Author: lacrease

Someday I hope to be a wife

Someday I hope to Love again. Someday I hope to treat my husband with the upmost respect. Someday I hope to be a stepmother. Someday I hope to spoil my husband. Someday I hope to cherish my husband. Someday I hope to Thank God for my Husband.

Someday…………

Growing up, I always wanted to please my daddy. Seem like nothing I did would please him. I never realized that all that trying wasnt going to get me any where. Here I am 42 years old and had I knew what I know now, I would have stopped trying.

Today, I was ringing up customers when I realized that the lady who was just in my line forgot her bags. I grabbed the bag before I knew it and was almost off to find her outside when I took a look at my line and realized that it was *just as* long as a football field. No doubt about it I WAS going to find this woman who left her bag. Looking at the looks on those people faces made me realize that no matter if I stayed at the register to ring them up or chase down the woman who left her bag, somebody is going to be happy, and somebody is going to be annoyed. I realized at that point today that if you do good, there are people who are going to feel that you are wrong, if you do bad, there are some people who are going to feel that its justified. You have to be your own person, NOT connected to anyone. You have to be true to yourself and do whats right according to whats in your heart. I chose to leave all those people, in order to find this woman who was going to leave her bad and need it later. When I came back of course there where some faces of stone, but guess what? I was true to what was right. I didnt let none of those people bother me, and they didnt. Deep down inside those people knew that I did the right thing even though they were ready to get rung up and go home. Had that been them who left their bags they would have wanted me to hunt then down and  turn over their bags. Why did they act funny in the first place? I cant worry myself with that, as a Leader, I have to continue to set the pace and the atmosphere for others to do whats right.

Today is black woman with her husband came through my line and she asked me whats the policy on breastfeeding? I said why….. whats wrong? She said I was breastfeeding and the lady told me that I couldnt do it. So, Im like what? Who told you that? She said the lady that works here. Something about * the lady that works here wasnt right to me. So you know the VIRGO in me, started asking her a few more questions. The first thing I asked her was, where was she when she was breast feeding her child? She said in the dressing room. I looked at her with this blank look on my face, and said, you have to do the bathroom to breastfeed, there’s even a bench you can sit on just outside the rest room. She looked at me as if she didnt know this. Now Im saying to myself, common sense should tell you that both men and women are in those dressing rooms, you cant just go into the place whip out a breast and then breast feed in the FITTING ROOM come on now!!! Go someplace where you can relax get comfortable. She really didnt get that until I broke it down to her.People we can got to use more common sense.

Aiight Im sleepy people, got more stories to tell tomorrow. Good MORNING!

 

Cree’s Feeding the Homeless for Thanksgiving is already in progress!!! Cree along with Raisingurls To Women are Feeding 50 homeless people for Thanksgiving, and taking it to the streets. I wrote down a list of food, and all the items that goes along with it and took it to work  so that people can donate what ever it is we needed to feed 50 people. In 1-2 days my list was filled and complete with donors.

On our menu we have String Beans with white potatoes, Fried Chicken, macaroni and Cheese, Dinner Rolls, potato Salad. For desert we are having homemade Cookies, Brownies, Cake.  To drink we are having water, juice, and pop.

 I am very excited about this because I have always has a connection too homeless people. Ive never been homeless but I can almost feel what they are going through. I watch this a lot, and  I have like if people who work everyday, and have a roof over their heads, warm water and food on the table, then they should too. It’s so much money out here, and I feel that no one should ever be hungary. Next year I want to feed 60-75 people. Im so blessed to have people in my life who are just honored to help out with something as small as this. People are excited, people are cooking, people are going out to the streets with us to pass out food. People have donated money if though I didnt want money at all, all we need is food. It was a blessing to be able to buy extra things we may need. Im excited because I can see myself doing more. I can see myself doing this maybe 4 times a year. In my mind, I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, its right there on the tip of my mind. We are video taping it and Im going to post it to youtube, and also give the link to my coworkers so that they can see the outcome.

Got writers block…………be back tomorrow!

