromise and understanding Not POWER STRUGGLING, demanding, one way conversations, side talking, and broken ” I’ll get back to you in a moment” and never do situations. Be done with those types of BUMS.Catch them on JUDGEMENT DAY and not a hour before.

I come from a family who LOVE TO LOVE on each other. WOMEN KNOW YOUR WORTH!

Be Blessed

Jealousy………… ((((((((((Blog))))))))))

Friday night my 2 sisters and I went out to dinner at Applebees…. we sat for 5 hours talking and catching up on our lives. We were having many conversations but the one that stood out the most was the fact that we’re not jealous when it comes to being in a relationship. For me I was never a jealous person until I met my daughters father. Before him I was never insecure. I knew I was pretty, had a great family, nice personality… but when I met him and having to deal with all the women. It made me a bitter person. It took me years to get over him and over the way the relationship made me feel. Over the years I met some pretty good men, that always made me feel so loved and so wonderful. I never had to deal with jealousy again.

The reason why I’m writing this is to say to my Sisters out there. Know you’re beautiful. Know that you are loved by God no matter how a man make you feel. Know that if you have to be in a relationship that makes you have to always look over your shoulders because of other women, or have to fight or go back and forth…. please don’t waste anytime getting help, or leaving that relationship. What woman in their right mind want to feel jealous and insecure of another woman? Women these days lose themselves in a marriage or in a unmarried relationship. You have to still love your life and enjoy it.

Let me say this too…. Sisters, you have to do your part in making your man feel secure. When you start trying to make him jealous, then one day down the line, it just maybe you….. who gets jealous . That’s a dangerous game to play. Find ways to entertain yourselves while he’s not around. Visit family and friends….. Don’t build your life around him…. that when he wants and needs a break, you find yourself whining and bored. Many women push themselves away from their family and friends when they get married or enter a relationship. Never do that. You never want to look up and have no one….but him. Down the line it makes him uncomfortable, and he’ll have to always find ways to entertain you. That’s not fair. Build your own life, and at the end of the day…  go home to the LOVE OF YOUR LIFE.

Be Blessed!

Listen to yourself and in that quietude you might hear the voice of God. – Dr. Maya Angelou 

Sistergurl Talk *woman to woman* ((((((Blog))))))

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So, I just finished watching Kandi’s Wedding. I’m just outdone by the disrespect and the lack of common sense used. I see clearly the drama that will eventually end in divorce if Kandi don’t get a grip of her mothers behavior. It kills me to see her going through this and not have a clue to how to stop her mother for just saying whatever she wants to say. My daddy is the same way, took me forever to learn how to deal with him. I’m so glad that I learned it before I got married.

Kandi has to say: Momma, I understand that you don’t too much care for Todd. I get that. So for now on to respect how you feel, I will ask you NOT to ask me about him, and I will NOT bring up his name. Not only that, but since you feel this way, I would appreciate if you NOT discuss him with anyone else, because I would hate to HEAR that you’re mentioning his name to anyone when you’ve expressed the way you feel. I feel that if you’re not feeling a person, then their name should never come out of your mouth.

I know and understand that Kandi have hope that each time she brings up Todd’s name that her mom would eventually come around…its not going to happen unless she tries something different. Its not even important why Momma Joyce feels the way she does, what’s important is that Kandi “gets it” before Todd gets fed up. I understand that she looks at her mother as her best-friend…. I get that. But some of the things that Momma Joyce says about Todd  is disrespectful and unacceptable. If Todd at A N Y T I M E feel that its gone to far, and feels that he can’t talk to Kandi as his best-friend and his WIFE …. there is no telling where this marriage will end. A man/woman can only take so much in a relationship when they’re not being heard.

 

Kandi needs to get a grip of what’s going on here with her mom disrespecting Todd ( her husband) in the way that she does, she’s going to lose him. I’m going to say this- When a man feels the need to TALK and VENT with someone who “understands” even if it means meeting a new woman who totally can be a friend without being in his immediate circle… he will. Todd goes out of town a lot early in the marriage, while she’s in Atlanta.. and if she’s calling him “filling” him in on what’s “said” and its drama from her mom, he’s going to eventually get tired of it. At some point, he’s going to feel that he needs to “talk” with that person who loves to listen and understand. That’s how outside relationships start. Those talks are going to show him that he’s in a marriage that will always be filled with drama. If he ever decides to leave Kandi. he will NOT fight for anything monetary or”stuff” (( material things)), he will walk away with his FREEDOM AND PEACE OF MIND…… and what can beat that? My prayer is that Kandi… get it. I just love Todd for her… and I love me some Kandi as well.

