Last night before I went to bed, I said Lord let me have some good dreams all week. I dreamt last night that this guy came up to my job, looking nice all of a sudden he picked me up and I felt so good so sexy. I didn’t even know this dude, but it felt so good. I wonder what made him do that in my dream? What was it about me that made him feel that it was alright? LOL
I love a man that wears Cologne. I wear Sparkling White Diamonds, Red Door, 212 by Carolina Herrera, Unforgivable Woman by Sean John, Palsma Picasso, Lollipop Bling by Mariah, and my favorite Celine Dion. I have so many perfumes…. they make me happy. Those are my favorites tho.
Ok my mind is wondering. I don’t like to celebrity blog, but I have to on this subject. Oprah Winfrey has the best behind the scenes crew that anyone could have. I sat up and watched 4 behind the scenes shows in a row and was MADD because there wasn’t anymore available to watch at that time. LOL Her team carry the same spirit as she does. They LOVE her, and I see their desire to please her, which tells me that she is very GOOD to them, because they don’t want to let her down. I just love their work relationship they have with her, and she goes on air and make their behind the scenes job seem soooooooo easy.She asks her guest the right questions, makes me wanna leap in the TV and kiss on her the lips. Because I like to ask questions and it seems as if we have the same ones on my mind. LOL Oprah is so real, and so down to earth that you can sit up and have a conversation with her and forget she is the richest woman in the world. She is very transparent and sooo giving!!! She enjoys the excitement and the appreciation of her guest when she blesses them with gifts. That’s her pay off. And I just love her for that. Her behind the scene shows are just as good as the regular ones. LOL
Then I got to thinking….. I have always been a Leader, but I also enjoy working behind the scenes. I’m not the kinda person who has to be seen or heard, I’m the kinda person who like to “make things happen”. I enjoy the part in the show where they had to call up the guest publicist and talk to them about coming on the show, making arrangements and taking care of the guest as they arrive. I’m good with people so getting them on the show would be a challenge to me ( in a good way). I would love that. Her crew wasn’t divas, or had to be made up all the time, they had one thing in mind, and that was to please Oprah and to make things happen. I love that. They all were getting along, and helping each other out whenever it was their time to produce a show. That’s the kinda job that would make me stay all night just to get things done just because I know she would appreciate it. I love how her friend Gayle was with her on several projects. They both are so funny. LOL I hate that she’s leaving the show, but I also know how important it is to move on.
A year ago this time, I was planning to go to Atlanta. I finally set a date as to when I leave Detroit and move to Atlanta. What was I waiting for? Every time I set a date for , it tells me how serious I am about it. With that said, I’m serious.
Today is April 2, 2011. Thank you Lord for the divine connection I have with a few friends. Totally Spiritually. Hand picked friends. What a wonderful feeling Lord. Thank you. It feels good to be me right now. (((((((hugs))))))).
The pressures of this world can effect you like a little yeast in a batch of dough. I’m going to post on this until I cant do it any longer. People we’ve got to smile more, give more and love more. I know and understand that we all have problems, and go through different issues, but we cannot wear it on our faces. and carry it in our Spirits. Smile or frown, it cant transfer to others. Lets be conscience of what we put out, people are watching, kids are learning. Raisingurls here I come.
I think I’m going to ramble because my mind is all over the place. LOL
I love using “words of endearment” to my customers and especially kids. When I greet a child and say ” hey pretty face” it really lights there faces up. I remember as a child, feeling down for whatever reason, and when I hear an adult say to me, ” hello pretty gurl” or “hello sweety”, that would make me feel so good inside. I always said that when I grow up, I would make others feel the same way. And I love it. I believe that eye contact and the tone of your voice is very important when dealing with people daily. As a person in customer service, its very important to me to make sure that I make a person feel as great as possible. Some wont appreciate it, but most will. So, today I Thank God for the soothing tone of my voice and my ability to communicate in a way that makes me memorable. Thank you Lord, because at one time…..it would never be so. But you changed my whole way of looking at people, and life and I Thank you.
May 1, 2011 Raisingurls To Women starts back up. Oh, my goodness, I have be working hard on my projects for them, picking and choosing topics that we will be discussing. This year, IF THE LORD SAY THE SAME…. I want to have only 6-8 gurls. I can reach them better with less. I have had over 30 gurls in my group at one time ,and it was too much for me. WE had a hotel party and we had to rent 3 rooms, which I say, we could have used a few more. LOL I’m excited because last year I didn’t hold meetings from traveling and doing other things. My goal is to take them to Disney World. I’ve been twice, and Neisha’s been 3 times. Most of my gurls have never left the city, and I want them to adapt the mentality to be able to travel and do other things besides roller skate, and sit on the porch.Many teens feel limited and so they become bored and that’s where the idle time comes into play and before you know it, they are forced into a life that’s not God’s plan at all. I feel that I have a lot to offer the gurls and I look forward to getting started.
