Question……………….Crees Blog Entry

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Someone on my FB page ask this question: Have you ever asked yourself; “Am I being a good role model to those whom admire me?” That’s a question everyone should ask themselves. Before I post anything on FB or Twitter, I ask myself.. what message will they get, am I angry right now, will I please God? I admit I can be quite VERBAL on Twitter, and I noticed that and for now on… I will take a few minutes to regroup myself from posting things that are done out MY EMOTIONS. People are paying attention to what you post. Whatever is in your post… it first came out of your heart.

I learned that if I’m angry about something, If I just give myself about 20 minutes to calm down… then what I was going to post I WONT EVEN POST ANYMORE. I LOVE that about God. But if you want to be seen, heard, or even felt, your EMOTIONS will override God’s voice, and your stats will always be full of ANGER AND RAGE, UNNECESSARY BRAGGING, AND IGNORANT CONVERSATIONS. If you don’t believe me….. scroll down and check your last 10 stats. Remember people are on FB for either one or two things, to be Spiritually Fed, or to be Nosey. Just know we ALL have BAD days.. we ALL go through… we ALL get mad and angry….. but the person who can control their EMOTIONS are the ones who are most ADMIRED.

Be Blessed

Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

God wants me to know…….Crees Blog Entry

ilovecreeToday, Lacrease, we believe God wants you to know that …

you need to maintain a balance between your needs and others’ needs.

Yes, it’s not an easy balance to keep, but try you must. Give too much, drain yourself, and there is nothing left only bitter space. Give too little, become a cork, and you block the flow of God’s love through you. Keep on balancing.

 

This is the truth. I am truly balancing. It was hard for me in the beginning but I’m finding it FUN to do things for myself. I am NOT GOD…..just like I have to go to him….. I will be directing all others to do the same. Oh yes….. there will be CHANGES.

 

This song is for ME…

 

Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

The lady at the Post Office…. Part 2 the response…. Crees Blog Entry

  • Janell Walker That’s a good daughter.
  • Charlene Hayes I havent finish reading this only firdt part and im screamin Jesussssss ok here I go….
  • Lacrease Walker Thanks mommy Janell Walker.. her was being mean to me Charlene Hayes lol lol gurl im cracking up at you, cause i can see your face it this was you… we come a loong way
  • Burks Sonjakeepnitmoving Girl we then come a long way with the help of Jesus ppl better ve praising God. .
  • Jacquetta Harrison some people choose to be ignorant and nasty…if they could be nice after the fact why not show that before…that’s why they changed their tune later because they felt it was wrong…and as far as the girl at Wendy’s how dare you ask her to do her job..lol…God saves a lot of these fools out here because nowadays you will get shot from stepping on someone’s shoes let alone something like mouthing off…I’m glad you handled it the way you did by laughing at them…they are some characters…
  • Lacrease Walker Burks Sonjakeepnitmoving Jacquetta Harrison I was so shocked at the wendys gurl and the post office customer. The post office ladyyou can tell that she was very educated, and worked as a social worker or teacher…. she was on a kane, and looked good for her age.. when i finshed being nice to the other people who came in after me asking the SAME QUESTIONS… they both kept wanting me to look at them, so they could smile and be “my friend”… it killed me, but when i was leaving and she was still there… I LOOKED AT HER.. and she was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo nice to me.
  • Burks Sonjakeepnitmoving Yea they felt real salty after they made it like that now supposed you just snapped on them.
  • Salada Praiseiswhatido Collier When GOD saved us he saved a lot of ppl… But me on the other hand is still trying to get to the point where u are and I’m still reading ppl they rights… Next time just call me and put me on speaker and I will take it from there lol… Enjoy the rest of your day
  • Lacrease Walker LOL LOL Salada Praiseiswhatido Collier okay let me ask you this boo.. how old are you.. cause it took some time to get to this point.. then imma go into what im thinking about this
  • Charisma Nikita I swear I am working on my anger management lol this situation would have been different it was me….
  • Burks Sonjakeepnitmoving Ppl need to look around and understand that things happen for a reason it’s so much crazy stuff happening it doesn’t pay to have a attitude towards ppl who has nothing to do with your situation most ppl are mad at themselves so they try to bring eveyone they come in contacts with in their negative circle. I try not to go there wuth ppl I would have ask her upon leaving now was your getting smart at the beginning really necessary and then said have a nice day and to her partner boy I was pretty when I enter the building so what’s your point. And with the Wendy’s lady its a number on the receipt
  • Lacrease Walker Salada Praiseiswhatido Collier Charisma Nikita LOL LOL LOL I feel yall both. Can I please give yall this little word of wisdom. When the gurl in the drive thru rolled her eyes so hard that all the white in her eyes was showing like she was having a seizure. I laughed.. and when the lady said in her spooky and sarcastic voice ” if they was open, we would’nt be standing here”..but let me tell you WHAT I KNOW.I KNOW.. AND GOD KNOWS that I can set it off!!!! I have shown myself this to be true many and plenty of times. Baaaaaaby.. please believe it!!! But the CHALLENGE IS TO DO SOMETHING DIFFERENTLY. To act a different way of what you are use to acting. The challenge is to be a LEADER and not react the way they did. Again,…. cause we KNOW… we have the POWER TO SET IT OFF UP IN THERE. When you know your strengths.. you can chose to either use it… or not. You have a choice in the way you react.

