Its been a while!!! Wow, so much as happened in these last 8 months. I’m in a good place. I can’t believe that I have my own apartment. Wow yes. Living alone seem so funny. My daughter is living in her downtown apartment, and I live directly around the corner from her. LOL It’s so funny, again, I didn’t see any of this coming. When I leave out of my apartment I will be at hers in 1 0r 2 minutes.
What I’m really loving about downtown living is that, when I look out of my apartment, I don’t see other houses or kids playing outside, I see buildings, and courthouses, music halls and baseball stadiums. I love it!!! Cant wait till the fire works. Living here, I can cook when I get ready, I don’t have to ask anyone if they’re hungary, whats for dinner, are we going out? What to buy at the grocery store. LOL LOL Cant stop laughing because this is the life that I never thought about. My daughter was no problem growing up, we could have lived together for ever and I wouldn’t have thought one thing about it. We are both so much alike and get alone perfect. We are born on the same day, 19 years apart, same hospital, she was born at 1:43 am Sep 3, and I was born 1:40 am both in HUTZEL HOSPITAL IN DETROIT. My mom was in labor with me for 3 days and I was in labor with my daughter for 3 days. So funny!!!
But anyway…. I am enjoying this LIFE!!! Every Saturday my Sisters want me to come over their houses to be with them and their hubby’s. And on Sunday I cook at Nesha’s with her, we have so much fun. Mon-Fri- I am writing and staying focus to complete this book. So I’m happy about that. Well back to writing, about to drink some cold water, and snack on these cashews. Be Blessed Because I’m smiling and happy.
OH YEA….. 10:00 AM TOMORROW IM BUYING MY MRS CARTER SHOW TICKETS TO SEE MY GURL/DAUGHTER BEYONCE!!!!! CANT WAIT!!!! JULY 20 ITS GOING DOWN!!
More and more I’m seeing …….. and you say what? #whengodtellsmeiknowboo
Just checking in. Everything is going well for me….. Im really happy right now. Been spending lots of time with my family, thats always good. Being more of a listener than anything else. Be back lata!!!
Wow, so much is going through my mind, so much has happened, so much to do, and much to put in order. HAHAHAHAHA Wow LaCrease!!!
Its something how you want so badly for things to turn out one way, but God the creator has plans for things to turn out another way. I have really learned somethings about myself in these last 7 months… some good and some not so good.
I realize that I let stuff build up. I try to give people chances, man they just won’t do right. But I Thank God for this banister/railing that walks besides me on the right and the left. It keeps me from NUTTING UP and getting out of Character. This year, I must figure out why I allow build ups. I guess I hope that people act right and do right by me and others, but maybe they just don’t know how too. Then when I “go there” I question God about my anger and wonder if its allowed.
But there is one thing about me giving these people chances to do right by me…… I really don’t care if I speak or see them again. Some would argue … yeah you do care, but I’m so afraid I DONT. I feel bad that I don’t care, but wonder why I want to give chances…. ANYWAY…. those things will be explored and answered.
I’m looking forward to a great year!!!
Happy New Year!!!
I have truly been through a lot in 2012… but as it ends…. God sure does have a way to let me know things are going to be just fine.
I’m excited about the new things he will do this year. I refuse to drive , all my life I like to be in control. I’m going to do things a little different this year, I’m going to let God do the driving.
I’m going to FOCUS on a few things, and I’m not fighting anyone, any feelings, or things that are NOT my battle. I can’t do it. Why should I have too when he said that he would do it? That’s crazy!!! LOL
I plan to get more into my Bible and have the personal relationship I’m use to enjoying with Jesus. That makes me feel good. Just thinking
about it.
Be Blessed
Cree
Merry Christmas to you all!!! Take time out to Thank God for all the blessings in your life.
A New Year is coming…… and I am going to start this year off very humble. Waiting on God and not trying to do my own thing, waiting for that APPOINTED TIME…
At some point you get tired of doing things your way…. I’m have a few projects on my plate in my own space, and I want to really FOCUS. 2013 IS A NEW DAY FOR ME. The whole year is a DAY.
Be Blessed
After watching the last episode of RHOA… I come to the conclusion that Kenya is not down right mean….. I just think she needs more attention than the next woman.
I felt bad for her as she did her “Gone with the wind” twirl. I’m starting to believe deep down in my soul that all she wants is to be LOVED. I feel that she can really come off funny acting if she was around other women who have less than her, and not as attractive. Kenya is use to walking in a room and seeing husbands, boyfriends, fiancee, and everybody else winking, flirting, giving her all this attention while trying to get with her at the same time. Her norm is being around women who husbands and boyfriends desire her. But with these RHOA…. none of them are on her level as far as being married, they all have want she wants the most. Marriage and children. Walking into a room and getting attention is not what is happening with this group of women…. they aren’t having it, and the husbands aren’t either. With these women she has to bark loud, and make “scary” exits to make up for the attention she’s use to receiving.
I can just imagine how insecure she can make a “plain Jane” woman with no self-esteem feel around her husband. That’s power for Kenya, she’s use to having it. I wonder what her younger days were like, I wonder how many married or committed men she “snatched up” from someone in a relationship.
