Thank you Lord
Thank you Lord for giving me LIFE. Thank you for hand picking my family, I love and adore them dearly. No matter how many disagreements we have you always show me that you created them for me, and me for them…..and I see that. I know that. I feel that. Thank you.
Thank you for the talks we have especially on the River, my favorite place to be in your presense. You bring me joy and make me laugh. You are so funny and you know when I die I am known for always laughing. Thank you for being silly with me when you know that I’m upset about something, you always bring me back with the silly things you say to me, that only me and you know about. I love that. Thank you for taking the “worry box” out of my head, because you know I don’t worry about much at all. I use too, but you always show me that what I’m going through today, will quickly pass and another issue will be at hand, and you always talk care of that too. I love the conversations we have while Im driving, you know its where Im at peace most, and you know how to calm me down. I just love that about you. Thank you.
Thank you for my life and the lives I touch daily.
To be continued….
Compassion Fatigue
I just have to blog about this day. I have to in order to remember it. If I’m all over the place don’t worry about it, because this is for me. Went to work today, had a wonderful day. My job is hard mentality, dealing with so many different SPIRITS. If it wasn’t for God constantly in my ear, I don’t know where I would be…….and that’s real talk. Some of those people I just look at, because I cant believe sometimes how they don’t look out for the person behind them when they are digging in their purses, and cutting in front of each other, pushing the cart because its in the way. These people really get upset. Most of them come in with such heavy hearts, I can feel it when they come up to me. That’s why its so important to have a relationship with God, and to read our bibles. This is the only way I stand daily. If I allow every persons Spirit to come into me, I would be in trouble daily. I stand on God’s word, he makes me happy, he feels me with PEACE. He cracks me up when I don’t feel like laughing, he CHECKS me when I’m wrong. He loves me, and I feel so bad to see so many people who are living this life without him. Everyday its a struggle for them to smile, and some to even get out of bed. Not saying that I don’t, cause sometimes I DO. But I don’t stay in that place too long, because its a dead in there. I personally can’t function . But anyway…..
I got off work today, had a few hours to get ready and be on the road to my Church Second Ebenezer to see Bishop TD Jakes. See, I like to do 1000 things before I leave the house, and I knew that in order to be there by 7, I had to cut down on those things to do and leave. But I messed around and got on the rode about 6:20. OMG Traffic was on the freeway exit, lines took forever to move, traffic was so thick it was unreal. There were so many people parking their cars and walking a far distance. And those who wanted could ride the bus shuttle to the church. I never seen anything like it. Cars were parked blocks and blocks and blocks away, they were parking in businesses, and restaurants, on the street, it was really amazing on one hand, but on MY HAND…….. I was mad for playing myself like this. I know when we have our break through services, I have to leave the house at least 1 1/2 hours early to beat the traffic and fight for a good seat. Our Church seats 3000, there were so many people there we had a over flow of 3 rooms!!!! How is that possible? LOL Well, Imma say this, after thinking about it carefully and crying in the car ( yea I cried, cause I was mad at myself) I decided to stop and get me something to eat, and go home. I was disappointed and devastated at the same time. I came home from work in way enough time to get dressed and go, but I’m always “pushing it”, and this is exactly what I get.
