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My Virgo Friend, Married Men….Cree’s Blog Entry

creefaceI was just going through the papers in my file cabinet and I wrote a love story about 15 years ago. I’m reading it now and its so interesting how I came up with it. I realized that in my story I used so many things that was real life to me at that time. For instance my family and friends, things that happened that I totally forgot was added in the story. Different people I knew… I even forgot about them. LOL So as a writer, I see and know for my self that a lot of movies, and books people write have something to do with their own personal experiences, people they know, places and events that actually happened. Wow…. so it inspired me to start another LOVE STORY as I type this. It just flows out of my head… yeah I’m such a nerd while everyone is out enjoying the summer, I find myself reading and writing all day, just as I did as a child. Well, at least I have that option… I can jump in my van and go anywhere I want….. but this… I CHOOSE.

So, I made friends with my Virgo friend who lives in the building. I guess he seen that yeah… I was nice…yeah I did share a lot…. and yeah I have teeth too…. that bite. I can tell he missed me. I missed his crazy self too. Whew that man knows he love to debate…. and strong minded whew…. but I’m a VIRGO too…. and I can go just as hard. But that’s not who I want to be. He called me, and we talked. He told me that he found him two housekeepers who come cook and clean for him…. Yeaaaaa…. cause <SHE> aint the one. I understand that he needed it, and that’s all good….. but I’m NOT <HER>…… at all. I’m trying to do <ME>…. my daughter is grown, living on her own.. and making good money for herself.

So, I have this other friend….I met him about 10 years ago. We dated, at first I liked him, but I just wasn’t attracted to him. When I like a man, I like to visualize being with him… not so much as sexual. But when he’s not around… I like to think about him, and try to remember his scent, his kisses. With this guy I just wasn’t feeling him in this way. He really liked me, and I liked him as a friend and so it didn’t work out. We were never sexually involved, we did communicate a lot, but I wasn’t feeling him that way. Well one day after several years had passed, when I was working at Walmart, he came through my line and looked at me REAL MEAN and said…..” I’m getting married” then walked OUT. LOL I was like OKKKKKKK. * laughs a little*. Aint gon lie… did leave me feeling some kinda way. Not so much as…. dang… I wish it was me…. but I wonder what was behind him telling me about it this way?

I was happy for him, but then after several years, he started calling me wanting to talk about how he and his wife separated. I listened to him, we were friends and I was happy for him. When someone is not your type, and you cant see yourself with them….I feel its okay to talk every now and then, as long as the conversation never becomes sexual. He introduced me to her, and we were cool. One day he came up to my job, when he saw me, I guess he had flash backs I don’t know. He’s about 6’5. as I reached up to hug him, he grabbed both of my booty cheeks and squeezed them. I was sooooooooooooooooo mad, and sooooooooo embarrassed. He kept apologized 1000 times saying he was sorry, and that he couldn’t help it. OMG I was ON FIRE!!! At my job? A Virgo? He’s married? That’s one thang you don’t do….. is embarrass a VIRGO. I said to him… its going to be a LONG time before you see me again… I hope your hands are happy boo.

I made good on that promise. YEARS AND YEARS LATER.. LOL One day recently he text me out of the blue. He tells me that he and his wife is fine and that they are together… and you know me…. I’m happy for him. Very good. Praise God. The conversation is going so good…. then he sends several photos of himself wrapped in a towel. Disrespectful to the 100th power. I came to the conclusion that we can’t be friends at all period. He doesn’t know how to act. He cant help it.. okay I get it. But you will not DISRESPECT your WIFE…. and dam sure not ME. I never responded. He kept apologizing as he always does.

The point I’m TRYING to make is………. women stop settling for these types of men. Don’t let these kinds of men creep into your household, and make you apart of him. A person who has a WIFE… family, and you on the side. I realize that as long as I’m his “friend” I am apart of his BS…. mentally speaking. And I don’t even like him like that….. I KNOW better than this. Then last week, he got on Facebook, showing photos of him and his wife plus kids at Universal Studios. Which he has EVERY RIGHT to do. Married women do the same thing…. always keeping that “friend” on the side… yea she may really be JUST a friend…. but when it because a sexual conversation… someone took it to another level. LEAVE THAT ALONE!

Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy
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Secrets, Facebook, Millionaire, and Anger Issues….Cree’s Blog Entry

excuse meI’m very proud of myself….. I’ve been doing really good with my ANGER issues. I’m working so, so hard to just learn to fall back, and not speak a word, especially when its not important. I learned that my issue is not having an attitude in the morning, or when I walk into a room… mine come in on STUPID ISH. For example. I was driving the other night from a movie, and there was a Detroit Tigers game that had just let out, and while WE had the GREEN light, people were still walking across the street like THEY HAD THE RIGHT AWAY. Okay, so I’m cool with it, then after while, people just kept on coming and “we” who had the right away….. was like okay nah…. we about to start driving… it is a green light for us. As I’m inching in letting the people know… this light is not going to stay green forever, I’m about to start driving.. this white dude… staring at me like… “YOU BETTA NOT HIT ME”… Lawd…. why did I have to see that look on his face? AND ITS MY TURN TO DRIVE THROUGH THE GREEN LIGHT!!!! I just started praying, I was about to lay on the horn for 30 minutes… LOL I just let God talk me out of it. This is the kinds of things I go through with being Angry. I NEVER fall out with family or friends… never have attitudes, never act funny to people… its other people and their ignorance that sends me over the top. But I’ve been doing good for the last 2 weeks or so. Trying not to have “ANGER stories to tell”. Trying to get up to ZERO STORIES.

I was sitting up thinking about how if we had Facebook back in the day when I was in my 20’s…. what would MY stats be? LOL LOL LOL Baaaaaby… it would probably read…”Had a party last night at my house, and when the morning came, my sister friend was laying in the drive way sleep”. ” One of my boos was ova, he wasn’t talking about nothing, so when the phone rang and it was my other boo, I pretended to have a headache and made home boy leave.” LOL On my way to Watts Club Mozambique *male dancers* to see my baby Ace Lee” “Got my gurls ova, we bout to talk ish over spades and down 1800, absolute, and Henny”. ” Walked up in the club looking good, banging body, hair laid, and all the men looking at me.”  LOL Thank God, we didn’t have that mess, I can save some of my drama and foolishness LOL LOL for the world to see. HAHAHAHAHA… those kids can have it… I only use it to uplift. I think that’s why I can relate to so many people, is because I know and remember the person I use to be, and so when I see young people behaving the same way…. I don’t JUDGE them. I try to help them. I have a lot of young gurls from my old job, and they listens to me. They have to have their day where they’re foolish, so when I speak to them I try to let them see another light of it. The sooner you come out of your foolishness, the sooner you can get on with God’s plan for your life.

I watched about 4 Secret Millionaire episodes this past week, and they were so good….. had me crying like a baby. If I ever got rich or have a husband who is, I’m going to spend his money giving it away. I will volunteer for the rest of my life to helping teens, women, and the elderly. So many of our young people need help. One day I had group meetings with students at work, and I was so shocked to hear how many kids who have foster parents. Even the grandmothers are either dead, or can’t be there for them. I think a lot of people from my generation were on drugs, and sexually abused. It was so many rapes going on in my days of being a teen, and some of these women never recovered. Everything is a dang ole secret now a days… PISSES ME OFF. I HATE SECRETS. HATE THEM WITH A PASSION. These grandmothers raising their grand kids with all this LOVE, they should have shown their daughters when they were growing up. Now the daughter lost her way, and the grandmother is not telling the whole story to anyone or the grand kids about why her daughter cant MENTALLY raise her own kids. The daughter has been raped, molested, exposed to drugs, didn’t have a father at home, was left to find food for her siblings…. all kinds of stuff. I’ve seen it first hand… and after all these years.. it angers me to know this story about my friend. Anyway…. let me get off this subject.

Be Blessed

Where works of the flesh exists, there is NO joy
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Proud of ME……Cree’s Blog Entry

note to breatheWow, I’m writing another day. So proud of myself, learning to be consistent in things. I had a great planned day. I had a headache earlier, just going through something’s right now. After watching TD Jakes “In the mix” sermon 8/18/2013….. God gave me answers to what happened to me on Friday of last week. Nothing bad, but it happened and there is nothing I can do about it.

Anywayyyyyyy… LOL I was watching the Season Premiere of Basketball Wives tonight. As I was listening to Evelyn tell her story about her and Chad, I couldn’t help but think about her ANGER issues. How quick she was to throw a glass in someone’s face, how she smacked folks, and threw drinks. She is what I called a Basketball Wives Bully. And I’m not in NO WAY saying that she got what she DESERVED when she was head butted by her husband. No, no, no, way am I saying that. But I am saying that you get what you put out there. The part that she seem not to get is that it came back to her with a MAN…. HER HUSBAND whom she had only been married to a little over a month. This wasn’t even a PRIVATE matter, it was PUBLIC one….. everyone heard about her story. Worst than anything she has ever done to anyone. She said that she felt that everyone was saying that she got what she deserved. Can you imagine all the people she’s fell out with, laughing, talking, and happy to see her this way? Oh……..this is pay back for many people.