I’m on my way to bed, gotta work in the am, just wanted to stop by and show my face. Hahaha Take care.
Thank you Lord for keeping my life drama free. Thank you for allowing me to listen first then to speak. Thank you for being that voice inside my head that tells me to be quiet. Just Thank you.
Today as I was in the break room ( the small personal one, that room is freezing). I was listening to my IPod and had the hood of my coat over my head (which means I don’t want to be bothered), I dunno why, but its something about me that always make people want to ask me questions about MYSELF. It bothers me sometimes, because I’m more of a listener than a person who will sit up and tell you I just got a “brand new house”. I’m just not like that. And so this black lady who has been there probably when the store opened, thought that since I was the only one in there with her, she could ask me questions ( she always wanted to ask,) about one of the 2 best friends I have. My friend Gloria use to work there, and she is just like me, YOU THINK you knew her, but you really didn’t because she is private about her home life. No this lady didn’t try to ask me a thousand questions about her. It bothered me because, she know on 10 stacks of scriptures she wouldn’t dare ask Gloria ANYTHING about her. Gloria ( photo below) dont play! LOL
LOL So, why then did she ask me? Because I’m friendly. …I’m guessing. I tried to get her to back down before the Virgo came out, I tried to pretend I didn’t hear the question due to my head sets being on, I tried to block her out and go around the questions…………then I said, gurl how are you gonna ask me questions about MY friend? I said I’m not going to sit up here and tell you her BUSINESS. I said the next time you see her, ask her! Her facial expression change, she said said Cree I wasn’t trying to get into your friends business, she said that about 12 times. She kept apologizing . I can’t stand when people do that. Quit thinking I’m so open and quick to tell somebody’ business, just because I’m kind and nice. That’s just like asking Gayle about Oprah…….. you know dangole well Gayle aint gonna tell you anything about her BFF. And I don’t blame her!!!! And the bad part about that, even if Gayle say to someone, Oprah ate some bad ribs and her face broke out for 4 days, SOMEBODY WOULD CONSIDER THAT A GOOD ARTICLE/NEWS/CONVERSATION/STORY. When its nothing like that. It was just something that she decided to share, somebody GOT GEEKED and cant stop talking about it. So, that’s why less is best, and my circle is so small, as a matter of fact the only people who are in it are those people who have been knowing me for 17 years and better. A few weeks ago, one of my coworkers came up to me and said “um…. I saw you driving a 2011 Malibu” OKAY AND……. SO WHAT!!!! People think you are suppose to run up to them and tell them all that’s going on with you. STOP THINKING YOU KNOW ME, SINCE IM FRIENDLY!!!!!! CAUSE YOU DONT!!!!!!!!! I had it since Feb 14, SO WHAT!!!!! WHOOOOO SAHHHHH LACREASE WHOOOOOO SAHHHHHHHHHHH.
Then I look and feel like the bad guy, when I bust a “side eye look” on my face for them to back up off me and my business.
See this is what happened. I use to be very mean, and ignant ( lol). I never remember having self esteem issues, only that my behind was very big, sat on my back and a small waist to hold it. Back then that was NOT good, these days you’re the bomb. SMH. Anyway, I was promiscuous, drank ( got drunk with my gurls all the time),use to party 3-5 times a week. Didn’t date anyone but police officers, teachers, business owners, and city officials. * I know that was crazy…..but those were my standards* , wasn’t going to church, wasn’t good with money, evil, revengeful, secretive, JUST A WREAK!!! One day, GOD stripped me down!!! Told me that I had to put a end to my foolishness!!!! Long story short, I stopped being evil and revengeful….and all of thee above. And decided that I wanted to be nice, I wanted to smile and be kind to people. Show myself friendly, and open up more to people. I started making my circle small, and traveled more. Women always kept up a lot of drama, I never did. I CANT EVEN REMEBER A FIGHT I HAD. Never had drama in the neighborhood I grew up in, I was always the loud fun one, who always had a kind thing to say and encouraging word.