Hey,

Yeah I know Ive been MIA. But Im back babies!!! HAHA. For those who know me personally know that I am very silly, love to laugh, HATE gossip, but LOVE discussions. So in the words of KYLE from College Hill…… So Whats upppp? lol

So much as happened or taken place since I last post. I joined Fitness 19 last Tuesday and have been working out 3 times a week so far. Today Im on my way to work out again. Im really loving it too. I take one day at a time. And you know its funny that Im saying that because when people say they are taking one day at a time, Im like yeaa, thats what you do. But no I really know what they mean by that. I have to think about living this day out. I have to think about today, and not think about whats going to happen tomorrow with my eating or over eating. Today I am really taking one day at a time. The day I joined Fitness 19 I didnt work out that day. I started working out the following day which was that Wednesday. Yesterday I weighed myself and I lost 6 pds. Im really excited about that. My coworker told me about this place, after she joined, I joined. And guess what? Neishia signed up and joined with me. WE have so much fun at the gym. My daughter is very slim and trim,  so she motivates me to do more, to eat less, to set goals for myself. Cause baaaaaaaaby when Cree is on that Tread Mill she be about to pass out!!!

Be back tomorrow for more. Been busy yall!

This is  my WOW  face. LOL  For the last few days  I ‘ve cut my computer time down just to think about things, to watch  a movie, and to sit and talk with family. By listening to people you can find out a lot of things. Ive always been the kinda person that likes to get others opinions, thoughts,  feelings, ideas and views on different subjects.

The first subject I want to talk about is LOVE. When I had my daughter, I was in *LOVE* with her dad. But I didnt know how to treat him, I had a bad attitude, foul mouth,low selfesteem, and thought I was a bag of chips. Little did I know I didnt know anything about Love. I didnt Love myself, and couldnt Love my daughters Father. Im glad 23 years has past and I now know what LOVE IS.

Today’s event at work told me the same story that I knew exist everyday from Celebs on Twitter to people I see everyday.

My coworker who happens to be a white lady that I met at the job 6 years ago, told me today that I hurt her feelings. Heres a history on our friendship. Lots of people don’t care for her too much because she’s noisy and she always add on extra stuff when she’s telling the same STORY you witnessed. For years people always ask me why do I like her so much, when she is clearly a liar, and always in others business. For one,. I dont like or dislike people because of their faults, there are positive things about her that I really like and so thats what draws me to being her *at work ONLY buddy*. For weeks I have noticed a pattern about her, she turns her light on at the register and leaves, so when she gets a customer, you have to call out to her to come back to her register. As a cashier you are suppose to stay at or near your register, so that YOU can see the customer, not the OTHER cashiers who are at their registers ringing up THEIR customers. Customers will ask in a minute, is someone open here? Well, Today I saw what everybody has been talking about. And this time she was near my register when it all went down. Customers were going to her register, and when they didnt see her they would line up at my register. This pissed me off because her light is on, and she’s walking around somewhere *window shopping*.  Today about 3 times I had to call her back to her register to ring up her customers. So by now she sense that Im upset with her for some reason, and has this stone face look. After she finish ringing up her customers she stands on what we call the *REDLINE* and thats where we stand on the edge so that we can flag down customers who are waiting on long lines on the other end. Instead of her calling the customers to HER register, she directs them to MY register. So, I say to her, since Im STILL ringing up customers and you are REDLINING, call the customers to YOUR register, you don’t have any right now. Oh, she was mad at me!!! As soon as she waiting on all her customers she went right over to her another cashier * older white lady* and told her what I said about it. So, you know my VIRGO self turned off my light and marched right behind her. I said to her……I know youre mad at me. And Isaid when you dont have customers, you will call customers to other registers and when its all done, you wont have noone to ring up. I said I dont know why youre mad at me. She said, cause you hurt my feelings * blank stare*. I said  HOW???? She says cause you told me not to call out your register number anymore, and Isaid  I MEANT THAT. I asked her what problem do you have in my truth? She said……. the way you said it. I said I said it in a normal voice, you are only mad at what I told you NOT to do, I said I know you will hold a grudge against me forever. She said well, Im not use to you talking to me that way. I said LISTEN…….. have you ever known me to go off on anyone? She said NO thats why Im shocked and my feelings are hurt. I said well, NOW YOU ARE HEARING THIS FROM MEEEEEEEE NOBODY ELSE. I MEANT WHAT I SAID ABOUT NOT CALLING OUT MY REGISTER NUMBER and Im sorry if I  said it in a mean way. That was the end of that.

Now that  said, I want you to forget what our argument was about, but notice the part where she was SHOCKED, that I hurt her feelings. She knows she’s my gurl and that I love her. In all her *off the hookness*, she’s still my gurl. But why do people feel that if you don’t agree with them, and if you confront them about a situation that you want to clear up, that you don’t LOVE them anymore? Love must mean different things to different people. If you tell certain people that you LOVE them they will look at you like youre crazy. Which tells me something about myself.