I hope that she sees the bigger picture here. She cried a lot, and I really felt bad for her. But she has to understand what she did to others ** terrorized* folks, she got back in a different FORM. That’s what she wasn’t expecting. You can’t go around bullying people, and think you’re going to go off and live this happy RICH LAVISH life. If she doesn’t get the bigger picture…..she’s going to find herself angrier, and in more trouble than this time. I really hope that her friends, and her time with Iyanla has helped….. we shall see. I’m routing for ya gurl.

I know I need to be in bed….. I need to take my mom to see The Butler…. she doesn’t know I’ve already seen it…. I don’t think I could tell her.

Another day and I’m doing good with my ANGER ISSUES. I’m working hard to get passed this one. I’m conscience of my thought pattern on what triggers me. I have to share this real quick funny story. When I was on my 3rd day of this, (((God is my teacher))) my daughter wanted Subway before she went home, and just next door was Jets Pizza.

I ordered pizza but stayed in the van until 15 minutes was up. Well after she got her subway, I somehow missed when she walked over to Jets to see if my pizza was ready. So after 15 minutes , I walked in and there she was. She had paid for my food and everything. When I asked her was it ready, she said No. I was shocked because it was well over 20 minutes. I went to the counter and asked the lady was a pizza for Walker ready? She looked over at the one pizza that was “waiting for its owner”, and said No….. just a few more minutes. So, I’m like okay…. before I turned around to chat with my daughter….I heard God loud and clear when he said …..”LaCrease that’s your pizza up there.” I looked over there and said in my mind ” No God, she said it wasn’t mine. LOL He said yes… that’s your pizza. I knew I heard his voice… I kept saying… No, the lady said it wasn’t ready. I knew it was, but I just didn’t want to believe it, because I could feel my heat gauge moving….. I’m about to RAISE THE ROOF! My daughter didn’t know what I was thinking, but my facial expression had totally change, she thought I was getting mad because it was taking so long. She said momma, I’m going back to the van and started smiling like…..OH BOY.

So, I’m standing there at the counter, when the lady calls 2 other people and my food was ordered before theirs. I said ummmmmm excuse me (((( in my business voice))))) to the same lady WHO TOLD ME NO MY PIZZA WASNT READY……I see that their pizza is ready…. can you please check to see if that pizza up there is mines. She said sure, went back and picked up the same pizza SHE TOLD ME NO to…. when she read the paper, and looked up at me…. I knew it WAS mines…she said ” Maam I am so sorry”. We can make you another one. I just stared at her a good 2 minutes between her handling me the pizza, and me actually grabbing it to leave. I was so MADD.

As I’m walking to the van… God is asking me…. Why are you mad? I said because my pizza was up there ALL THAT TIME. He said… but didn’t I tell you that was your pizza the moment you walked in? I said yess… but.. He said then why are you SO ANGRY? Do you think she did it on purpose? I said no… because she doesn’t know me. This was only a few weeks ago, I enjoy the questions God ask me to get to my reasons…. and when I do… its not even worth being angry. I went home and tore that pizza up!!! LOL I think that he likes to sit back with his arms crossed watching to see what I’m going to do. I was proud of myself, I felt him looking over my shoulders. Whew the test I’ve had…..its worth it, because I no longer want to be this way… NO MORE!!!! NO MORE… NO MORE NO MORE!!! ((((smiling)))) And I’m going to write about it every week to keep me on track.

My Birthday is coming up Sep 3…. I’ll be 46. Yes!

Be Blessed

COLOSSIANS 3:2-Set your minds on things that are above, not on things that are on earth.

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Boys to Men * MY Life Lesson* (blog entry)

lady 2.5 secondsSo, here I am 45 living alone for the first time in my life. Meeting new people, and really getting to know myself in ways I never thought to be. I have a daughter, who is my only child, and for the first time in my life working with boys and gurls * teens* I’m getting a glimpse of what its like to deal with boys.

 

I know this sounds “crazy”…. but this is my journey and my personal LIFE LESSON that I’m learning.

 

I remember so clearly telling my sister as she raised my nephews Greg and Gary, that she needs to say NO and stick to it! But she would always tell me… gurls are different than boys. I can’t explain it, And I would say…. that may be, but don’t let them talk you into doing something, when you told them NO!!! She couldn’t get me to understand, and that’s because I didn’t have a SON of my own.

