Inside the mind of cree

January 29, 2016

Women pay attention! /BLOG

TEACHING

I just wish some women would just wait on God. Jumping into things because of feelings will have you back at page 1.

I know that when I was younger, I made a lot of mistakes, things I wish I could take back, but I can’t. But….. at some point you gotta ask yourself.. DAYUM WHAT AM I DOING? Take a look at yourself. What are you showing your kids about your mental behavior? What are they thinking about you? What will they carry with them into their relationships… just by watching you? This is the reason why so many kids are suffering as teens and adults… by looking at their parents growing up.

Im just lost at some of the things I know and see.

Cree

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January 25, 2016January 25, 2016

Watch yo mouth… SLICK TALKER!!/BLOG

MY FACE

I was watching a clip of Jada Pinkett-Smith when she was about to be interviewed concerning the Aunt Viv video. It kinda blew me away when the reporter couldn’t get her question out fast enough, and Jada snapped her fingers and told her to “get it out”. It reminded me so CLEARLY of situations that’s happening daily to so many people. Please click the link below to see just what I’m talking about.

http://video.etonline.com/services/player/bcpid4090904807001?bckey=AQ~~,AAABIWNF7qE~,EJbsvFObVfKleaX45blr-LPdvkNgxtW3&bctid=4713872770001

Ever since I started working at 14… I always pride myself on treating people like I wanted to be treated. That always stays on my mind, but let me be clear there have been many times, where I’ve fell short of that. I never knew what it is about me (( well I know now)) that always made members of management take a liking to me. Not only that, but my co-workers as well. I’m not saying that they favored me, but I am saying that I respect others, they respect me, and I don’t haha hehe in their faces. I talk to people with a tone of voice where they get it, and not be offended. I don’t talk side ways, and I don’t scream. I use DIRECT eye contact, and #1 I will not complain to a co-worker about something that’s management related! I go to them. I say all of this to say…..catch and check “side ways talking” on the spot. Because once it builds up, you will allow people to run all over you. Now, I know the difference in playing and acting silly, being sarcastic and having fun because you know the person. But just off rip.. HELL TO THE NAW!

I know a lot of people. I know how to communicate. I know how to express myself. I know how to get my point across. Yes, I may come on strong, but I enjoy working on that. I have came a long way. People, mainly coworkers have always felt that I was the favorite of management…. not true. I love myself, and I respect myself. I can see things from a level of a person with Power, and a person who has no Power. Thank you Jesus I can. I hate unfairness. I can’t stand favoritism.

MY POINT! To see Jada snap her fingers at the REPORTER… when she would NEVER EVER EVA EVA EVA EVA do that to Oprah, Cicely Tyson, or Denzel Washington, pisses me off to NO END! People mistreat others according to how they SEE THEM. That’s just DISRESPECTFUL AND UNACCEPTABLE!!!

I have seen Celebrities on Twitter speak or hold a conversation to another celebrity… and wont that person BREAK THEIR DAYUM FINGER NAILS RESPONDING BACK,((( and will apologize if they saw it days later)))) just to not seem like they are ignoring the person. Its fu**ing sad. I listen to Steve Harvey in the morning. And when he’s talking to a Celebrity on the phone, they’ll ask how he’s doing, and its laughs and conversations. But when a non celebrity call in, he rushes to say that he’s doing fine, and if the story don’t make sense he will TALK ALL KINDS OF SIDE WAYS …. and I just be like ARE YOU SERIOUS? Could NEVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR BE ME!!!! I have to turn the station because I can’t stand to listen to the down talk. The interruptions, the side ways talking, the making the caller feel STUPID AND WORTHLESS. Pay attention. Thing is…. he probably has no idea he does this. Its a AUTO-PILOT of who to talk to side ways… and WHO NOT TOO. Publicly, celebrities don’t talk side ways to each other.

