Newness!
HEY!!!!
Praise God for a brand new day, a day that no one has ever seen. A day to get it together within!!! When I opened my eyes this morning, the first thing I said to myself is….. Thank God my eyes, I can see.
So much is going on with me, where do I start? All good.
Mar’Neisha went to Ohio with her dad, aunt, and Step Sister, yesterday evening to visit her family till Monday. She was very angry with him yesterday morning. Oh my goodness. I had never known her to get so angry…. ever. He told her that they were pulling out of Detroit around noon. I was at work, and while I was in the bathroom… “something” told me to text her and see have they left yet, cause I know her dad, he will tell you he’ll be at your house ( because he’s “down the street”) in one minute, and he’ll get there in 30. Neisha is that Virgo that likes to be on time NO EXCEPTIONS!!! I’m that Virgo that will be saying, here I come, here I come, give me one mo mintue…… about 20 times. LOL So, when she text me back, she was soooooo angry because she called him and said… look dad it’s after 12 what’s up? He said I’m doing this job, we’ll pull out around 4ish 5 ( they end up leaving around 7ish ). She asked him why didn’t he call everybody that’s riding with him and tell them? I dunno what he said, but she had to called her aunt, and Step Sister and tell them about the change. Then she texted and told me, that she didn’t want to have flash backs of her waiting for him to pick her up as a child. OMG… I never knew she felt that way….. at all. I had to called my baby to put things in order. I told her to pray about it, and ask God to take away the bad thoughts she has having, she was crying. I felt so bad for her. He does this a lot to her/everybody!! All the time. He use to do me like that. I know him like a book. She just has to learn that if she is going to deal with him when it comes to family functions and traveling, she has to not let it get to her. She already knows how he is. I told her you need to make up in your mind, if you’re going to deal with him when it comes to trips? They travel to Ohio and Atlanta about 5 times a year. But still he is her dad, and as a mother, I’m not going to let her carry anger around with her. I asked her is it that you wanted to go to Ohio so badly, she said No ma, it’s the fact that I had to call HIM and ask him why isn’t he here yet.She says he does this all the time. She said we all got up at 7 ish in the morning and we were all at home waiting. I got that. After I calmed her down and talked with her, we hung up and I sat on my break in Subway thinking, should I text him and let him know that he needs to stop having ppl wait on him every trip they take? God was like NOPE, don’t do it. She is 23 and can talk to her dad in her own way. That is an issue that she needs to talk with him on if they are going to travel together. It was hard, but I put the phone down and let it go. When I got home, I told her I wanted to text him, she said NO MA you didn’t do you? I said no, and she was happy. LOL But when he finally finished and came to get her and her step sister from at my house, she was madddd at him!!! He said Lacrease, she’s mad at me aint she? LOL I said yep, you’re gonna have to fix this one yourself boo!!! LOL Its very seldom Neisha gets angry, but when she does its hard for her to forgive right away. I don’t like that about her. I can forgive instantly. She will ignore you, like you are not in the room. I can’t. She text me last night when she got there and I asked her did they talk on the way there, and she said a little. I told her to neverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr allow herself to get on that level of anger again, forgive him, but learn your own lesson from it. Whatever that is!
Last night after I got off work, I came home and read the whole book of Job. Took me hours, becuse of phone calls, emails, dinner, and quick naps. lol I read the bible daily on-line as well. I love that because it gives you a little at a time to read without feeling overwhelmed. Okay, I’m about to ramble because I need to be getting dressed to go to dinner with my momma @ 5… its 4:32. She woke me up this morning saying, Lets go out to dinner today, just me and you. I LOVE IT!!!! MY SISTERS ARE GOING TO BE JEALOUS. HAHAHA And my momma made me a banana pudding 3 days ago. They would burn my house down if they knew that. ROFLLL. I begged my momma not to tell them, cause if they knew they would come ova and “tear the club up”. Then my nieces and nephews love it, OH LAWD I WOULD HAVE A FIT, seeing all of them going in the cabinet grabbing bowls. LOL ME and my momma ripped that bowl of HOMEMADE banana pudding apart!! Baaaaaaaaby when I say, we “tore the club up”…….. please believe it. HAHAHAHA (my spooky laugh).