I got home, look at my food I was turned off. Then I thought about it, I COULD PAY FOR IT ON PAY PER VIEW!!!!! I pulled out my credit card and ordered it. Just my luck for it to act up on me now. It came on, the choir was singing 2 long songs, I finally ate, and I was ready for Bishop. And soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooon as he said his first word the they were having difficulties. I was blazing, trying to be patient, the insides of me was on FIYAH. It seemed as Satan had beaten me. I refresh the page at least 40 times. All I could get was bits and pieces. I was so upset, after that long ride, long line, closed parking lost, cars parked everywhere, I was outdone. Tired from work, tired from the drive, and tired of trying to get this page to come back up. I read on line that they had the same issue last night, so I knew that I was in trouble. But…..just as soon as the tears flowed, and my frustrations grew, 10-15 minutes passed, and just as I said “that’s it…. I’m done trying”…. it came back up and NEVER went out. I knew Bishop would have a word for me, I just had to hear the word. I knew it, I knew it. I knew it. I can’t say it enough. The word came at the end when he said.. ” The Angels are coming for ME”. He talked about “Compassion Fatigue” and how I’m always showing compassion, and helping this person and that person, doing this and doing that, and watching everybody make it, and do their thang, and I’m happy for them, but at the same time suffering from Compassion Fatigue. I lost it on that part. That was it, after all the heat my body went through today, I felt a cold breeze when he said “The Angels are coming for ME”!!! Its gonna be my turn, I’m going to be happy, I’m going to do the things that I always dreamed of, being where I want to be. That was my break through. That sent me over for real. I’m so happy God saw how much and how badly I needed this word, I went through hell and high water tonight, but I got the word in my ear, and I’m holding on to that appointed time. I have enough strength to hold on. I can wait a little while longer. And I’m happy. Thank you Lord for that word tonight. Thank you 🙂
I come to realize that I know a lot of people. No matter where I go, somebody always recognize me from work, school and just by others. When I’m getting my nails and brows down, there are always people there who know me. I can go through the drive thru and the people say, heyyyyyyyyyyyy gurl did you work today? And I’m like huh? Then it comes to me. Sooooooo, many people come up to me all the time and I’m like why don’t I remember them? I realize the impression I leave and they remember me. That is such a blessing. They tell me how friendly I am, and how sweet I am, and its really good to hear that because I don’t always look how I feel. LOL That’s why God always tell me that we must represent HIM. Don’t pay me any attention……..see God through me, so this explains why I am always speaking on how important to smile, and show yourself friendly. My daily bread book says that ” Jesus is telling us that the way God knows we love Him is by how we treat people”. I just love that!!! I know God has to give me that push sometimes, and I know that since I already started something, I may as well keep it going. I would hate for people to see me on the streets and I’m acting mean, and ugly. How would that look for God? I have to really, really, really be careful, God has shown me that so many people watch me and its always good to just be ME…
Well, I’m off to bed….. I’m so sleepy. Good Night!
PS, IF THERES ANY MISTAKES ILL PROOF THEM TOMORROW. IM CROSS SIDED!
Turned out to be a beautiful day
Where do I start? What a year for me. If I didn’t have Jesus in my life, I wouldn’t know where all this was coming from.This morning I got up for work for my shift 11:30-6:30. Well, let me go back a few days ago. My Sisters God mother funeral was today. I wanted to go to support my Sister and plus we know many of their family members. A few days ago I approached several people to take my hours so that I can attend the funeral. I caught up with this new gurl, and she agreed. In order to pick up hours you cant be scheduled to work on that same day. After we both signed and agreed to the date, we gave it to the manager. Well, the very next day that same manager came up to me and said, when I was changing the date for you, I realized that the person you had to take your hours is scheduled to work. I thought I was going to pass out. LOL. She made a mistake and read the schedule wrong. I had 3 hours to find someone to take my place…..I didn’t.
Even though I could have called off, I just didn’t want those points on my record. Here it is Monday morning, my momma is saying everybody is going to be asking about you, and I wish you were going with me, I wish you could have gotten somebody to take your place. You know how mommas do. I’m feeling bad about NOT being able to go, so I just get ready for work and suck it up. Came time to leave, my momma’s car was parked behind mines so she had to let me out. I went to stick the key in the ignition and I’m like heyyyyy, where is the key to this car? I sat for a minute thinking where could my key be, this is crazy. Then I remember my brother n law was testing it and I took it off my keys. This was Saturday, I haven’t driven it over the weekend, so I went looking for it on the kitchen table. I didn’t see it. Now, I’m watching the clock because I don’t want to be late, I searched high and low for that key and still couldn’t find it. I called my brother n law and he said that he had given it back to me. I got off the phone and still couldn’t find it. My mother told me that I could take her car and she would ride with my sister in her truck, but then it would be on my mind all day at work. So, I was like naw, I gotta find this key. I wont be any good at work thinking about it. Just then my sister pulled up to pick up my mom and here I was still searching for these car keys.
Just then out of the blue I decided to check my work bag and there it was in my plastic see through . I was out done, I kinda remember putting it there, but not really. By this time I was on the phone with my job, no answer. So, I hung up the phone. My momma and sister was looking at me saying “come on and go to the funeral with us, you’re already late, plus your boss already expected you to not make it”. I said naw….. yall go ahead Imma go in late, and get this day over with. They left.