I noticed tho, as I began to open up more, people took my kindness for weakness. I was always one up on them tho ( by acting like I didn’t know more than I put on)and with that I would let people who meant me no good HANG THEMSELVES, without even having to ask ” did I do something to offend you”, they always and to this day know……….. that our friendship has reached its end.I came to a point where I needed to share more of myself so that others would be healed of their hurts. I would hold Sistergurl Meetings at my house where we would get together and talk about our lives experiences. That’s where I learned to be transparent. Somewhere in between there, I got “SECERTS AND TRANSPARENT” mixed up.
So, in that I learned that no matter how friendly I am, and no matter how much I love people, I had to go back to my old ways and not share everything. I’m sorry about this too, because what really is a blessing to know, people look at it as HUGE, and what they use with the information can come back a mess. Even with others, I have seen it a million times. I love and enjoying sharing things with others, but I must be this way in this area. I have too.
I learned from God, that I am set apart. Where I’m going everybody cant go. Lord, where is that? LOL I ask him all the time, I dunno but…… I am going some where. And I’m ready.
Where do I start? What a year for me. If I didn’t have Jesus in my life, I wouldn’t know where all this was coming from.
This morning I got up for work for my shift 11:30-6:30. Well, let me go back a few days ago. My Sisters God mother funeral was today. I wanted to go to support my Sister and plus we know many of their family members. A few days ago I approached several people to take my hours so that I can attend the funeral. I caught up with this new gurl, and she agreed. In order to pick up hours you cant be scheduled to work on that same day. After we both signed and agreed to the date, we gave it to the manager. Well, the very next day that same manager came up to me and said, when I was changing the date for you, I realized that the person you had to take your hours is scheduled to work. I thought I was going to pass out. LOL. She made a mistake and read the schedule wrong. I had 3 hours to find someone to take my place…..I didn’t.
Even though I could have called off, I just didn’t want those points on my record. Here it is Monday morning, my momma is saying everybody is going to be asking about you, and I wish you were going with me, I wish you could have gotten somebody to take your place. You know how mommas do. I’m feeling bad about NOT being able to go, so I just get ready for work and suck it up. Came time to leave, my momma’s car was parked behind mines so she had to let me out. I went to stick the key in the ignition and I’m like heyyyyy, where is the key to this car? I sat for a minute thinking where could my key be, this is crazy. Then I remember my brother n law was testing it and I took it off my keys. This was Saturday, I haven’t driven it over the weekend, so I went looking for it on the kitchen table. I didn’t see it. Now, I’m watching the clock because I don’t want to be late, I searched high and low for that key and still couldn’t find it. I called my brother n law and he said that he had given it back to me. I got off the phone and still couldn’t find it. My mother told me that I could take her car and she would ride with my sister in her truck, but then it would be on my mind all day at work. So, I was like naw, I gotta find this key. I wont be any good at work thinking about it. Just then my sister pulled up to pick up my mom and here I was still searching for these car keys.
Just then out of the blue I decided to check my work bag and there it was in my plastic see through . I was out done, I kinda remember putting it there, but not really. By this time I was on the phone with my job, no answer. So, I hung up the phone. My momma and sister was looking at me saying “come on and go to the funeral with us, you’re already late, plus your boss already expected you to not make it”. I said naw….. yall go ahead Imma go in late, and get this day over with. They left.
Tell me this aint God~ I went to my bed room opened up my closet and saw my outfit that I was going to wear and started pulling off my work clothes. Nesha was looking at me soooooooooooo crazy, like I had lost my mind all of a sudden. She just heard me say, I was going to work, watch them drive off and here I was putting on the clothes that I was suppose to wear for the funeral. I couldn’t explain why I was putting on these clothes, and something in me wouldn’t stop. I never had that to happen to me before. I cant even explain what went through me. I was moving in top speed. It happened all of a sudden. I told Neisha…. “call my momma and tell them to come back and get me”. She did what I asked her and they were back in 2 minutes. They were so happy!! LOL They asked what happened? I said I think it was meant for me to go, my car keys, me needing to be there, and I gotta feeling that God is going to reveal something to me in going.
My other sister ( who god mother passed) was already there and so happy to see me. People were coming up to me saying ” I thought you wasn’t coming”. Which tells me they had been asking my sister about me. I’m so glad that I went. Afterwards me my mom and sister went to Applebees to eat. I let them do all the talking at times, because I kept thinking about how God must have wanted me to go in the first place, when I was on my way to work. I had a strong feeling why he wanted me there, then at dinner my sister went into details why she think God wanted her there, and it was the very same thing HE TOLD ME. That was confirmation!