My coworker ( white lady) lost her boyfriend a few days ago, tomorrow is the funeral. She is the one who keeps me uplifted at work, prays with me there, and for me. She gives me a word from God, and she always knows when something is on my mind. Ahhhh, she is soooo intuned with me. She’s around her early 50’s. I feel bad because I thought her close Walmart gurl Ms. Denise, would send a card around, and she probably did/would, but she wasnt at work yesterday. The bad part is, I hate that I didn’t do it. I waited for somebody else to do it, when I should have done it. She approached me yesterday as I was leaving for the day and said, Sat is the funeral, please keep me in your prayers. I looked into her eyes and wondered why wasnt I passing a card for her. SMH. Gotta boss up my Awareness. My other co-worker who I talk about God with, she came to me and ask for a few dollars, I gave them to her, and when I got home. I sat at my kitchen and began to pray for her, to pray for her finances. She’s having a hard time right now, and I feel for her. AT first I was going to put it off till later, but I can hear God telling me to go ahead NOW. So, I did. Dont yall know the very next day I went to work, and when my co-worker saw me walk into the door she told me after I punch in to come here. I did. She told me that when I walked into the door JUST NOW, she got chills when she saw me. She said so deep that it bought tears to her eyes. She said last night she had this dream that God blessed us both financially, like bless us GOOD!!!! And instantly I thought about how I wasnt going to pray until God told me o do it! Now, had I not prayed, I would have been feeling pretty stupid as she was telling me what she dreamed about. LOL I said God you could have picked her and any of the 200 plus co workers to be in that dream with her, but you chose me. I said I’m so glad that I was Obedient!!! When I prayed for her…………. I prayed for myself as well !!! I told her about my prayer and she teared up while ringing up a customer. I see there is still a lot for me to learn 🙂
I am so behind on my movies……… I wanna see my gurl Angelina Jolie in Salt this weekend.Been kinda broke lately. At least all my bills are paid. Thats all that matters. Been paying my Tithes for 12 weeks straight in a row, just as God told me. No cutting corners, paying him first off the top!!! My August is jammed pack. August 14, I’m going to a wedding!! Been waiting for this one for a while. August 21, my good friend is having a Gurls Night at her house, and on August 28, about 45 of my Anita Baker friends are coming into town. There are so many of us. WE have hotels booked, and we are having dinner Sat just before the concert. I’m excited. My money better be looking alright!! LOL My Sistergurls group is going strong. It’s just hard to get women to open up and chat. I made the group private. But when they chat…….. they chat, so that’s good. There are 41 of us, if I could only get half to open up. So, I started thinking, wait………… I don’t have to do this work all by myself. I sent out an email to the group asking for others to help post Scriptures, videos, testimonies and 4 ppl replied. I told them what I wanted/vision. And today is the 3rd day. So that’s a plus. People want to talk about baby daddy’s, and bad men all the time. I don’t. Thats not where I’m going. Anyway……….. I’m about to get dressed for dinner , and I’ll post this weekend!!
Cree
Thank you Lord!!!
Thank you Lord for this day!!! I had a marvelous time on the Detroit River ( Belle Isle Park) this morning with you. I shall be out there again tomorrow morning. I enjoyed how you drew my attention to the seagulls who were chasing that one for his food!! OMG that was the cutest “show” I have ever seen. They were willing to get hit by a car, truck, it didn’t matter tryna catch him and eat the food he found. He end up dropping a piece flying away from them.LOL I had never seen anything like it, they were on his tail. LOL It was funny too. So, I Thank you for that.
La’Crease
My day…. July 12, 2010.
Hey Sweety Babies!!! ( My greeting to people I meet)
Ah where do I start? First I have got to Thank Jesus for blessing me and for loving me no matter what!!! No matter how crazy I am, ( hehe) he stills show me that I’m still in the running. 7 I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. 2 Timothy 4:7 (New International Version)
Today was a good day!!! I had to work this morning. Before work, I had to go to my bank @ 9 o’clock because those “doe doe birds” TRIED TO GET ME!!! Oh yea, they tried to get “ThatgurltheycallCree” LOL! Check this out. I had 3 purchases on my account that posted on-line at home AS SOON AS I SWIPED MY CARD….. Okay….. which was on the 6th. On the 7th I didn’t swipe my card at all. On the 8th was pay-day and I have direct deposit. Well, ( clears throat) on THEIR screen, my transactions for the 6th never posted until IN BETWEEN TIMES OF MY DIRECT CHECK DEPOSIT. But on mines it did. As, I was on my way to bed, I decided that I was going to go on-line pay my tithes to get that off the top. I said wait…….. let me check my balance first. I checked it and my direct deposit was there. I made the transaction to my Church on-line. On check day much later , I went to check my balance on my account and it showed that they took out 3 over draft fees for $33.00 each!!! I was like Noooooooo they didn’t. The next day I went to one of their branches, and the 2 ladies that where there said they couldn’t even EXPLAIN THIS TO ME, and for me to go to my own bank branch where I signed up at 6 years ago. This was Saturday. That meant I had to wait till today/Monday.