 

Working at a High School has really taught me something’s about myself. I am really a softee. LOL Dealing with gurls is SO much different than dealing with boys. I can tell a gurl, come on lets keep it moving, get to class. She will turn to me and have something smart to say, roll her eyes, and laugh with her gurls, all in one minute. I can tell a boy the same thing, he will smile, try to explain why he’s in the hall way and say… Okay Ms. Walker I’m going to class. He’ll see me later, and talk to me like he’s my SON. But when I see that gurl, she will hold a grudge for dear life!!! LOL This really shocks me, because I raised a gurl and I didn’t have this kind of reaction at all. Even when I started my gurls group Raisingurls to Women. Thing is…. I DONT CARE!!!

 

But here is the big picture of this story. Since being on my own, I have met several men. Maybe 2, I liked, one better than the other. A few days ago, I was downstairs in the business area, which the door is closed to make it private. One of the guys who work here in the building * we’re good friends, he’s one of the 2* came in to talk with me. We chatted for a good while, he kept looking at my lips, but I didn’t really pay it any attention. As he got up to leave *with his TALL THICK SELF*… he reached down *caught me totally off guard* and kissed my lips. I was so shocked! He knew I didn’t like that, and I wondered where did that come from, but at the same time, I can tell that he was happy. It was a ride or die moment for him, and he didn’t care what I thought about it, who was looking, and also for the fact that he was WORKING… he did what he always wanted to do.

 

So yesterday when I saw him, I asked him why did he do that? He said that he couldn’t help it. While I was asking him, it hit me. I have never raised a boy, but I now understand that MEN/BOYS will try us women. They want to see just how far they can go. They test us all the time to see what they can get away with. That’s their nature. They were raised by women, and with that said….that is how they FIRST learned what they can and can’t get away with. WOW WOW WOW!!! And when I bought this up to him, he said YES!!!! That’s how we do, we want to see just how far we can go with you. Everything is a TEST to them.

 

Gosh, what he say that for!!! LOL Looking back at the boys in school, I see that since I never raised a son, they probably can sense that I have a soft spot for them. I even let them have their way, when I shouldn’t. Wow, I learned a lot this past weekend. I can tell a gurl No, she will go on by her business with an attitude, but if I tell a boy No, he will sit there and beg me until I say yes!! Wow. And that’s the same way my nephews now 20 and 22 are. They did my sister the same way. I didn’t get it then. Come to think of it, my nephews did me that way too!!! LOL LOL I love them so much, they can still get anything from me.

 

Okay… so now I know how boys/men think when it comes to getting their way on ANSWERS, QUESTIONS, AND OTHER THINGS…. I’m going to have to “MOTHER-UP” on them and be TOUGH. *smile* TRUST me… I know how!!!

 

Be Blessed

 

 

 

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Out of Character

sleepcree1.jpgWow, so much is going through my mind, so much has happened, so much to do, and much to put in order. HAHAHAHAHA Wow LaCrease!!!

Its something how you want so badly for things to turn out one way, but God the creator has plans for things to turn out another way. I have really learned somethings about myself in these last 7 months… some good and some not so good.

I realize that I let stuff build up. I try to give people chances, man they just won’t do right. But I Thank God for this banister/railing that walks besides me on the right and the left. It keeps me from NUTTING UP and getting out of Character. This year, I must figure out why I allow build ups. I guess I hope that people act right and do right by me and others, but maybe they just don’t know how too. Then when I “go there” I question God about my anger and wonder if its allowed.

But there is one thing about me giving these people chances to do right by me…… I really don’t care if I speak or see them again. Some would argue … yeah you do care, but I’m so afraid I DONT. I feel bad that I don’t care, but wonder why I want to give chances…. ANYWAY…. those things will be explored and answered.

I’m looking forward to a great year!!!

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DEEP ROOTED ISSUES….. *Cree’s Blog*

I guess today was a day of Blessings…. done another way by God. It was only when I sat down today at work at the Credit Card booth, I was able to be quiet and see the whole picture in a BLESSING light.

I walked into work this morning 9 am. Everyday, as I’m walking through the front end to get to the back to punch the clock. I’ll walk pass the front registers tap on the bag holder and speak to the cashier…….. even if they have a customer I’ll say…….. Good Morning… Ms. Shirley and to the customer, I’ll go to the next register and say Good Morning Ms. Chris.. and also to the customer with a smile…. I’ll go all around the front and for the back registers…. I’ll just call out their names * the cashiers* and say Good Morning. EVERYDAY. Now, I’m the kinda person who “stays in my own lane” if you don’t do that……… THAT’S FINE WITH CREE…. OKAY COOL.,…. but as for ME this is who I am……even before WALMART. I try to make every encounter PERSONAL. First of all, its a ATMOSPHERE SETTER…. 2nd.. it lets people know I come in PEACE…. 3rd… ITS FREE AND YOU DON’T PAY TAXES ON SAYING GOOD MORNING OR HELLO. 🙂


