Month: May 2008

Hey,

Yep. today was a good day!!! When you get up in the morning and have God on your mind, you know its a good day. I went to work and had an even better day.

I read today that Janet Jackson will be stepping out on tour soon!! Yeaaaaaa! I hope that Detroit is on one of her stops. Even though I didnt want to go to the Palace again for another concert * went to see Destiny Child * I believe that she will be there. I’ts the only place in Michigan, that can hold someone like her. As for those who know me, knows that Janet Jackson is my second favorite female singer next to Anita Baker.

Above is a concert ticket that is in TIP TOP condition from when I went to her concert in Detroit on April 3, 1990!!! I love Janet Jackson. Look at the price of this concert. Yes, $20.00. With that money these days, thats parking fare, and service tax. LOL I don’t care how much tickets are, I am SO THERE! I have been waiting on this gurl to come back to Detroit for the longest.

Here is one of my favorite Janet Jackson Videos of all time!! Plus I’ve added the lyrics. Some of these words, I never knew she was saying! They are deep too. I wish that she would go back to Jimmy Jam and Terry Lewis for her writings. Janet I love you gurl!!!

The Pleasure Principal~Janet Jackson

You might think I’m crazy but I’m serious
It’s better you know now
What I thought was happiness was only part time bliss
You can take a bow
It was all just one big night out on the town
Riding in your limousine
We turned right and I said wrong which brings us to a stop
As the light is changing

Oh my meters running so I got to go now
It’s the pleasure principle oh oh ohh
It’s the principle of pleasure, ohh
It’s the pleasure principle oh oh

It’s true you want to build your life on guarantees
Hey, take a ride in a big yellow taxi
I’m not here to feed your insecurities
I wanted you to love me
This has become an all too familiar scene
It’s not the first time I paid the fare
Where’d you get the idea of material possession?
Thank you for the ride nowhere

And oh my meters running so I’ve really got to go
It’s the pleasure principle oh oh, oh hoo
It’s the principle of pleasure
Ohh, ah
It’s the pleasure principle oh oh, ohh, ah

I know, what you mean to me
Baby this is nowhere
You know what came in between you and me, human differential
Sa dat dit dit dit baby
It’s the principle of pleasure
Oh, oh oh oh ah

It’s the pleasure principle, principle
Oh oh oh oh, ah

You might say that I’m no good for you
I wouldn’t trust your looks, baby, if I could
I got so many things I wanna do, before I’m through
Hey, da dit da dit dat baby

It’s the pleasure principle
It’s the pleasure principle
Hey hey hey hey, hey hey hey hey

It’s the pleasure principle
Baby you can’t hold me down
Baby you can’t hold me down
After all the love that we’ve been through
After all you’ve put me through
Hey hey hey, yeah
Love me, hey yeah, love me, yeah!
Hoo ooh ooh ooh
It’s the pleasure principle
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah!
Oh

Hey,

Today was a good day!!! Matter of fact it was a beautiful Blessed Day. I have been reading my bible daily faithful since March 28, 2008 and as I have wrote before, I am really learning a lot about myself. You know how you think that you\’re okay, but when God steps in and say okay……you need to work on this, and you need to work on that, and you really start to see what he\’s talking about. Then, he shows you in examples? That\’s where I am right now.

Let me explain.

I love people, flat out. No matter how many stories I share about them getting on my nerves at work. No matter how many people I have done wrong in my life, or they have done wrong to me, I still love and have this connection to them that I can\’t deny. I am a people person. You can introduce me to people of all ages, races, I can relate to them in one way or another. But what I come to realize is that, I can get so connected to people, that I start to act like them for a moment. For example. If someone comes through my line with an attitude, I can easily get one with them. When in reality what they are upset, angry, disappointed or mad about *AINT EVEN ABOUT ME*. I am learning through God to disconnect myself from them in that way. I belong to the Lord, I am suppose to be a light. I can\’t go dim just because they have their lights off . I\’m suppose to be the person who * jump start* their battery *through God* and get them back to him. I\’m not suppose to get an attitude just because they have one. Wow, how blind am I!!! They may need to hear an encouraging word, they may need someone to let them know that everything is going to be alright. How can I call myself a child of God, and here I am putting * Charcoal Fluid* on their fires?

There are times I wish I wasn\’t so connected to people. I can\’t help it though, because that\’s the way God wired me up. I know people who use the *I don\’t care about nothing and nobody line a lot * and they really don\’t care. I\’m different. I like to know that everything is going to be alright with people. I consider myself to be a happy person, I have a good relationship with God * always working to make it better*and I wish everybody was like that. But it\’s not that way, and I have to understand that. Some people I can reach some I can\’t. That\’s the part I\’m not getting in my head. People will always make their own choices, and there is no sense in me getting upset. God tell me all the time * Lacrease let me do my work and you do yours*. LOL When I let him work through the people, things always turn out like he wants it. It\’s not about Lacrease. God knows what he\’s doing and I trust him.