Before I went in the bank, I had to have a pep talk with myself in the car, because I’ll get upset when they start talking dumb to me. When another agent hears what has happened, they love to come over and try to explain *gang up on me* and help the original agent HELP me to understand. lol She looked at my account and told me that the reason why it went into overdraft was because when I made my transaction for the ones on the 6th, it didnt post at that time. I said well, it posted on my screen on line!!! So when I paid my Tithes, that amount took up the amount I had left, making the 3 trans actions that happened 3 DAYS BEFORE HAND……….OVERDRAFT. And Im looking and saying to her in my COUNTYIEST VOICE * What was that now*? I said how is that a transaction can post immediately thats way higher than the 3 that was DONE 2 days ago, and make my account overdraft? She was looking so crazy, so guess you know………. the lady in the booth ova from us comes over and try to explain to me what happened. * See, I told yall* Im cool, Im listening. Then they both look at my account and say: Lets call ( over the phone) such and such, she may be able to explain this. They called this person, brief her, and then she tried to run it down to me. She said not once were you in the negative when you made your transactions. She said, but whenever you use your direct deposit, make sure you do it after 5:00am. She says what happened doesnt happen often, but we have seen it a time before. I wonder how many times they do this to old people? This is not FAIR!!!! She ran me back my “chips” THO and thats all that mattered!!
My Sister who is under me had to have surgery @ 11:00 am. She was told by her doctor that she had a clog artery and that they wanted to perform surgery to clear it. She was nervous, so was our whole family. I can’t take any kind of issues like this. I go crazy mentally… I really do. So today I was kinda nervous. Just the fact dealing with her heart and stuff, I’m not cool with that at all. Her husband was with her today, I went to work and I said a prayer for her last night and today while driving to work. I don’t like to show what I’m going through on my face at all. I can be dealing with 50 issues and only those who know me., would know something is wrong. I don’t want to discourage anyone, who needs to talk with me. After I said my prayer for my Sister, I felt good, I had Peace. I knew that God wanted me to let him take care of it, for me not to worry and to continue working.
Then this white lady came through my line, she had to be about 47 somewhere up in there. When she walked up to my register, I had my head down. When I looked up into her EYES to greet her, I was taken back by a STRONG BURDEN. I FELT A STRONG SENSE OF BURDEN ON HER. I had never felt anything like it before. Instantly, I said whats wrong, are you okay? She looked at me with a very, very humble voice and shook her head ( don’t remember if she was shaking it yes or no.) Um um, I knew something wasnt right with her. The burden she was carrying was so strong, I can actually feel it. That’s deep to me. The moment I looked into her eyes, I FELT IT. So, I’m ringing her up trying not to look at her, thinking I have got to say something, I can’t as a Christian let her leave here the way she came. God, said LaCrease when you are done, go around and hug her, and while you are there let her know that if she believes God will lift her burden it will be. I couldn’t finish ringing fast enough. Then people started lining up behind her, and I was like dang…………. should I do it? Then for a split second, I thought about JUDAS . Don’t ask… lol That flash back was enough. I never NOT planned on hugging and talking to her, but when I saw other people, I starting thinking okay, should I keep ringing to get the line down? Then I thought naw, I’m doing this!!! I finished her transaction, and I caught her totally off guard when I walked around from my register to embrace/hug her, INSTANTLY she started crying. Imma cry baby, so I told myself “YOU WILL NOT CRY LACREASE” LOL I hugged her so tight, I said God will lift this burden off your shoulder if you just let him. I told her that she had to BELEIVE IT!!!! I told her she has NO BUSINESS carrying around BURDEN this BIG!!! She didn’t tell me what it was, and I didn’t want to know. Her Burden was the biggest I have ever felt. She was a woman very very humble, and very little words. She cried and cried and cried. She wasnt expecting that at all. Thats why when people come into my life to Minister to me, and they don’t know me, or they have a word for me, I listen. I may not understand it at the time, but YOU BETTA BELIEVE that I’m going to be in prayer about it because IT ALWAYS COME TO PAST!!! EVERYTIME. And if I am out here Ministering to others, I want them to know that these words come from God not me. It’s not always easy to tell someone what the Lord said. Thats a form of Obedience, and as a Christian its our job to do as he say. I havent talk to one person who wasnt right about what they had to tell me about someone, or something. I guess, I’m stuck at “why I didn’t see it first, afterall it does have something to do with me”. But that’s okay, and its petty to try to figure out why, it’s just my job to do right by the information. Praise God?
I get off work, and I can’t dial my Sisters cell phone fast enough. I’m driving on the freeway pushing numbers , pushing the wrongs one tryna stay focused on the road. They told her that she might be in there for a day, if she did good, she could go home today. I didn’t get an answer, so I called my momma. She was like Na ( Yolanda) is home. I said home? For real? I said things must have went good, she said they went to do second look and found out that NONE OF HER ARTERIES WERE CLOGGED. They said it was clear!!!! They didn’t have to perform surgery at all!!! I was so happy and so THANKFUL TO GOD!!! OMG I was so happy driving home. As soon as I walked into the door she called me from home, she was tired tho. What happened was, they had went through the whole thing of surgery, but when they looked it them, it was clear!!! But so what! She has her husband, my niece to help her around the house.