 

 

 

Listen to yourself and in that quietude you might hear the voice of God. – Dr. Maya Angelou

 

My Weight Loss Update/Hoarders and Food Addicts…..(((((Blog)))))

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Today was a great day!!! I can say that after a few days of feeling down in my Spirit. Sometimes you start thinking about things you have no control over and feel some kinda way. But after sitting still and asking myself do you trust God, and can you see a light at the end of the tunnel? My answer was yes, not only that, but I have God’s track record to look back on and KNOW he is totally in control. After I cry and whine a little… I bounce back.

Tonight I was watching Hoarders, I usually don’t like to watch this show because its so sad to see those people living in those conditions. All of that dysfunction comes from childhood issues, or things that happened in their adult life and as a result they start to live in their heads. But, tonight I decided to watch and…..what I found out Surprised me.

I’m a food eater. I love food! I’m a thinker. I think and over analyze a lot. I realized through watching Hoarders tonight, even though I’m not a hoarder, I LOVE to think while I’m eating. I love ice cream, and chocolate chip cookies that bakes in the oven. When I’m overwhelmed with thoughts and ideas… I like to FEED MY THOUGHTS AS I EAT. As the thoughts come to my mind, I eat while thinking. Many times after doing this, it never feels as if I’ve eaten anything, because I didn’t eat because its dinner time, I ate because I fed my thoughts. I know this will make sense to someone.

For so many years I have done this. It has become a habit. This is why I know for a fact that those Hoarders are doing this to feed their thoughts about their past. Its a form of therapy for them. Just as eating food and thinking is one for me.

Many years, I kept telling myself that I want to lose weight and get back to the “sexy walk into anyplace, and have everybody looking, because of my personality, Spirit and curvy body self.” But with so many thoughts coming to my mind about my past, now, life lessons, family, friends.. anything that’s going on with me at that time, I wasn’t able to focus on myself. I knew that when I FINALLY asked God to help me that I would know FOR A FACT that I was READY and serious about it.

Since the 7th of May with the 21 Day Challenge… I have lost a total of 12 pounds as of today June 2. I look at food TOTALLY DIFFEENT. I also had to change the programs that I was watching. Ooo wee this is so deep. I realized that when I watch shows like I almost got away, I killed my BFF, Fatal Attraction, Deadly Women, Wives with knifes, Redrum, Scorned, Evil Twins, Snapped…. that my mind start to think of who could have done this? What is the motive? I get angry, mad, and almost ready to fight those killers. I go right into detective mode… and while doing so… I HAVE TO FEED MY THOUGHTS WITH FOOD. I have to have a fatty snack usually baked cookies, or something to eat while I figure this out. WOW… GOD SHOWED ME THAT. He showed me that I do this. I paid attention to it and couldn’t do anything but laugh. It was a breakthrough for me. He is so right. So now, this is what I do. I wont buy pop, juice, cookies, ice cream, or anything that I love to eat in that way. I buy grapes, strawberries, kiwi, apples, watermelon * eating that now lol*, peanuts, salad, tuna, broccoli as snacks. I had to stop watching my favorite shows because they trigger personal thoughts and causes me to eat when I’m not even hungry. So, when I know for a true fact that I am doing very well with being consistent with losing weight, I’ll watch those shows again, but for now I watch cooking shows. I don’t like cheese at all, and by mostly everything is cooked with it, I watch the shows to NOT WANT TO SNACK AT ALL. I LOVE IT. This works for me.

I truly had to change the way I think and eat. Its amazing what you can learn about yourself…… when you ask God to help you.

Be Blessed!

Listen to yourself and in that quietude you might hear the voice of God. – Dr. Maya Angelou

May 21-Day Challenge Update……. (((((Blog)))))

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So…. yesterday was the last day of the May 21 Day Challenge. I have lost a total of 10 pounds!!! Yeaaa Cree! I have decided to keep going. I really love the fact that I can get into these Capri’s that I bought several years ago, as a matter of fact when I put them on today they slid down my waist. LOL My attitude was oh well…. I have no problem in being out of them just as quick as I got into them.

I love this challenge because it forces to me to be conscience of everything I put in my mouth. To be honest, right now I don’t miss the Pepsi’s, the chocolate, fast food, candy, ice cream, cookies, juice. Today I went down to the store in the lobby and I looked at a snickers, and said wow, I know I would have picked you up if it wasn’t for this challenge, thing is… you are one of my emotions. I eat snickers, reese cups and chunkys when I’m in thinking mode. Same way with food. I don’t even need it , especially when I don’t crave it. I just see it and want it. Now I look at that stuff and stand there and think on WHY… why would I chose you? Its never because I want it, but because its there and available.