I came home, feeling so “different” and so I laid down for a nap, woke up so full of God’s Love, feeling so changed, feeling so good. I had this dream that I was sitting at the table with my brother Bobby, and he was asking me in his “bobby kinda way”….. Why do we have to pay tithes? In my dream I started “going hard in the paint” on him about, it was deep in the streets how I was explaining. Just then ALL OF A SUDDEN I woke up and was like “God why you wake me up I wasn’t finish telling him? He said now go write it down.
I love God. Thank you for waking me up this afternoon from a nap so full of LOVE AND JOY.
I know its been a minute. Its hard being consistent when you want/try to do so many things. My mind is all over the place sometimes whew!!! LOL
Lately I’ve been reading this book by my gurl Joyce Meyer called How to HEAR FROM GOD~ and its the bomb. I bought it a long time ago, its one of those books where you can pick it up and read it 1000 times, because she explains things so clearly and she is straight to the point about it. I’ll get to that tomorrow. Today I want to talk about “Handing the keys over to God”.
I LOVE to drive.
I always had a FEAR of driving and so finally at age 32 I got my license. One day, I’m going to buy myself a fast car, because I have a need every now and then for SPEED. Whenever I go to dinner with friends or family, I’m always the first to say….. I’m driving my own car, or yall can ride with me. It could be one of those functions where, we all want to ride together, talk, and laugh, I will always volunteer to drive. Instead of driving to the mall that’s 3 minutes away, I will drive to the one that’s 45 minutes away. When I went to Atlanta in June I drove from 10 am to 1 am in the morning. When I rent a hotel room to get away for a weekend, I wont go to the ones downtown Detroit, I will ride out to the one that’s almost an hour away. That’s how deep my LOVE for driving is.
So recently I asked myself…… Why do you always want to drive when sometimes its not necessary? Why instead of driving their car, you always chose to drive in your own car? I can no longer say its just because….. I LOVE to drive. My real reason because I LOVE to be in CONTROL.
I’m not bossy when it comes to the time we’re leaving a function, or when we’re coming back. I enjoy driving period. If someone has someplace to go afterwards, I will take them. I have no problem going anywhere. It could be 4 of us in the car, everybody can fall asleep , I don’t care, I just enjoy driving.
Part of me feel that if I’m driving, I don’t have to worry about getting us in a car accident. To ride on the passenger side would be for me to “allow someone else to get me to my destination”. Which would mean I would have to sit there. I’m not at all saying that they can’t drive….. I’m not saying that at all. I trust myself. If I drive, I wont have to ask questions, I don’t have to worry about what route I’m taking, how long were staying, when were coming home..Cause I would know. Wow Deep Huh? I realize this is the REAL reason why I LOVE to drive versus sitting on the passenger side “doing nothing” and waiting to arrive at my destination.
Now, I realize why its so hard to “hand over the keys to God” with certain things in my life. I like to drive and that’s the reason why I feel sometimes I’m not moving as fast. I have the keys and don’t want to turn them over to the REAL DRIVER……. GOD. I have been selfish with the keys , and now I feel the time IS NOW to hand them over, so that I can sit back and relax ON THE PASSENGER side, without asking questions, without wonder when we’re going to arrive, without asking how many hours, or days, or mintues. Wow, this is real deep to me as I type.
Now, I’m secretly asking….God do I trust you? YES, I trust him! I’m sure not showing it in my certain situation. I feel bad because he’s the one who has gotten me through some hard, hard, hard times, but Im finding that Im holding the keys and is afraid of turning them over. Not because he won’t do all the things he has told me that he’s gonna do, ( oh, thats a done deal) but its because I DONT KNOW WHEN? That’s the part that’s “killing me” ( a figure of speech). If I give up the keys, I know God is NOT going to answer my 100,000 questions about my arrival date to this. I spend a lot of time with him and I KNOW FOR A FACT, he’s not moved by my many questions. LOL I know with God, I have to just sit back and “LET HIM DRIVE”. I know he’s not going to answer my questions on this subject……because this is the area that he’s working on me . Quietness is what he wants ( concerning my destination), while I patiently sit on the passenger side. Can you imagine how hard this is to a person who always want to control things, and always want to drive the life, that I didn’t give to myself? I don’t know if he’s taking the streets to my destiny and desires, or the highway, the service drive, the turn pike, the neighborhoods, or the airways. But I do know this , God will be doing MY driving.
I’m a visual person, I have to see myself actually doing what I vision. Tonight I saw myself handing over the keys to the Lord . Finally! I’m going to sit back and enjoy the scenery , talk and laugh with him ALL the way to my destiny,and desires. I even noticed…..that I don’t have to wear a seat beat. 🙂 I’m with God!!
“Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He shall give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass … Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently for Him.” (Psalm 37:4,7)
I know its been a minute since I’ve written. I’m 43 years old and I’m still tryna figure out this thing called LIFE. LOL
This past Saturday 2/26, me and my cousin Gus planned for all the cousins to get together and go out to dinner. We never, ever, ever, ever get a chance to see or talk to each other. But since FB, we all have really drawn close. So we all met at Applebees for dinner, it was 34 of us! Praise God!!!! I sat at a table of 10 with my sisters and other cousins, all of a sudden my sister and cousin started talking about how I use to do them back in the day ( lol), how I wouldn’t want to be bothered with them, and when they came over my house, I wouldn’t answer my door for them and they knew I was there. I remember that time so clear. They had just left for a minute, and I made up in my mind that when they come I wouldn’t open the door. These 2 heffas TOOK THE DOOR off the hinges and came in. LOL They were thinking something had happened in that short time, I didn’t feel like being bothered ( don’t know why at the time). They were MADDDDDD AT ME! LOL Thing is, I feel so bad for treating them like that, and whenever we get together, they always bring it up. OOOOOOO that burns me up. LOL They have plenty of stories on me, I was a MEAN, HONERY SOMETHING, SOMETHING back in the day. Matter of fact, a whole lot of my friends have stories on me, and I am so not like that now, that I hate to hear those old stories. They seem eager to tell ALL that THEY REMEMBER. Now, I do have some funny ones with my friend Gloria, but those were less than 10 years ago. My sister and my cousin stories go wayyyyy back. I wish I knew how to deal with it, more so than “look crazy” in the face when its bought up. I’m really laid back now that I’m in my 40’s, I just don’t wanna hear that mess LOL. I noticed though, people LOVE to bring back old memories, especially if it will make you cringe, while they look like “good fellas”. They say your past will stare you in the face. Boy, I tell you. LOL
Since, I can remember I am the one who will/can plan, movie outings, game night, restaurant day, house gatherings, pool night, you name it. I’m not creative at all. I cant match a pair of pants with a shirt, LOL but Imma bad sister when it comes to details of the gathering, day, keeping in touch with people through emails, phone and in person. I will gather a strong person to help me and then I carry out whatever it is to be done. I write down everything I need and expect from people involved, I am VERY serious about details. But I have one problem…. there is always someone CLOSE to you who seem to always want to change YOUR plans on YOUR EVENT. Now don’t get me wrong, I don’t mind when someone says…… well what about this, and what about that? That’s fine, but don’t GET THE HELL MADD CAUSE IM NOT DOING IT YOUR WAY!!! That’s why I’m the visionary. If you want to put together a function, then do it. Ill be there, I will help you, I wont confuse you with how LaCrease would do it. Everybody want to be the “plant manager” on your function but they expect for you to “have a seat” when your at their function. And that’s one thing about me, I know how to take a back seat. I LOVE to be invited to a function and all I have to do is show up, SIT MY CHUBBY BUTT DOWN and get my laugh on!! LOL You aint said nothing but a word boo. I don’t want to manage nothing I’m invited too. I wanna sit, sip and chill! * blank state*…..(then smile.)
I’m about to get real serious right now. I had a lot on my mind when I was doing to Valentines Day Care Packages for the homeless, and I really wasn’t doing all that I know I could do. So, I put the money aside and said Lord, okay help me to buy the things that’s on the list. Finally, I went and bought enough spaghetti strings and meat for 30 ppl to have nice size plates. When it came time to cook it my family and friends were saying that 1 1/2 HUGE packs of meat was enough. But I kept saying…. naw I don’t think so. Am I really over doing it? They agreed. But came time to serve, we ran out of food and had to make the rest of the hamburger. I wasn’t mad or anything at all, its just that I asked God to help me with the specifics of HOW MUCH TO BUY AND MAKE, cause he KNOWS I hate to NOT have enough. Then turn around listen to others and have to end up making more. That kinda bothered me because I know God told me to make them both, and so my good friend Gloria grabbed the spatula and started making the rest of the spaghetti for me while I rest (((hugs)))). I learned to follow the Lord on my plans. Im not listening to anyone anymore about how I go about my functions. They are successful because the vision is clear, and when I start to listen to others and allow others to change the plans, then I get frustrated. That ended Valentines Day.