I had a good day today. I have been learning so much about people, and when I sat around and talked about it with my brother and sisters, we all are experiencing the same thing in life. ITS DEEP! Thats coming up tomorrow. DEEP, DEEP, DEEP!
I’m on my way to bed, I’m off tomorrow! You all know what that means, Im going to the River in the A.M. tomorrow. So peaceful
Crazy Praise!!!
Today was a beautiful day!!! As I was driving home on the freeway, I looked up at the sky and saw how beautiful it was. Isnt it something, how God allows us to do many things, but when it comes to changing night from day, he does that? And havent anybody noticed how perfect he is, that the night has never hesitated to turn into day? WE need to give him Praise just from that alone!!! LOL Crazy Praise!!!
Even though I have started my Sistergurls Ministry on-line, I feel bad about not being able to connect with my Raisingurls @ my home. A lot of the gurls always called me for a ride, and for 2 years I would pick them up, take them home, when we went to the movies, I would pick them up. We also went out to dinner and I provided transportation, but my car is down….. I had to JUNK IT because it was giving me problems. So now, I’m using my daughters car, and I feel so bad about that. A few days I was praying, and ask God to bless me with transportation. And he said what kind? I remember my BF always tell me to be specific because that’s how she got everything the way she asked from God. I couldn’t tell him what I wanted, so I said God, I’ll think about it and tell you later. LOL So embarrassed!!! Later on that night when I prayed, I told him exactly what I wanted. A 2010-2011 grey Chrysler Town and Country Van!!!
I really love this Van. When I was in Atlanta we rented one and I didn’t want to give it up. This would be perfect for them. Plus I get so tired of needing 3 and 4 cars, with this, all I need is 2. A coupla of my gurls have really been off the chain since we had a meeting last year and the year before. I keep in touch with them, they are all on FB so that helps me a lot. I’m on my way to bed, gotta go to work in the AM. I’m cooking some greens for Sunday.
I have a house-warming to go to next week, a wedding next month, and also my ANITA BAKER family is coming here, that’s gonna be fun!! Well, talk to you later, and please listen to this song.
Cree
“Tired of fighting”
Today, I came to realize that I’m fighting. I’m just tired.
Today, I went down to my basement to my prayer area, and I stripped down NAKED to talk to God. I cried, and cried. I’m just tired of fighting. I’m fighting back what I’m suppose to be doing that’s going to lead me to the next level. Today, I surrender. Its okay too. It really is. I felt ( up until today) that Ministering to people everyday is taking up my time. Because it’s so demanding. Being selfish. But I have to give up my life, that’s not to say that I can’t have fun and do the things that I want to do. Maybe I’m scared of that. I’m about to get geared it so I probably won’t be posting as much. I’m going to learn how to balance my time with God, family, to Minister, work, and play. There is no balance in my life. I can no longer live like this. I’m tired. I’m so tired. I can’t wake up tomorrow and do things the way they have been done. I can’t. It will surely kill me.
Theres a reason why people are always calling me,texting me, stopping me on the streets, in line, on-line, off-line, at work, in the stores, on the phone, in person, in and out-of-town. I can no longer be selfish. My time is not MY time, it belongs to God .I’ve been wasteful with my time, and I can no longer “sip on milk”. I have a gift to be able to touch and reach a lot of people. No one know half of what I know. And let me say this, to all those reading my messages daily. Don’t watch me go through these whoppings from God and not learn from it. I’m going through a lot Spiritually, you all just DONT KNOW, and I come here to share these things with my readers. Please don’t let me go through this for FREE. Take something from it.
Let me post a few Scriptures that speaks to me at this time.
Hebrews 12 (New International Version)
Hebrews 12
God Disciplines His Sons
1 Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. 2 Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. 3 Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.
4 In your struggle against sin, you have not yet resisted to the point of shedding your blood. 5 And you have forgotten that word of encouragement that addresses you as sons:
“My son, do not make light of the Lord’s discipline,
and do not lose heart when he rebukes you,
6 because the Lord disciplines those he loves,
and he punishes everyone he accepts as a son.”[a]
7 Endure hardship as discipline; God is treating you as sons. For what son is not disciplined by his father? 8 If you are not disciplined (and everyone undergoes discipline), then you are illegitimate children and not true sons. 9 Moreover, we have all had human fathers who disciplined us and we respected them for it. How much more should we submit to the Father of our spirits and live! 10 Our fathers disciplined us for a little while as they thought best; but God disciplines us for our good, that we may share in his holiness. 11 No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it.
12 Therefore, strengthen your feeble arms and weak knees. 13 “Make level paths for your feet,”[b] so that the lame may not be disabled, but rather healed.
Talk to you all later….. Cree
He always talk to me…..