SO……………..*SIGH* as I’m making my rounds. I CAME to this one lady who is about my age………..white . I say Good Morning Ms. *her name*. She didn’t speak….. * she always half speak* but this time, I said…I said Hello Ms. *her name*, she says…….. I’m quiet today… and turned her head. I said you’re quiet today? I says to her, so you can’t speak… she says well… I’m being quiet today. I looked at her like a parent to a 6 year old, and I said to her….. in my DIRECT EYE CONTACT…  EYE SQUINTING…… LOWEST TO THE POINT ….VOICE …. you mean to tell me that you can’t say Good Morning because you’re being quiet? Then she says … Good Morning LaCrease………. there’s a lot on my mind. I said okay…. everybody IN HERE has A LOT ON THEIR MINDS. I guess the way I stepped to her, made her just say it. I was ticked off and I’ll tell you why.

About 6 months ago, this SAME lady came to our store, she was new. I welcomed her, and everything. She’s a very quiet woman, very STONED FACED, and VERY COLD looking. All day everyday she shows NO EMOTION…. she’s a woe is me person, and people are fed up with it. Except me…. I’m always trying to talk to her and be her friend seeing that she looks at me as a “popular person”. But she always wants to play the victim. I can’t feel her on that. I saw this in her, but by me being a Christian…. I can see and understand that she has DEEP ROOTED ISSUES. I love talking to people like her, because usually I can help them come to see WHATS REALLY BOTHERING THEM..But the next person…… they aint trying to hear or understand where she’s coming from. But I’m different. One day she was telling me some very DEEP DEEP DEEP things about her, that I WILL NEVER IN MY LIFE AS LONG AS I LIVE SHARE WITH ANYONE. I felt then she knew that I would be a person she could trust. So, I know first hand how deep her issues go. I also knew that one day she would turn on me too, she doesn’t mean to be this way…. but at the same time she doesn’t know any other way. And even though in all the months she has worked there,  besides that talk….we have never said 4 words to each other in a WHOLE DAY.

So, going back to when I spoke to her as I always do everyday… after we had that small back and forth… I went to punch in. I admit walking to the time clock, it did kinda bother me. It bothered me because I was the person she talked deeply with one day, and here she is doing me like she did the others. So, after I punched in she came to me, and said can I talk to you? I said Yes. She says to me… YOU HURT MY FEELINGS….. I SAID NOOOOOO YOU HURT MY FEELINGS!!!!!! She said you said all of that to me in front of those people, I said you DIDN’T SPEAK TO ME IN FRONT OF THOSE SAME PEOPLE….*they didn’t even hear it… I asked them*. I said .. I speak to everyone when I come in everyday to work, she says I know LaCrease…. I’ve spoken back to you in the PAST as well. I said OKAY AND………TODAY IS A NEW DAY MS *HER NAME*.. Then she said…. there’s a lot on my mind…and I said….. and there’s a lot on EVERYBODY’S mind, but you still can speak to me and people around you. I said we’re in customer service, we HAVE TO BE FRIENDLY… She said I know I’m not friendly, and I’ve asked to be moved to another area, but in the meantime I’m working on being a people person.  I asked her… well is this the job for you?

The point I’m making in this BLOG is this. We all go through something, have things on our minds, have issues, have bills to pay, have things to do. WE ALL DO! But there is NO DEDUCTION FROM YOUR CHECK A WEEK OR BIWEEKLY when you SPEAK TO FOLKS. Stop with that WOE IS ME MENTALITY. I cry and have feelings for a lot of things and issues people go through… but that WOE IS ME……….. I WILLL NEVERRRRRRRR GIVE ATTENTION TO. NEVERRR EVER. People like her….., walk around stone faced, looking for someone to “baby their issues” those people walk into a room and bring SHADE with them. No light at all lives in them. Some enjoy this type of behavior. Because its always someone there to empathize / sympathize with them. I’m not her.

She came to me to tell me that “I hurt her feelings”, and when I mirrored it back to her, she was shocked. LOL She told me that I was one of the “popular gurls” and that she’s quiet. Okay andddddd what does that have to do with SPEAKING TO SOMEONE? But see I know she said that in a way as if to say….. you’re strong, and I’m not so strong… so if I say YOU HURT MY FEELINGS, then the story can stay on her and how hurt she was. WRONG PERSON to do that with, because even though she did hurt my feelings, I had to let her know she did, then I went on to express how I felt. This caused her to walk away NOT being the victim….. but the person who CAUSED THE HURT. She didn’t like that one bit.