Just 2 weeks or so ago, my boss called me in the office to talk about my attendance, and to go over the policy, and then he said to me * Lacrease, you\’re too friendly with the customers.* So I looked at him, I guess in a funny way. Then he said * I don\’t mean like that, we need more cashiers like you, but you talk a lot to the customers. Now I can see if was rude and stopped and didn\’t ring while I was working. I was like WOW, with tears in my eyes about to cry!! I finished the conversation with him and went back to my register. Keep in mind I\’m a 5 star Cashier!! Why would you tell your employee something like that? He\’s not approachable, his communication skills are terrible and he\’s not friendly at all. so, I don\’t expect him to get me any way.

Here I am at my register trying to hear God over Satan laughing. I started thinking. I use to be the meanest, and ugliest person you can ever have working for you, the biggest retail thief in retail HISTORY, the gossip-est, big mouthed, cursing, revengeful coworker/employee in WORK history and you say *I\’M TOO WHAT? FRIENDLY?

That\’s why you\’ve got to know who you are when you wake up in the morning. You cant forget where you came from. You cant let people Praise you and enjoy it, because they are the same ones who will let you down. You\’ve got to know WHO YOU BELONG TO IN THE BEGINNING! Had he known where I came from, he wouldn\’t have never said that to me. His lips wouldn\’t be able to pronounce the words. He has no clue of the person I use to be, he don\’t know where God has bought me. I have came from a mighty long way, and for someone to say to me, *you\’re too friendly* is the biggest compliment I could ever get………when I think about it.

God is not through with me yet. I like to imagine a lot. In my head I see myself receiving my * paper* to walk through the gates to Heaven to meet my Jesus, and I see people like him standing along the fence………watching.

God Bless

Cree!

Today was a good day!! Thank you Jesus!! For some reason I couldnt sleep last night. I went to bed and listened to my iPod until almost 4 am. After I put it away, I still couldnt get to sleep, until it was almost time for me to get up for work. That was at 7:45am.

Anita Baker is my FAVORITE FEMALE singer OF ALL TIME. I loved Anita since 1986 * maybe before then* when she came out with *I just wanna be your gurl*, with Chapter 8. My momma was up on it, she would play that song to death. During that time I was a young teenager. I was into boys and songs like Anita\’s made you feel good. Especially when you\’re feeling someone special. I use to go up in my room and play Anita Baker songs all day!!! I would watch her videos on Video Soul, and would sing and sway with her. She made singing and being in love so easy. All you need was the man of your dreams and you could imagine being * caught up in the rapture in love* with him.

When Anita had a concert here in Detroit with Luther Vandross, * I still have the ticket stub*. I was in the house!!! My mother bought us tickets and it was one of the most rememorable concerts I\’ve ever been too. I have all of Anita\’s CD\’s and have seen just about every video clip there is to see of her. She lives here in Detroit, just 10 minutes away from me and I have seen her at my job once, and missed her twice.

I\’m in her world wide Fan Club*@ yahoogroups* and I\’m known all over as * Beenwaiting4nita*. That name came about because she left for many years to have children and to raise a family with her husband Walter Bridgeforth. I loved the fact that she put her marriage and family first, and I always said that a faithful fan will always be there, and when she returned I gave myself the name * Beenwaiting4nita* It was truly a long and worth wild wait. And now…. She\’s back!

Last year she announced on stage in Detroit at DTE, that she will have a yearly concert here because* this is home*. I \’ve been to every concert here for the last 3 Summers straight, and just 2 weeks ago I purchased a ticket and I will be sitting front row and center on July 12, 2008.

Anita Baker will always be my #1 gurl

*Beenwaiting4nita *

Here is one of my favorite performances by Anita

Hi,

to the Detroit Pistons!!! Even though they lost tonight, they will WIN the series and then advance to the NBA Finals! I went to my first Piston game April 11 and I had a good time. I paid some good money for me and my daughter\’s seats. I\’m waiting for tickets to go on sale again because I gotta see my baby Shaq before he retires, and Neisha wants to see Chris Paul of the New Orleans Hornets. That\’s a done deal, we are there NEXT SEASON!

Today was a good day. Thank you Jesus! I believe that if you think positive you will have a positive outcome. I loss 4 pounds yeahhhhhhh Cree! For the month of June I\’m so serious that I will not be drinking any pop. This lady came through my line and told me she went down 2 pant sizes when she cut the pops out of her life. I can believe it too. Those babies can and will make you blotted!!

Since I have been reading my bible faithfully daily, I have learned a lot about myself. One day my sister told me that when people tell me something, I have to always give advice. And I was like * about to cry* what you mean? In a bad way? She said No, its just that sometimes people just want you to listen and not say anything all the time. So, I was like wow, yeah maybe that\’s true. Maybe I do, do that. When I think back on people telling me things, I do kinda give them advice. LOL So, I said God why do I do that? I find that to be true, and I\’m glad that I didn\’t take that in a bad way, because I never want to be preachy……..you know? He said to me that I am a Teacher by nature. I love to teach. I love people to get something out of everything that they are going through. I was like WOW, that\’s ME! I have to always give examples. And I hate to leave people not *getting it*. I want everybody to get the truth in everything.