Tell me this aint God~ I went to my bed room opened up my closet and saw my outfit that I was going to wear and started pulling off my work clothes. Nesha was looking at me soooooooooooo crazy, like I had lost my mind all of a sudden. She just heard me say, I was going to work, watch them drive off and here I was putting on the clothes that I was suppose to wear for the funeral. I couldn’t explain why I was putting on these clothes, and something in me wouldn’t stop. I never had that to happen to me before. I cant even explain what went through me. I was moving in top speed. It happened all of a sudden. I told Neisha…. “call my momma and tell them to come back and get me”. She did what I asked her and they were back in 2 minutes. They were so happy!! LOL They asked what happened? I said I think it was meant for me to go, my car keys, me needing to be there, and I gotta feeling that God is going to reveal something to me in going.
My other sister ( who god mother passed) was already there and so happy to see me. People were coming up to me saying ” I thought you wasn’t coming”. Which tells me they had been asking my sister about me. I’m so glad that I went. Afterwards me my mom and sister went to Applebees to eat. I let them do all the talking at times, because I kept thinking about how God must have wanted me to go in the first place, when I was on my way to work. I had a strong feeling why he wanted me there, then at dinner my sister went into details why she think God wanted her there, and it was the very same thing HE TOLD ME. That was confirmation!
I came home, feeling so “different” and so I laid down for a nap, woke up so full of God’s Love, feeling so changed, feeling so good. I had this dream that I was sitting at the table with my brother Bobby, and he was asking me in his “bobby kinda way”….. Why do we have to pay tithes? In my dream I started “going hard in the paint” on him about, it was deep in the streets how I was explaining. Just then ALL OF A SUDDEN I woke up and was like “God why you wake me up I wasn’t finish telling him? He said now go write it down.
I love God. Thank you for waking me up this afternoon from a nap so full of LOVE AND JOY.
LaCrease
“Handing God the keys”
Hey 🙂
I know its been a minute. Its hard being consistent when you want/try to do so many things. My mind is all over the place sometimes whew!!! LOL
Lately I’ve been reading this book by my gurl Joyce Meyer called How to HEAR FROM GOD~ and its the bomb. I bought it a long time ago, its one of those books where you can pick it up and read it 1000 times, because she explains things so clearly and she is straight to the point about it. I’ll get to that tomorrow. Today I want to talk about “Handing the keys over to God”.
I LOVE to drive.
I always had a FEAR of driving and so finally at age 32 I got my license. One day, I’m going to buy myself a fast car, because I have a need every now and then for SPEED. Whenever I go to dinner with friends or family, I’m always the first to say….. I’m driving my own car, or yall can ride with me. It could be one of those functions where, we all want to ride together, talk, and laugh, I will always volunteer to drive. Instead of driving to the mall that’s 3 minutes away, I will drive to the one that’s 45 minutes away. When I went to Atlanta in June I drove from 10 am to 1 am in the morning. When I rent a hotel room to get away for a weekend, I wont go to the ones downtown Detroit, I will ride out to the one that’s almost an hour away. That’s how deep my LOVE for driving is.
So recently I asked myself…… Why do you always want to drive when sometimes its not necessary? Why instead of driving their car, you always chose to drive in your own car? I can no longer say its just because….. I LOVE to drive. My real reason because I LOVE to be in CONTROL.
I’m not bossy when it comes to the time we’re leaving a function, or when we’re coming back. I enjoy driving period. If someone has someplace to go afterwards, I will take them. I have no problem going anywhere. It could be 4 of us in the car, everybody can fall asleep , I don’t care, I just enjoy driving.
Part of me feel that if I’m driving, I don’t have to worry about getting us in a car accident. To ride on the passenger side would be for me to “allow someone else to get me to my destination”. Which would mean I would have to sit there. I’m not at all saying that they can’t drive….. I’m not saying that at all. I trust myself. If I drive, I wont have to ask questions, I don’t have to worry about what route I’m taking, how long were staying, when were coming home..Cause I would know. Wow Deep Huh? I realize this is the REAL reason why I LOVE to drive versus sitting on the passenger side “doing nothing” and waiting to arrive at my destination.
