Author: lacrease

Hey hey

Today was a good day!!! Thank you Jesus!!! I woke up this morning not wanting to go to work at all. It was one of those days where I just wanted to stay in bed. I can\’t miss work tho, I have a trip coming up next month, and I don\’t want any bills on my back before or after I get back home. That\’s a terrible feeling. Your out of town shopping and stuff, then you have a flash back of coming home to a bill, shoo that will mess up your shopping experience. Naw, lol been there done that.

Today I have a lot going on in my head, nothing serious, just funny thoughts and things I want to write down before going to bed.

Back in March 2004. I was apart of an on line Ministry- Am I My Sister\’s Keeper. Angela and her husband had bought me a plane ticket to New York, but her apartment was in New Jersey. I told her that I was catching the Greyhound to NY, because I was afraid of flying. She called me after reading my email and said to me Lacrease you are not flying. You have to come out of that fear of flying. She said what if God called you to travel places where its too long and time consuming to ride the Greyhound Bus? I thought to myself……..I can\’t see me having to fly anywhere. She told me to get somewhere alone, so I went into my bathroom and she just started praying for me over the phone. \’These prayers were so powerful, I was crying, and after about 10 minutes I was instantly over the fear of flying. I can\’t even explain it. My fear was instantly GONE!!! As the days were leading up to me flying to New York, she called me and emailed several times asking was I coming? I said gurl I am there!!!! I am no longer fearful of flying. I knew she believed me, and I KNEW I wasn\’t afraid. Days later she sent my airplane ticket thru email, and the day it was time for all 8 of us to go to New York I was there.

When I got there, they hugged me and asked me how was my flight. I told them to be honest the plane landed too soon, I was really enjoying being up in the sky!!! Now here I am flying to ATL, with 2 of the 4 Michigan Pearls and I will pray for them as someone prayed for me. I know God did that for me, because before that, you couldn\’t tell me nothing about flying. I\’m flying to Houston next Oct for a week cruise. I\’m about to do it up in flying!! Thank you Jesus.

When all 8 of us got there, we had a Leadership Conference. She has an apartment in the same building as Queen Latifah lives in NJ. So just imagine our atmosphere. We had no time to play, it was all business. Each day the Leaders had something planned for us to do. On the second day they waited to almost midnight, made us change into these outfits * I still have mines *. They placed backpacks on us filled with HEAVY HEAVY jugs of water, plus we had to carry an egg in one hand and a gallon of water in another. And then we took to the streets for hours and hours and hours not knowing where we were going. The only people knew was the 2 Leaders. I was the biggest one, so I was about to pass out!!! We hopped on NY trains, from here to there. Seem like forever for us to get back to the apartment and lay out in that bed. Next thing I knew we were about to start walking

Yep, the Brooklyn Bridge!!!! I was horrified when I saw how long this Bridge was in person. We had to walk this whole Bridge. Talking about a Sister who was TIIIIED!! And get this. We couldn\’t drop, or crack the egg, also we could switch off the gallon of water in each hand, even if someone in the group needed help anyone was allowed to carry their egg or water for them, only until they regrouped.It was early morning, cold/hot, scary. I needed help on that Bridge. I can see my Sister Keepers gurls faces now looking at me, like oooooooooo Lacrease, Lord help her!! LOL Its funny now , but it wasn\’t funny worth a Darn back then. LOL Before we left the apartment for this 5 hour journey through NY and New Jersey, they told us the purpose of that assignment was to learn how to juggle, God, friends, family, job, issues, all at the same time. Boy did it seem wack then, but today in my life. The person and Leader I am today, if it wasn\’t for those exercises and LORD KNOWS the ones I havent got to writng about yet, has helped me in my life today. That\’s why I am ask to lead so many things, it all comes together now. God was preparing me. I couldn\’t even grasp all that stuff they were teaching us about the bible, and ministry then in 2003. Never ever knowing that I would need it now. I have 2 projects going on RIGHT now as I type, and even this message has me about to step up my game. God has something in my belly that is about to start growing. I have learned not to speak prematurely but baaaaby when it starts to happen for me, you all will be the first to know about it. So get ready!!! I want to say to Angela and Vanessa thank you both so much for your Leadership Skills. Ive been to Chicago 3 times for Leadership Meetings with them, and to New York/New Jersey. Angela is a Minister under Smokie Norful Church Victory Cathedral Worship Center outside Chicago. And Vanessa is into Media Relations at her Church in New Jersey. I\’m sooooooo proud of them!!!

Yesterday after service I read my Bible for 9 hours right here at this computer straight. I had to meditate on it I kept on going back and forth over the Scriptures. You have to read it like that sometimes to get that good understanding you need before moving on.

I\’m sleeping. I have more to share tomorrow. Good Night!!

Cree

Hey Hey

Today was a good day!!! Woke up this morning felt my legs, arms, face, check my sight and speech and said Thank you Jesus!!! Thank you Lord. I make a habit of stopping in the middle of what whateva I\’m doing to let God know that I am forever thankful.

Yesterday I was reading the beginning story of King Solomon and how wise he was. But later on in his life, he began to worship other God\’s and marry these types of women God warm him about. It just shows us that we get caught up in other things, and turn away from God.