    So, God says to me…. LaCrease I know, and you know.. that you can set this little post office area off right? He said I allow you to be angry… and you can have your moment SILENTLY.. so what I did was because it made me so mad.. I had to walk around in my little square area of the post office to calm down… and what I do when I’m angry is think about things that make me happy which are….. Trees, flowers, water, the sky, and green grass. THESE THINGS CALMS ME ALL THE WAY DOWN. Once I calmed down… I HAD TO SHOW THEM HOW TO GREET PEOPLE… So what God did was… he let 5 people walk through the door…. a few asked the same QUESTION I DID…. And when they did I made sure I greeted them, NEVER GIVING THEM ANY TIME TO OPEN THEIR MOUTHS… I was the one who told them that they opened at 9:30.

    I laughed at the gurl in the drive thru.. cause she has no idea that doing that to me…. BACK IN THE DAY… that she was very close to having a VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY BAD DAY. The beauty in this is…. again God says .. Lacrease I KNOW, AND YOU KNOW.. you have the POWER in you to “set it off”… so do something differently… so I LAUGHED AT HER PAIN *of putting ketchup in MY bag” WOW WOW WOW Cause real talk…. if putting ketchup in my bag caused you to have seizure like episodes….. you aint mad at me boo… YOU MAD AT THE WORLD.. YOU MAD AT YO-SELF, YOU MAD AT YOUR LIFE. LOL LOL LOL PEOPLE LIKE THAT I LAUGHS AT. LOL LOL LOL And I kept it moving, driving down gratiot while digging in my bag… eating my french fries. LOL GURLBYE

    The POWER is not in showing them you can nut up too… the POWER is really in.. showing them that you’re going another route. 10 years as a cashier at Walmart … baaaaaaaaaby I got it together. LOL LOL LOL LOL

    Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

  • Lacrease Walker I learned that people who talk smart and DONT KNOW IT… CAUSE THATS WHAT THEY ARE USE TO ANYWAY.. they say what they have to say and then turn their heads.. cause its normal for them… but people who talk smart and KNOWS IT… THEY SAY IT AND STARE AT YOU WAITING FOR A REACTION.

The lady at the POST OFFICE PART 1 * wow*……Crees Blog Entry

A REAL WOMANGood Morning…. Soooooooo today I walks into the post office around 9:20am… and there were a man about my age and a black older lady. I was kinda shock to see them standing there. So before I went any further as they were “ALREADY STARING AT ME” I looked at them both and asked…..are they open? The lady looks at me with this spooky smile and sarcastic voice and said…. “if they was we wouldn’t be standing here” I said to myself ….Oh Lawd Jesus ….. ITS A FIRE!!!!….

When I FIRST meet a person, and they get smart… all types of bells and whistles, choirs , little kids singing, dogs barking, cat scratching, horns, guitars, drums, organs and all these things start INSTANTLY goes off in my head. All I could do is look at her…. she KNEW I wasn’t playing after I stared at her for about 40 minutes non stop * just playing*. Not that I would go off on her, because I have self control PRAISE GOD and I would never disrespect anyone. So, I said so the answer is NO? They both said.. very quickly a the same time…. No, not until 9:30. As I stood there to calm down… I realized that they open that part of the post office up for those people who have mailboxes, and they were just standing in that area until they opened. See, that was my reason for asking why were they standing there. I thought it all opened at the same time.