BEFORE CLOSING Speak up for yourself. People like me because I communicate, I don’t play games, I do my work, and I don’t stick around for “conversations that has nothing to do with me”. Know your worth. Don’t let people talk to you any kind of way. Snapping fingers and making you feel like, ((((in Jada’s case)))) if you don’t hurry up and ask the question.. THEN YOU WONT HAVE THE CHANCE TO GET YOUR ANSWER. UM CUSE ME…GURL watch out! (( move to the side))

I AM La’Crease… (((I don’t have to do anything else!)))

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January 22, 2016January 23, 2016

My Thoughts On The #Oscars/BLOG

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For the last few years I have come to enjoy the Oscars. I don’t watch it just to see people of color, but I watch it to see great movies win awards. When I was a young gurl, my parents would take us to the movies every weekend! Story telling in movies go hand in hand with the love I have for reading, and writing.

When Jada Pinkett- Smith asked for people of color to boycott the Oscars, I thought to myself is that because her husband wasn’t nominated for his role in Concussion? I found that funny because, had he been nominated or even won, she would have never went publicly with her video. Ever since I saw him in Ali on Christmas Day, I felt that the only movie of his I would ever see again would be Bad Boys, Independence Day, or movies that has to do with the survival of others. I’m just not feeling his work anymore.

But here is MY thing. Will and Jada sit among these people, have dinner, and let it be known… who their best friends are. Where is your influence? My ONLY job concerning this is to go in my purse and pull out money to see the work. This is how their pockets are lined… from the money that I and other like minded people give. Now, do I mind standing with others to make changes in life where it is due? NOPE… But I’m not going to do anything extra when Will and Jada laugh, haha and hehe, with these same people they can’t seem to influence. They’re only mad because their friends, people they sit around are winning awards for their work, and they now feel some kinda way, because they arent looked at in the same light. Instead of them making movies and enjoying their own work, they want pats on the back for it. Noooo, you won’t always get that. Be happy and proud of YOUR OWN work, stop waiting for these OSCAR FOLKS to pass out your AMEN.

Stop running and sitting with these people who look at you side ways. They walk right up pass your seat, and pick up their Oscars. That’s not my problem… that’s yours. Stop running up behind them thinking you and your husband is on the same level.. because as you see, you’re not. Now let me say this. Are your Hollywood friends the one in charge of the voting. NO… I KNOW THAT. But stop showing them that you are upset because you’re not getting your fair share, and they are. Be mad at how the voting goes. Use your influence! Don’t just sit among the rich and famous, but make what you feel is wrong…. right! I’ve done my part, and that’s go see the movies opening weekend. I’m done, my legs are crossed and comfy! You do the FOOT WORK!

I AM La’Crease and I don’t have to do anything else!

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January 11, 2016

My Cousin killed in a Atlanta Car Crash/BLOG

My cousin Cordel was killed in a car accident in Atlanta this past weekend.He was one of the 3 people killed on I-75

Three men died early Saturday morning when the driver lost control of their car and flipped onto I-75 in Midtown Atlanta, closing the freeway for hours.

The Fulton County Medical Examiner’s Office identified the men as Esu Manzano, 36; Adam Bailey, 33; and Cordel Fowler, 24, all of the metro Atlanta area.

As you know in my post I’m always talking about family. He’s the middle son of my FIRST AND OLDEST COUSIN (( and she always lets us know she’s the oldest too :))) Rene.

He is the very first cousin ( 1st and 2nd) to pass away in our family on my dad’s side. We are very blessed to have a huge family and all still alive. I am so sad for my cousin ( Rene) her husband and Cordel’s siblings.

Here is the story

http://m.wsbtv.com/news/news/local/police-car-flips-over-highway-ramp-three-killed/np2JS/

I AM La’Crease.. and I don’t have to do anything else.

January 7, 2016

Thank You Jesus! /Blog

Thank you Father God for answering my prayer of being BACK at a place of quietness, being a listener, and having patience. I thought I would never see these days of the person I am again. Thank you thank you thank you Jesus !

La’Crease

January 2, 2016January 2, 2016

Conversations with The Lord/BLOG

Happy New Year!