Today was a very good day!! I have to Thank God for that. I’m telling you, he keeps on Blessing me, and Blessing me. He is all up in my mix. I can tell when he wants to comfort me, cause he stays on my mind. He knows something is heavy on my heart, I dunno if he’s testing US on it, but this is really hard. I know one thing, he won’t let my hand go. No matter how I want to handle things my own way, he always talk to me, and talk to me, and talk to me, until I “get it” his way. I just don’t get the part where he tells me something thats A REALLY BIG DEAL, and I can’t even speak a word on it. I mean its like……….. getting to me. LOL I’m just going to trust him as I always do, and leave it alone.
I tell people all the time, its real important that you keep your head clear so that you can hear from God. Everyday it’s getting bad out here, and when we consume our thoughts with bills, gossip, issues that we have no control over, and many other things, our mind becomes cloudy. It drowns out what God wants to say to us. I never knew how important it is to keep our mind stayed on Jesus IN A WORLD LIKE THIS… its possible. When I feel myself getting down, I’ll sing songs in my mind, and clap ( clapping makes me feel good).
Today as I was about to do some shopping after my shift was over, my coworker walked up to me, and said …LaCrease, do you have $2.00. I didn’t at all. I didn’t have a dime to my name on me. I told her no, we talked for a minute and she went into the bathroom. As I was about to walk away with my cart, God said…. LaCrease go into the bathroom and ask her if she need some food or anything. I went ( made sure no one was in there) and asked her, hey…….. did you need me to buy you something? I told her I didn’t have any money, but I did have my Credit Card. She said…. I’m on lunch and I wanted to get something to eat. See, that kinda stuff makes me cry. I HATE to see people hungary. I hate it!!! I was so happy that I KEPT MY MIND CLEAR so that I could hear from God. I would have missed an opportunity to bless her. I told her to get anything she wanted. I remember a time when money was always low for me. I didn’t want to sacrifice anything, I use to be so selfish. Always wanted things to go my way. Always thinking about Lacrease. My friend use to tell me how selfish I was, I didn’t agree. Looking back on those days, I don’t see how she even wanted to be my friend. LOL I knew all her check days, food stamp days, child support days. I had all of them checked off in my calendar. One day she asked me if I had a calendar (LOL) and I told her to look in my purse, why when she opened the Calendar she was SO SHOCKED to see all her pay days checked off with her name on it from Jan-Dec!!! She was so shocked !!!! LOL She said that’s why you always know when I have some money. LOL I didn’t want her to see that, but see I would ask her for money in case she tried to ask me first. Aint that selfish? Thank you Lord for taking selfishness out of me. Thank you.
I was talking with a co-worker on Monday and I was telling her this year I plan to do the “Cree’s Feeding the Homeless for Thanksgiving Dinner” a little different. I’m planning to feed 75 people, but when it comes to the donations, I’m going to put those donors names in a bag, and the day before Thanksgiving, I’m going to pull at least 6 names ( depending on the amount of ppl donate) and give them gifts. God told me to get started now on the gifts. He knows that I want to give good gifts. I’m not a dollar store shopping gurl, and so my gifts won’t be “dolla sto ish”. LOL I believe that if you give good gifts, you’ll get good gifts. To me that shows your Character. Your gifts show just want kinda person you are, and what you EXPECT. I’m kinda excited about this. Only thing, if I’m in Atlanta, I’m not sure how I will do it. Either way….. I’m excited about it.
I minister to a lot of people, and I find that a lot of people talk to me because I’m straight up with them. I don’t Judge them, or look down on them. I do ask that if they’re going to tell me a story to tell the whole thing, because I can always tell when something is being left out. I didn’t realize how much Fear paralyze people. People have let what they’ve done in the past, supervise and plant manage their future. We’ve got to ask God reach in and take the Fear out of our minds and hearts. Proverbs 4:23 Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life.
I believe that Fear kicks in FOR A LOT OF PEOPLE, when they hear NO, NOT YET, LATER, or MAYBE. If they hear No, they feel that they have to go with another plan. People will sit and be hungary, just because they are scared to ask because they may hear… No. Whether is No, you can’t have it, or even No, I don’t have it. People have Fear of their past. The things they’ve done, and they’re afraid of others finding out. They have Fear of friendships because they’re scared they’re going to end up hurt. And this is another reason why you can’t gossip and constantly have your mouth on someone else’s situation……….because you Fear you could end up that same way. There are so many different corners of a person, and just getting to know someone can set up Fear in your heart. Sometimes we have to take chances. Once you allow someone into that space, it always turns out to be okay. Don’t hold yourself up because of Fear. And yes, I’m talking to myself as well. I have Fears and doubts too. I’m Fearful to pray in front of others, I’m scared I might say something stupid. LOL ( I can laugh at myself). I am veryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy Fearful of that. I sit and try to imagine myself praying. For example: I may need to pray before we start my gurls group, I’m scared I may say this: Father God in the name of Jesus, Lord Thank you for our meeting this evening, and Thank you for traveling mercies to and fro, and then I FEAR I may say……. Lord, Thank you for letting me make it to work on time, and for not forgetting, to take the pork chops out this morning. Stuff like that. LOL I will just zone all the way out, and I am soooooo FEARFUL of praying in front of NEW PEOPLE . If, I’m at dinner and I’m asked to pray. I will start shaking….. probaly would fake sick, and ask to leave. LOL Im serious. My stomach start flipping and doing jumps. I can’t take it. But let somebody talk about God….. I’m all in. I make friends with strangers just to join in on the conversation. Yall aint bout to talk about my daddy and I’m not in it. LOL Just don’t ask me to Pray. LOL But yes, Fear will paralyze you. We have got to ask God to take that out of us, in the name of Jesus.