Just a few weeks ago, I was working the 21 items or less lane. Even though there are 2 registered trained cashiers open, there is only one line. And when the cashier is finish, she will call NEXT. Well, I was working one of the lanes and these 2 guys walked up, I looked them both in the eye and said Sir there is only one line. Then ONE said well there are 2 registers opened. I said, I know but there is only one line for both registers. He says: but there are 2 cashiers. So, I looked at him as if to say : are you dayum dumb? I said Sir, you know how when you are waiting in line at the bank, and there are 5 tellers, but only one line? I said, well that\’s how it is here, at THIS WALMART. He got it instantly! As I was telling the story, he visualized it with a movie in his head!!!. But he still was mad because he wanted to be next!!! LOL I just laugh in my mind at people like that. They don\’t want to get it, they want it to be the way it make sense to them in their heads. He said forget it, Ill just go to another line. I was like…….. OKAY. Well, I guess that\’s the preachyness my Sister was talking about. LOL I just want people to get it, that\’s all. I want them to walk away saying to themselves…………….OH OK……….. I GET IT NOW. Lately, I have been just letting people think and do as they want when it comes to certain things.

Yesterday, this gurl came through my line, she was about my age……. She had a lot of things, mainly food. She had 2 bags of chicken. One of them had the price $5.86 on it which was WRONG, and the other didn\’t have the price at all. All I do is scan the items and pack them. So she said wait, wait what was $7.86? I pulled her things out of the bag and said: this bag of chicken wings rung up for $7.86 and the other which is the same it wrong up for $7.86 too. She said well don\’t I get it for the price on ONE OF THE BAGS FOR $5.86? And I said yes you do. But the other one doesn\’t have the wrong price/don\’t have a tag, but I have to give you the one for $7.86. She said okay that\’s cool. That was that. After she paid and I gave her the bill, she walked away looking at it. About 5 minutes later she came back for me to explain what I did, because she saw $7.86 on her bill 3 times. Yall, know this is my part right? I love for people to *get it*.

I said look

1. I rung you up both times for 2 bags of chicken RIGHT?
2. You stopped me and said…ma\’am what was $5.86? When I looked at the mistake I had to give you the one that had the ticket on it for the price of $5.86, but had to give you the other bag for the CORRECT price of $7.86 * it was a pricing gun error with the 5 and 7*.
3. I took off the $7.86 right * which was the 3rd $7.86 she saw, BUT IT HAD A MINUS SIGN BEHIND IT.
4. Then I rung her up for $5.86.

She kept saying, well why do I see $7.86 3 times? I said GURL because the third one is the one I took off, do you see this minus sign? She said yeah but what is this $5.86 down here. I\’m saying to myself……..ARE YOU FOR REAL? I said that\’s the one I had to give you for $5.86. After a few more times she finally got it, and she was happy, and I was happy that she got it.

The bible talks about Wisdom and Understanding all the time,. and that\’s what I want people to get. You don\’t have to agree, but try to understand what people are going through. I love how Jesus taught through parables. I LOVE READING THEM. I blow my nieces and nephew ears off by examples. Neisha has heard them all her life. LOL But I\’m learning not to be so preachy.

Yesterday me and Neisha was talking about the bible and how I always visualize the day that Jesus returns with his Book of Life in hand. And I told her to imagine this: You are walking up to this *huge house* and you see Jesus at the gate with this book in his hands. Then you look on the side and you see *homeboys and gurls* standing on the gate waiting to see if your name is in the book. Not only are they wanting to know are your name in the book, but they are waiting on their chance to get Jesus alone, so that they can beg him to let them in. * You know that\’s an earthly thought*. He looks for your name and he says * Nope your name is not in here, and you say. please look again. PLEASE. And he looks and says Nope your name is not in here. When I\’m telling them , they can go inside and actually feel the story and wish that their names were in this book. I tell them while you still have time, you better do whats right, trust and believe in him!!!

Well, I\’m on my way to bed, gotta work in the morning till 4. I\’m getting my brows down, and maybe see a movie.

I love you all

Cree!

Hey,

Alright, today is a new day, and when I sometimes go back and read my previous blog entries I ask myself………..what in the world was I going through? LOL I guess that\’s all in part of growing. I reread last night entry and said to myself……….Cree, get ova it! LOL With that said…..today is another day.

Thank you Lord for waking my up this morning and getting me started on my day. Thank you for teaching me to be quiet when my tongue want to lash out on people who talk to me any kinda way. Thank you for ministering to me when I\’m in the *wilderness*. Just thank you for everything Lord. Thank you. I appreciate everything you do for me, have done for me, and will do for me. That means all the prayers I send up for others and for myself. You are truly good. You have not forgotten about me, you always think of me. You know everything about me, all my secrets, good and bad. That was you who woke me up 2 nights ago wasn\’t it? I hear you Lord. I hear you. My tongue cant even say thank you enough for all that you\’ve done for me. I can\’t wait too hug and kiss you.