Now, I realize why its so hard to “hand over the keys to God” with certain things in my life. I like to drive and that’s the reason why I feel sometimes I’m not moving as fast. I have the keys and don’t want to turn them over to the REAL DRIVER……. GOD. I have been selfish with the keys , and now I feel the time IS NOW to hand them over, so that I can sit back and relax ON THE PASSENGER side, without asking questions, without wonder when we’re going to arrive, without asking how many hours, or days, or mintues. Wow, this is real deep to me as I type.
Now, I’m secretly asking….God do I trust you? YES, I trust him! I’m sure not showing it in my certain situation. I feel bad because he’s the one who has gotten me through some hard, hard, hard times, but Im finding that Im holding the keys and is afraid of turning them over. Not because he won’t do all the things he has told me that he’s gonna do, ( oh, thats a done deal) but its because I DONT KNOW WHEN? That’s the part that’s “killing me” ( a figure of speech). If I give up the keys, I know God is NOT going to answer my 100,000 questions about my arrival date to this. I spend a lot of time with him and I KNOW FOR A FACT, he’s not moved by my many questions. LOL I know with God, I have to just sit back and “LET HIM DRIVE”. I know he’s not going to answer my questions on this subject……because this is the area that he’s working on me . Quietness is what he wants ( concerning my destination), while I patiently sit on the passenger side. Can you imagine how hard this is to a person who always want to control things, and always want to drive the life, that I didn’t give to myself? I don’t know if he’s taking the streets to my destiny and desires, or the highway, the service drive, the turn pike, the neighborhoods, or the airways. But I do know this , God will be doing MY driving.
I’m a visual person, I have to see myself actually doing what I vision. Tonight I saw myself handing over the keys to the Lord . Finally! I’m going to sit back and enjoy the scenery , talk and laugh with him ALL the way to my destiny,and desires. I even noticed…..that I don’t have to wear a seat beat. 🙂 I’m with God!!
“Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He shall give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass … Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently for Him.” (Psalm 37:4,7)
“Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He shall give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass … Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently for Him.” (Psalm 37:4,7)
Valentines Day Care Packages~2011
Cree’s Valentines Day Care packages for the Homeless was awesome!!! We had a ball going out to the streets of downtown Detroit in search for those who are homeless.
When I started Cree’s Feeding the Homeless for Thanksgiving, I was very nervous about asking people for help, because what I wanted to do was kinda
unheard of. I had a vision to prepare the food in my own home, and then go out to the streets to FIND people who were homeless. That’s why I believe that when you establish good credit with people when doing something like this, people WILL invest time and money into you. They’re going to first think mentality about the person you are. They will examine that, and then, they will decide if they want to be apart of your vision. Gloria and I were talking yesterday about how important our mothers said that our credit would be, but being young at the time we felt it was foolish to think about credit. They were right, and not only financially, it could be your attendance at work, your history of anger, your history of good friendships, being on time when people come to pick you up, they pay attention to the time length when you borrow money from them. People really do look at that in deciding to be apart of anything that you do. And I say that to say…..how is your credit with people? Think about it.
I’m so grateful to know that so many people believe in my vision. I’ve had several people from Twitter who have never in their lives met me, take a chance and decided to donate just because they believed that I would carry the vision out and do exactly what I say I would do. I believe that what I display in my Tweets, and the LOVE I have for God, is why he laid it on their hearts to be apart of this mission. So, I send a special Thank you to my Twitter gurls ~Selena from NYC, Calandra ( from Chicago), and my #1 twin Sister Sherry (from Michigan).
This year was different than last year. Last year we didn’t serve food, but what we found out was, they were hungry. While they were happy to receive what We had last year, it was very clear that they wanted to eat. And so with knowing that, we heard the call and delivered!!!! We made a HUGE POT OF SPAGHETTI. We passed out nice size plates topped off with Sara Lee dinner rolls, Entenmann’s donuts, Faygo pops, Aquafina and Dasani bottles of water.They had gloves, hats, toothpaste, lotions, deodorant, face cloths, and toothbrush holders. Also we were able to buy 4 jackets, and one pink coat. They were so happy, and so Thankful.