WOW RIGHT? Well, these are the people I love to help to see this pattern of themselves. She never smiles, she never speaks, she gets so many customer complaints that if she gets in trouble one more time, she’s fired. Let me tell you how this saddens me. She will leave this job eventually……. go to another job and adopt this same behavior. She needs to learn and understand that she has to get help concerning the things that happened in her life. This is NOT HER FAULT… and certainly NOT EVERYONE WHO SHE COMES IN CONTACT WITH. She carries this hurt with her, you can see each one of them on her face. She gets by in life by creating an atmosphere and making herself the center of it. She does this by saying how she’s been hurt. But HER REAL issue is still unsolved. I feel so bad for her, because she feels that this is the life she’s dealt and instead of taking that to heart, she uses it to create situations that allows herself to be the victim…. instead of using it to empower herself.

Will I speak to her tomorrow? YES YES YES YES YES, Because I KNOW…. that I’m not her REAL issue…. she’s simply in her own way.

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“Im telling you the truth” * ppl are a trip*

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 Its been a minute, been busy. We had a ball feeding the homeless this year. Our goal was 75 but we had enough food to feed 86 people. They were so grateful, and Thankful. Which leads me to this vent……. I need to let out.

 

 I work with the public, money toting, gotta hurry up, ungrateful and selfish me, me, me, me people. They make me sick!!! I’ve always said that I rather work with homeless, old people, children, and animals any day of the week, than to be around, selfish, greedy, “it’s all about me” adults. People my age and under….. PISS ME OFF!!! I see all kinds of people, deal with all kinds of spirits everyday. I have the personality to deal with them, I don’t take things to heart unless its STUPID and the person seem to not learn anything from the experience. Just today I was working the 20 items or less register with another gurl. There is only ONE line, but both registers are open. Now this lady sees the line, but she waltz her azz up to the second counter, and I say to her in a very, very, nice tone of voice, showing all my teeth, being as friendly as I am daily….  ” Sorry maam, its only one line”. She turns looks to me (mean) and back up. But the people that’s standing there to get waited on LOOKED AT HER like they will bite her head off, spit it out, and slap her back home IF she didn’t get in the back of the line…….. but she gives ME the evil eye.???????? Yeahhhh okay lady, you BETTA BE GLAD IM WORKING and I HAVE GOD IN MY LIFE. I can see the fire in her eyes. She gets back get in line, and then when the cashier says ‘NEXT” she turns her smart azz to me and says” told you I was next”. Now, she done made me mad, cause she missed the whole point! It went right over her head. In my mind I said ” Of course YOURE NEXT *doe- doe bird* but you still have people in front of YOU, the point of one line is to keep order, and not have 2 lines running together which cause confusion. People hate to be wrong, especially GROWN PEOPLE!!! Then they say…. “well I didn’t know”. How the hell you don’t know….. when you got 6 people standing in line, why do you think it’s that easy to just walk up to the register and get rung up? To do that…. you are saying in “unspoken works” that these people are STUPID to be standing, when there is NO line over there. Are you serious? So, all these people are standing for free? But I bet she won’t do that in a BANK. Everybody knows its one line at a bank, if you waltz yourself up in the bank and walk up to the teller and you SEE it’s a line, you’re going to get RIPPED APART!!! Now try that!

Why do we live in a “its all about me” world? Why people can’t look out for others? Why are our minds so one track, that all we see is ME, ME ,ME when its time to get out of a grocery store, driving, in restaurants, or even out in public?  I have anger issues about  SOME people and how stupid they act. I do, and I know I need prayer in this area. There are a lot of things I let go, but somethings has got to be addressed.

 

I’m a very sweet person. It took hard work to get where I am today. The person I am didn’t just happen over night. I was angry, bitter, revengeful, hateful, honoree, everything you name. When I found God, I had to start loving myself, then others. It took a whole lot, but I’m here and I wont change that for anything. In my life I find that I am highly favored. It’s so deep that it amazes me sometimes how God works on my behalf. Its like now, I expect it. I’m always excited, and very grateful about every little thing. I also find that being an honest person, and a person who always tell the truth-no-matter how much it hurts, get me very far in this life. I smile, and laugh, try to uplift people and encourage them DAILY. I stop people on the streets and IN MY LINE  at work to ask them ‘ Do you believe in God” How is your prayer life?Neisha knows that when I leave the house with her, that she’s going to see me talking to everybody. She’s soooooo use to it. LOL Thats who I am. I even beg people to begin a prayer life with God, and to include him in their life. It’s very rare that I’m in a bad mood. I can’t function like that. Having attitudes and being mean to people. Thats dysfunctional to me.Which  brings me to this topic. I find that  some people try to take my kindness for weakness. It bothers me, because they seem to want me to be mean, because they rarely see it. When it comes to taking care of business, I’m a whole different person. And the words I use, are straight to the point ACTION WORDS. I want action when I’m taking care of business. I’m not talking to ANYONE, I want to talk to the person who can make decisions and make things happen for me, or whatever I’m involved in. When I do that, people mistaken it for an attitude. I don’t have an attitude. Its like give LaCrease what she wants, because it will get very UGLY if she doesn’t get her way. LOL Wow. Just because I’m not smiling, and showing all my teeth this time, I gotta attitude. I don’t play with people in authority ( where it concerns me) , I don’t keep them in my circle of personal friends, I don’t gossip, I’m friendly with everyone at work, but only 2 are my good friends. I call everyone MR. AND MS when I call them or refer to them. ALWAYS….even the gurls who are younger than me. I don’t feel right calling people by their first names. Thats just how I am. Now, I HAVE to do this. I have too. Because everyone knows I’m a respectable person, and so when it comes down to taking care of business with people in authority, they know I DO NOT BS. 