This past Saturday we were out at our family function things were moving smooth. Family was coming in the door, we had room for 32 ppl, 2 sat at the bar. Then out of the blue walking in the door this person close to me, comes to me saying, since we all cant sit together we can go to my house. I said gurl naw, we are here and this is where we will stay……… tension was in the air. Who cared!! I didn’t. Flash back to Valentines Day…… I’m straight. This is my view, okay its 18 ppl here now, so we just up and leave, go to your house and say FORGET the other 16 people who are on the way in a MICHIGAN SNOW STORM……. In the words of Sheree from* Atlanta’s Housewife*…. I don’t thank so.
So right now in my life, I’m learning to stick with the vision. If others want to plan a function that’s cool, DO YOUR OWN THANG, but as for me, I’m doing things my way. Now, me and my cousin are about to plan a huge gathering at my Sisters home April 16. 2011. Her basement alone can hold 1 million ppl seem like. LOL And it has a fire place, so you know its huge!!! Gotta decide on a few things, then we are planning a family picnic for the summer. But first, MY GURLS GROUP RAISINGURLS TO WOMEN starts May 1, 2011. I’m so excited about that. My babies, some new, some old will all meet up again. Gotta go straight in teacher mode for this one. We have lots of work to do. So right now, my hands are tied, I don’t even see myself slowing down. God is teaching me a lot of things about people, and how things work. Its scary aint gonna lie, so many different emotions. Somebody gotta do it…….. God chose me.
Cree’s Valentines Day Care packages for the Homeless was awesome!!! We had a ball going out to the streets of downtown Detroit in search for those who are homeless.
When I started Cree’s Feeding the Homeless for Thanksgiving, I was very nervous about asking people for help, because what I wanted to do was kinda
unheard of. I had a vision to prepare the food in my own home, and then go out to the streets to FIND people who were homeless. That’s why I believe that when you establish good credit with people when doing something like this, people WILL invest time and money into you. They’re going to first think mentality about the person you are. They will examine that, and then, they will decide if they want to be apart of your vision. Gloria and I were talking yesterday about how important our mothers said that our credit would be, but being young at the time we felt it was foolish to think about credit. They were right, and not only financially, it could be your attendance at work, your history of anger, your history of good friendships, being on time when people come to pick you up, they pay attention to the time length when you borrow money from them. People really do look at that in deciding to be apart of anything that you do. And I say that to say…..how is your credit with people? Think about it.
I’m so grateful to know that so many people believe in my vision. I’ve had several people from Twitter who have never in their lives met me, take a chance and decided to donate just because they believed that I would carry the vision out and do exactly what I say I would do. I believe that what I display in my Tweets, and the LOVE I have for God, is why he laid it on their hearts to be apart of this mission. So, I send a special Thank you to my Twitter gurls ~Selena from NYC, Calandra ( from Chicago), and my #1 twin Sister Sherry (from Michigan).
This year was different than last year. Last year we didn’t serve food, but what we found out was, they were hungry. While they were happy to receive what We had last year, it was very clear that they wanted to eat. And so with knowing that, we heard the call and delivered!!!! We made a HUGE POT OF SPAGHETTI. We passed out nice size plates topped off with Sara Lee dinner rolls, Entenmann’s donuts, Faygo pops, Aquafina and Dasani bottles of water.They had gloves, hats, toothpaste, lotions, deodorant, face cloths, and toothbrush holders. Also we were able to buy 4 jackets, and one pink coat. They were so happy, and so Thankful.
The sad part about the mission was, after we had passed out care packages and everyone went their own ways to eat, we saw people eating the dinners from the alleys in the cold. They even looked happy and content. We drove around, and gave this one guy another plate. We saw people eating anywhere they can just for peace. What bought tears to my eyes was, this guy found a spot on a building steps and ate his dinner. Its so hard to see people who have no where to go, I DONT CARE HOW THEY GOT INTO THEIR SITUATION, I just know that they deserve to be treated with respect, and to be treated as a HUMAN BEING. I’m a cashier for a HUGE COMPANY, and I see daily so many ungrateful people, coming in with their money flashing all over the place making claim to whatever it is they want to buy. And not with LOVE, but with an attitude and ignorant BOLDNESS. None of this “stuff” we CLAIM is ours, it belongs to God. One day, and one day soon God is going to take from the Rich and give to the Poor. I don’t know about those who are reading this entry, but I know many folks including myself, who maybe 5-6 paychecks away from homeless. Yes, we may have family members who will take us in, but YES, that would mean that WE TOO are HOMELESS. Anytime you don’t have your own PLACE TO SLEEP…….that’s a form of HOMELESSNESS. With all of that said, its our duty to help others. No matter if you’re sitting in the break room at lunch and you clearly HEAR someone say, they don’t have any money to eat with, it is our JOBS ……YES, OUR…. JOBS to reach into our pockets and purses and make sure we do all we can to make sure that person eats. And if you’re a person with ” Good Credit”, and you dont have any money on you at the time, then you should be able to go to those people you have established a good bond with and get $5.00 for that person to eat with. That’s the purpose of establishing “good credit” no matter what area of your life that its in. You NEVER know when your child is in school and without something, you NEVER know. Do what’s right to others, and no matter who you are, God will make sure that your love ones are taken care of, ESPECIALLY if you can’t get to them in time.