Tonight I was watching Kimora on her reality show, and I just love her style. She\’s beautiful, she has personality, she has class and style and she knows what she wants. She ask questions, she\’s honest and she very opinionated. She loves her children, she spends time with them and she treats her * servants* right!!! I was watching her assistant in action, and I was saying to myself. Hmmmmm I can do that. I know how to talk to people to make things happen. Its not what you say, its how you say it. I was watching one of her assistants work it out!!! LOL Her assistant had a lot of pressure on him to get her a place to shoot for her new fragrance, so he put pressure on the person who was helping him scope out homes LOL Even though I hate talking on the phone, I can make calls and get the job done. In order to do that, you have to really know the person you are working for. You have to know their personalities very well.

Speaking of know a person very well. My daughter knows me so well. She can hear a song on the radio and say…. maaaaa its this song by * such and such* you\’re going to love. And so when I hear it, ahhhhhh its so Lacrease. She does the same with movies. She can look at a preview and say, my momma would love this movie. I love that about her. That\’s the way you have to be with your assistant, you have to know what that person likes and dislikes. Its not about you, its about them. I wouldn\’t mind having a job like that. Plus I need some humbleness in my life. LOL

I love my co workers, so I may write about them often. I have never in my life met people like these. They are the same people everyday. WE don\’t argue, we don\’t have to go in the office with a manager to solve things, they don\’t he say she say, we go out to dinner together, some go out together, we support each other when it comes to bridal showers, birthday\’s and baby showers. It\’s really a blessing to meet women like these. Ive been there close to 5 years and no one has ever changed for the worst. Today I asked a co worker how did her date go this past weekend, and one of my other coworkers said: dang Cree you know everything. I said ahhhhhhh she told me that she would tell me how her date went with this famous rapper. She said no, I didn\’t mean it like that, I meant it in a way that people confide in you, they trust you around here. They always come to you with their stories and for advice. Which then open my eyes like Adam and Eve\’s opened when they realized they were naked in the garden of Eden.

Last week, God told me, he said Lacrease you gotta watch how you come off with people. He said when you have a track record of trying to do good, treating people right, talking with them, and being a blessing. When you get mad and upset, people see that. They watch how you react to situations. When you come to work talking about me, and then the next when you blow up, they see that. He said, watch how you handle yourself. So, I was like wow…… wow…….wow. I so get that! I agree. Just today, this gurl was walking up to my register, when out of no where this other lady came and jump in front of her. Now my first reaction on my face was to be like * NO SHE DIDN\’T* I heard God loud and clear say, now……..your facial reaction is going to determine how this gurl handle this whole SITUATION. I was like okay. So I looked at the gurl, then I looked at the lady who jumped in front of the gurl, the gurl wanted to go off and she kept looking at me LOL. I guess to see what did I have to say about it, but the way MY FACIAL expression was, it made the gurl calm down. Had, I geek-ed her up with my facial expression, she would have surely went off on the lady. We have a lot of influence on each other, we just need to learn to use it in a positive way. I\’m learning tho. Im learning.

Me and my best friend was talking on the phone the other day, she said Lacrease the Sun cant shine on everybody every day. I knew exactly what she was meaning by that. For the last few months Tyler Perry messages to his fans *seems* to me that he was down in his Spirit. But the last one seems as if his Spirit was lifted. Which reminded me of what my best friend said. And its funny to because people go to his message board and they look for him to inspire and uplift them ALL THE TIME, when sometimes he needs that lifting up too!!! He cant bring the * Sun* out on every email, of course he aims to be positive, but we all fall short and that\’s what they don\’t get sometimes. Tyler is human too. People are always watching and paying attention. Thats when we need to let him know too that we are there for him, it shouldnt be a one way street. We can uplift him as well. And I do.

Starting in June, I\’m about to give up my Pepsi\’s!! Yep, for a whole month I\’m giving it up and I will post daily of my progress. These soda drinks are really make me blotted. I can deal with my hips, thighs, and behind. But this stomach gotta go!!! I\’m about to catch a plane in July and I don\’t want my meat hanging all on my gurls chair!!!! LOL ROFL!

I\’m painting my bedroom a lavender color, its pretty. I\’m going to finish up tomorrow. I love earth tone colors tho. If it was cooI, I would have tan and brown all over my house, everywhere!!!!

Alright, I\’m going to turn in for the night….I\’m sleepy. Ill write tomorrow.

Cree!

My daughter Neisha wired up on this song. AHHHH I love it!!! I love it! I love it! This is me!

Today was a good day.