Which reminds me of how I ask God to show me who I am. I ask him that question so that I can acknowledge the fact that I fall short daily, and when I go to him and ask him to show me who I am, I am wiling to see just who I am.

Today he showed me Lacrease.

I notice that whenever I\’m talking to someone and they start telling me something about them that\’s either positive or negitive. I can instantly * and not on purpose* think of a similar situation involving myself. For example: If a friend comes to me and tell me about a time when her and another person fell out over a guy. I always go back into my *mind* and pull out a story to relate to her. Instead of me listening to the story and giving her advice if she wants, I end up always putting myself in that same boat with this person. And yes, many many many things people come to me for I have experienced it. And if I haven\’t, I can tell you of someone who has. Today this lady was telling me something * I forgot what it was* next thing you know I was on the subject of how I did the same thing. And after a few seconds, I thought about it and was like……wait a minute Lacrease, this is NOT your story this is her story!!! I dunno why I do that. So I said God…….. why do I do that?

• Am I trying to let this person * feel* comfortable in finishing their story?
• Am I trying to let them know that I *feel* them on their story?
• Am I setting the atmosphere in relating to them, so that when I come to the conclusion of the problem, they would listen to me and take my advice?

I really want to know Lord why do I do that. I noticed that people\’s face light up they are sharing something with you who understands them and have been though the same things. I never ever lie about being in a situation….. no never. I just want to understand why do I feel the need to let this person know…..boo * I feel you pain* because I have been though this, or I know someone who has. Tonight I was talking to my Sister Pearl on the phone , her niece got married today. And since I had just want to a wedding a few weeks ago, I learned we did some of the same things, it was just so exciting to hear the good news of her niece. While she was talking I wanted to say oooooo we did that, or ooooooo yeah gurl I know that you mean. or yeah yeah yeah I know what you\’re talking about. I know God can feel my excitement, all while she was talking ,he told me to just LISTEN. He said \”Lacrease just listen*. And so I did. It wasn\’t even hard. God knows that I don\’t to take over the conversation. I just can relate to a lot of things, but its not about that, its about listening. He\’s teaching me to listen. I have this feeling inside me to * comfort* people, and I find that once they know you\’ve been the same things, you can Minister to them better. So that\’s what God has shown me today. Now I must go to work on Monday * as well as now* and listen to people\’s stories without ALWAYS adding my story to it. God is NOT done with Lacrease. He is not finished with me yet.

Quick story. Last week, my Church* Pastor Edgar Vann* held this 3 day Fugitive Safe Surrender Program * well check it out for yourself* CLICK THE LINK BELOW.

http://www.myfoxdetroit.com/myfox/pages/Home/Detail;jsessionid=1AE4DC86921E9A…

And all the days leading up to this day, my coworker had been asking me directions on how to get there and said that she was going. The day came and went and I know that she would return to work on Monday. God said to me, when you see her, she\’s going to rant and rave about how it turned out for her. So, In my mind I\’m like BET!! Ok thanks dad for the heads up. I know its going to make me mad when I hear it, don\’t talk about my Church or my Pastor and how we do things. Didn\’t the weekend pass and here she comes to work Monday morning, spotted me at the register, came over to me and said…… Lacrease, I went to your Church and they didn\’t have it organized or nothing. I stood out there in the heat so long, …….I left!!! She caught me totally off guard.Plus I was in the middle of ringing up a customer. She hadn\’t even punched in before she started on that story. Before I knew it I ripped into her a like a German Shepard on the mailman. I said gurl you mean to tell me you waited all that time and didn\’t take care of your business, all that talk you did about going? I said I don\’t care how crowed or unorganized it was, you had business to take care of. Made me mad. After I said that, she realized that I was offended and she said oh it wasn\’t for me, I was with my cousin, it wasnt organized at all. We are not close friends or even talk on the phone, but we respect each other. Just as she snapped back at me. I heard the rooster crow!!! I failed the test. All I needed to say was. O I\’m so sorry about that, hopefully if we have another one, she/you will know what to expect. She needed to be comforted, not yell and say….you should\’ve went!! LOL She wanted me to apologize for it being unorganized, and normally I would, but she caught me totally off guard. See that\’s what God is showing me, situations like that. When he gives me a word, I am to know how to handle the situations. And Lord knows I know how. Its just my mind is always on speed dial , tweak mode, and * get em gurl Madea style* sometimes and I get caught up. Imma get it right. I promise Lord.

Well, its time I depart for now, I\’m going to read my lessons on King Solomon, its sooooo interesting. Don\’t forget to read the One Line Bible in a year. Im gone to bed, Im crossed sided again!!!

God Bless You All

Cree

Hello!!!

Today was a CHALLENGING LEARNING WONDERFUL DAY for Lacrease. If you never read a message from me, hear me today.

This morning I got up for work. It was a short day for me 9-1. I felt good. I Thank God for waking me up this morning, I looked in the mirror and everything was in tact. Always always always give Thanks to God for waking you up in the morning, even if you forget and remember later on in the day, Thank him.