 

 

I have learned quite a lot about myself during this time. When I work out, I count backwards. Yes, it simple, but usually the counting in my head drives me nuts.. So when I count, I start with 100 and work the numbers up to 1. I get so pumped as I’m getting to the last numbers to start another exercise. Before when I would do the normal 1,2,3,4,.. in my mind I’m like… hurry up 35-50 or whatever I’m counting to!!! LOL Its amazing how differently you can see food, when you FOCUS on it. Emotional eaters see food as comfort. A go – to type of thing. I eat to feed my thoughts. When I have ideas and great thoughts and solutions… I’ll over eat dinner and kill it on deserts. When I feel depressed or down…. I never eat. If during that time, its been a while since I had something to eat, I’ll come to a conclusion that everything will work itself out, then I’ll eat just from those “comforting thoughts”. It’s deep.
I have a lot to share, and plan to do so as time go on.

 
Be Blessed
Listen to yourself and in that quietude you might hear the voice of God. –

Dr. Maya Angelou

Conversations with friends, A Wedding Dance *tissue needed* (((((Blog)))))

JESUS CALLING

 

Its a new week already wow!

Today I had some great conversations with 2 lovely ladies. I enjoy ministering to them. You know when life lessons come to teach you something, you have to really get into a quiet place and hear from God. God always gives us exits. Always. They both told me today that they loved me and that I am always there for them when they need to talk. They went on to say, how they appreciate me as a friend. That really felt good, because for the last few years I have really went through a life change. And it shut me down. I mean I have gotten over not living in Atlanta, its the things that happened after that, which rocked me to the core. I had SO MANY inbox messages of people wanting me to listen to them, and flat out, I said look…. I’m going through myself.. I can’t even think to help you right now.

Week after week of listening to TD Jakes LIVE on Sundays * I know I should have been in my own Church* but I know for a fact that he has helped me to know my calling. It was meant for me to be under his teachings. I am so excited. There are no hesitations on my part anymore. No more wondering, no more doubt. One thing I know I cannot do again. Is to shut down on people who need me. I can make it brief, but to never shut down like I’ve done this time. No matter what I’m going through. God has equipped me to keep it moving…. and this I know. I enjoy doing this, its what I was called to do. I finally got it. I plan to put together a Women’s Gathering and its going to be out of sight!! Life changing for many. I haven’t been this excited in years.

Later on, I received an email from someone to join her on line Ministry. I am very excited to do so, she is a very lovely lady.. I need this group very much. We’ve been FB friends for a while and not only that, but she’s written a book and when I purchased it, I WAS SO SURPRISED TO SEE MY NAME IN IT!!!! SHE DIDNT TELL ME.. HOW AWESOME IS THAT? I had asked her a question which made her really think, not knowing how it helped her. You’ll have to read it yourself…(((copy and paste))))   https://www.smashwords.com/profile/view/ayanaelon

Please watch this very touching Wedding Dance. Get some tissue…. you will cry.

I’m closing for now….. Be Blessed
Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

21- Day Challenge, Beyonce *my gurl* ((((((Blog))))))

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Hey,

On Mother’s Day we all went to my moms house for dinner. We had a good time too. Sitting here thinking about how hard it was to see everyone drinking PEPSI and I had bottles of water. That was so hard…. but only for the first hour. They were opening them everywhere. All I could do was look at them. Which brings me to this question. I wonder how ex-alcoholics and ex-drug users sit around others that do it. That’s really hard….well I guess for some it wont bother them, but after a while some do slip back into the habit. I made it through. I did it. I live alone so its easy for me not to drink any pop, but when I’m out socializing that can be hard. BUT WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT THE BIGGER PICTURE…. YOU WILL STICK WITH YOUR PLAN.. AND I DID. (((hugs for the gurl)))

So far I lost 2 pounds haven’t been a week yet. I’m really motivated. I saw my boo today, he said “I like that black”… talking about my dress that I was swinging in today. Yesss… baby.. little does he know I wore it for him. Its so easy to hypnotize men. Me…. I don’t say a word.. I just let the atmosphere take its course.. LOL LOL Okay… Im being bad… * wink*

I try not to celebrity blog… but I have to go there with my gurl Beyonce. I need for her to grab my hand on this one. I know when that Virgo found out that elevator tape was leaked she bout passed out. Now, I gotta be honest, it was some FUNNY PHOTOS going on, and some were so funny, people need to be comedians. Beyonce is a PRIVATE VIRGO… we share a lot, but you think you know us… YOU HAVE NO IDEA. She’s noisy so she went on line and saw the photos and the comments. That was a leak that she never expected to come out.

But the part of life that bothers me… people think people with MONEY don’t have issues. We all have issues or trust me….. or…. THEY WOULD BE IN HEAVEN WITH GOD IF THEY DIDN’T. Its okay to go through something to make you look as real as you are. Having a clean record of “nothing” known is what can break you down, once its made public. I love my gurl Beyonce, and I hope that everything works out according to her prayer she post on Twitter. AMEN

Be Blessed!

Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

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