My car broke down Saturday RIGHT AFTER WORK, so I called Gloria and told her, and she said no problem ” we can go in my car”. That next day I was telling another friend Margarette, and she said that since she have a truck ……she’ll drive. The very day of the mission, another friend came over after work unexpectedly with a truck as well, she TRAILED ALONE and helped. See how God take care of us? He knows our hearts and he knows what we need and he always come through RIGHT ON TIME. I notice and look at all of that, and I can NEVER say Thank you Jesus enough. Thank you Lord, Thank you!
I want to say Thank you for all of those who helped out, and to those who wanted to help. THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH AND GOD BLESS YOU ALL!
PLEASE READ THE SCRIPTURE BELOW……VERY POWERFUL
The Sheep and the Goats ~ MATTHEW 25: 31-46
31 “When the Son of Man comes in his glory, and all the angels with him, he will sit on his glorious throne. 32 All the nations will be gathered before him, and he will separate the people one from another as a shepherd separates the sheep from the goats. 33 He will put the sheep on his right and the goats on his left. 34 “Then the King will say to those on his right, ‘Come, you who are blessed by my Father; take your inheritance, the kingdom prepared for you since the creation of the world. 35 For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, 36 I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.’
37 “Then the righteous will answer him, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? 38 When did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or needing clothes and clothe you? 39 When did we see you sick or in prison and go to visit you?’
40 “The King will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me.’
41 “Then he will say to those on his left, ‘Depart from me, you who are cursed, into the eternal fire prepared for the devil and his angels. 42 For I was hungry and you gave me nothing to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me nothing to drink, 43 I was a stranger and you did not invite me in, I needed clothes and you did not clothe me, I was sick and in prison and you did not look after me.’
44 “They also will answer, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry or thirsty or a stranger or needing clothes or sick or in prison, and did not help you?’
45 “He will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not do for me.’
46 “Then they will go away to eternal punishment, but the righteous to eternal life.”
Lord, last week was a very trying week. You showed me just how strong I am. Never knew I had that in me. It amazes me that in the midst of what I was going through, you REMINDED me of your word, and most importantly the words I said to you, when * things were good*. I had to remember those words and use them in my time. And I laugh, I laugh Lord because you make me laugh even through all that I went through. I am stronger than I thought I was, and by showing me that……. is all I needed to see.
The things that you tell me in advance, sometimes I feel like I can’t handle them, but I CAN, its just that I don’t like to see some of it come to past. But you know what Lord, truth is the truth and it will always stand. I Love you for looking out for me, and for the LOVE you show me.
You know my prayers, I have turned it all over to you, I am not thinking or worrying about anything, what ever is your WILL ……….. let it be done. I can doing other things, while you work behind the scenes for me.
Lord, just please show me how to handle the things you tell me in advance. Sometimes I don’t always know how to deal with it when it come to pass. I’m use to you telling me so much, but I don’t always handle the situation/issue/blessing the right way. Sometimes I blow up, sometimes, I’m quiet, sometimes I do even want to talk to the person anymore, and sometimes I handle it properly. For someone to have so much information ahead of time, you would think by now I would have them down pack, but I don’t.
For example today. You told me something and it came to past, and I kinda feel bad. Going to bed, feel like crying. I love you Lord, we’ll talk later.
Wow, where do I start? First Thank you Lord for showing me so much Love, not only to me, but my family. I see everything that you’ve done, we all see it and we Thank you so very much.
Thank you for the laughs and smiles, and mostly the questions you answer for me. I’m starting to understand that I’m a right now person, I want to know things now, when they’re going to happen, how things will happen, who are involved, where, when, what time, what day, but you Lord, by reading the Bible daily, I see so clear that you do things when you get good and ready, and your time is NOT LA’CREASE’S TIME. LOL. I have to laugh at myself because you will not be moved by my 1000 questions of when and why LOL…..and I Love that about you. This teaches me to be patient and in doing so, I’m learning a lot about myself. So Thank you Lord.