Before I left out of the door, I had my hands on the doorknobs and said a prayer. Got to work and went to my register. Not long after I got there, this middle aged white lady come through my line. I spoke to her as I do in my helloooooooooooooooooooooo how are you voice. She spoke back and then it went down hill from there.

I looked up at the screen and told her the total. She said * I want $20.00 back*! So, I looked at her and I said huh? You want $20.00 back? She said yeah. I said maam back from where, you haven\’t given me anything. Then she said, I\’m giving you a check!!! So, I\’m like okay, so I stands there, and wait for her to give me her check. She is staring at me like……FINISH MY TRANSACTION!!! I said ma\’am, you haven\’t given me anything. She says I want $20.00 back in money!!! So I looked down on the counter ( on her side of the register* and there is HER WHOLE CHECK BOOK, she hadn\’t tore off the check from the book, signed , dated it or anything. I\’m not allowed to touch anything of hers, she has to pass me what she want me to have. Plus I don\’t know how she plans to pay me . When I realized that my line was getting long and she wasn\’t bulging. I INSTANTLY TURNED PROPER LIKE MADEA * not even on purpose*. LOL I said maaaaaammmmmmmm, in order for you to GET $20.00 backKKKKKKKK, you have to tear YOURRRRRRRR checkkkkkkkkkkkk out of YOURRRRRRRRRR check book. I can\’tttttttttt do it for UUUUUUUUU. She says I Ok, I\’ll tear it out of the book!!! Aiiiiiight aiiiiight aiiiiight aiiiiight aiiiiight,I heard you. REAL REAL REAL LOUD. So, I looked at her……… and I\’m saying to myself…….. * dang………….what\’s wrong wit her*. The nicer I was to her, the meaner she got. Finally she tore off the check, I told her that she had to sign it and put the OVER amount on it. She said, WHY I GOTTA DO THAT? I AINT BEEN DOING IT. I said ma\’am at this Walmart……….. you have to sign it. So she picked up the pen that\’s connected to the credit card machine and start signing her name. I said MAAM, YOU HAVE TO USE A INK PEN. She was maaaaad at me. I was about to give her my pen, but the lady behind her gave her one. After she signed the check and puts the drivers licenses on the counter * she didnt want to hand it to me*, I picked it up and set it down on the counter until the check comes out of the printer. All while we were waiting, I was thinking to myself, dang God what\’s wrong with this woman? Why is she so angry? So I said okay God Imma make friends with her OK, she must be having a bad day. I\’m thinking maybe its me. As I was giving her the check and ID back, I read her name and said here you are Ms. Jane. She looked at me mean and LOUD and said: UUUUUUUUUUUU

DON\’T KNOW ME WELL ENOUGH TO CALL ME JANE!!!!!!!! I know I turned purple cause that was the last straw. I said out loud as I threw my hands UP in the AIR, GOD THATS IT!!!!!!!!!! I TRIED, THATS IT!!!!!!!!! I said Maam, I wouldn\’t dare call you by your first name without saying Maam. I said TO you MS JANE. She looked at me and said OH, I THOUGHT YOU CALLED ME JANE!. I said I was trying to make friends with you, SHE SAID REAL REAL REAL REAL LOUD VOICE: YOURE NOT SUPPOSE TO BE MAKING FIRENDS WITH ME, IM A CUSTOMERRRRRRRRRRRR I looked at her and said WOW she don\’t get it!!! She looked back at me and said WOW MY AAAAAAAAA BUTTT!

AND DONT YOU SAY ANYTHING ELSE!!!!! * I guess she was going to tell me on.

She kept staring at me. At that very moment I started thinking about how every minute and every hour we need Jesus. I started thinking how Jesus can never leave Lacrease Walker. I started thinking just how close I was to going to jail . I starting thinking how this lady don\’t know \”Jesus is saving her life right now* and she don\’t have a clue. This wasnt about me being called to the office, or getting fired, this wasnt even between Walmartanymore. This was bwtween me, her and God. As she is staring at me, my hands were begging me to grab her neck.* I\’m just being real* At that moment we were staring at each other, I starting thinking about what if I didn\’t have my sweet Jesus in my life standing between us right at this very moment? I started thinking…. that Jesus is so real, he was working for me on the spot like I never seen him before. All I kept thinking while looking at her in shock was, this is why we need Jesus, for situations and interventions such as these. He is the greatest Lawyer ever!!!! So after I snapped out of making my what *seem like 5 minute MOVIE of me wanting to shake this woman out, and negotiating with Jesus NOT TOO * this black gurl behind her was smiling at me, waving both hands in the air saying to me *Wooooooooooooooo Sah* Woooooooooooooo Sah* She made me smile too. I told the lady to have a nice day, and started ringing up the woo sah lady. I don\’t have time for that mess.

Why can\’t I just have a good day? I only worked 4 funky hours and the more I smiled the more the people who had stuff on their minds came and *TRIED* to transfer their going on\’s * LOL* to me. I work with the public, I deal with at least 250 different Spirits a day. You got to be prayed up. You cant miss a day, you cant be too tired to say Lord help me, give me strength. In this world today, you will find yourself in all kinds of stuff, just because you let the flesh kick in and over rule you. Can you all imagine what Jesus and the disciples went through? I think about that alllllllllllllll the time. I betta grow some tougher skin huh?