 

One day, I had to go to management about a date that I needed off. The rule is, if you find someone to work your day, management would take your name off the schedule, and add that other person to it. Both people have to sign their names on paper and agree to it. Okay, normally if my upfront manager is there, that person would do it, but if not you can go to another member of management to get it done. Well, this one day my manager wasnt there and I  found someone to cover my hours. This manager didn’t want to do it. I looked this person in the eye and said why? They said because they were busy, and they didn’t want to “touch” the schedule.This person thought I was the same smiley, “everythings gonna be alright LaCrease,”….. but I wasn’t. Okay, my thing is this. If YOU have the AUTHORITY to change it, then DON’T tell me you’re busy. Because now you’ve made me feel that MY SITUATION is unimportant. And when I go above your head, I’m going to tell that person just what you said about MY ISSUE. At first this person tried to make me feel that it can’t be done. So, I asked them……….. are you saying it’s AGAINST COMPANY POLICY… or is it that you don’t want to do it? Thats when they said they were busy. I said OKAY….. here’s the deal. I said, I NEED this done TODAY. I need to speak with someone who can make it happen. I said I understand that you’re busy, and that’s fine. But I need to speak with someone who can make DECISIONS. The eye contact I gave this person was so direct and probably intimidating. This person went on and did it themselves. And to this day I do not play, laugh and smile with managers. Because when its time to take care of business, your outcome with  THE BUSINESS YOU HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF, is going to come down to how you conduct yourself on a regular basis. Then people say to me, well what did you do to get your way? I said… I don’t run behind the managers  365 days of the year. Just because a manager is friendly and talk to you, does not mean they are your “friends”. They are there on business, and they want their jobs just like you. The very  ones who run behind  them, will be the ones they tell NO first!

 

It’s all in the way you talk to people. Your presentation. Neisha tell me all the time, ma you always get your way. Gurl, I have favor from God! If its do able………. I want it done. I’m not bossy, I just know how to talk to people. I respect people. I don’t like to play games. Come at me straight forward, be honest. Quit taking my kindness for weakness, KNOW and UNDERSTAND my mentality. I RAISED a LAWYER…… CRIMINAL LAWYER @ that.  In my house it was truth (God) and honesty. Let me be nice, let me smile, let me be friendly. Let me enjoy where I came till now. When I take care of business, let me be ME.  So what I get results and have Favor…..it all comes FROM GOD.

 

My name is La’Crease J. Walker and I approve this message.

 

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My WOW Testimony!!!

10 Create in me a pure heart, O God,
       and renew a steadfast spirit within me.

 11 Do not cast me from your presence
       or take your Holy Spirit from me.

 12 Restore to me the joy of your salvation
       and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.

 13 Then I will teach transgressors your ways,
       and sinners will turn back to you.

Psalms 51:10-13

 

Lord, Thank you for allowing me to seeing another day!!! I am truly grateful.  Thank you!!

 

Today me and my best friend was on the phone, and I’m listening to her talk about the “Cree’s Feeding the Homeless” list I sent her, and all of a sudden her mind started drifting. LOL We both do the same thing. We try to do too many things at one time. Then my mind end up being all over the place. But I notice that when I sit down and write out a list of things to do that day……. I complete everything on the list it becomes a challenge for me. But when I just go on as “usual”, I’m doing 5-6 things at one time….. and ask me how many I finish when I do that? How bout 1 or 2. SHM@ myself. LOL Wow. LOL

 

 I have to find the time to write my Testimony in email…………. dang why havent I done that? Well…… I did start on it. LOL Even though I can’t share it, I need it for myself. It’s a WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW!!!!! LOL

 

 

 GOOD NIGHT YALL KNOW IM SLEEPY, IM GETTING CRAZY. LOL BE BLESSED! 