In closing, Thank you Lord for Wisdom. Thank you for talking to me late night this week, cause you know, YOU know, YOU know…… I’m on the edge. LOL You know how I am, you know Lord, and I Thank you for being in control. If you leave me for one minute….. I’ll mess things up. You did it for me, and I have to be patient. Just hold my hand, please don’t let me go. Remind me of Scriptures to keep me up. Keep me busy Lord. Thank you.
La’Crease
Proverbs 3:1-4 (New International Version)
Proverbs 3
Further Benefits of Wisdom
1 My son, do not forget my teaching,
but keep my commands in your heart, 2 for they will prolong your life many years
and bring you prosperity. 3 Let love and faithfulness never leave you;
bind them around your neck,
write them on the tablet of your heart. 4 Then you will win favor and a good name
in the sight of God and man.
“Lets get the Joy back”
Hey,
Thank you Lord……I had a wonderful week, last week. Prayers were answered, met a doe doe bird ( rolls eyes), my Pastor gave me confirmation today, and I’m gearing up for the weekend!!!
Where do I start? Monday, I met this guy at work. I was working the 21 items or less lane. He was tall, thick, like I like him, nice smile, brown skin. I knew he was staring at me while I was ringing up the customer before him. I like to mess with a man’s mind sometimes, so when it was his turn, I adjusted my eyes and batted my lashes, looked up at him and said……… *Hello*. LOL I thought he was gonna pass out. LOL He told me that I was beautiful and instead of him asking for my phone number. He stood around talking as I went to ring up the next person. At some point, I said to myself, let me give this man my cell phone number. He was happy because * I knew what he wanted without asking*. Ummm okay. That evening he called me around 7:38 ish. We were talking and getting to know each other and asking questions. I asked him where did he live? He’s an event promoter in Nashville Tennessee. I said to him, how are you gonna talk to me and you live in Nashville? I said why didn’t you say that in the beginning? Stuff like that change things. He was talking about his ex-wife ( she was a Virgo too), he’s a Cancer. It was just something about him that I couldn’t place my finger on. As we went on for a while, he just started cursing and I promise he said about 5000 words, and 4200 of them was B’s AND MF’s! Now, I KNOW my tongue can get colorful at times, but dayummmmm!!! LOL Then … he had nerves to say…. I NEED some GOOD P*! I said to myself, that’s a wrap for you boo. Hear my voice for the last time, cause this is your conversation with me. I told him…… let me call you back. I never did, and he blew my phone up the next day. LOL
See, when you get older, you let that kinda mess go. I don’t have time for that. One of my best friends feel that I’m too hard on men, and that I don’t give them a chance. I had to break it down to her, cause see she’s married happily, she doesn’t have to work, has 12-year-old boy/gurl twins and sometimes she forgets my struggle. She’s been knowing me for 20 years. Back in the day, yeah, I would meet a guy, and if he had 1000 flaws, I would see good in him and take him in. I’m 42 years old, GURL BYE, I’m not “accepting applications” for any old dude that comes along. When I meet them, look them in the eye, and have a few minutes of their time, I can already see. Sometimes it takes a few weeks, some may end up being a good friend, some get the AX. But I know….. Once I explained to her that the older you get, the search narrow. She FINALLY got it!!! Whewwww gurlllllll!
Today, my Pastor’s topic was * Lets get the Joy back*! This topic for me goes hand and hand with the *Seek his Face* topic that God and I talked about. For years, and years, and years….. I couldn’t understand why I was always the one people come to for advice, why was I the one always in a good mood, why was I the one to get it * started* when we had get togethers and gurl functions. I knew it was just apart of my personality. Then, I got tired of that. People calling with their problems, and issues and needing to know why this and why that? And I got to the point were I’d say……. Gooooooo to God like I do!!!! *Blank Stare* I was going to God with all my stuff, but here they come with all their stuff on me. I got depressed, and stopped answering my phone, I put a note on my house door that said call first, and if you didn’t, DONT KNOCK ON MY DOOR. My family and friends were laughing, but I was stressed out. I wasnt taking another phone call on SOMEBODY ELSE’S ISSUES. They were draining me. I remember I was 14, I would read my bible and ask for Wisdom. I would read the book of Proverbs everyday. I wanted Wisdom so badly. I wanted to know things before they happened, not for bragging rights, but to know a head of time.
