Today was one of those days where people just got on my nerves with stupid stuff. If you’re not going to use your mind …. I’m not mad at you at all…. but I refuse to use my brain juice up , and I still have many hours before bed time. Nope aint gon happen! I hate being so nice some times. I about to cut all of that out. I know people who will LIE and swear they are going to get back with you on certain things, LIE about situations and stories. I’m done with them. I’m convinced in order to live in this life right now, I have to go back to my old ways…. DON’T GIVE A FORK!! I’m just tired of being nice, smiling and being different. Some people want you to nut up on them. They want to purposely come into your life and hold you up.  Seems like the only way I can make it in this world is to be the old LACREASE. Thing is I care, but when I, LaCrease Walker, stop caring…..its gon get ugly. This me…. starts NOW!
Just wanted to stop in and update you all on my weight loss. Yessss!!! This journal of losing weight is all in our heads… I promise it is. I can’t say that its easy, but once you see what trigger your eating, you will be able to control and be conscience if what you eat. You have to really plan your meals ahead of time. Shop by the week if you can.. because you’ll most likely cook what you buy and have at home and if you plan your days , you will have a grip on your food intake.
Right now I’m between clothes. All my outfits that I wore last summer, I cant wear anymore. They are too big, and if I try to wear them anyway, they look like I’ve slept in them. On my way out with mommy again today.. and I’m like omgggg what am I wearing? LOL I love having to say that because I am looking at so many clothes with the tag on them, and I will soon be in them all.
Another thing about losing weight too. I use to be the type of person who hate to let go of people, and things in my life. And I always said * so crazy thinking about it* that I loved many of my outfits so much that I didn’t want to lose weight. Craaaaazy!!!! I have no love for those clothes anymore. I cant wait to be out of them. What kind of thinking is that? I’m glad and happy to be out of them so that I can constantly be going to other sizes.
Since I started the May  & June Challenge May 7, I lost a total of 14 pounds!!!! My highest weight ever… I loss a total of 34 pounds!!!! WOW… I’m tooooooo beautiful inside and out for this weight!!!
I am so proud of Tamela Mann… look at this WOMAN OF GOD… will ya?
Listen to yourself and in that quietude you might hear the voice of God. – Dr. Maya Angelou
I love Amusement Parks….and even though I don’t like to ride roller coasters or rides that’s high in the sky. I’ve always had a connection to the actual park.
The park to me in MY mind reminds me of a place where there is laughter, fun screams, eating, walking, photo taking, water, shows, and of course rides. When I was a kid I use to wonder what do the rides do after all the guest are gone. Do they rest and sleep? Do they talk to each other? Are they happy to have people ride them, because its their ” PURPOSE” in life? I’ve always had a wild live imagination when it comes to this topic. People say I’m crazy for these thoughts, but I believe with all my heart, that when Parks close down for good, its a sadness that lurks over it. The Spirit of it is gone. In my crazy mind, I feel that the rides are sad and depress that it has no lively hood anymore. No more children to make laugh, no more screaming . The smell of food no longer fills the air.
I always wondered that if I walked through an abandoned Amusement Park, would I be able to feel the Spirits that once visited there? I’m always watching YouTube videos of Amusement Parks… but this one.. really got to me. 😦 Six Flags over New Orleans. I wish I could wake up the rides and nurse them back to health from Hurricane Katrina. Ill get the kids and families back on the rides again. I can see Roller coasters happy, swings swinging, music playing, kids running, parents smiling, food cooking.
Please watch this video with me. Remember to feel the Spirit of Happiness!!
Be Blessed!
Listen to yourself and in that quietude you might hear the voice of God. – Dr. Maya Angelou
Friday night my 2 sisters and I went out to dinner at Applebees…. we sat for 5 hours talking and catching up on our lives. We were having many conversations but the one that stood out the most was the fact that we’re not jealous when it comes to being in a relationship. For me I was never a jealous person until I met my daughters father. Before him I was never insecure. I knew I was pretty, had a great family, nice personality… but when I met him and having to deal with all the women. It made me a bitter person. It took me years to get over him and over the way the relationship made me feel. Over the years I met some pretty good men, that always made me feel so loved and so wonderful. I never had to deal with jealousy again.