The sad part about the mission was, after we had passed out care packages and everyone went their own ways to eat, we saw people eating the dinners from the alleys in the cold. They even looked happy and content. We drove around, and gave this one guy another plate. We saw people eating anywhere they can just for peace. What bought tears to my eyes was, this guy found a spot on a building steps and ate his dinner. Its so hard to see people who have no where to go, I DONT CARE HOW THEY GOT INTO THEIR SITUATION, I just know that they deserve to be treated with respect, and to be treated as a HUMAN BEING. I’m a cashier for a HUGE COMPANY, and I see daily so many ungrateful people, coming in with their money flashing all over the place making claim to whatever it is they want to buy. And not with LOVE, but with an attitude and ignorant BOLDNESS. None of this “stuff” we CLAIM is ours, it belongs to God. One day, and one day soon God is going to take from the Rich and give to the Poor. I don’t know about those who are reading this entry, but I know many folks including myself, who maybe 5-6 paychecks away from homeless. Yes, we may have family members who will take us in, but YES, that would mean that WE TOO are HOMELESS. Anytime you don’t have your own PLACE TO SLEEP…….that’s a form of HOMELESSNESS. With all of that said, its our duty to help others. No matter if you’re sitting in the break room at lunch and you clearly HEAR someone say, they don’t have any money to eat with, it is our JOBS ……YES, OUR…. JOBS to reach into our pockets and purses and make sure we do all we can to make sure that person eats. And if you’re a person with ” Good Credit”, and you dont have any money on you at the time, then you should be able to go to those people you have established a good bond with and get $5.00 for that person to eat with. That’s the purpose of establishing “good credit” no matter what area of your life that its in. You NEVER know when your child is in school and without something, you NEVER know. Do what’s right to others, and no matter who you are, God will make sure that your love ones are taken care of, ESPECIALLY if you can’t get to them in time.
My car broke down Saturday RIGHT AFTER WORK, so I called Gloria and told her, and she said no problem ” we can go in my car”. That next day I was telling another friend Margarette, and she said that since she have a truck ……she’ll drive. The very day of the mission, another friend came over after work unexpectedly with a truck as well, she TRAILED ALONE and helped. See how God take care of us? He knows our hearts and he knows what we need and he always come through RIGHT ON TIME. I notice and look at all of that, and I can NEVER say Thank you Jesus enough. Thank you Lord, Thank you!
I want to say Thank you for all of those who helped out, and to those who wanted to help. THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH AND GOD BLESS YOU ALL!
PLEASE READ THE SCRIPTURE BELOW……VERY POWERFUL
The Sheep and the Goats ~ MATTHEW 25: 31-46
31 “When the Son of Man comes in his glory, and all the angels with him, he will sit on his glorious throne. 32 All the nations will be gathered before him, and he will separate the people one from another as a shepherd separates the sheep from the goats. 33 He will put the sheep on his right and the goats on his left. 34 “Then the King will say to those on his right, ‘Come, you who are blessed by my Father; take your inheritance, the kingdom prepared for you since the creation of the world. 35 For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, 36 I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.’
37 “Then the righteous will answer him, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? 38 When did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or needing clothes and clothe you? 39 When did we see you sick or in prison and go to visit you?’
40 “The King will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me.’
41 “Then he will say to those on his left, ‘Depart from me, you who are cursed, into the eternal fire prepared for the devil and his angels. 42 For I was hungry and you gave me nothing to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me nothing to drink, 43 I was a stranger and you did not invite me in, I needed clothes and you did not clothe me, I was sick and in prison and you did not look after me.’
44 “They also will answer, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry or thirsty or a stranger or needing clothes or sick or in prison, and did not help you?’
45 “He will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not do for me.’
46 “Then they will go away to eternal punishment, but the righteous to eternal life.”
CREE
Dear God
Praise God for these days. Lord, last week was a very trying week. You showed me just how strong I am. Never knew I had that in me. It amazes me that in the midst of what I was going through, you REMINDED me of your word, and most importantly the words I said to you, when * things were good*. I had to remember those words and use them in my time. And I laugh, I laugh Lord because you make me laugh even through all that I went through. I am stronger than I thought I was, and by showing me that……. is all I needed to see.
The things that you tell me in advance, sometimes I feel like I can’t handle them, but I CAN, its just that I don’t like to see some of it come to past. But you know what Lord, truth is the truth and it will always stand. I Love you for looking out for me, and for the LOVE you show me.
You know my prayers, I have turned it all over to you, I am not thinking or worrying about anything, what ever is your WILL ……….. let it be done. I can doing other things, while you work behind the scenes for me.