The only reason why I write my experiences on yahoo 360, is because I\’m still a work in progress. I want people to see themselves in me. I want people to do better than me in these same kinds of situation. I could have easily kept this to myself and learned my own lessons, but I\’m real about mines, and since we are all people, I know we all face the same challenges working with the public/people as I do….at one time or another.

And you know another thing I learned today. Sometimes I try to make people out to be * good people* and I want to believe that people are all in a good moods, and that people can all come together in one big room and there will be no arguments and no disagreements. I can see myself in that SAME ROOM full of people, going
around asking. are you okay? Are you okay? Is everything okay ova here? What\’s wrong gurl, things working out? Hey, do you guys need anything? And boom, as soon as something jumps off, I\’m the first one saying * ITS NOT SUPPOSE TO BE LIKE THIS GOD*. Well knock knock Lacrease!!!

I love you all Good night!!!

Today was a beautiful day. Anytime you can wake up and say Thank you Jesus for letting me see another day, you such open your mouth and give him some Praise. Oh where would I be if it had not been for Jesus who is on my side? I can think of a lot of places, but you know what, even tho my eyes got off him for a season, they are back on him for Good!!! When I see him face to face I just want to stare at him. I want to touch his face and rub my fingers through his lips. I want to smell his neck * I know, I know its weird to you, but this is just me*. I want to feel his touch, I need a hug. LOL I do. I really need one from him, and I\’m gonna get it.

How is everyone? I love talking to my daughter Neisha. Its funny how people use to say that since we were born on the same day, same hospital, 3 minutes difference on Sept 3, 19 years apart that we wouldn\’t get along. People knew how I was, and knew Neisha to be a quiet, and obedient child and said that we would clash when she got older. I beg to differ. We are so close it scares me sometimes. She is a like me but she also has her own style and taste. The more people said that we wouldn\’t get along, the more I embraced her as being her own person. WE are a lot in many ways, but in the ways we are different we UNDERSTAND AND RESPECT EACH OTHER VIEWS. We listen to each other. She listens to me which brings me to this conversation that me her and my mother had recently.

I\’m the kinda person who will take charge when I need to find out information, and need to talk to a certain person to get the ball moving. My mother always had my dad, and he was the person who like to do those things. I was a single parent growing up, so I had to call the phone company to negotiate my bills. I had to call the telephone people and cut deals. I had to make a dollar out of .25 so I know how to talk to people who can help me.

I always believe that people watch you. If you\’re anything like me, you can tell who are good and who are on some *Otha stuff*. Then if your lucky you can meet their family members and *sometimes* it can back up who you believed that person to be. I know someone right now, that if they wanted a ride to the store, I would have police escort me before they jump in my car. That\’s not good credit. I told my daughter to always, always be truthful, always be honest because not only is that Honorable to God. But when you are in need of anything, God will lay it on the heart of the person that you need help from to bless you. I know this first hand. She always says to me, Ma….when you need something done you can call anybody. It wasn\’t always this way for me. I had to show God that I can be trust worthy. I use to be off the hook, and I have written that plenty of times. I told her when you become a State Prosecutor don\’t start getting in practice of bribes, or hanging around anyone knowling *dirty*. That stuff catches back up with you, and it ruins your reputation with God and the people. Its not only a time to work, but a time to Minister to others. She will be in the system of all types of people and situations. Her chance will surely be there. I tell her all the time, ask God for Wisdom, Understanding, Discernment, and Peace in everything! If its not the truth don\’t stand for it. In each area of her life for being honest and trustworthy, God will provide all of her needs. HALLELUJAH!!!!!!!!

18 Be careful that no one entices you by riches;
do not let a large bribe turn you aside.

Job 36 (New International Version)

I\’m going to close for now. Ill be back tomorrow. I\’m going to finally get to my favorite Hollywood person and why he is chosen………for such a time like this.

Cree

At the end of the day after I have burned God\’s ears off I like to come here and do my favorite thing………..write.

I\’m off on Sunday\’s, but its back to work on tomorrow. I\’m going to see the Incredible Hulk this weekend. I use to love watching that show when I was coming up. Bill Bixby was my boooooooooooy. LOL I wanted to go to the Midnight Showing on Thursday Night, but I\’ll have to wait.

Me and Neisha have been reading the Bible in One Year on line for over 3 months now, and it is amazing!! For some reason, I look at the Bible in a whole new light. I use to always run to read the New Testament, but baaaaby take it from me, the Old Testament is THE BOMB! Before each reading I pray because I want to get true understanding, wisdom and knowledge. I am the Cameragurl seeing the scriptures come alive from all angles. I want to feel the Spirit of the people, visualizing them, and seeing everything that I am reading. ITS ABSOLUTELY THE GREATEST FEELING IN THE WORLD!! LOL Is all I can say. I have to snap out of the picture sometimes because I feel as though I am there for real. lol http://www.oneyearbibleonline.com/june.asp?version=72 is dated and we just finished reading about David. He died in yesterdays story. I feel as tho I know him personally. I was sad to see his story come to an end, but Solomon is King now, and today this is what he asked for:

3 Solomon showed his love for the LORD by walking according to the instructions given him by his father David, except that he offered sacrifices and burned incense on the high places.