The reason why I’m writing this is to say to my Sisters out there. Know you’re beautiful. Know that you are loved by God no matter how a man make you feel. Know that if you have to be in a relationship that makes you have to always look over your shoulders because of other women, or have to fight or go back and forth…. please don’t waste anytime getting help, or leaving that relationship. What woman in their right mind want to feel jealous and insecure of another woman? Women these days lose themselves in a marriage or in a unmarried relationship. You have to still love your life and enjoy it.
Let me say this too…. Sisters, you have to do your part in making your man feel secure. When you start trying to make him jealous, then one day down the line, it just maybe you….. who gets jealous . That’s a dangerous game to play. Find ways to entertain yourselves while he’s not around. Visit family and friends….. Don’t build your life around him…. that when he wants and needs a break, you find yourself whining and bored. Many women push themselves away from their family and friends when they get married or enter a relationship. Never do that. You never want to look up and have no one….but him. Down the line it makes him uncomfortable, and he’ll have to always find ways to entertain you. That’s not fair. Build your own life, and at the end of the day… Â go home to the LOVE OF YOUR LIFE.
Be Blessed!
Listen to yourself and in that quietude you might hear the voice of God. – Dr. Maya AngelouÂ
Angie Stone got on my nerves tonight on R&B Divas. She was out of order to call that gurl on stage like that when she KNOWSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS how she feels about singing right now. That is so disrespectful to her art as an entertainer, and as a person and friend.
When I was having my Teen group meetings, I knew the personality of all my gurls. I knew who would answer my questions, who would shy away, who would talk too long, who would want to help me every week, and so on. True enough as a leader it is my job to help get them out of their comfort zones, but I also believe that its a way of doing it. Putting people on the spot making them beg and plead for you to PLEASE take the spot light off them, is so wrong. I would have turned all of Angie’s tables over at that party, trying to put me on the spot like that * jp*. She pissed me off. I don’t like being put on the spot, and it bothered me to see LaTavia on it. That gurl begged her, swearing to God and everything for mercy…. ooooo that bothers me.
Some folks in my life feel that since I have such a huge personality that I feel like doing stuff all the time. I like to sit back in the corner with my hat over my face too. When the waitress come to the table.. I don’t like to be the one doing the talking to set the atmosphere. I like to bury my head in the menu like everybody else when they’re asked what will they be ordering. I like to chill too.. and people who know me.. KNOW THAT.. SO….. for Angie to do that while that gurl clearly had on her ” not right now, don’t go there look” on her face…. was wrong… Um um that wasn’t right.
Angie only did it because the gurl showed up late for her Birthday Party. She didn’t look like she wanted to be there any oleway. Who could blame her, when she’s feeling that she’s NOT READY TO PERFORM YET.. What is so hard about that to understand? If that was me.. I would have gave Angie Stone the look of JUDGEMENT DAY HOUR… I don’t play that. At some point you FALL BACK. Enough of that, because I’m getting mad.
Day 14 of the 21 May Challenge and I lost a total of 7 pounds!!!!! That time flew by. I love the change in my eating. I love not having the Pepsi’s… I love how I see a few of my issues with food. I sat down today and paid attention as I ate breakfast and dinner. I GET FULL FAST… I was full after a few minutes into my meal. BUT GET THIS…… I HAVE IGNORED that full feeling.. because I HAVE TOLD MYSELF FOR SO MANY YEARS….. ” YOU JUST STARTED EATING”… how could you be full? I have ignored that warning for so long that I have stretched my stomach overeating. WOW ISN’T THAT A HUGE GREAT BREAKTHROUGH? SO guess what I did when I got full? I got up and put the rest down the garbage disposal. I did hesitate, because guess why? I’m SO USE TO EATING EVERYTHING ON MY PLATE. WOW WOW WOW Something we all learned as a kid.
Okay! So, now that I know that……can’t wait until tomorrow, where I will monitor it again. I have to learn to stop eating whenever I feel full, no matter how much I’ve eaten. I can always grab an apple, or a fruit in between meals IF I FEEL HUNGRY again. I have to learn that. I HAVE TOO. I also learned that what ever I put on my plate the first time, I WILL EAT IT UP… That’s gonna stop. I have to learn portion control. I HAVE TOO. So now I have to be mindful of my portions. I hardly ever go back for seconds, because I’m so busy filling up the first time. This explains why I get full fast when I eat spaghetti.. and everything else I eat.. …..hmmmm. Wow!