I grew up in a family where we always told each other we LOVED them. Not only did I learn how to love, but when my momma or dad whooped me, I thought they hated my guts. They always explained to us that anytime we got in trouble, doesnt mean we didnt love them any less. They are disappointed in us, but that doesnt mean they don’t LOVE us. I heard I LOVE YOU DAILY from my house. When we all see each other, we always greet with a hug and kiss, we always say * I love you* to each other.

The word LOVE is very powerful. Everyone cant handle that word and its contents. Im learning that with people in my adult life. For years it bothered me, cause people not only don’t know how to LOVE each other, but they don’t know how to show it.You can tell somebody you LOVE them and they will look at you like your crazy. LOVE is not a off and on switch. Just because someone doesnt agree with you doesnt mean they don’t love you.

Im not naming names but I went to a concert this year along with some other fans from out of town, and the Leader of group wanted to present this person with a glass award with this persons name on it and the group name. At the front door the flowers and vase was confiscated, along with the award. Security promised to give the items to the artist and when the show was over, it was told they this person received the items and will get a message * from the email address* that was left. I knew it wasnt going to happen, another friend knew it wasnt going to happen. We knew just by dealing with this person ourselves what type of person they are. Its all good to me, because I LOVE the music and the person, and there isnt anything different from my neighbor who I don’t know and this artist. I knew once she got home she would be waiting for this email that never came. I feel so bad for this person, but you have to learn to separate the work from the person. I already know!!!!

Last year in Atlanta with my friends POW, of course I love and admire Tyler Perry, but Im not about to do flips and jump off buildings for him. They felt that since I am the one who express my LOVE for him more than them, that I would be disappointed if I never got the chance to meet him. Thats when I cut them off, cause to say that, means you really dont know me. I love everybody in this world, but Im not a FOOL to anybody. Cause on Judgment Day Tyler Perry, and everybody else is going to be *standing in the same line* Im in…… to see Jesus. *blank stare*. Just because I like to discuss Tyler’s movies and plays, Anita Baker and Maxwell songs doesnt mean Ill do bungy junps for them.WHATEVA!  And people get that Twisted with me. They dont even know me like that.

When we were in ATL, we went to several famous celebs homes just to see them, oooooo and ahhhhhhh, stuff women do. I love looking at beautiful homes anyway. I watch House Hunters, Flip that house, my first house, so going to see celebs homes was a nice treat for me. Some celebs keep their homes private which I totally understand because people go to far. Im not HER. And Im not going to put myself in position to even look like Im her. Yes, I do want to see your home, but Im not going to get out the car, for one….. I dont want hop in and out of the car!!! For 2, Im not leaving a note in the mail box or any other place, cause Im NEVER FEELING ANYONE LIKE THAT, For 3 Im just passing thru in life, I dont live in Atlanta, and I want to look at pretty celeb houses because its a once in a life time RIDE BY I plan to do. Some of these celebs forget that all the people like MEEEEEEEEEE,  are the ones who made it possible to live in those homes. Take away all the people like me along with the gift that God gave, and you have nothing. How the hell you gon get mad cause somebody wanna see your BEAUTIFUL HOUSE??????

Last but no least…….Celebs on Twitter. SMH right now and so turned off. Im so thru. I will neverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr talk about what I KNOW , that will stay in my head. But what Im seeing. I know God has got to be shaking his head. They brag, they have big egos, they only tweet when it benefits them. They all make it their business to tweet each other and comment. AND GOODNESS DONT LET A CELEB SAY SOMETHING TO ANOTHER CELEB AND THAT PERSON WASNT SIGNED ON YET, WHEN THEY GET ON AND SEE THAT ANOTHER CELEB LEFT THEM A MESSAGE, THEY  BREAK THEIR PHONES TRYNA LET THAT OTHER CELEB KNOW THAT THEY JUST GOT THE MESSAGE, AND THEN THEY RESPOND TO THEM. BUT LET A FAN ASK THAT SAME QUESTION TO THE CELEB!!

Im gone for tonight. AFter the MAXWELL concert this weekend. IM STRAIGHT!!! I CAN SHOW YOU BETTER THAN I CAN TELL YOU………..

Lacrease