4 The king went to Gibeon to offer sacrifices, for that was the most important high place, and Solomon offered a thousand burnt offerings on that altar. 5 At Gibeon the LORD appeared to Solomon during the night in a dream, and God said, \”Ask for whatever you want me to give you.\”

6 Solomon answered, \”You have shown great kindness to your servant, my father David, because he was faithful to you and righteous and upright in heart. You have continued this great kindness to him and have given him a son to sit on his throne this very day.

7 \”Now, LORD my God, you have made your servant king in place of my father David. But I am only a little child and do not know how to carry out my duties. 8 Your servant is here among the people you have chosen, a great people, too numerous to count or number. 9 So give your servant a discerning heart to govern your people and to distinguish between right and wrong. For who is able to govern this great people of yours?\”

10 The Lord was pleased that Solomon had asked for this. 11 So God said to him, \”Since you have asked for this and not for long life or wealth for yourself, nor have asked for the death of your enemies but for discernment in administering justice, 12 I will do what you have asked. I will give you a wise and discerning heart, so that there will never have been anyone like you, nor will there ever be. 13 Moreover, I will give you what you have not asked for—both wealth and honor—so that in your lifetime you will have no equal among kings. 14 And if you walk in obedience to me and keep my decrees and commands as David your father did, I will give you a long life.\” 15 Then Solomon awoke—and he realized it had been a dream.
He returned to Jerusalem, stood before the ark of the Lord\’s covenant and sacrificed burnt offerings and fellowship offerings. Then he gave a feast for all his court.

Today\’s New International Version (TNIV)
1 Kings 3:3-15

When I read that I had to step back from my desk. Solomon didnt say he wanted 12,000 more horses, gold or a thousand wives. He said Wisdom to GOVERN YOUR PEOPLE!!! LOOK AT HOW UNSELFISH THAT IS. I\’M TELLING YALL, WE GOTTA START TAKING CARE OF EACH OTHER BETTER THAN WHAT WE ARE DOING. What Solomon wanted wasn\’t anything about him. Then God said, know what? I got you………, also let me drop this in your Spirit……..13 And I have also given thee that which thou hast not asked, both riches, and honour: so that there shall not be any among the kings like unto thee all thy days.

Please click on that link above and start reading the bible daily. Find yourself a partner. Start somewhere.

Everyday I try to be sensitive to the voice of God. Sometimes we talk to much, to often say the wrong things and we don\’t leave room for him to speak to us. That\’s why I had to cut down on how many people that are in my circle. When you finish dealing with people in your circle with all their issues and yours put together, you are too tired to hear God. So daily I\’m asking God show me LaCrease.

Well, this past week on Wed I was told by my manager that we cant punch in the numbers to the Bridge Cards/Food Stamps, anymore, and that if the card didn\’t swipe , they couldn\’t use it. It angered me because 97% of those cards don\’t work. I know that, I\’m a cashier. So I said you know what, the next person who come through my line with a card that doesn\’t swipe, I was going to ask them to call management over to talk to them. Here comes this lady and her daughter, her card doesn\’t swipe and after I couldnt explain to her why that we can no longer punch in the numbers, she wanted to talk to someone higher. I told her that the first manager that I call over she can\’t help you at all,I told her to ask her for someone higher. She did and when our Co manager came over , he flat out lied to her with some story of fake cards, keep in mind Bridge cards need secret pin numbers……… it works like a debt card. She couldn\’t get her groceries. So I said to him why don\’t you put a sign on the door that says we cant accept non swiping bridge cards. * I knew he wouldnt dare do this* He said No. I said well are we to ask every customer are they using a bridgehead? * which I would neve do*. Then he says we cant do that either. I said so, just wait to ring up all their groceries, total them out and then when they hand me over their non swiping Bridge card, tell him *OH SORRY WE NO LONGER ACCEPT NON SWIPING BRIDGE CARDS AS OF TODAY*. He listened how stupid that sound and next thing I knew, he told my manager to tell us all that we can accept them.

Now the point I\’m making in all this is, we all have a mouth. We need to learn to use it in the right ways. WE need to use our v
oice in positive lights. See I have this thing, when someone is wrong and it effects a lot of people, Ill get *fleshly upset* and can move a lot of people to different reactions. GOD DOENST LIKE THAT AT ALL. I\’m learning to go to the source. I wasn\’t going to stop asking questions to the co manger until I got answers. You cant do all those families like that.

A voice of truth is a million words.

Good night!

Cree

LOL I\’m back!!! As you all can see I have some extra time on my hands. I\’m posting back to back in one day.