I use to be able to eat a Big Mac Meal with fries and pop. For the last 5 years… all I can eat is a hamburger. N O W I K N O W WHY!!!!! I ignored it. The only thing that I’ve been drinking is WATER WATER WATER. Its not even like I’m drinking my water after each bite. I wait until I’m completely done eating before I take a drink. Which means I really get full fast.
You know…. when you’re going through something, or when you’re learning to be a more humble person, you learn more because you’re in a quiet state of mind. You see who your friends are, you see people, things and situations in a whole new light. Something you wouldn’t have ever learned had you been the same person you were before you started going though. Its really funny to me.
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We have 24 hour security in my building, and one of the guys who use to work the afternoon shift use to always ask me “what’s in your bag”. “where are you coming from” or “what are you cooking today”? It was always in good spirits and a friendly tone of voice. Well he moved out of the building on Monday. I had just pulled out of the parking lot and he did too. I didn’t notice him, but he did me. So when we got to the light (( he was in front of me)) he put his car in park, got out and started walking up to my car. I’m looking at him like.. OMG.. this guy about to do something to me!!!! When I finally recognized his face, he reached in the car and gave me the sweetest hug and chat. He said I moved out of the building today, but I just wanted to tell you how much I appreciate everything you’ve done for me. You have really been sweet to me, and I wanted you to know. In my mind I’m like… dang what I do? Eventually I thought about a few times when he knocked on my door and needed a few dollars, meals that I made him while he sat at the desk for hours sometimes doing doubles. Wow, it goes to show you, that what you do people really do appreciate it, and they really go out of their way to let you know. I must admit, he was starting to get spoiled… had to pull back on the meals… you know MEN WILL TRY TO FALL IN LOVE WITH YOUR COOKING.. LOL LOL Just playing. But it was sad seeing him leave. May God Bless Him.
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All this week and last week, in my building they’ve been testing our fire system. They put up notes on each floor by the elevator so that we can know. Well since we’ve been hearing them all last week, and several times this week. WHY DID WE REALLY HAVE A FIRE YESTERDAY AND WHEN I HEARD THE ALARM, I WAS LAYING ON THE COUCH AND IGNORED IT? LOL LOL Then I heard a knock on the door saying that it wasn’t a DRILL it was for real. Man… I got my chubby but up so fast and grabbed my coat, purse and keys and was getting it down those stairs. LOL I heard those fire trucks… baaaaby I was out this building!!!
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I’m very silly, so stuff doesn’t bother me as much as it does the next person. But I can’t stand people who LOVE attention. If you keep up with my blogs, I shared a story about this older nice looking black man who lives here. He loves to tell stories about how he use to be, and the women and business he had. He love talking about all the money had made. And if I’m around.. I make sure I don’t give him any eye contact, because he seems to HAVE EVERYONE LISTENING TO HIM….EVERYTIME HE OPENS HIS MOUTH, HE HAS TO BE LOOKING AT ME, TO SEE MY FACIAL EXPRESSION AND TO SEE IF HE HAS MY ATTENTION. I REFUSE TO GIVE HIM MY ENERGY. So, as soon as I got to the EXIT door outside, there was HIM and all his “friends” in wheel chairs, standing, sitting, and he’s telling them how his apartment was the one that caught fire because he was cooking some beans when he decided to go up stairs and check on his friend. He wanted me to look at him SO BAD. I WOULD ‘NT LOOK HIS WAY. All his friends were in a circle.. like he’s Jesus of Nazareth. I went in my purse grab my car keys and went to the car until it was time to go in the building. LOL LOL #boybye
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LOL LOL LOL LOL Later on after I went to run some errands and was in for the night. Didn’t I get in the elevator with ONLY HIM to go to my apartment? LOL LOL He was DETERMINED to tell me that it was him that burned UP his apartment. I didn’t have a choice but to listen.. He finally got his lil story out ***rolls eyes***
All I could do was LAUGH when I got out. I guess that was God’s way of saying ” Cree stop being so mean to him”. LOL
I had a great time with my Sisters at Red Lobster yesterday evening. We get together every month for dinner to catch up with each other. Then afterwards we ALWAYS end up at their favorite bar… Kwick’s for Karaoke.