So, obviously they were first and second in line when they finally opened. They wanted to be my friend so bad… I WOULD NOT LOOK AT THEM. they kept turning around looking at me. So after my turn. the lady waited around for her package.. she looked at me with a nice smile * like she should have had done in the first place” and said have a nice day. I smiled back and said.. “you too maam”. Then here come homeboy…. you pretty, why you so pretty? Can I have your number…. I SAID IM MARRIED and jumped in my van. I KILLED THEM BOTH WITH KINDNESS. When people were coming in after me asking the same question.. I made sure their smart mouths didn’t spoil the atmosphere for others like they did me… I said to everyone who came in.. they open at 9:30. LOL

Question… why do people have smart mouths… why couldn’t she just say… they open at 9:30? Just a few nights ago, me and Nesha was at Wendy’s drive thru.. we ask the lady for ketchup… she rolled her eyes so hard… all I could see was THE WHITE PART IN HER EYES. And I’m looking at her like guuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuurl back in the day… I WOULD HAVE SNATCHED THOSE HEAD SETS OFF WITH YOUR EAR!!! LOL LOL LOL Yall who know me KNOW THIS IS TRUE. All I could do was bust out laughing in her face. I said to myself gurl you have no idea how GOD IS REALLY SAVING YOU RIGHT NOW! LOL People…. show yourself friendly… no matter what kind of mood you’re in. Smile, you’re only in strangers lives for a few minutes… aint no sense in acting funny. Be helpful, listen to others, make short conversation in showing yourself friendly…. … I TRY TO LIVE THIS life everyday. SMILE

 

PART 2 COMING UP * THE RESPONSE*

LaCrease you’re sleep …..WAKE UP!!!!!!!!! Crees Blog Entry

god to the rescueSo um…… last night/this morning, I was sleep. I keep my shades pulled back because I live downtown and LOVE the skyline…. which makes me able to see everything in the room because it has a little light. 

Out of the blue as I’m sleeping… I see my room in the dark THINKING NOTHING OF IT…. and then I hear this voice say…. “You are awake” *at that point I knew something wasn’t right, because it made a statement* and then I KNOW it was God that said “No LaCrease you are SLEEP. So when I heard God’s voice I KNEW the devil was trying to do something, don’t know what it was. When I heard God say that… I KNEW I was sleep and was trying to wake up, I felt my eye lids batting, trying SO HARD to wake up. When I woke up I was LIKE OOOO MY GOD… Satan tried to make me think I was awake… and God said LOUD AND CLEAR … NO LACREASE YOU’RE SLEEP …..WAKE UP!!!!!!!!! His voice was SO FAMILIAR. I never experienced God and Satan go at it right there in my presence. I’m sorry, I’m still tripping on this. It was so deep. I woke up in the middle of the night and wrote it down so that I can write about it. I didn’t hesitate or anything when I started batting my eyes, I was in my right mind with my eyes closed. I woke up saying WHAT JUST HAPPENED? The conversation took place right in front of me. 

Could someone be FAKE and appearing REAL in my life? There is a lesson in this… God will reveal all things to me that he feels are important. 