I guess I\’m having a break down. Nothing bad, but something is on my mind. I did some research as I do when I need too. And I found out some things that was funny, and all at the same time * don\’t know why this is happening to me*. That\’s one thing about me, when I want to find out something, or about someone, I will get my answers. I don\’t and won\’t stop until I do. I\’ve always been like this.

God knows stuff like this drives me CRAZY!!! I\’m a mad woman right now, and until I get out what I need to say to this person, it may get worse inside. Don\’t worry about me, I\’m fine. This has surely humbled me. All while I\’m saying God why am I going through this? You know the answer to what I want to know, please tell me!!! Please!!! Maybe I need for God to come down here face to face and tell me, or maybe I need this person to tell me. I dunno, but I need an answer soon. I am learning patience, but when someone knows you want to know something and purposely hide the answer, that drives me NUTS. I was doing good with this, until I read all my notes , and did some research only to say to myself……….YOU KNOW THE TRUTH LACREASE…….. LOL

And see I\’m also mad at myself too because God told me what I wanted to know. Its some doubt and I don\’t like that I feel that way. God has never steered me wrong. But still I know for sure, but when its time to confront …… I\’m not sure again. God has always lead me right, but this is so mysterious to me that it has me tripping. I mean tripping!!!

Don\’t worry its not bad or anything……………it just has me tripping. I\’m tired. I have done all the research and found out all answers I could ever need, I am turning this over to God. Hopefully, I\’ll hear from you soon so that we can talk, get all the questions and answers out……….and FINALLY learn to TRUST each other.

Cree!

Today was a very good day . I forgot to read my * Faith for a Lifetime Daily Inspirations* this morning . But on my way to work, I did say a prayer in my car. Speaking of car, I told my mother and Neisha that one day, there\’s going to be a truck sitting in the driveway with a Big Yellow Bow on it just for me!!! They started laughing. * Not being funny*, but they know what I say always come true. I can see it now.

Today as I was walking through the store to punch in. I laid eyes on this nice looking guy who was maybe about 43ish. He was dressed nice and everything. I didn\’t pay much attention to him as I would have liked, because I was trying to get to the time clock. When I got to my register and got set up, he came through my line. Now, when I\’m feeling a connection to someone, I purposly won\’t make eye contact until THE RIGHT TIME. Because when I look him in the eye, its gonna be one heck of a connection. I can feel it. So, as he\’s setting his things up on the belt, he notice that its quiet. LOL I\’m laughing to myself, because I know what\’s going through his mind, I can FEEL IT! LOL. He\’s trying to feel me. He wants to know am I friendly, am I cold, he wants to know flat out …WHATS UP WITH THIS GURL!!!! After its too quiet for him he says: *So hows your day going*. I knew that was the ice breaker. I knew that when I looked in his eyes I had to bring the smile, the sexynesss in my voice, the UMP but I knew he needed to know whats up with thatgurltheycallcree!!! LOL After he asked me how was my day going, I looked him dead in the eyes with a sexy smirk and said: pretty good, and yours?* Using the word yours to throw the conversation back to him*. When I looked him in the eyes………. I can see the files of my life being transferred FROM MY MIND TO HIS!!! In one glance it felt as thought he knew everything there is to know about me . LOL I was trying to read him with one look into the eyes, but I had dial up and he had DSL! It was unreal. I knew he was scoping me out. One thing though he looked at my wedding finger and saw my birthstone ring on it. I can tell he thought to himself, she\’s married. To *sweep* the atmosphere to see how he was laying, I said to him, dang you doing some shopping today. He said yes, normally I go to Costco, but I don\’t need to buy that much bulk. He looked me in the eyes and said : Can you believe that this stuff is for only me? That was a sign to tell me that he lives alone and that he\’s single. In my mind I was like oooooooooookay, ummmmmmmm he\’s single. But he kept looking at my ring finger as if he wanted to comment. But he didn\’t. When time came to pay for his order he pulled out a credit card, and license. I scanned down on his Birth date and said Ummm August 25, mines is Sept 3rd. He said OH youre a VIRGO too? That was the door to the conversation. I started cracking up in my mind! That explains everything about him. We are some analyzing people! We listen well, we make good eye contact, you can tell us anything, we have to know that you are for real. When men Virgo\’s make eye contact they are trying to get everything they can out of the conversation. They want to understand where you are coming from. Ain\’t gon lie when he looked at me he put the whammy on a sistah! The more I talked while looking into his eyes, the more his * computer* was generating my files. LOL Its funny, cause I do men like that all the time, but I got got this time!!! LOL