One of my prayers is to have more conversations with The Lord. Sometimes we get tied up in our own lives and we forget to have that special time with HIM.

Since I was a young gurl, I’ve always heard the voice of the Lord. I’m always amazed at the things he tells me about PEOPLE and SITUATIONS ahead of time. A lot of times I don’t understand why he tells me things, but as time passes… I ALWAYS GET IT! That alone blows my mind.

A few days ago, the cable in my building and surrounding areas went out for hours. So, I called the cable company to find out how long would it be before its restored. After holding on FOREVER, I was okay with the time frame that was told to me. That evening it was restored.

No more than 5 hours of being restored, it went off again while I was watching Tiny House around 1:20 am. I don’t watch TV much at all, so when I do turn it on, I want to watch it. I decided to go to sleep. The next day it still wasn’t on, so I decided to chat with a LIVE online representative about the service. He told me that they were having problems and that it would be restored in a few more hours. It was restored an hour earlier than predicted.

The next day, I was going through some movies and decided to watch King of Kings, when the Lord spoke to me. He said “La’Crease, your cable is going out again, but after that, it’ll be on for good.” His voice was so clear! I said.. Oh okay, so its going out again? He said yes, then once its restored it’ll be on for good.

I took a nap that evening before work and when I woke up to get dressed, even though my TV stays off, I notice the lights on the cable box was OFF again!!!! I went on to work, but when I got in around 8 am.. it was still off. Now I’m frustrated because this has never happened before. This time when I called I told them that I wanted a refund for War Room a movie which I rented and didn’t get a chance to see it for a second time before it expired, and also a credit for the NOW 2 days it was off. I was DONE! Forgetting everything God had spoken to me. What really had me on fire was when she said.. after we discuss the nature of my call, that she was going to introduce me to a better package than the one I have. Before I knew it I said.. ” I can’t even see and enjoy the package I do have!!!” I said maam, my cable has been in and out for 3 days!!! Oh she felt my wrath! She told me that my cable would be restored in a few hours. Just before hanging up, I got so irritated with the issue, that I said to her…..Thank you, you’ve been real helpful, and hung up in her face while she was still talking. I felt bad because that’s not me anymore to hang up on people, and to get that upset over something that I have no control over and surely not her. So, as I was watching a Christian movie, I really felt convicted after thinking about it.

After I had calmed down… God said to me.. La’Crease why did you call Comcast? I said because I’m tired of my cable going out. He said BUT.. didn’t I tell you that your service was going to go out and be restored again for good? I said yes. He said then why did you leave that woman wounded like that? OH MY GOODNESS I FELT SO BAD. OH THE GUILT. I could actually VISION the woman feeling some type of way after hanging up on her. I can VISION how I made her feel. I can VISION her talking trying to help ME, but feeling low after hanging up on her. I can VISION her telling family and coworkers how rude I was to her.

I shouldn’t have never called. God told me what was going to happen. I don’t know what kind of day that lady was having. She could have lost her mom or anyone. She could have been trying to have a good day after the anniversary of her daughters death or anything… I DON’T KNOW. WE NEVER KNOW WHAT THE NEXT PERSON IS GOING THROUGH! Even though I ‘m making up these scenarios , God told me about my cable, and I spoke to this woman like it was her fault. I repented. I felt so bad afterwards. You can’t do people wrong! God does not like that, and will punish you for it. I wish that I could talk to her again to apologize for the way I spoke to her. She was nice to me, and I was so mean. My cable was on in 12 hours, didn’t matter to me anymore, I just wanted to make what I did wrong-RIGHT!. I haven’t had any problems out of my cable since.. just like THE LORD SAID! I’m starting to think my cable was off just so that I could LEARN THIS LESSON OF HOW TO TREAT OTHERS… ESPECIALLY when I have DIRECT CONVERSATIONS WITH HIM. SMH @MYSELF. LESSON LEARNED!

I AM La’Crease ((I don’t have to do ANYTHING else))

December 27, 2015December 27, 2015

Happy Holidays/Christmas Love/Blog

Happy Holidays!!!