Be Blessed 

Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

The lady who almost lost 40 years of MEMORY….Cree’s Blog Entry

flat tireSoooo……… yesterday morning as I stood in line to get a money order, I wanted to smile…. but I didn’t because it was taking the manager a long time to come to the customer service line. Even then when he came, he looked at me…… God told me to smile…. I didn’t and I felt bad about it, because of what happened next. I didn’t even want to make eye contact with him once he came because there were people in front of me and it wasn’t my turn yet. But for some reason he kept looking at me. When the turn was MINES, we took care of business, and then he asked me if he could talk to me in his office.
My daughter was waiting on me so that we could both go to work, and when she saw me go into his office… she had to have wondered “what the what” is she doing talking to him? LOL He said to me… I know sometime ago, you came up to me and you said ” One day I want to work in your store… and when the time comes ….you’re going to hire me”. Yea I told him that…. I’m a pretty bold. Then he said… “well I pretty much have a full staff, but I need someone to work on the weekends, and some afternoons.” He said if you’re interested, what day can you come in to train? I was shocked everything was happening so soon. I told him that I could come right after my first job TODAY. He was happy and I was back there at 3 pm and I worked to 6 pm. As he was leaving yesterday he asked me if I could come back on Friday which was today. I did.. I trained for 2 hours.
As I was ringing up this one customer…. I noticed that she wasn’t “wrapped too tight”. She was an older woman… appeared to have been in her day VERY BEAUTIFUL. Had money, a good life, a husband who loved her, educated, with very educated children. A woman who drove nice cars, clothes and shoes to match. But LIFE caught up with her, because she was selfish, mean, stubborn, and thought more of her self than she was. And for many years God held up his umbrella of GRACE AND MERCY for her, knowing one way or another if she would change her ways. Well, it appeared she didn’t… and LIFE caught up with her and rung her neck…… causing everyone who comes in contact with her to “wear” her fragrance of BITTERNESS…..along with herself.
My trainer says to me… she doesn’t need help, she don’t want to do it herself. She said… she comes in here everyday and mistreats me. She said I will ring her up, you can go around and help her but I’m not. The lady was standing there, saying loudly and sarcastic… “I NEED HELP”!!! As I was unloading her things, I asked her “are you okay maam”. I talk to everyone this way, always asking are they okay, just in case they need help, or if I feel that something is wrong that they’re not saying. She was unbelievable. She talked smart to the lady behind her who was trying to help , she was unlike any thing I’ve seen before. She was really holding up the line… after she paid for her things. She was taking so long to move and by then everyone in line was “DONE WITH HER”. LOL LOL They wanted her out of the way. So to move the line faster, I asked her again are you okay? She looked at me and said REAL LOUD…. “I TOLD YOU I WAS OKAY. HOW MANY TIMES ARE YOU GOING TO ASK ME THAT?” I just looked at her, and I promise the HEAVENS OPENED AND I SAW WHITE LIGHTS…. .I WANTED TO SMACK 40 YEARS OFF HER MEMORY. Put up the DEUCE SIGN TO MY COWORKERS…. POP THE LOCK TO MY VAN, DRIVE HOME SIT ON THE COUCH WITH MY LEGS CROSSED EATING A BOWL OF CHOCOLATE ICE CREAM WITH PEANUTS ON TOP. To calm me the heck down.

TOO BE CONTINUED

Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

Conversations with God…..Cree’s Blog Entry

thank godDear God,

As I sat here earlier watching Creflo Dollar LIVE in Bible Study, he was saying some funny stuff about this lady who always prayed for him and LOVED to serve. Then it triggered a thought about you and I. LOL LOL I realize something. LOL LOL I cant stop laughing. I noticed that the 2-3 times I ranted in September about things in my life, and how I ask you when am I coming out of this wilderness, and why this and why that. But I noticed that every time I cried and ask you 1000 questions, I got instantly sleepy. I remember so clearly those times, in the middle of my rant, you said ” take a nap La’Crease”. It was so loud and clear… I remember standing up and walking around crying, and you said it again… “take a nap LaCrease”. But I sat back down at my desk… then all of a sudden… I GOT INSTANTLY SLEEPY… I couldn’t fight it. So I got up and laid on the couch. When I woke up.. I remember (((LOL LOL))) feeling so GOOD…. but I never pieced it together until now, that you caused sleep to come upon me ALL those TIMES. LOL LOL This is the same story for all of those times. You told me to “take a nap”. I did. lol Its amazing how Creflo’s story triggered me to think about this. I was so sleepy, that I couldn’t fight it… at all. And I can fight some sleep!!!! Now that I think about it, I probably was ON the thin line with my thoughts, anger, and questions. I was so sleepy, but I still wanted to ask you questions. Wow… that is so funny to me. I know next time….. just to go and take a nap

Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

When God speaks to me…… Cree’s Blog Entry

cosignI just absolutely LOVE when God speaks to me about a situation that I just don’t understand. 