 

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Wow, Respect, and a Whooping!

Hey,

Today was a good day. Got up early this morning, as I’m off every Tuesday and started writing out the things that I need to take care of, starting today. My room was off the CHAIN!!! They say Virgo’s are neat freaks, well, they aint talking about me!! LOL I know where all my things are in my room, but I am nowhere near neat like “they say”. I cleaned up the bathroom, and wanted to sleep till 12 ish, but I didn’t. I put on me some clothes and ran some errands, grocery store stuff like that. Came home and tackled this room. Sometimes I wonder about myself. I was cleaning out my closet and I pulled out this huge bag that was hiding in the back. I was like “dang what’s this”? I sat down, cause the bag was heavy. I looked inside and it was 4 night gowns that I had bought Neisha for LAST CHRISTMAS!!! LOL I outta take a photo of these. I don’t know how I forgot to give them to her. I was like Neisha come heeeeeeeeeeeeere. She came running down stairs and I was like here boo! LOL She said where did these come from? I told her outta my closet, I had them for you last Christmas!!! We laughed. They came right on time too, because its freezing here in Detroit.

 

 

I want to take a moment to talk about some of these teens. It’s so sad how disrespectful they are. Cursing in front of grown people, having no respect at all. The bible tells us about these times and how they MUST pass in order for the world to come to an end. I know when I’m around others, before I speak I feel what to say, I feel if a curse word is about to come out when I’m angry about something. You can’t feel it and then ignore it. I say Yes, maam and No maan and if I know their names I will say Ms. Diane, or Mr. Eugene. My mouth won’t even let me say………. Oh Hi Nadine. I wouldn’t even be able to finish the conversation out trying to correct myself. Even to the young gurls at work, I’ll say Heyyyy Ms. Ashley. Neisha is the same way. She says Yes and No, Maam and Sir. Im on my Raisingurls.

 

 

 

Just a day ago my Raisingurl mother called me and told me that ( her daughter) got kicked out of school because the hall guard told her to put on her UNIFORM ( mandatory for them all) shirt, she curses him out and tells him, she wasnt going to wear it, because she wanted to wear the shirt with her nephew on it. ( Crickets) Yea, the phone got quiet. I said put her on the phone. I said gurl why did you curse out that hall guard? I said you had no business with your nephew shirt at school period!!! I said, your momma goes to work everyday and come straight home. I said she is not on drugs, she don’t smoke, she work hard, you live in a very nice house in a nice neighborhood and you do her like this? I said why do you keep getting kicked out of school? She likes to do what she wants to do. And the gurl is drop dead beautiful!!! I said to her, you are beautiful, why do you make gurls talk about you more than they were going to do anyway? I said you are so pretty that you’re going to have a problem out of jealous ppl anyway, then you have a funky attitude, and love to fight, which makes ppl feel they have all the right to say things about you when it’s really about your beauty. I told her that if she keep doing this, she will watch all her friends walk across the stage, and she will be at home……….wishing she had listen to someone. So, then I ask to speak back to her mom, she ask me how to delete a FB page, because she wanted her daughter off it. We figured it out, don’t you know she called me TODAY, and said that her daughter went and got her another one? *Blank Stare for 1,000 minutes. I said you mean to tell me, that you deleted her page, and she went back and got another one TODAY? I said gurl what did you do and say? She said nothing, I’m about to deleted this one. I said,so you’re just going to keep deleting pages cause you scared you might jump on her and beat her badly. I said gurllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll, beat dat aZZ! Gurl, you are letting her know that you are ready to play the delete game everyday. I said put some fiyah to that butt! After about 3 minutes. I had to go. I can’t even listen to a weak conversation like that. Cant even do it. I don’t understand how your  daughter become the “plant manager” around YO house. See her daughter will be 16 this year and when they get a certain age, it’s too late to go back and whoop them., she’s too far gone. I told my friend, gurllllllllllllllllll  when that phone call came in, I would left in the middle of a transaction to get to that butt!!! Gurl Bye!!!!  Aint nothing more important than that moment to jump in your car and “APPEAR” in that classroom. Then my coworker go say, “I AINT MISSING ME MONEY CAUSE SHE ACTING UP” (blank stare and quietness). I told her thats the reason why you are having problems is because you won’t boss her up on her mess. It’s not about taking the phone, being on a punishment and staying in the room, all the time…. put some GAS (heat) to dat AZZ!!! I wish she would let me go up there ONE TIME, I would set her classroom off. Please ……I don’t play like that.

 

 

Well, Im off to bed!! This is the song I’m feeling right now! Good Night Cree

 

 

 

 

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