I rode with my Sister Peedie. But before we left, she made a stop at home to check in on her husband, and to change clothes . He came out to the truck to greet me, I noticed that he had this “puppy dog” look on his face, that would kill him to admit….. he wanted to go with us. LOL I know him so well… I love, love , love my brother -n- law because he treats my sister so well. But my sister told me that when its time for our Sisters gathering, that’s our time. She said me and him are always out and about after work, going to dinner, movies, and shopping. She said this is my time to be with my Sisters. I got that. ……. I guess 🙂
All 9 of us met at 7pm and was seated. Just then my cousin Darcella came in with her husband Wood * who is really MY blood cousin*. ((())) We didn’t know that she was bringing him * wood* with her. But it was cool. In the middle of dinner, someone suggested that we go to Karaoke afterwards. We all agreed and trailed each other. When we got in the car my sister Peedie called her husband and told him to come down to the bar, because wood wanted a guy to be with him. One of our other sisters called her husband down and he came too. But when my sister Peedie’s husband found out that wood was at the dinner, he was kinda disappointed and felt that my sister didn’t want HIM to come. He noticed that Darcella and Wood are ALWAYS TOGETHER NO MATTER WHAT, and wonder why my sister didn’t feel that way. We told him that it was a Sister gathering, we didn’t even know Wood was coming. She tried to get him to come to the bar, but he went to bed… sad….. ahhhhh. Well we had a GOOD TIME!!! LOL
I love, love, love my VIRGO brother-n- law Mark, who my sister didn’t invite either. I love when he’s with us.. but end up spending it with his brother Deitrick* Haddon*
My point in all of this is… There was a time * in our teens and 20’s* when we (((Sisters))) would jump in our cars and hunt down our men and try to be with them. We all were PRIVATE INVESTIGATORS… tracking down all their whereabouts, friends, family members and phone numbers. We wanted to be with them even if they went to the store. We wanted to know when, where and why. We questioned who they were with, who was there, why they wanted to be there so bad, when were they coming home, and who did you meet while there.
Times has really changed. LOL LOL * I’m laughing so hard*. I WISH THE HELL I WOULD………. look for my husband or boo. I just don’t have that kinda time. I cant believe how much time and work I use to put into finding out what he was doing. LOL Realizing now, that was taking time from ME….. DOING ME… LOL. Every time the Sisters get together, their husbands want to come so bad… and since I don’t have one, I’m the one feeling bad for them and convince the Sisters to let them come with us. They have the best husbands… DRAMA FREE. But I’m learning to understand Sister time is Sister time, and Husband time is Husband time. I get it…. they just look so pitiful. LOL LOL
Thing is they know their wives are not doing anything wrong… they just feel that they should be able to come along and have guy talk at the other end of the table. But what the men don’t understand is……its not about them separating themselves at the end of the table…. the Sisters want to have Sisters Day without them being present PERIOD. LOL
Boy have times changed. LOL LOL * cracking up laughing*
I read that Oprah was coming to the Detroit area with guess, to speak at The Palace of Auburn Hills Friday Sep 12 and 13th. I didn’t know all the details of Oprah’s “The Life You Want Weekend” but I WAS READY!!!
I went on line and BOOKED my hotel! I’ve stayed at this hotel at least a dozen times when I go to a Piston game and don’t feel like driving home. I knew that I had to book this hotel RIGHT AWAY before tickets went on sale. I booked for Thursday-Saturday. I was so excited and happy. I didn’t care who was going with me, if I had to go alone… that was fine with me.
Later on that day, I checked my email and put in the password to purchase tickets early before they went on sale to the general public. What happened next…. I THOUGHT MY FAMILY WAS GOING TO FIND ME DEAD IN MY APARTMENT FROM SHOCK!
Once to the ticket page, you can roll over your mouse to see the TICKET PRICES. And not only that… you get to see WHERE YOU’LL BE SITTING FOR THE PRICE . Now, I’m thinking okay, this is a 2 day event. tickets should be no more than $100.00. I paid $238.00 to see Maxwell, Jill Scott, Chrisette Michele, Robin Thick and comedian Guy Torey … AND I’M STILL ON “CONCERT PUNISHMENT” FOR DOING THAT. As I rolled over the mouse, I was so SHOCKED AND SO OUTDONE by what I was seeing concerning TICKET PRICES.
Ticket prices: $99.00 to sit AT THE TIP TOP AT THE ROOF OF THE PALACE $199.00 , $299.00, $599.00 $999.00., as you make your way to the floor. LOOK AT THESE TICKET PRICES!!!! ARE YOU SERIOUS?