I just got off the phone talking to my good friend *use to be bestfriend* Ms. Gloria for 5 hours. Yes, we had a whole lot to catch up on. Me and Ms. Gloria go way back, people use to say that we were partners in crime!!! That was long time ago. You know how things change, people grow, situations differ? Well, God told just before the change, that it was near an end of our friendship as we/others saw it. I knew and felt it happening, but I didn\’t want our friendship to end. Well something happened and I didn\’t have any control of it, and we parted for years. I laugh thinking about it, because God had told me wayyyyyy ahead of time, and I couldn\’t see no way possible that me and my gurl friendship was ending, and when it did…………………it was like WOW………… God? So tonight she called me and boy did we talk talk talk. Whew, how things has change, we had good conversations too. We have really grown up. Lord Jesus, know he bad!!! LOL I hate talking on the phone, but we both needed that and even tho our friendship will never be the same, if anything it will grow Spiritually, because that\’s where I am………and it seems she is too. God always kmows best.

I was suppose to go to another Wedding today. Whew Chile. I had a few dollars and want to save them for gas and nick knacks before pay day. I can\’t go to a wedding without giving, that\’s just ain\’t me. Back in the day, boooooooooy I would walk into a function ready to party, walk right pass the card box to the dance floor. Man, I was living foul back then. I always say look into the mirror and self examine yourself. Ask God what is it that you need to work on, so that you can become a better person to yourself, and to others.

Yesterday I was driving home from work on the freeway. I said Lord, I know that I\’m going to be rich one day, how I don\’t know. But please let it come when I\’m managing my money well. I know me I will give away all of my money, because I see so many people in need. If any of my family members call me at work and tell me that we are rich to quit my job right now. No doubt I\’m out!!! LOL I probably wont even finish ringing up the customer whose at my register. ROFL. All I would be able to see is my car keys and the time clock. My days of working will be over. I will be volunteering as soon as I get paid.

God knows I want to volunteer my time. People try to control you with money, and I cant be controlled by it, because it means NOTHING TO ME. So by me knowing that, I look to higher things, such as volunteering my time to people who need help. I love helping people especially the smallest ways. I\’m saying this right now in this blog entry. I will not be working for the rest of my life for MONEY, I will be doing everything for God! So many people need encouraging, people need for their business to be taken care of * simple calls to the phone company*. Teens need someone to love them, and talk to them. Even the people like doctors and nurses need people to cater to them. Yep, that\’s it. I want to cater to those kinds of people.

Two nights ago, I came home sat at my computer and cried cried cried. I couldn\’t stop. I kept thinking about the customers who come through my line. I had just just just got to work, when I turned on my at the register, this young white lady came through my line with her son. And as I always do, I say heeeeyyyyyy how you doing???. I try to make it personal, instead of the corporate, * HELLO HOW ARE YOU?* routine. I make all my customers feel as tho they know me. I ring up her things, and when I looked up at her to get her money, she was looking sad. I heard God loud and clear when he said…………ask her is everything alright? So, I said ma\’am is everything alright? She was digging in her purse like she knew she was short. She said no ma\’am, just bare with me, I\’m really having a bad day. So, I\’m like okay…………….what\’s wrong? She said, I went to pick up my son just before coming here, and my soon to be ex husband jump on me in front of my child * who looked to be about 3 or 4*. I said ahhh ma\’am I\’m so sorry to hear that, are you okay? She said yea. As she was digging in her purse, God said she don\’t have enough money. So I said maam don\’t worry about the .49 I got you!!!!!!! She thanked me and as she was about to leave, God said call her back and give her that $20.00 you just got off your debit card. I was like OKAY!!!!!!!!!!!! I didn\’t want anyone to see me doing that, because they wouldnt understand the whole story, also because she was just ready to go, I can tell. So I said maam come here, she came………. and said yes. I said dig in my right pocket and grab that money that\’s in there. *I didn\’t want to do it myself under a camera. She said NO NO NO, I said yessss, this is yours. And I looked at her with a mean face * just so that she wont try to talk me out of it*. LOL I said God Bless You. She burst out crying. I had tears in my eyes. I\’m so sensitive. Two of my coworkers ask me what had happened after she left. I didn\’t want to tell them, but I thought hopefully it will plant a seed in them so that they can bless others in ANYWAY they are moved too. This is serious. I think that everyone can do something to help someone.

When my daughter was just a young gurl, she would see me giving to people in need all the time. Now that she\’s 21, when we are out shopping or something, I ll turn around and be like dang, where Neisha go…………. LOL and here she comes walking up on me saying I gave that man/lady some money. She don\’t want to tell me cause she knows Imma bust out and start crying * for real*. That\’s just a real blessing. That tells me that she use to watch and pay attention to me, now she\’s blessing people when she\’s lead. I told her to never ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever stop giving!!!! When she was 9 or 10 years old , she called the Feed the Children line and they sent her out a pamplet. When I got the mail, I said NEISHA, how did these people get your name to be sending you something. She was sooooooo nervous. She said I saw the commerical and wanted to send the kids some money. I hugged her so tight. Ahhhhhh my baby.