Working at a High School with teenagers IS A JOB. There are so many students, I can’t remember half their names… LOL But I know the faces of them all. When I’m out and a see a Teenager… I’m always looking to see if they’re one of “mines”. I LOVE my job, even though its stressful… I KNOW FOR A FACT that God gave me the mentality and the gift to be able to go in Mon-Fri and break up fights, send kids to the Dean’s office, give out money when they ask, clean up after them,  make them go to class, tell them to pull of their pants, to stop cursing, to leave the gurls alone, to stop playing so much, give them hugs, and pep talks, show LOVE to them, preach to them, pull them to the side and give them a “whopping momma” talk. This job is normal for me. This is my life, this is what I do. I am cut out for this. 

I work very closely with 2 other ladies. I enjoy working and moving around a lot. I like to move around and be in different areas of the building, and so last week I got into with one of them…. she’s an older lady. I ask God why is she acting FUNNY/FUNKY to me? He told me because I get done with my work faster now, since I found a quicker way to do things. Not only that… but because I chose not to work directly with her, and also because I help out with other things that I don’t have to do. In my mind I’m like NAW.. she’s not like that. LOL Didn’t she confront me about how I haven’t been working with her lately, and that I’m doing too much “other stuff”. She is NOT my SUPERVISOR AT ALL!! I WAS SO SHOCKED… GOD WAS RIGHT * as always*. She let me have it. LOL Now that I think back on last Thursday. LOL After she blasted me out * she’s so lucky I’m working on my ANGER ISSUES* She knew I was mad at her for acting jealous. I’m not sitting next to her everyday while there is work to be done. THIS IS ALL HIGH SCHOOL RELATED THINGS THAT I DO. Then today, she sat in her chair with her legs crossed and slept FOR 30 MINS. SMH This is why I refuse to work with her in that way again. People LOVE to make things all about them. 

I came to the conclusion.. that I need my own group. I need something more personal. I’m going to come up with a plan to get my group going. But it wont be in Detroit. 

Teens these days need someone who’s going to plant seeds into their lives, who care for them, who will teach them about consequences, who will hold them accountable for their actions, who love them, and who’s going to tell them the TRUTH. I work with teens… I REFUSE to bicker with ADULTS on the JOB, when its not about them. Then when I put my head down INTO MY CELLPHONE… and not join in on the conversations…. everybody wants to know what’s wrong with “Sunshine”…. nothing… I just don’t have anything to say. I don’t want to talk about anything but KIDS. SOME adults you can’t just sit and kick it with….. you gotta keep it moving… AND I PROMISE ON A STACK OF BIBLES….. IM THAT CHICK THAT KEEPS IT MOVING!!!! This is my gift my calling, and NO ADULT WILL GET IN THE WAY OF HOW I WORK, HANDLE BUSINESS, HOW I COMMUNICATE… AND ESPECIALLY HOW FAR I GO IN ORDER TO HELP MY TEENAGERS.
Anger triggers… let me go. * wink* 

Be Blessed 

Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

Putting away childish things…DONE WITH YOU… Crees’ Blog Entry

CUT YOU OFFHeyyyy Everybody!!! I see the numbers on my blog entries are jumping off the hook! Well, I’m happy someone is reading, I just hope that you get something out of it. A lot of times when someone is having a moment or is going through something, once you read it, you can truly relate. I know I do. This is why I LOVE to read and LOVE to write.

I’ve been doing so, so, so good with my ANGER ISSUES… I guess its not as bad as I thought. When I feel myself getting upset, I’m make sure that I’m conscience of what I’m feeling, my thoughts, and what comes out of my mouth. I’m 46 years old, there comes a time when you put away childish things. I realize that I have the POWER to allow GOD to help me to control the atmosphere. When I open my heart to him, he helps me to come all the way down….. and I like that. I’m sorry I do NOT want to have ANGER stories for the rest of my life. Because if I’m having those issues often…. that’s WHO I AM. #idontthankso

So… my friend who had the fire in his apartment told me what happened. He was waiting on the time to pass so that he could go and visit his daughter for her first week back to school, he lit a cigarette and fell asleep with it in his hand. He woke up with his lap on fire. He suffered burns but was treated and released. He’s no longer living in the building. We had even began to be friends again. We talked on the phone for several nights straight… and if you know me.. I HATE talking on the phone ((( in person I can sit for hours)))… he knows this and expects for me to talk to him every night. I JUST CANT DO THAT…. I DON’T CARE WHO YOU ARE… and when I skipped a few nights and only text him…. *just as before* he stopped answering my calls. YESSSSSSSSSSSS SEE YA…. GOOD RIDDENS… I cant deal with a MAN who is so needy and has to talk everyday. I’M NOT A NEEDY WOMAN. So I deleted his number tonight.. AND IM DONE WITH HIM.. OUTTA HERE VIRGO SIR.