I sat at my desk and stared at the screen. There is NO WAY in the world… would I pay $199.00 to sit at THE TOP OF THE PALACE/ARENA TO SEE A N Y B O D Y!!! Even if I had $1000.00 I wouldn’t pay that to be in YOUR FACE!!!I’m still trying to figure out, what team of people would agree that these prices are ACCEPTABLE? Why aren’t tickets GENERAL ADMISSION… FIRST COME FIRST SERVED. No one can EVER explain to me why these tickets are so high. I guess this will turn in a conversation of “WHERE ARE YOU SITTING”? I am so pissed off about the thought process that went into this planning.
if you have money, or COME UP with the money to pay $1000.00 and $599.00 you receive a gift pack along with other goodies and A PHOTO. I’m guessing the money is in the photo and the “in your face” experience. But the people like me…. who really WANT to hear this word, HAVE TO SIT AT THE TOP OF THE PALACE with the heat, dust and screens everywhere to get the same experience as the others. Sorta reminds me of the MENTALITY OF FLYING FIRST CLASS: You pay more, get to sit in larger seats, get all of these extra AMENITIES, BUT IF THE PLANE GO DOWN. THEY ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL GO DOWN…… am I the only one who figured that out? *blank stare* *
I can hear some people saying right now.. ((((((wow))))))… .well if you want to “LIVE THE LIFE YOU WANT” then you would do what you have to do to BE THERE. Or, if you want to ” LIVE THE LIFE YOU WANT”… you shouldn’t put a dollar amount on your success. Well guess what? When Joyce Meyer, Creflo Dollar, or TD Jakes come to town, they don’t charge for their conferences. And they sure don’t charge by where you sit to see and hear them. For free conferences like those, that’s when you show your appreciation and you give offerings.
I’m really disappointed in Oprah this time. I was really looking forward to seeing her on this tour, but too bad I can’t afford to pay the high ticket price. I have to cancel my hotel reservation. That’s okay… ILL SEE HER ON JUDGEMENT DAY….FOR FREE
God revealed some very interesting things to me today…. about myself. LOL Its funny… only God to explain and give me examples in the way he does.
My daughter and I met today with our family realtor to look at 3 homes. My daughter and mom both have an VISION to see a tore down, jacked up inside and out home…………… beautiful.
I DON’T.
When I go into a home, * and we go quite often* it has to be nice and pretty for me to like it. In other words…. “move in ready”. I get instantly turned off by homes that has been demolished, and need work. I’m really NOT a good person to take with you when buying a home. When I feel weak floors, see stained carpets, spooky basements, cob web closets, broken windows, nasty walls, sinks and bathtubs, chip tiles, I just CANT! I have absolutely no vision to see past these types of interior issues. You can find me half way through the tour looking scared in a corner, and ready to GO!!! LOL
This one place we saw today, people were still living there, that made it even worst for my vision, because ALL OF THEIR THINGS were in the house. I can’t mentality take out their things to add mines. I don’t know why I can’t see past this. My daughter was saying… “and we can take this out and add that”. “we can gut all this out, then we can knock this wall out”. I’m standing there saying to myself… guuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuurl… lets get out of here!!! LOL My mom and daughter can draw…. I can’t. They can pick out furniture to match the carpet, tile for the floors, certain types of sinks for the bathroom…… and poor me just standing there like…. ” God why can’t I see this type of vision?
Just then…. he took me there. He told me that it was okay. Everybody can’t have the same vision… its okay he said.
He reminded me how I can see the beauty and the restoration in a person who is homeless, someone beaten, abused, raped,and abandon. I can see a glorious life for them once they get the help they need. Some people feel that there is NO HOPE for these people. I don’t see it that way. He ask me… how many times have someone told you, “you give compliments to everybody”!!!! A lot I answered. He said that’s because you can see the beauty in people. You have the gift to see past the pain. You love people, you can see the best in them, you can see beyond their current situation. And I’m standing there like WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW!!!!! In my mind…. I’m thinking that everyone should be able to see the beauty in others…… GOD SAID…but they don’t.
So when I walked around these houses today with my face sorta twisted, he said …. just because YOU can’t see the beauty in these homes, DOESNT MEAN THAT IT CANT BE DONE…
I JUST LOVE GOD!!! I JUST LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE HIM!!!
Inside the mind of cree 