One day in my early 20’s. I would sit up and God would tell me something before it happens, and when it would come to pass, I would be so geeked. But then it was happening often, and my *friends* ( looking back they didn’t know any better* would start to look at me funny, and think I was crazy. So, one day, I was like God….. take this from me!!!! People don’t get it, I don’t understand it. Why do you have to tell me stuff in advance and BUT YOU DON’T TELL THEM? I felt out of place, weird, and advanced. This was a big deal for me, I had started straying away from God a little due to partying, men, and drinking. I flat-out told God to take this Discernment away from me. I didn’t want it.
And He did. 😦
For years, it seemed as if I was’nt living under his umbrella. Felt like I was living life in a dark room, no light switches, or anything. I had gained and lost friends, told God I needed my discernment back. I told him I was sorry, I didn’t know any better, and could he please give it back to me. Oh goodness, it took some time too. Boy, did it take time. But when he restored it, it seemed to be 100 times greater. I wouldn’t ever want to wake up and its gone. Not in these days. I’m so grateful to him for that. He knew I didn’t know any better. I guess I’m saying all of that to say… when my Pastor said ” Lets get the Joy back”.. I got it!
One day this past week, I was working and sometimes my mind will leave the building. God was speaking to me about who I am. At times I can’t understand why I’m always so upbeat and friendly. God told me, he said LaCrease you are to be a light at all times. I give you Peace, and Joy. You don’t have drama in your home, or in your life. I make sure to that. So that when you are in public, people can look at you and see ME!!! He said people are drawn to you, I gave you that voice to be able to speak ANYTHING in the atmosphere. He said you’re not afraid of what others would say about me, you are BOLD and I need that. He said show yourself friendly and that’s when you can talk to people about me. I was blown away…… that explains this new attitude I have since being back from Atlanta, and the lady that spoke to me.
So then, Friday I was in the lunch room reading and talking back and forth to my Christian Sister Gina. She was boiling her some hotdogs in the microwave, had chilli, hot dog buns, chips, juice the works, LOL She is the only one who will bring a dinner to work and cook that baby…… and it look and taste good. I noticed that it was only a handful of us there, and that we had 2 new male co-workers. One of them I was training, so he sat with me. I gave him a fork to eat his corn, and the other guy sat at the table over from us by himself. Gina, said to him, hey you want a hot dog come on get one of these, we feed people up in here!!!! And to both of our surprise he got up and went to her table and ate. So, I’m saying to myself, he was sitting there hungary all along, while we ate. Oh, I felt so bad for not noticing that he was hungary. He got up and fix him one of Gina’s chilli dogs, chips and she gave him money to buy a pop out of the machine. See, I know how hard it is on the first day of work. Money is low, its hard trying to figure out how you’re gonna keep gas in the car, eat, or snack its hard!!!! Thats when Christians come in. We’re supposed to be conscience of situations like this. I don’t expect EVERYONE to do that job, I feel its OUR responsibility to make sure that their wants/ needs are met. I can’t sit there eat, and not offer anything. Thats when Disceenment kicks in.”John” and “whatshisface” can come in and not notice,( and thats okay), but its OUR job to “feel” the need of others. I gave him a coupla dollars, and that’s how you make others Praise God. I don’t even know the boys name. That’s how you plant seeds, one day he’s going to be in position to do the very same thing. All it takes is for him to be Blessed in that way.That was all God, cause it wasnt me. I didn’t pay too much attention to the fact that he was in the room, until Gina noticed it first. Im thinking about forming a Hospitality Board at work, made up of Christians, to aid and assist the new people who start work. Its hard those first days leading up to a first check. Real hard. I say that because for some reason, the new people I train always ask me for change/money to buy a candy bar or something…… always during their training days. And I know its God who sends them because I’m approachable. I love it!!!! God bought that to my attention a few days ago. So that’s why I was rejoicing today when my Bishop preached on “Lets get the Joy back”.
I know my assignment now, everyday since I’ve been seeking his face. I’m suppose to be a magnet to bring people to Christ. I talk about God all day to anybody who will listen. It explains why I’m always friendly. God put this light inside of me and I’m going to let it shine.
Alright! I’m going to see my other boo this weekend. Maxwell, and my gurl Jill Scott @ The Palace of Auburn Hills, this Saturday night. I paid $220.00 for that seat…….12th row. Yea, that may be close to you, but ummmm that’s too far back for me. I love Maxwell, but he pisses me off when he adds 3 and 4 extra foo foo’s to the bill. For $220.00 I WANT ALL MAX. I don’t mind seeing Jill, because I’ve never seen her live. But for his June’s show, he added all these other people to his bill, that aint cool at all. You aint bout to split my $220.00 with 4 ppl. LOL That means Imma get short-changed .LOL Nah, I’ll pass. He did that back in Sept when he was here in Detroit, adding all those people at the last minute. OOOO weeeeee I wasnt happy at all. But I was good after the concert. LOL He threw down!!!