I don\’t know what it is about me, but kids have this connection to me. All the time when kids are at the register with their parents or whom ever, they always stare at me until I say * hey pretty face*, or *hey there handsome*. I\’m like a magnet to them. Its sooooooooooooooooooooooooo unreal. When I personally acknowledge them, they tell me EVERYTHING!! LOL There parents stand there like aaaaaaa aaaaaaaaaaa don\’t be telling her all that! LOL I crack up in my mind. I think its because when *grown folks* see or do business with other grown folks, the kids are always neglected. That\’s to be expected because they are kids…true enough. But I treat the kids just like they are people too. Me and their parents have a business connection, but we as parents, people have to acknowledge the kids. They are people too. My everyday line is: Hey pretty face, you\’ve been good? And they look at their parents, and they shake their heads yes, and of course the mom /dad says noooooooooo. LOL Then I ask them do you go to school? They reply yesssss, and I ask them okay who is your best friend in school? And once they tell me, they are in love with me. LOL They are so use to hearing stop doing this, don\’t do that, come here, go sit down, eat that, put that away, take a nap, get outta my face. I like to challenge their thinking. Ill say, why do kids love gum? And they would get shy on me, then when I say, I use to be a little gurl a long time ago but I don\’t remember why I like it, but since you are, why do kids love gum? That\’s when they\’ll say……..because its good!!! LOL Kids are so funny.

Well, I\’m closing for now. I ll be on tomorrow. Take care and God bless

Cree!

I know, I know……….for the life of me I can not wink my eye. Never could. I need to learn because I think winking your eye at your boo is the sexiest thing you can do. When my cousin got married, his bride was coming down the aisle, she blocked everyone out, looked at him and winked her eye. Ahhhhhhhhh, it was so personal, soooooo * this is for you baby, and only you*. If I could wake up one day and be able to wink, I will be so happy and Thankful.

Today was a good day at work. I have been on quiet mode every since Sunday night. Something happened that humbled me, and I think that I needed that night, more than I can ever know. Sometimes when you have no control of things, it can make you ask God………okay what did you want ME to get out of that? Because it really didn\’t make any sense to me. I guess I\’ll know one day. Hopefully soon.

I read my bible daily with my daughter. Right now we are reading the One year bible,and we have learned a lot so far. Today we were reading about Saul and how jealous he was of David. When God is on your side, no one can do anything about that. I\’m just trying to figure out, why when God was on Saul\’s side * with his tall self* why did he turn away and start doing what he wanted to do? But when God chose David, Saul wanna get all mad and wanted him killed. When he defeated camps and stuff, people were all on his * heels* Amening * is that a word*? what God had did through him, but he chose to be greedy. So God was like okay………your time is almost up boo you tripping. But when YOUNG BOY David went down there with 5 rocks, and a sling shot and killed Goliath ……..his boys took off running. Saul wanted David on his *team*, but he knew God had left him and was with David. This is the part that trip me out. When the people had heard what happened with David killing Goliath, they started singing the song that made SAUL MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAADDDDDD. *Saul has slain his thousands, and David his ten of thousands.* Saul was mad because of the numbers. What he did was wrap his self up in the people and what they think, instead of doing things to please God. Had he been thinking about pleasing God, he wouldn\’t second thought that song the people sang. This story can tell you a lot about yourself, I\’m telling you.* Go and read for yourself* 1 Samuel 17.

Well, I\’m gone for the night. I just took me a hot bath, and took me some night cold medicine. My eyes are cross sided right about now. Last night I dosed off without praying, I was sooooo tired. Soon as I dosed off, I heard someone say Lacrease wake up! But it was someone from my dream. I woke up and was like danggggggg who was that? Sound like it was right in my house LOL When I thought about it, I said that had to be God because I forgot to pray. I laughed too. God is funny too. I knew I was always funny and silly in my life, and I thought that God was this thee thou Father that was serious all the time. So it was hard for me to communicate with him AT FIRST. Now, He has showed me that he has a sense of humor and we crack up. I\’m gone for real this time. Good night!

*hold on to yourself*

Hey,

Today was a good day!! I had some good sleep last night too. I got up this morning read my *Faith of a Lifetime Daily Inspirations Book* and surely it got me through the day.

When I first walked in the door from work this evening, 2 of my Sister Pearls were ringing the phone saying that one of them had purchased their airplane ticket today for Atlanta in July. Praise God!!! Both of them will come to Detroit, to fly out with me that next day. We are going to have a good time. There are still 2 more to get their tickets, and that\’s gonna happen soon. God is good. When they all went back home from our first meet and greet here in Detroit last year, we got on the phone and we were looking for Hotels in Atlanta, they were sold out all over the city! WE had the hardest time trying to find rooms. Goodness, never would I have know that a city would be booked up a year ahead. WE finally found a place where there are 4 double beds, 2 bathrooms, living room, kitchen with stove, dinette and 4 chairs, pots and pans, dishes, microwave oven, and TVs. We\’re happy that we don\’t have to split up sleeping in rooms, this way we\’re all in the same room. What a blessing. God did all of this. I got tired of calling all those hotels. LOL It was a job! Then we made reservations for a Rental Van at the airport. We have a friend who lives there, she will be our ATL guide. I love her, and I can\’t wait to meet and hang out with her this summer.