I gotta write about these 3 middle aged white ladies, who came through my line yesterday. When they first walked up, I felt in my Spirit that they were something else. When you invite God to live inside of you, you carry him with you where ever you go. If I come in contact with some bad spirits God inside me will do these “flips”. I can feel him , and then I see why. I know that these people are in the area because I get a bad feeling.
So me, being Cree, smiled and said “Hello”. They all spoke with dryness.The one lady asked me did she have to take her case of water out of the cart “because it was too heavy”. I smiled and said “No ma’am” I got you, even if I have to come around. See, when people with spirits like them, I have to make sure that I’M EXTRA NICE, because when I know that I have done all I can, to make these 2-3 minutes with them as pleasant as possible, then I know its not me. So the other lady with her ‘smart mouth’ gon say… well yea, I guess you could come around the scanner IS wireless. I looked up at her, gave her the eye as if to say, STRIKE ONE. After I scanned the water, the lady had 25-30~ 2 liter Mountain Dews and Pepsi’s. Instead of her putting the bottles on the counter so that I can scan them, she chose to just tell me how many of each flavor she had. Which was cool, because a lot of the customers do that. Okay, but after I scanned them all, the customer look to me as if to say……I need these in bags. And my look at her is……okay if you want them in a bag, stop being lazy and set them on the belt instead of calling off how many you have. So when the lady realized that she may need bags, after I mentioned it, she grabbed some bags to pack later. She paid and stood there waiting for the other 2 ladies.
I’m ringing up the elder of them both. Very nice lady too, she was very old but you can tell that she needed help with her transaction. After I rung her up, they decided that they would let her exchange the money with me, I guess so that she could do her own thing. Some ladies who are older still like to do things. Well, as I was giving her the change, the one lady LOOKS AT ME REAL FUNNY and says….. ‘make sure you count your change mom”. I looked at her, and all I could say is “Jesus”….and I walked away ( I didn’t have any more customers at the register, whch gave me private time to take and spit that mess out). Both of the ladies ( not the elderly) were so ignorant, and it was so obvious that they didn’t care. After I said Jesus, and walked away from my register to “regroup”. The one lady said excuse me ma’am, excuse me. I didn’t hear her, but my coworker called my name and I turned around. I noticed that the lady wanted me. I walked towards her and started smiling again because, I want to be out of the clear of “having an attitude”, I made sure she saw all of my teeth. I walked up to her and said yes ma’am…. she said did I offend you when I told my mother to count her change? I looked at her as if to say…..”you know the hell you did”. But I wanted to see where she was coming from and said “No why did you say that”? She said “Oh I just thought that you were offended because I told my mom ( the lady was 1000 years old) to count her change. She know dongone well, her momma wasn’t in her right mind to count her $1.21 change. I said oh no, I’m good, you didn’t offend me. She wanted to say because when I was walking away you called out “Jesus” name. And I felt that I was being rude, and it was for me. I wanted to say “ma’am its not even about the money, or the wireless scanner, OR THE POPS NEEDING BAGS”, its about you and your sister’s WHOLE DEMEANOR”. It’s clear that they both were prejudice.
My thing is this, if you felt you were being rude ( she was) then you must do this all the time. This is not new to you, but she felt convicted in her heart, when she heard the name of JESUS!!! Now I would have been wrong if I told her that the God in me did FLIPS AND CARTWHEELS WHEN THEY ALL WALKED UP!!! But that would have been going to far ( and I do sometimes). SMH …these people crazy!!!
People and their mess dont phase me anymore. I have a good life, family, good friends, its hard to shake me as where you could years ago. Im not moved by their unhappyness. I’m good, if people want to act a fool, thats cool with me. I DO HAVE A CLOWN SUIT, but I chose not to WEAR IT especially dealing with people who are only in my life for a few mintues. This year, Im trying to change the way I think and look at things, there will be challenges, thats cool too. Im going to always walk away smiling because I feel good!! And on that note, my Sister is about to pull up, and then we are going to swing by our other Sister house to get her. We are going out to dinner……. MY TREAT!! Let me go before she blow my cellphone up!!
Last night before I went to bed, I said Lord let me have some good dreams all week. I dreamt last night that this guy came up to my job, looking nice all of a sudden he picked me up and I felt so good so sexy. I didn’t even know this dude, but it felt so good. I wonder what made him do that in my dream? What was it about me that made him feel that it was alright? LOL
Inside the mind of cree 