Lord, just please show me how to handle the things you tell me in advance. Sometimes I don’t always know how to deal with it when it come to pass. I’m use to you telling me so much, but I don’t always handle the situation/issue/blessing the right way. Sometimes I blow up, sometimes, I’m quiet, sometimes I do even want to talk to the person anymore, and sometimes I handle it properly. For someone to have so much information ahead of time, you would think by now I would have them down pack, but I don’t.
For example today. You told me something and it came to past, and I kinda feel bad. Going to bed, feel like crying. I love you Lord, we’ll talk later.
Good Night
LaCrease
God is SERIOUS ( about forgiving)
Sisters~ Tyesha,Bianca
Hey,
I’m sitting here reading my Bible tonight, and came across a few interesting examples of how serious God is about forgiving others. This is one of the reasons why I love reading the stories in the bible because you get to see how God is and how he interacted with REAL PEOPLE from the Bible. The stories are REAL, and not only that, its written in words that WE ALL can understand. All you have to do is VISION it in your head, or do what I do, with each word I read, I “video tape it” and make up people to play the parts.
I want you all to read the Scriptures below and actually visualize it in your mind. God is VERY SERIOUS about forgiving others. Someone can do something so wrong in our minds, and that’s fine, BUT GOD MAKES IT CLEAR, that you can go to work, play with your family and pets, go out to dinner with your friends, make love to your husbands and wives, cook dinner, and enjoy all the good things in LIFE. BUT FORGIVING, is something God takes seriously. So read this and be VERY AFRAID if you have not forgiven someone. THIS IS NOT FOR YOU, if you can/will/and have NO problems doing so, but for others, READ AND TAKE THIS AS A WARNING.
The Parable of the Unmerciful Servant
21 Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, “Lord, how many times shall I forgive someone who sins against me? Up to seven times?” 22 Jesus answered, “I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times.[a]
23 “Therefore, the kingdom of heaven is like a king who wanted to settle accounts with his servants. 24 As he began the settlement, a man who owed him ten thousand bags of gold[b] was brought to him. 25 Since he was not able to pay, the master ordered that he and his wife and his children and all that he had be sold to repay the debt.
26 “The servant fell on his knees before him. ‘Be patient with me,’ he begged, ‘and I will pay back everything.’ 27 The servant’s master took pity on him, canceled the debt and let him go.
28 “But when that servant went out, he found one of his fellow servants who owed him a hundred silver coins.[c] He grabbed him and began to choke him. ‘Pay back what you owe me!’ he demanded.
29 “His fellow servant fell to his knees and begged him, ‘Be patient with me, and I will pay you back.’
30 “But he refused. Instead, he went off and had the man thrown into prison until he could pay the debt. 31 When the other servants saw what had happened, they were greatly distressed and went and told their master everything that had happened.
32 “Then the master called the servant in. ‘You wicked servant,’ he said, ‘I canceled all that debt of yours because you begged me to. 33 Shouldn’t you have had mercy on your fellow servant just as I had on you?’ 34 In anger his master handed him over to the jailers to be tortured, until he should pay back all he owed.
35 “This is how my heavenly Father will treat each of you unless you forgive a brother or sister from your heart.”
Matthew 18:21-35
This Scripture is saying……DONT WORRY ABOUT IT , I got you BOO, you dont have to pay me anything. I understand that you don’t have it, I’ll have mercy on you and cancel your debt. You, and your family go home, its taken care of.
Then that same man , go out, see someone who OWES HIM money, and demand he pay it. So the other guy finds out and says…. Ummmm excuse me… but how are you gonna snatch homeboy up cause he owe you money, but you were the same one BEGGING ME to give you more time? How bout I snatch you up, TORTURE YOU, ANDDDD send you to JAIL JUST LIKE YOU SENT HIM!!! Now how bout that!