I love going to work because I love my coworkers. Now when it comes to be in charge of something, they always want me to do it. I don\’t know if its because I can get people involved or is it because I\’m friendly and motivated. Sometimes I don\’t like to be in charge, I just like to contribute , do my part and take a back seat. But anyway, I\’m in charge of our Birthday Club along with another friend who thought of the idea. She thought of having this club only a few weeks ago . And since Jan thru parts of May was gone, we decided to only ask the people who BD was from May 21- Dec 31 so that the people in the earlier months wouldn\’t be paying and their BD\’s have past. We started asking people to join and got 17 people * front end *. My coworker started getting discourage because people we mad because SHE didn\’t think of the idea when their BD\’s was coming around. I told her listen……. had you thought of this idea before we would have had it before, I said lets not give up this project because YOU didn\’t think of it before, what kinda mess is that? So, I said look, if they don\’t want to join OH WELL! She was like okay.

I came home typed out and printed about 20 Birthday Club Rules, and a list of each person in the club. When I took them to work and we gave a copy to each person who are participating, a few of the people were jealous. so, I\’m like dang, these are the same people who didn\’t want to join, but mad because their BD\’s have past. So today was payday and we have one BD this month on the 21st. WE lost a member to being fired, and it was time to collect $5.00 from the rest of the people. We went bought a card, and started collecting from the people that were here today. Then the other lady who is doing this came to me this morning discourage, and sad faced. She said Cree, they * she named the people* said that people are going to drop out, and people are going to get fired, and that people are going to pay up. I said look boo, when you are the Leader of something that involves others, you have to understand that some people aren\’t going to pay up, or act right. I said you are a Leader of this club, and you have to understand this right up front. I said don\’t get mad, or discourage the only people who are talking are the ones who BD\’s have past, and they cant join THIS GOOD THANG. I said people are always going to knock something they are not apart of. And as far as the people in the club, in everything you do boo, count on something not to go right. But always have a plan B, keep your cool, do all that you can do to be truthful, and up front to everyone in your group. She felt better. I said now tell me who the little haters are. We started laughing. After she told me, I said come on lets confront dey butts!!! It was our gurls * wont say their names*. WE went to their registers after the customers were gone ,and I said yall talking about our BD club, and they said yeaha laughing. I said, now yall didn\’t want to be in it because yalls Bd has past, I said but yall aint gonna sit back and playa hate on it either! They laughed. I said now, *such and such* is both of your friends, I said we are collecting BD money for the club members, but you both can put in $5.00 too!!! They both looked at us like we were crazy and said nope we aint putting no money up. I said well okay BE QUIET. They know me……I don\’t play. but I can laugh about it too. My co Leader was looking like dang Cree. So we walked back to our area, and I said see the same people who are criticizing YOUR BABY that you BIRTH, are the ones who don\’t want to put in $5.00 just because, but want to dis your good thang. I told her YOU, you can listen to them if you want, but as for me……….I\’m pushing on boo………we got money to collect!!! LOL And guess what? As soon as the card came around. THEY SIGNED IT AND DIDN\’T PUT A DIME IN IT! They lucky I\’m not funny acting, I wouldn\’t let them sign it. They only signed it to show that they are her friends, but Ill never tell they didn\’t want to give her a dime! WOW WOW WOW!

I bought some paint for my Bedroom, and I\’m going to start painting next week. I hate sleeping in beds. When I went to the hotel the Piston games a few weeks ago, my daughter slept in her bed, and I abandoned mines and slept on the chair. I have company coming in all Summer, and so I gotta get my BD in order. I want a TRUCK SO BAD ITS CRAZY. I have this vision of me going outside to my driveway, and seeing a BLACK TRUCK IN A YELLOW BOW! I don\’t know why I see this all the time. I even dream about this. I want a BLACK OR GREEN ENVOY OR A 4 DOOR TRAILBLAZER! My bedroom window is right at my DRIVEWAY. I would love to get up and see it every morning!!!

Today I bought this Virgo book. I saw it and picked it up. When I read it I couldn\’t believe how much of its so true about me. I stop getting all off into astrology * I was real bad back in the day*. but some of that stuff is true. Here is just a little of it…………..

Your color is pale green, your metal is quicksilver and the mantra of your sign us: I ANALYZE. * yeah this is true*. I analyze toooooo much. OMG!

Because you are a service-oriented person, you may seek a career as a social worker, marriage and family, counselor, massage therapist, psychologist or member of the clergy. Working with the disabled, homeless or children* yes this is me* with learning difficulties can be rewarding for you.There are sure to be times when you get tired of always being the wise and sensible one,* All the time, I am* even though the role suits you. For that reason there may be one or two friends you feel closest to, in whom you are likely to confide secrets, perhaps even more than family members.*Yep that\’s Cree*! You may keep a journal or thought book or write poetry or short stories. It goes without saying that you love to read. Whether its books, magazines, newspapers or online blogs
,*LOL* you simply can\’t get enough. * Wow* Reading is my Life!!! LOL MY LIFE!