I had a wonderful time with family and friends yesterday! I love taking photos and videos. You best believe I snapped till I dropped. LOL

I asked myself as I sat quietly watching everyone laugh, talk, eat and drink what is it about THIS family that I love so much? Its the fact that WE TRULY LOVE EACH OTHER. We are honest with each other, we COMMUNICATE well with each other. We are THERE ((Thank you Jesus))… for each other. My nieces and nephews RESPECT us, even though they’re adults, they do not curse in front of us at all. We ALL GREET with hugs and kisses! We laugh a lot and talk junk. My siblings and I DO NOT CALL EACH OTHER AND TALK ABOUT THE OTHER.. NO NO NO NO NO NO EVER!!! We have arguments and debates, but we do not FIST FIGHT, HIT, OR EVER, EVER, EVER get personal. We stay on the subject and after communicating our differences, we MAKE UP ON THE SPOT.. saying “I love you”.

We are NOT a perfect family, and there is always room to grow. Then I asked myself, what are some of the things in this family that we can IMPROVE on?

Getting together MORE OFTEN. I think that we should see each other more. We have personal inbox messages for SIBLINGS ONLY, MOM and all of her kids, and we also have one called SISTERS. That’s how we communicate, and that we do daily. We love this, because its a INSTANT way to stay connected. Do we talk on the phone? Yes we do, but we all love the instant message/inbox/FB so that’s how we stay connected.

I also wish that when we have family dinners and gatherings, that the “kids”.. my grown 20 something year old nieces and nephews (( and my daughter)) would come more often to the functions. They come, but of course as a mom and aunt, I want them at ALL THE FAMILY FUNCTIONS. LOL But I do understand that they have lives, cars, and jobs and that they have friends to visit as well. My mom and dad are the happiest when ALL of THEIR KIDS, and our kids (( their grandkids)) are all under one roof. This Christmas it happened! Everyone was happy.

Here are a few family photos I took Friday December 25, 2015 Christmas Day!

I Am LaCrease and I have to do anything else!

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December 25, 2015December 25, 2015

Change over the years/BLOG

Hey Fam!

Up late cooking my Collard greens for Christmas Dinner tomorrow with my family . Reflecting on this past year, where it has been great for me. Learning about myself and realizing how much influence I have and how 2016 will be GREATER! Watching my daughter work her BUTT off for those less fortunate, feeding the homeless, working long hours, getting a promotion, encouraging and mentoring kids and teens, assisting others with food, resources and lots of love and patience.

I remember a time in my life when I was wild and use to drink and club, talk on the phone all day and night. God dealt with me. I always took pride on paying my bills AND PAYING OFF the whole balance when it was due. I ran into some hard times when I was in my early 30’s. My lights were cut off, my car broke down, I lost my job, and my gas was turned off… ALL AT ONE TIME. I needed to hear from God. After a few weeks ((which seemed forever)) he finally spoke to me and said. “The person Nesha is to be.. you are getting in the way of it”. ” You are partying, drinking, going out too much, gossiping, having all this sex, talking on the phone, being REVENGEFUL, you need to stop right now!” I was shocked that he was saying all of these things to me, because never in a million years did I think what was happening to me was RELATED TO Nesha/MY BABY.

When I surrendered to God in that moment, it was like the sky opened up and things started happening good for me. I had to change everything about the way I was living. EVERYTHING! I knew it, and for some reason I welcomed it. I stopped talking on the phone.. (( HATE THE PHONE TILL THIS DAY)) I stopped going out, having company over, having sex.. I went back to Church and started reading my Bible daily. I had to cut off people in my life that wasn’t ready to give up what I was doing new. Never knew all of this was going to be connected to my daughters future.