God talks with LaCrease
Lord Thank you for another day. Lately I’ve had a lot of time to reflect on my life since May of last year with the things that made me “Seek first the Kingdom of God”. You told me to do one thing…… and that’s watch what I say. I didn’t understand what you meant, because my intent is to never hurt anyone’s feelings. But that wasn’t what you were trying to tell me. And for the last few months, you have really shown me what you meant. It’s so deep, and just to think that sometimes I talk so much * not bad* that I never knew that people take my words to heart, to be truth, to the ends. And if my words are not clear, it can go south and that would be the end.For the past month or so, I have been going to work being quiet, just doing my work and leaving the building. My boss came up to me and she said, ‘ I know you don’t like such and such, but I have good news, she will be such and such such and such. I looked at her and GOD SAID DONT SAY ONE WORD…. and I’m saying to myself God let me defend myself, BECAUSE I DIDNT SAY THAT!!! He said, be quiet and listen. After she told me “the big news” she told me NOT to tell anyone * she knows that I wont*, I said okay and she walked away. I stood there doing my work, saying to myself, I DIDNT TELL HER THAT!! Then God said, LaCrease you may not have said you didn’t like her, but in a conversation you come off strong, and since you didn’t make yourself clear, its out there, that you don’t like/care for this person. Oh, that killed me to let her leave me and she believed that I said that. God said to me La’Crease your words have power, and when people talk to you, they listen, you have to be careful of your words, your facial expression, and your body language. Can you imagine how hard that is for me?
Lately, I’ve been wanting to post my comments on certain things, and I hear God loud and clear, DO NOT RESPOND TO THAT POST!!!! Oh it gets me. I don’t respond either. Same with Facebook. I have been knowing these 2 sisters for over 25 years, and they aren’t talking to each other, I posted something on my board about forgiveness, and one sister responded, and then the other, then the first one responded after hers, then the mother comes and respond. They set my post OFF!!! The sister is mad at the mother and her 4 sisters. I DID NOT KNOW THAT. So the one sister THINKS that I knew this and posted on the topic * I haven’t talked to her since Christmas*, and so she decides to set off my page, thinking I KNEW that SHE wasn’t talking to her WHOLE FAMILY. SMH.Then the sister I’m close to, sends me a private message saying that God used me to post that message, because she knew that I didn’t know this was going on, and that she glad it was posted because she knew God lead me. I feel bad for what’s going on in their family, but I came to the conclusion that I won’t let the fact that I am FRIENDS with people, stop me from posting what’s in my heart, and what God leads me to post. Again, I wanted to post and say something to the one sister, but GOD SAID NO!
Sometimes, when I’m expressing myself, things come out that are true but at the same time, I feel that I share too much. And you know how people gossip and can’t wait to tell something? Well, that’s not me, I tell to much of what’s good. That’s what God is telling me. I get excited and start talking, and these last few months God has really muffled my mouth, and when I’m quiet I get to see the whole conversation without me adding anything to it. And I like that. 
A few weeks ago, my coworker was telling me about someone she knew who was gunned down, and the more she told the story I was saying to myself, this story sound familiar. When she got to the name of the person, I knew I had heard the story before. Just before I was about to say ” I knew him”, God said DONT SAY A WORD!!! I listened to that whole conversation without saying a word of how I knew this person, or anything. And God is not trying to keep me from communicating , I KNOW THIS, he is trying to get me to understand that its okay to not comment on everything, to NOT feel obligated to do so, to sometimes JUST LISTEN, to be able to let a conversation pass my ears and not have anything to say about it. Because ( MY) LACREASE words has power. I am a person with Integrity and Character and people seem to remember everyyyyyyyyyyything that I say. And a lot of what I say is misunderstood, and if I don’t know that it’s NOT CLEAR TO THAT PERSON, then I wont know to “fix it” I don’t have time to go back and correct all my conversations.
One day this lady bought some CD’s and when she got to her car, she couldn’t find them. So she came back into the store and accused me of giving them to the person who was behind her, because she can’t find them in her bags. I told the lady to go back out to the car and look one more time, she went off on me, saying she wasn’t going to do that, and that she knew that it wasn’t in there. So my manager comes over and tries to calm the lady down, this makes her even madder and at this point she’s going off on me. I’m getting pissed because I know those CD’s were in her bag because I walked around and put them in her cart. Then the store manager tries to calm her down, and at this point I’m really on fire. They tell her to go back and look in the car while they review the tape, make a long story short, the lady never returned. She FOUND THE CD’S. I’m upset, but I have customers so I have to be the Leader that I am, and take care of my business, I wasn’t that moved by her.