Well, its late and I\’m tired. Gotta long day at work tomorrow. Talk to you all tomorrow.

Cree!

Ah, Thank God I\’m home chilling!!!

This morning when I got up I had my mind on something, and I hate that too because I can feel that God is saying God morning to me, and here I am thinking about something else. When you wake up in the mornings, its suppose to be you and God, nothing or nobody else. So when my mind is not stayed on Jesus, I do something about it. I put him there.

Which reminds me. I have been reading the One year bible for almost 2 months, I read it daily and faithfully. I remembered this promise that I made to God before Neisha was born. I told him, I said if you give me a daughter I promise you she would know you. I got in the bathtub each night to be with the Lord and to ask him this question. I was 18 when we had become good friends because of those nights together. When I had her, the doctors told me that she was a gurl, I knew that God had did this just for me. I was so happy, so was her dad. As she got older, I would buy her bible books to read afterwards she would have questions for me. We *shopped* 2 or 3 weeks for a Church home and finally we joined Second Ebenezer. She was baptized at 9 years old on Oct 2, 1995. Her grand mother and her aunt goes to this Church. I LOVE IT. WE LOVE IT.

Anyway, now that she\’s in her last year of College she\’s gonna need a lot of JESUS in her life, especially in her field as a Criminal~State Prosecutor. When I started reading the bible in One Year I asked her to join me and she loves it!! I\’m so happy that she does. And when the bible says: Train up a child in the way he should go: when he is old he will not depart from it. Proverbs 22:6 please believe its the truth. I guess the point I\’m making is. The one year bible is dated and we have been reading about how God kept saving Israel. They kept turning on him with these false God\’s, forgetting him, and doing all sorts of things. In the book of Judges, this is what I read every so many paragraphs. Then the Israelites did evil in the eyes of the Lord. OMG I said to myself, how many chances is he going to give them? Then I thought about us, he gives us chance after chance just like he did them. If you really look at your life and see all the times it took for you to get it right, you would be amazed and how good and merciful he is. I mean Wowwwwwww! Which reminds me to always say Thank you in everything. I was walking to the time clock, and I said Lord thank you for letting me be able to walk. Thank you Lord. I have to promise myself that I can not forget about him. None of us can. We cant forget him like that. Its bad enough we do what we want to do half the time without asking him. He is our parent, and yes we still need permission to do stuff. I love to Thank him. I look around my house all the time and say thank you Lord for this beautiful house that I live in. I thank him for using my arms, and being able to talk. I Thank him for peace in my life, I thank him for being able to use my mind. He has a lot of work to do on me * hehe*, but you know what I\’m willing to get better everyday with the things that I fall short on. God loves us. If we would only let him do his part in us, we would be tight. I pray for Wisdom and understanding all the time. Even if I don\’t agree I want to understand.

The other day me and my coworker was talking. She\’s a lot younger than I am, with a mouth on her. OOOOOOO weeeeeeee, I see myself in her so much when I was her age. I think God purposely put * Cree* types of gurls in to my life, cause seems like I\’m the only one who can understand them. Anyway, she has a problem with one of the Customer Service Managers who happens to be my favorite person at work, and she knows that me and her are cool. I love this manager because she\’s a true Christian, she\’s a person who wants to know the truth, she likes to get to the bottom of things, she do what is fair, she looks into things. We have even prayed together right at her podium where we do business . She prayed for me one day after I told her I was sick, and later on I was like gurl, I feel so much better. She said good , cause I said a prayer for you. I love that about her. Thats how our friendship is, plus she\’s very pretty too it maybe the reason why my coworker gives her so much flack. And every time this CSM confronts my coworker on something she gets mad and want to talk loud. She knows that when I connect with her with my eyes, I\’m going to tell her she know she\’s wrong. Well, today she was reading this Avon book, out in the opening at the register, so what there wasn\’t any customers in her line. But that\’s not allowed. I mean come on now, you can feel when you\’re wrong and out of order. So the CSM walked up to her * while I was watching* and said to her you\’re not suppose to be reading that book at your register. She put the book down and looked over at me. Now she was waiting on me to say something. I waited for her and sure enough, she said SEE SHE SHE\’S HARRASING ME. I said NO, you knew you were wrong in reading that book out in the opening like that. I can tell that she didn\’t want to hear that, but I told her you KNOW YOU were wrong gurl!!! When you\’re wrong you\’re wrong, come on now.You cant sugar coat wrong. I\’m not a friend to sit up and Amen wrong stuff either, and she knows that about me. She don\’t want to get it, she just want to do what she wants to do. LOL That\’s my gurl tho.

I downloaded that stupid yahoo messenger and it messed up my computer!! Dang why did I do that? It took me 2 hours this evening to fix my baby! I knew I should have listened to my first mind. But its all good. Next time I chat with someone it will be in MSN. I hate yahoo instant messenger!!!

Well, I\’m about to get in the tub and chill.

Be Blessed,

Lacrease