I had so much to say earlier, but its gotten late, and when I start itching and moving too much….. its BEDTIME LOL Good Night!

Be Blessed

Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy

Comment…. or disconnect? Cree’s Blog Entry

big likeAs the days go by I am reminded by God to take deep breaths as he continue to work with me on my Anger issues. I am not afraid to declare this issue of mines. As a matter of fact, it has helped me to STAY CONSCIENCE of arising situations that causes me to speak on a matter when nothing needs to be said.

This morning, I was having a moment when I wanted to comment on a post on FB that was a result of what I posted on yesterday. Instead of commenting on my post, this person made their own . I wanted so badly to comment.. but I know me… I don’t just comment…. I CAN SHUT THE WHOLE STAT DOWN….no curse words…. just TRUTH. But God asked me… “must you fight off all fools Cree”? He said now, you either continue reading and NOT COMMENT…. or totally disconnect… chose one? LOL LOL

He also revealed to me another reason why I have this issue with anger. He reminded me that when we were coming up as teens, me, my brother plus 2 sisters. We had real true friends. Our porch was the one everybody came to sit at EVERYDAY. To this day we still have the same friends… all of them are still in our lives after 32-35 years… everyone is still alive. WE never talked about each other, we never turned on each other, we all loved each other and people saw that in our friendships. We didn’t fight each other AT ALL.. PERIOD…. NEVER EVER.. AT ALL. NOT ONCE. We argued and debated but we were cool everyday. And so, this mentality of how I view friends took me over into my adult years. I went to a Wrap and Wine party this past Saturday at my good friend Gloria’s house. I met 10 women… not one thing I had to say about any of them when I left. You know how when you leave a function, or gathering, and there is something to be said negative about someone… anyone…. I’m not use to that type of mentality. So, I’m like okay God.. how does this tie into me? Well, that’s one of my triggers. When people ALWAYS have negative things to say about others. I don’t like that.

Now I am silly… If I’m out to dinner with some friends, and one of them are throwing down on some food and its a silly moment.. I may say something stupid like…. OOO chile you putting that fork da WORK BABY!!! LOL But everybody knows I’m silly and will expect for me to say it. Now…… if that person is not riding home with me, and I’m with others that was there….. I may hit back on that subject, in a funny NON OFFENDING WAY. And its going to be something said that I would say to THAT person I’m speaking about. I wouldn’t DARE go call up another person and talk and bring it up. That’s childish to me, and its drama filled. But to say… oooo that dress she had on was a mess, or she know she was busting out. WE * * just don’t disrespect our friendships like that. As friends we don’t talk about each other, if we offend, we talk, debate, and kiss and make up on the spot. I don’t sit at the table with folks who I will talk about, and dog out when I’m not in their presence.

NOW, I SAY THAT TO SAY….. I am offended by the way people today just totally talk down to each other, diss, curse, and are ready to fight each other these days. We allow so many people to “geek” us up to go with the popular, that we don’t even realize that its going to hurt us in the long run. This type of disrespectful behavior gets into my soul and breaks me down. Why even be around people you have to discuss and talk about? What point is that? I’m just saying people, … we have to do better with our energy. I’m so happy that I’m learning my triggers. So let me name them…. BULLIES, PEOPLE WHO TALK ABOUT OTHERS IN A MALICE AND MALICIOUS way, people who are RUDE.. and folks who DO NOT KNOW/CARE TOO… HOW TO TALK TO ANOTHER PERSON in a respectful tone. But….. I’ve been doing soooooooooo good… yeaaaaaaaa. I’m proud of myself. Chat layta.

Be Blessed

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