For me, the bigger picture is that she gets some kind of help. I hope that she can come to understand that she is a beautiful woman, she doesn’t have to do anything extra to try to make or prove a point to anyone. All she has to do is walk into a room and just be a woman. She doesn’t have to tell everyone she won Miss USA… let people wonder who you are, let them say to you…. you look familiar… have I seen you someplace before? To me a woman doesn’t have to make a lot of noise when you make an entrance. Just be a woman. Be yourself.
I really hope that Kenya saw herself in a new light this season of RHOA. I hope that she can learn from her behavior, and say to herself…… I have to do better, I will do better.
I’m just going to go right into my thoughts.
Sunday night I watched in Horror how Kenya of the RHOA disrespected herself, Walter, and the whole cast, by acting like a desperate woman who have no one to LOVE her.
I asked myself…. LaCrease why are you taking this to heart so deeply? First of all, she’s beautiful. But she doesn’t know it, because if she did she wouldn’t have to keep asking herself what is it about me, that I’m not married with children. If she knew her worth, she wouldn’t try so hard. Forget the fact that Walter did radio interviews saying that she asked him to come on the show as her boyfriend, when in fact he said they’ve dated in the past. Forget that!!!
I’m having a hard time understanding why when Cynthia was having a contest for JET and as a judge for who goes into the magazine, Kenya dogged and treated those young models like they were tramps….then turn around in the end and openly “play flirt” with Apollo. And it wasn’t even her function. She was disrespectful and out of order.
When they were on the island and she threw Apollo in the pool, that made me get an instant headache. As a woman from Detroit she knows we don’t get down like that!!! We don’t play that when it comes to our HUSBANDS….. are you kidding me? A boyfriend maybe….a HUSBAND… Chile you’re asking to die. If Phaedra don’t handle her next week…………….baaaaaby.
Let me get to the bigger picture. Kenya has issues steming from her childhood and her mother giving her up. She has issues of being LOVED… in her late night thoughts when the TV and lights are off, she knows she’s beautiful, but she doesn’t understand why she doesn’t have the husband, kids and family she feels she should have. But she fail to understand when you throw shade on other married women, and flirt with their husbands, she is only prolonging her own success in that area. She is proven to herself she can’t be trusted… even if she sees it or not.It was so sad to see a woman so desperate for attention from a man. What man in this world as of now could trust her at this point? But if she is willing to look at her issues and work on them, she can have everything she wants.
When it comes to women with strong personalities, we can be very stubborn when it comes to admitting our fault. As kenya flirted with Apollo, I cant help but wonder what went through her head as to why she felt she could “step pass the others and do this to Phaedra”? Did she feel that she could test her AND get away with it? Was she willing to have to fight Pheadra for the disrespect? Or did she even care if she had a “whoop dat azz” coming… in my Jill Scott “Why did I get married” voice? I’m just trying to understand if she watched the show from last season and wanted Apollo * probably did* or did she clearly look at Phaedra as being weak?
Next week Kenya asks Pheadra if you have to chose 2 friends to be with Apollo who would it be? How the hell do you ask a woman some mess like that? If it was me, I would have choked up Kenya so fast and so hard, so quickly and so swiftly, she would have awaken from a 6 month coma. I DONT PLAY THAT ABOUT MY MAN!!! There are lanes you stay in, and as hard as it is to be found by a man aint no woman gon walk up to the curb and thank its that easy to snatch up my DENZEL WASHINGTON. #dontdietonightCHICK And you know in this case, its not even about fighting over a man, its the BLATANT DISRESPECT.
Kenya is clearly NUMB from her childhood, and anytime you play with my man, and yours is sitting there too, you don’t care about me, your man, or yourself… HOUSTON we have a problem….
I know one thang *talking real fast*……. PHAEDRA BETTA SHUT DOWN PRODUCTION NEXT WEEK…. and I’m not so much as talking physical towards Kenya…. but shake up the atmosphere so tough…. production CANNOT GO AS PLANNED #itsawrapfortodayguysGOHOME
I use to play serious mind games on men, people, everybody! I loved the power and control I had when I did it. I would twist words around, be sarcastic, and do other things as a form of control.
Now that I’m older…… I will NEVER play another mind game. First of all, I don’t have the mentality and the time to participate in this childish drama.
People are losing jobs, husbands, wives, friendships, and relationships by doing this. I know I use to do it, but I stopped years and years ago. Its a bad head space to be in, its time consuming, and its SO INMATURE.
But here is the kicker…… I now have the GIFT of changing my “contact” information at anytime and will NEVER talk to you again. I am so afraid of myself and how I can/will cut off friendships and relationships because I refuse to be apart of what I USE TO DO.
I’m just NOT going to deal with people who play mind games. I am so upset with myself, because of how quick I want and desire to cut people off. Yes, I love them, but I am never pressed for this kind of behavior and friendships from men and especially from women.
I love me. Flat out. If this is you…… CUT IT OUT… You may just lose on LOVE and FRIENDSHIPS.
Inside the mind of cree 