Why are people prejudice? There are so many other issues that can be discussed right in their own homes, instead of wasting time on ignorant issues as that. As much as I am * ignorant* to believing that people have changed, its sad to say………..there are people who still don\’t get it. This customer came through my coworker line, and when Jennie said to her * ma\’am I need to see your ID with your credit card* so hands her the ID, and says * If I was white, you wouldn\’t ask me that*. My coworker being JENNIE, turns around to my register, and says. Lacrease she said that if I was white, I wouldn\’t have asked her for her license.*. The lady looked at me and
I said to her with a smile * her nieces and nephews are mixed. Her brother married a black lady. And I said they just left her line, she\’s not like that. Why do people do that? I have been knowing Jennie for almost 5 years, not once has she ever act prejudice to me or to anyone that I work with. That\’s just so unfair to put that on someone. As high as gas is and food, the focus shouldn\’t be on the color of someones skin. When its time to be with The Lord, who will stand there saying, I don\’t wanna stand by this black man? I mean for real!!!

Its all about love and helping each other. That\’s all I want to do in this world. Find peace people. Get understanding. Pray pray pray. Love each other, help each other. Ask God how can you bless someone today. Don\’t look for others to do it, start with yourself. Listen to the conversations of people and ask God what should you do to bless them. Don\’t expect anything in return, just do it and walk away.

Gotta go and watch a movie with Neisha. Talk to you all later.

Cree

Yesterday I started writing the blog entry * Just talking to myself* when the phone rang. When I answered , I knew that Ill be on it for a minute, so I left the scripture and decided to call it a night to watch a movie with Neisha. I really had more to say, so hopefully I can remember it all.

There\’s this guy who really likes me. I really think he just wants to sleep with me. Like I told him, boo you got me messed up. For one you have a gurlfriend, she\’s pregnant, and #3 I\’m not looking for SEX, which is the easiest thing in the world to get. And for 4, I have 2 coworkers who live in the same Townhouse complex you live in, and they have told me the scoop on you.Then when he came through my line, I confronted him about the gurl he was in the store with, he says she was just somebody I met. I said then why are you ova here? Why the heck do he keep bugging me? Its been over a year and he still haven\’t gotten to first base with me…….. No means No!!!. Now when I pull out the *Virgo* in me, he\’s gonna wish he had never met me. I\’m not even going to cuss, I\’m just going to lay him out verbally!!! When I look up and see his *begging* looking face staring at me while I work, it irritates the heck out of me. I just wanna scream UGHHHHHHHH……. GET OUT THIS STORE!!

When I was a young gurl, I would lose something, and for the life of me I couldn\’t find it anywhere. So I use to pray and say God please help me find * such and such* I really need it, you are magic, you can just make it appear. Please God. I would most times end up crying because I wanted to find it so badly. As I got older I realized that the fun part in finding something is: that if you keep looking you will find what you-re looking for. Had God said * oh here it is Lacrease* I wouldn\’t be able to appreciate the things that were lost.When I lose something and find it I rejoice. I\’m happy. I\’m so Thankful. I Thank God for making it possible. That\’s a part of him teaching us. He doesn\’t want us to give up, he wants us to know that we got to keep on praying, keep on having Faith, keep on going. One of my favorite scriptures is:

The Parable of the Lost Coin

8\”Or suppose a woman has ten silver coins^[a] and loses one. Does she not light a lamp, sweep the house and search carefully until she finds it? 9And when she finds it, she calls her friends and neighbors together and says, \’Rejoice with me; I have found my lost coin.\’ 10In the same way, I tell you, there is rejoicing in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner who repents.\” Luke 15 (New International Version)

There comes a time in your life when you look at yourself and you wonder why things are not happening for you. You have to wonder what part am I playing that\’s sabotaging my own self and success. At some point you stop to examine yourself and you say Lord, how can I work on me? What am I doing wrong, what do I need to do, what do I need to practice, what do I need to see, what do I need to learn? You just can\’t get up every morning with the same foul breath, you have to at one point say, I need to brush my teeth.

When I say that, I\’m referring to a coworker of mines whose last day working as a cashier at my store was yesterday. She was hit by a car years ago and till this day she wants to hold on to that. She said the reason why she\’s leaving Michigan and going back to Virginia was because the people here don\’t *understand* what she\’s been through. I said to her…… Rena, you got hit by a car 10 years ago, why would you want to hold on to something like that, when you are healed!!! You\’re okay! Things are going good for you. She got mad at me!!!!! I swear I saw fire shoot from her nose. I believe that God heals, and since I live on that, I\’m not going to sit and pacifier her accident. That goes for anybody!!! I have no comment, umbrella\’s, blankets, or pampers for* woe is me people*. I believe in praying and getting over what ever it is you\’re going through. Some take longer than others, that\’s fair.I understand that. In the meantime while youre going through, don\’t throw it up in people\’s face. That\’s not right to make others feel bad because of what you are going through that\’s not cool with me. I have a real big problem with that. I use to come in to work, make my rounds to speak to everyone, and ask Rena, how are you doing today. She\’ll say *not to well*. I would stay there and talk to her, and no matter what I say to her, it didn\’t help. The next day, I would do the same thing, Rena……. whats wrong boo, why you looking like that? Then she\’ll say * my leg hurt, or my head hurt, or my throat bothering me. This went on for months, before I realized that nothing is never right with her. So I stopped asking her.