Later on that day I post on my FB, Thank God for the armor and prayer this morning for work, because this lady went off on me so bad. Didn’t I get to work the next morning, and the person who handled the case yesterday comes up to me and says: LaCrease that lady must have really bothered you yesterday, I read your post. I looked at her and GOD SAID DONT SAY A WORD…. I wanted to say, you missed the whole point of the post. The point of the post was that I PRAYED FIRST, I PUT ON THE ARMOR OF GOD.That prayer slowed down my anger. She was so focused on what happened that she missed that. But I did say, just because I smile everyday doesn’t mean things don’t bother me. I said I have bad days too, can I please have this 1% of complaint? I said now I would be wrong, If I complained to you the 99% of stories telling of how people get on my nerves. I said let me have my 1%! Whew……….
Then I go through the issue of knowing something and not saying anything about it. LOL A few days ago a friend was telling me something, and I knew about it, but I didn’t say anything I just listened, well just so happened the person who told me came and joined in, LOL and while I’m sitting there quiet, the person who told me said. Cree I shared this story with you……… and the person who was telling me said WHY DIDNT YOU TELL ME YOU KNEW? LOL I said because it was your story. LOL Had I said……. Oh such and such already shared it with me, then you probably would be looking crazy. Like how you know? LOL
So, yes this is where God has me at this time in my life. And you know God knows what’s best for me, he’s teaching me something, and the funny part is, ITS DAILY. Everyday I have to be quiet about something. LOL A person like me who is big on communication, this really shuts me DOWN!!!
In closing of this blog entry…… I will post this Scripture.
1 Peter 3:3-4 ESV / 12 helpful votes
Do not let your adorning be external—the braiding of hair and the putting on of gold jewelry, or the clothing you wear— but let your adorning be the hidden person of the heart with the imperishable beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which in God’s sight is very precious.
Cree
~new level~
“I’m not trying to win the approval of people,
The Apostle Paul was a Misfit who wrote in Galatians 1:10, “I’m not trying to win the approval of people, but of God. If pleasing people were my goal, I would not be Christ’s servant.”
I’m sitting here thinking about how people are. They are just so funny ( not in a good way).
There are so many people who need Ministering too. There use to be a time when I would listen to the same old stories from the same ole people. Always want me to help analyze their situation. I’m not doing that anymore. I get emails DAILY, from people who ask me questions to help them in their personal lives. They really need to vent, and talk things out. Some need me to pray for them. I LOVE doing that. This is who I am.
I’m not “shooting the breeze” with anyone of you who have been knowing me for 10 years or more, unless you really need me. I refuse to let anyone in my square who wants to waste my time talking ABOUT NOTHING!!! That wears me out!!! You will never use my couch again HOMEBOY……….sorry. As soon as your relationships are over, here you come, so what do you want me to say and do? I don’t care if you bought 19 brand new Corvettes, and 1 pink monkey. I will NEVER open my door to see them, and stop blowing my phone up cause I’m not going to answer. Get “yo self” together and leave La’Crease alone. I’ve been listening to that same old story off and on, since the 12 years I met you in. UGHH…. You have used your time up with me, your therapy sessions are over!!! There are people who need my attention, and they will surely NOT get it, if you’re in my presence. I’m done!! It’s a wrap…. can’t do it, won’t do it. See ya on Judgement Day!!!
Yes, I’m going hard! GURL…..Stop talking about who did what to you in the past, is that the only way you know how to move forward? Is that your motivation for the good you do? You must enjoy being a victim. It must feel good, it helps you in some kinda way, if so that’s fine, but when you keep on putting it out in the atmosphere it looks a mess. Shut up with that!!! So, I guess that’s the lining of your conversations huh? Okay…… soon and soon enough…. you too will be DELETED! You think you’re slick… haha its gonna kill you when you won’t know anything I do. If, I don’t know how to do anything else in this world, I know how to get rid of people who mean me NOTHING but evil thoughts, and in trouble with God. Start counting boo, cause your days are numbered as well!!!
Everyday, I see why I have to “ride solo”. I see why people have done things to me that is UNACCEPTABLE, and that was God’s way of removing them from my life. I see why, I see why, I see why. God is picking people up outta my life and removing them. Here I was sitting here wondering “why are you taking my friends away God? I SEE WHY… GOOD BYE!! TOO needy, TOO time-consuming, TOO Drama Queenish. SEE ALL YALL!! I’m about to go hard in Ministry, and I’m not stopping to put on NO BAND-AIDS, betta have one in your “backpack”. I’m not baby sitting EGOS any longer.
Inside the mind of cree 