I say all of that to say….. People change over the years. I’m not the same person I was last year, in 2012, in 2011. I have different thoughts and different goals in life. My experiences has changed the way I think. I use to be the Queen of arguing and debates. Today almost 2016.. I don’t go back and forth with NO ONE. I say what I have to say, you say what you have to say…..and after that… its a WRAP! God said to me one day.. LA’CREASE…. in YOUR ADULT LIFE …if you don’t fall out with the SISTERS I GAVE YOU… because you learn the many experiences and personalities of them growing up while living in the same household.. DON’T YOU EVER EVER EVER EVER get into with other women . THEY ARE YOUR MINISTRY!!!!

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When I heard that, it made so much sense to me. If I don’t get into it with THEM… why fall out with others.. NEVA AGAIN! EVA AGAIN! I’m so happy that I’m a NEW CREATURE… I think differently than I did 3 years ago, learn differently PRACTICING SELF CONTROL IS EVERYTHING :)!!!!!!. Thank you Lord for change… in 2016 I’m going to make you PROUD OF ME 🙂

I am La’Crease and I don’t have to do ANYTHING ELSE!

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December 23, 2015

#Married at First Site/BLOG

I just finished watching “Married at First Site”, and I must say its a pretty interesting show. I’ve been watching the show since the first season (( now in the third)). I noticed that all of the women are a bit standoffish. One is attracted to her husband, while the other two women aren’t. I kinda feel bad for the husbands because we women can put up a defense that’s strong enough to make a man agree to live on the streets than to live with us. LOL

I also noticed that the men are willing to “work it out” but if given a chance, the women would pack up leave…. and never look back! I know this, because I can see it in their eyes, and hear it in their conversations. Women can build a wall so tough… just looking at it on TV makes me wonder…. how have I acted in the past?

Let me share something else I learned. I see that in marriage, these men have lots of patience for these women. Seems like the more disconnected the woman is, it makes it that much easier for the man to want to work it out. One of the women told her husband how unattracted she was to him. But when he spoke up for himself in another conversation AFTER THAT, she seemed turned on and felt connected to him. That was so weird to me. LOL But we women are like that!!! Wow.

MAFS Vanessa and Tres

In this experiment the men tend to take marriage more serious as far as getting to know each other more so than the women. Now had they just met and NOT married, the women would share all kinds of things about themselves. LOL But these men would be in what we call the” friend zone”. That’s a zone where we as women can be/feel safe without getting hurt at all. We can share all kinds of things in this “friend zone”. For example… what time we were born, what we did at age 5, what age we first had sex, we’ll even share the details of our last relationship and how the man was either great or a loser. But by being MARRIED WOMEN.. .they arent sharing JACK! LOL That’s because this is it. This is MARRIAGE.

MAFS Sam Neil

This experiment showed me that in the dating process, a woman can find out that the man was an ex sex offender, mentally abusive, and a stalker 3 years ago, ESPECIALLY if she’s already INVESTED 7 months into him.. and realize she LIKES/LOVES him. She’ll ((some not all)) stay with this man knowing his past. But IN THIS EXPERIMENT where they meet the day they are to be married, and she finds this out an hour later… SHE’LL WANT A DIVORCE… ON SPOT! LOL Wow!

I would love to see these women relax and enjoy the moment. Get to know their husbands, stop being so standoffish. Enjoy LOVE! Because in the end I believe these (( or a few)) of them will work!

Cree

December 16, 2015

Detroit is on the COMEBACK 2016

I’m so HAPPY to be with my PARENTS and my SIBLINGS here in Detroit. Not to mention GREAT FRIENDS. I wanted a change and was tired of the crime. But I soon found out.. Crime is EVERYWHERE.

I live DOWNTOWN and I LOOOOOOOOVE what I see Happening! Detroit is my home forever! 🙂 Sorry I even left for a minute. I’m excited about the comeback of MY CITY! 🙂

DETROIT – It turns out Detroiters aren’t the only ones talking about the city’s revival.

Business Insider has picked Detroit for its list of 2016’s Hottest Cities.

Detroit made the list of 13 cities based on expectations the Motor City will be booming next year because of factors including new jobs and the art and food scene.

Detroit is also being recognized for a boost in tourism and home prices being on the rise.