Well, I’m about to chill out and listen to some music.
*One more sign God*……just one more
HI:)
Don’t you just hate it when you ask God for something or someone, and when he blesses you with it, you can’t even recognize that its there? That’s how I’m feeling on a situation about me. I asked God and asked God and asked God for something and when it happened for me………. Ididnt believe it. When I asked God for signs to let me know if its true, he gave me a sign that was outta this world. If I wrote it, you’d probably come through here and tap me on the wrist………..HARD! Then that wasn’t enough for me, then he showed me another sign and another and another and another. Here it is 3 years later, and TODAY I GOT IT!!!
I get so upset with myself for letting this pass me. I trust God and I know he’s true to me. But why can’t I just believe that this happened, that it really is true. Why do I still want God to show me, better yet, I wish he would come from Heaven and say………. YES ITS TRUE. I just need God to say it out of his mouth, in a dream, or write it down on paper, I won’t tell anyone. Just tell me God is it true? Just one more sign Lord, one more.
Lacrease
Caught up I am!!!
Hey Everyone!!!
First I have to say Thank you Jesus for these wonderful and happy days that you\’ve given me. I am so thankful for all the love that you\’ve shown me. ((((hugs and kisses))))
I know I ha vent been blogging lately, but I have been busy busy busy. Every time I wanted to say forget this and forget that, I heard this voice in my hear say… keep going Cree. I did. And for it I got so much done, blessed a lot of people , and took care of some HIGH bills!!! Paid off 2 creditors and have a coupla more to go. I remember back in the *day*, I would use this credit card, and use that one with no intentions of paying them back. I was young and careless. Now credit is important to me. Even though I just got my * bill of good health* for a bill totaling almost $900.00, I\’m ready for the next one. I want to clear my name and move on you know? Momma use to always tell me about the importance of good credit…… now I see.
My dad moved last week into his new apartment * without mom* its all good. Everyone is on good terms and sometimes things change, and you have to be willing to change with it. If not your feelings could be hurt and left behind. It took me a long time to realize that things do change, and its okay. Its okay it really is, but also learn something from it, don\’t just experience it, learn from it and tell others. My dad is something * different too*. Its 4 of us including my mom 5, and please don\’t include the grand kids 22 -13. This is how my dad is. He will call me and ask me to pick up his prescriptions on Sunday, call my Sister Yolanda on Sunday night and ask her to take him to the doctor on Monday, then on Tuesday ask my other sister will she go grocery shopping for him, on Wednesday ask my mom to bring him a few dollars, on Friday he\’ll ask my brother to take him to the store for cigs, then on Saturday, he\’ll plan his next week. LOL Its not funny at all, but it kinda is, cause it took us a while to catch on to what he does. So now we tell him look, we are going to go get your cigs, groceries, lottery and what ever else you need in one day. So we ask my mom why he does this, she says he\’s lonely … I think he wants to be waited on hand and foot like he had it when we were kids and my mom was with him. AT any rate, he\’s still my dad, and I love him.
Tell me you guys saw Anita Baker do a tribute to Mary J. Blige with my baaby Tyler Perry sitting front and center * with Trina from WDIGM * It was one of the best performances Anita has done on TV. The lady is bad.See I go to her concerts every year so I knew what to expect, but for those fans who thought she was gone for good, they know Anita Baker ain\’t going no where!!!! Oh I watched it on my DVR so many times, I\’m surprised that thang aint popped!! LOL Mary cried, I cried, Tyler was geeked when Anita said his name and so WAS I!!! In case you missed these performances here they are……..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QRpNuJ8fKAc
AND
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=br25wecVA3k
I have so many friends coming to Detroit this Summer because Anita lives here in Detroit and she put on the best show you EVA wanna see, and I\’ll be there. When it comes to people like Anita Baker, Tyler Perry and Maxwell I am faithful. I love and admire their work and I make sure that I am there to support them in everything they do.
My Sister moved into her new place. Oh its so nice. I just love it. Its a nice size too just enough for her boo and kids. All my parents kids live near each other. All the gurls are all 3 minutes away. My brother lives downtown in a beautiful high rise building over looking the whole downtown area. Its da bomb!!!
Yesterday I went out and bought 9 tickets to the Advance showing of Madea Goes to Jail for Thursday night @ 12:01 am. Me my sisters my brother ,and a few others. I have to go and get one more ticket tomorrow before they sell out. People love Madea, I can\’t wait to laugh and most importantly learn some Words of Wisdom from Ma 2 da D E A!
I have a good friend on You tube who is just adorable. She has her * own show* as Id like to call it, and here is her link if you like to see what he show is about.
YouTube – thatswhyipraiseyou\’s Channel
I\’m gone take to ya later. God Bless
Lacrease
Hecallmecree
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