She knew she was leaving this city, but no one else knew that\’s the reason why she started picking on folks. She made me so mad one day, that I told her that I be glad when she leave, and that hopefully the next time I see her would be on Judgment Day!!! What made me mad was, I was ringing up a customer, and my manager came over to talk to me about something, and then here she comes whispering, trying to get me upset. I knew what she was doing. I knew it because God told me that same day, that Rena is going to try to stir up trouble because its her last days and she wants to go out with a bang.I tried to ignor her, especially since I was with a customer, but she on at me. Then she repeated*** I see you quiet down here, you aint with your gurls*** that was the straw, cause see she was being funny. My manager heard the whole thing. You don\’t do people like that just because you feel its your chance to get revenge on folks who you feel * didn\’t baby you because you had a car accident 90 years ago*. You ain\’t finna talk to me *credog* any kinda way. Yeah whateva! So after I lit into real good. Later on she called me to her register and apologized to me, and ask me for a hug. I was shocked. Me being friendly said ahhhhhhh okay Rena, lets be cool, and don\’t do me like that anymore okay? She said okay. Didn\’t 2 days ago, we fell out again!!! I said gurl, you know what? I cant mess with you, goodbye, see ya later, Thank you JESUSSSSSSS you\’re leaving. I said you act like you hate me. I said do I gossip about anyone? She said no. I said do I talk about people? She said no. I said then what is it about me that you don\’t like? She said you don\’t understand my condition. I said GURL AINT NOTHING WRONG WITH YOU!!! I said to myself, aint nobody gon walk around here and feed you Oreo cookies and milk just because you had an accident umpteen years ago!!! I\’M JUST NOT GON DO THAT BOO. HELL TO THE *WHITNEY HOUSTON* NAW!!! And when she left yesterday * thank you Lord*, I didn\’t look her way. Some people have to be just left alone. That\’s what I did……left her alone and let her leave peacefully.

People, don\’t expect others to do cart wheels for you. At some point you need to move
on. Don\’t make family members and friends pay for anything, by keep on bringing it up. People get tired of that. There is a GOD, that specialize in handling those types of issues. PEOPLE CANT DO THAT!!! I CANT HANDLE MY OWN ISSUES, I AINT GONNA LET NOOOOOOBODY PUT THERE ISSUES ON ME. NOOOOO WAY. Take it to God. Let him do it, he made you.

Cree

The bible says:

2 Timothy 3

Godlessness in the Last Days

1But mark this: There will be terrible times in the last days. 2People will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boastful, proud, abusive, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy, 3without love, unforgiving, slanderous, without self-control, brutal, not lovers of the good,

When I was growing up, I use to read this over and over and over again, thinking this kinda stuff will never happen in my days……… because I\’ll be dead.

Well, they are happening right now as I type. Take notice. Ill be back tomorrow.

Cree

Congratulations to the Detroit Red Wings, we won the Stanley Cup Tonight in a 3-2 win in Pittsburgh!!! I wish they could have won in Detroit, but its alright they won and that\’s the good part!!!

I love Sports and next year I promise myself that I was going to go to more Basketball games too. My favorite sport is Football. So, watch out, you may see me on TV.

My gurl Janet Jackson is coming to The Palace of Auburn Hills Sept 27, 2008 and tickets go on sale next Saturday morning!!! I want to go so bad. Tomorrow when I get to work Imma see if I can get someone to go with me, if not its 0n and poppin by myself!!! My friends are soo cheap LOL They probably say……….* the tickets cost too much* I can feel it now, so I need to make up my mind as to what I\’m gonna do. If I drive that far, Imma spend the night there like I did in April for the Piston game that was at the same place. So, imma see. Huhhhhhh Imma hate to hear what they gotta say. I\’m expecting to pay at least $120.00 probably more with taxes and surcharges. Not including $10.00 to park.

Today my coworker gave me a flier to go on her family and friends cruise for 7 days to Montego Bay Jamaica, Grand Cayman, and Cozumel Mexico for Oct 25-Nov 1. I am there! Ive never been on a cruise before and I hear people say that you should go on one, at least once in your life. So, that\’s my chance and I\’m there!!! The first $50.00 is due June 15, 2008 so Janet……I dunno. LOL

Work was cool today. I had a lot to blog about, but I\’m sleepy now. So Ill blog about it tomorrow and oh yeah my favorite Hollywood person will be revealed this week!!!

Cree

Im back!!! What a wonderful weekend I had. Yall betta ask somebody cause there is a God!!! I am one tied Sista, I don\’t see how Tyler Perry does it, but as for me………….whew chile!!! Im tied!! LOL

The wedding was BEAUTIFUL!!! Oh my good ness. My friend looked so pretty, she loves her husband and he loves her!! You know how you can look into his and her eyes, and see love? Thats what I saw, they love each other. Im so happy for them both. I took lots of photos, I don\’t know how to work this camera to well, but I want to post a few of the cake and the beautiful Barrister Gardens.

Lasonga dancing with a guest. Lasonga after a long night. Bridesmaids, Tables, Lasonga and Darrell.